{"id":13108,"date":"2013-06-03T12:06:24","date_gmt":"2013-06-03T12:06:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/?p=13108"},"modified":"2013-06-03T12:06:24","modified_gmt":"2013-06-03T12:06:24","slug":"mihai-radulescu-rugaciunea-invinge-frica","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/2013\/06\/03\/mihai-radulescu-rugaciunea-invinge-frica\/","title":{"rendered":"Mihai R\u0103dulescu: “Rug\u0103ciunea \u00eenvinge frica”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>“Ast\u0103zi nu ar fi pentru prima oar\u0103 c\u00e2nd prezent\u0103m cazul unui credincios care \u015fi-a pierdut credin\u0163a \u00een cuptorul ars de fl\u0103c\u0103rile atrocit\u0103\u0163ilor suferite \u00een temni\u0163ele comuniste. Dar \u00eentr-o emisiune intitulat\u0103: \u201cCred, Doamne, ajut\u0103 necredin\u0163ei mele\u201d, nu despre pierderea credin\u0163ei mi-am propus s\u0103 vorbesc ci, dimpotriv\u0103, despre rec\u00e2\u015ftigarea ei, datorat\u0103 dulcei Chem\u0103ri a lui Dumnezeu, adresat\u0103 sufletului \u00eenm\u0103rmurit de groaz\u0103, c\u0103tre El, pacea \u015fi odihna noastr\u0103, \u00eent\u0103ritorul \u015fi \u00eendrept\u0103torul r\u0103t\u0103cirii noastre.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acesta este \u015fi cazul unui copil, la timpul c\u00e2nd se petreceau lucrurile cumplite ce le relateaz\u0103 \u00een memoriile sale intitulate: \u201cDUMNEZEUL MEU, DE CE M-AI P\u0102R\u0102SIT?\u201d, publicate de mine \u00een editura RAMIDA. Numele s\u0103u este: Justin Paven.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dar acest copil t\u00e2rzielnic, de dou\u0103zeci \u015fi pu\u0163ini ani, pe vremea suferin\u0163elor sale \u00een gherl\u0103, \u00een \u2018reeduc\u0103ri\u2019, izbuti cur\u00e2nd s\u0103-\u015fi redob\u00e2ndeasc\u0103 \u00eencrederea \u00een Dumnezeu, credin\u0163a, datorit\u0103, faptului c\u0103 n-a r\u0103mas surd la Chemarea F\u0103c\u0103torului nostru, rostit\u0103 pentru el, prin mijlocirea exemplului dat de un frate de suferin\u0163\u0103. \u015fi at\u00e2t de mare i-a crescut credin\u0163a rec\u00e2\u015ftigat\u0103 \u00eenc\u00e2t studie teologia, p\u0103r\u0103sindu-\u015fi vechile aspira\u0163ii intelectuale \u015fi se c\u0103lug\u0103ri.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cMomentul culminant al acestui Calvar\u201d, se spovede\u015fte Justin Paven, referindu-se la \u2018reeduc\u0103rile\u2019 ale c\u0103ror victim\u0103 era, \u201cl-a constituit \u00eens\u0103 pedepsirea bietului Ni\u0163\u0103 Cornel, \u00een seara zilei de 28 februarie 1950.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cSe f\u0103cuse num\u0103rul de sear\u0103 \u015fi, dup\u0103 \u00eenchidere, \u0162urcanu \u015fi-a mobilizat iar\u0103\u015fi echipa pentru opera\u0163iuni. Avea de smuls ni\u015fte declara\u0163ii de la t\u00e2n\u0103rul b\u0103c\u0103uan care nu se l\u0103sase convins p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci s\u0103 spun\u0103 tot ce \u015ftia sau ce b\u0103nuia \u0162urcanu c\u0103 \u015ftia.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cDup\u0103 c\u00e2teva \u00eentreb\u0103ri, \u00eenso\u0163ite de amenin\u0163\u0103rile de rigoare, v\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u0103 r\u0103spunsul era nesatisf\u0103c\u0103tor, \u0162urcanu a asmu\u0163it haita contra lui. Repezindu-i c\u00e2\u0163iva pumni, l-a v\u00e2r\u00e2t \u00eentr-un cerc format din 6-7 tor\u0163ionari care l-au luat \u00een primire cu pumnii \u015fi picioarele, zv\u00e2rlindu-l de la unul la altul ca pe o minge, p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd a c\u0103zut jos, ame\u0163it. L-au udat cu ap\u0103, s\u0103 se trezeasc\u0103, \u015fi i-au dat un mic r\u0103gaz ca s\u0103 se hot\u0103reasc\u0103 