{"id":24379,"date":"2015-07-06T18:20:39","date_gmt":"2015-07-06T18:20:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/?p=24379"},"modified":"2015-07-06T18:20:39","modified_gmt":"2015-07-06T18:20:39","slug":"george-anca-proba-de-