s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cTrebuia s\u0103 spun\u0103 ce \u015ftia despre omor\u00e2rea unui soldat sovietic prin p\u0103r\u0163ile lui \u015fi dac\u0103 luase \u015fi el parte la acea crim\u0103 politic\u0103. Probabil c\u0103 existau ceva informa\u0163ii \u00een leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu amestecul lui Cornel \u00een acea afacere \u015fi \u0162urcanu voia s\u0103 smulg\u0103 de la el confirmarea, dar bietul b\u0103iat fie c\u0103 nu \u015ftia, fie c\u0103 \u00eei era fric\u0103 s\u0103 declare, rezista cu d\u00e2rzenie s\u0103 afirme ceva \u015fi nu zicea dec\u00e2t: \u201cnu \u015ftiu nimic!\u2019.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cV\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u0103 nu voia s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103, au \u00eenceput s\u0103-l bat\u0103 la t\u0103lpi, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-l descal\u0163e. Loviturile primite prin \u00eenc\u0103l\u0163\u0103minte sunt mult mai violente, pentru c\u0103 durerile se localizeaz\u0103 \u00een special la cap; apoi l-au pus s\u0103 fac\u0103 manej, lovindu-l din nou cu pumnii, p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd a c\u0103zut iar\u0103\u015fi \u00een nesim\u0163ire.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u0162urcanu turba de furie v\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u0103 nu putea scoate de la el nici un cuv\u00e2nt. Nu mai \u00eent\u00e2lnise p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci at\u00e2ta putere de rezisten\u0163\u0103 la nici unul dintre tortura\u0163i, iar acum un copil de 19-20 ani primea loviturile cele mai cr\u00e2ncene, doar cu un u\u015for geam\u0103t de durere.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cNoi, care asistam la scena aceasta de groaz\u0103, ce dura de vreo dou\u0103 ore, eram cu sufletele crispate, ne\u015ftiind p\u00e2n\u0103 unde putea merge oribila maltratare a unui om.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cDar bestialitatea c\u0103l\u0103ilor a \u00eentrecut orice imagina\u0163ie \u00een supliciul aplicat s\u0103rmanului copil.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cDup\u0103 ce l-au l\u0103sat pu\u0163in s\u0103-\u015fi mai revin\u0103, \u00een care timp \u0162urcanu se plimba furios \u015fi se g\u00e2ndea la o nou\u0103 metod\u0103 de schingiuire, \u00eel auzim c\u0103 d\u0103 ordin s\u0103 i se lege m\u00e2inile la spate \u015fi-i face semn lui Vasile Pu\u015fca\u015fu, namila care avea cea mai mare for\u0163\u0103 dintre ei, s\u0103-l ridice \u00een sus.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cUrc\u00e2ndu-se \u00een picioare pe marginea priciului, Pu\u015fca\u015fu \u00eel prinse de m\u00e2inile legate \u015fi r\u0103sucindu-i-le, \u00eel suspend\u0103 \u00een aer, \u00eentr-o pozi\u0163ie care sugera imaginea crucific\u0103rii.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cBietul copil, cu capul complet v\u00e2r\u00e2t \u00een piept, a mai avut puterea s\u0103 scoat\u0103 un strig\u0103t sf\u00e2\u015fietor \u00een momentul c\u00e2nd i s-au luxat bra\u0163ele, apoi f\u0103cea eforturi disperate s\u0103 trag\u0103 aer \u00een piept.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u00cen jurul lui, vreo patru sau cinci tor\u0163ionari \u00eel loveau cu ciomegele, cu un sadism \u00eengrozitor, peste cap, peste picioare, \u00eentr-o infernal\u0103 poft\u0103 de distrugere a vie\u0163ii.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cDup\u0103 c\u00e2teva zeci de lovituri, dintre care unele cu v\u00e2rful ciomagului \u00een stomac \u015fi \u00een piept, i-au dat drumul s\u0103 cad\u0103 de la \u00een\u0103l\u0163ime.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cS-a pr\u0103bu\u015fit inert, cu fa\u0163a la p\u0103m\u00e2nt, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 se mai poat\u0103 mi\u015fca din loc. I-au dezlegat m\u00e2inile ce se b\u0103l\u0103b\u0103neau pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 corp, cu articula\u0163iile complet zdrobite, \u015fi dup\u0103 ce i-au mai v\u0103rsat o can\u0103 cu ap\u0103 peste cap, l-au t\u00e2r\u00e2t pe un pat de fier, \u00een mijlocul camerei.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cAbia mai r\u0103sufla. Dup\u0103 un timp a \u00eenceput s\u0103 delireze. Probabil f\u0103cuse o hemoragie intern\u0103. Vorbea f\u0103r\u0103 \u015fir \u015fi ciom\u0103garii din jurul lui f\u0103ceau haz, b\u0103t\u00e2ndu-\u015fi joc de cuvintele f\u0103r\u0103 \u00een\u0163eles ce le scotea \u00een ne\u015ftire.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u0162urcanu comenta \u00eencruntat cu ciracii lui despre \u00eend\u0103r\u0103tnicia \u201cbanditului\u201d \u015fi se b\u0103tea cu pumnul \u00een piept c\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103 o s\u0103-l fac\u0103 s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103:<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u2013 \u201cAm eu ac de cojocul lui, tic\u0103losu\u2019!… Crede c\u0103 se joac\u0103 el cu mine?!… O s\u0103 vad\u0103 el care-i mai tare!…\u201d<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cFierbea de ciud\u0103 c\u0103 \u201cEL, \u0162URCANU\u201d a putut fi astfel \u00eenfruntat!<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cSunase stingerea demult \u015fi ne b\u0103gasem cu to\u0163ii sub p\u0103turi, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 se poat\u0103 apropia somnul de vreunul.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cPlantonul care r\u0103m\u0103sese de veghe avea sarcina s\u0103-i dea unele \u00eengrijiri lui Cornel peste noapte.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cN-a mai fost \u00eens\u0103 nevoie, pentru c\u0103, pu\u0163in timp dup\u0103 aceea, a intrat \u00een com\u0103.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cV\u0103dit alarmat \u015fi ne\u015ftiind cum s\u0103 procedeze, plantonul \u015fi-a luat inima-n din\u0163i \u015fi l-a trezit pe \u0162urcanu, care s-a sculat \u015fi a pus pe Gherman \u015fi pe Nuti P\u0103tr\u0103\u015fcanu, care fuseser\u0103 studen\u0163i la Medicin\u0103, s\u0103-i fac\u0103 respira\u0163ie artificial\u0103, fapt care, probabil, i-a gr\u0103bit sf\u00e2r\u015fitul.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cEu \u00eemi tr\u0103sesem p\u0103tura peste cap, f\u0103c\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 c\u0103 dormeam, dar m\u0103 uitam \u00eengrozit pe sub ea, urm\u0103rind scena aceasta groaznic\u0103: un om cu trupul zdrobit de b\u0103taie, cu bra\u0163ele complet luxate, muribund, este maltratat p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een ultima clip\u0103 a vie\u0163ii cu aceste mi\u015fc\u0103ri de respira\u0163ie care ap\u0103reau acum at\u00e2t de grote\u015fti.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cC\u00e2nd \u015fi-au dat seama c\u0103 murise, au \u00eenceput s\u0103 intre \u00een panic\u0103.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cSe \u00eenv\u00e2rteau speria\u0163i pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 el Gherman, Ro\u015fca, Pu\u015fca\u015fu, c\u0103ut\u00e2nd s\u0103 \u015ftearg\u0103 urmele de violen\u0163\u0103, sp\u0103l\u00e2ndu-i s\u00e2ngele de pe corp \u015fi de pe picioare, dar v\u00e2n\u0103t\u0103ile care ap\u0103reau acum mai proeminente nu se l\u0103sau deloc ascunse.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cDoar \u0162urcanu r\u0103m\u0103sese \u00een aparen\u0163\u0103 calm \u015fi \u00eendrept\u00e2ndu-se c\u0103tre u\u015f\u0103 a b\u0103tut, s\u0103-l anun\u0163e pe mili\u0163ian.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cMi-au r\u0103mas \u00eentip\u0103rite \u00een suflet cuvintele pline de cinism cu care a vestit moartea s\u0103rmanei victime:<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u2013 \u201cDomnu\u2019 \u015fef, anun\u0163ati doctoru\u2019 c\u0103 a \u00eencetat s\u0103 bat\u0103 inima unui \u2018bandit\u2019!…\u201d<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cA venit felcerul \u015fi dup\u0103 ce i-a verificat pulsul, l-au pus pe o brancard\u0103, sco\u0163\u00e2ndu-l din camer\u0103. Au trecut pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 patul meu de l\u00e2ng\u0103 u\u015f\u0103, unde st\u0103team chircit de groaz\u0103, cu p\u0103tura \u00een cap, ca s\u0103 nu fiu descoperit c\u0103 am asistat la aceast\u0103 scen\u0103 care ar fi umplut de oroare \u015fi cele mai tari inimi.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe deasupra m\u0103sur\u0103, Justin Paven, care suferea el \u00eensu\u015fi rigorile torturilor, mai fu martor la \u00eenc\u0103 un deces datorat chinurilor.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u00cempreun\u0103 cu noi fusese adus \u015fi Bogdanovici, care abia se mai \u0163inea pe picioare. Era \u00eentr-o stare de sl\u0103biciune jalnic\u0103, de nedescris. Avea aspectul unui ca\u015fectic\u201d [ca\u015fexia este o stare de istovire general\u0103 a organismului cauzat\u0103 de boli cronice; n.n.], \u201cdar nu at\u00e2t din lipsa de m\u00e2ncare, c\u00e2t mai ales din tratamentul de violen\u0163e la care fusese supus. Acum \u0162urcanu \u00eel l\u0103sase \u00een pace, dar nenorocitul nu s-a mai putut redresa.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u00centr-o zi n-a mai fost \u00een stare s\u0103 se ridice \u00een capul oaselor \u015fi a fost nevoie s\u0103 fie hr\u0103nit de al\u0163ii. \u00cemi amintesc cu c\u00e2t\u0103 aten\u0163ie caritabil\u0103 se ocupa de el Georgic\u0103 Georgescu, d\u00e2ndu-i toate \u00eengrijirile pe care condi\u0163ia claustr\u0103rii noastre le \u00eeng\u0103duia, dar n-a mai rezistat mult.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cSt\u0103tea \u00eentins pe prici, cu ochii aproape imobili, privind undeva, dincolo de tavan, \u015fi nu scotea un cuv\u00e2nt. \u00cen tot timpul c\u00e2t am stat cu el, nu l-am auzit rostind dec\u00e2t c\u00e2teva cuvinte. Se putea citi pe fa\u0163a lui o amar\u0103 descurajare care cred c\u0103 a contribuit \u00een mare m\u0103sur\u0103 la gr\u0103birea sf\u00e2r\u015fitului s\u0103u.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cPoate c\u0103, totu\u015fi, \u00een t\u0103cerea aceasta prelungit\u0103, Dumnezeu a putut s\u0103-i trezeasc\u0103, dintr-un s\u00e2mbure de credin\u0163\u0103 primit la botez, un act de p\u0103rere de r\u0103u pentru via\u0163a sa de p\u0103cat \u015fi \u00eencheiat\u0103 at\u00e2t de tragic\u201d [Bogdanovici a fost acela care a inaugurat cuplitele reeduc\u0103ri, c\u0103z\u00e2ndu-le apoi prad\u0103 el \u00eensu\u015fi; n.n.].<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cA expiat \u00eentr-o diminea\u0163\u0103, duc\u00e2nd cu el taina unei f\u0103r\u0103delegi pe care a isp\u0103\u015fit-o prin moarte pe Crucea \u00eenchisorii, dup\u0103 ce a primit acela\u015fi tratament de respira\u0163ie artificial\u0103 ordonat de \u0162urcanu, \u00een momentul c\u00e2nd intrase \u00een com\u0103.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cA fost primul om din via\u0163a mea pe care l-am v\u0103zut de aproape d\u00e2ndu-\u015fi sufletul \u015fi al patrulea mort din seria cu care am intrat la \u2018reeducare\u2019.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cDup\u0103 scoaterea lui din camer\u0103, \u00een t\u0103cerea ap\u0103s\u0103toare care se l\u0103sase, \u0162urcanu a \u0163inut s\u0103-i fac\u0103 un scurt panegiric:<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u2013 \u201cA\u015fa vor pieri to\u0163i oportuni\u015ftii care \u00ee\u015fi \u00eenchipuie c\u0103 pot \u00een\u015fela bun\u0103voin\u0163a regimului!…\u201d<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu este de mirare c\u0103 \u00een atari traume, credin\u0163a studentului regalist Justin Paven se cl\u0103tin\u0103, p\u00e2n\u0103 aproape de ultima-i p\u00e2lp\u00e2ire. Renun\u0163\u0103 la rug\u0103ciune. Una dintre pricini fu c\u0103 victimele reeduc\u0103rilor ajunseser\u0103 at\u00e2t de subjugate de b\u0103t\u0103u\u015fii lor \u00eenc\u00e2t aveau sentimentul c\u0103 orice g\u00e2nd le era citit de reeduca\u0163i \u015fi c\u0103 urmau a fi pedepsi\u0163i pentru fiorul abia sim\u0163it al unei cl\u0103tin\u0103ri a min\u0163ii sau afective.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cDevenisem t\u0103cut, moroc\u0103nos, st\u0103team toat\u0103 ziua pe prici, cu fa\u0163a \u00een sus, privind \u00een tavan \u015fi f\u0103c\u00e2nd din cr\u0103p\u0103turile tencuielii jocuri aiuristice ale imagina\u0163iei. M\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam la anii care-i mai aveam de petrecut \u00een \u00eenchisoare, \u00een condi\u0163iile acestea, \u015fi m\u0103 cutremuram.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cDe\u015fi p\u00e2n\u0103 acum nu p\u0103r\u0103sisem scurta rug\u0103ciune de sear\u0103 care m\u0103 \u00eenso\u0163ise toat\u0103 via\u0163a, din copil\u0103rie, acum \u00eencepuse s\u0103-mi fie fric\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 rog, ca nu cumva s\u0103 m\u0103 simt\u0103 careva \u015fi s\u0103 m\u0103 toarne c\u0103 n-am \u2018terminat-o cu misticismul\u2019.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c\u00centr-o sear\u0103, \u00eens\u0103, l-am sim\u0163it pe colegul meu de prici, Lungu Mircea, l\u00e2ng\u0103 care dormeam, c\u0103-\u015fi f\u0103cea cruce \u015fi se ruga sub p\u0103tur\u0103. I-am str\u00e2ns m\u00e2na \u00eentr-un gest de fr\u0103\u0163ietate tainic\u0103 \u015fi de atunci am prins curaj \u015fi am re\u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 rog cu mai mult\u0103 st\u0103ruin\u0163\u0103, sim\u0163ind cum se l\u0103sa \u00een suflet acea lini\u015fte pe care \u0163i-o d\u0103 \u00eencrederea c\u0103 nu e\u015fti singur \u00een acest chinuitor purgatoriu \u015fi c\u0103 Cel c\u0103ruia I te adresezi va trebui s\u0103 r\u0103spund\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi cu eliberarea din cazne.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u2018Priza\u2019 cu Dumnezeu, realizat\u0103 prin descifrarea Chem\u0103rii Sale, asistarea la rug\u0103ciunea colegului, ce avu rolul de a de\u015ftepta glasul con\u015ftiin\u0163ei memorialistului, \u00eel reazv\u00e2rli \u00een valurile urc\u0103toare ale aspira\u0163iei spre Divinitate. De la aceast\u0103 clip\u0103 \u015fi p\u00e2n\u0103 la c\u0103lug\u0103rirea sa, saltul fu extrem de mic, deoarece Chemarea era \u00eenc\u0103rcat\u0103 cu energia necesar\u0103 istovirii tr\u0103irilor precedente. Chem\u00e2ndu-l, Dumnezeu \u00eei acorda \u015fi puterea de a se \u00eenvinge pe viitor \u015fi de a-I r\u0103m\u00e2ne al\u0103turi tot restul vie\u0163ii.”<\/p>\n

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MIHAI R\u0102DULESCU<\/strong><\/p>\n

( frag. din Chemarea lui Dumnezeu \u00een temni\u0163ele comuniste. Vol.I, Editura AGAPIS, BUCURE\u015eTI, 2002. Edi\u0163ia a doua revizuit\u0103<\/em> )<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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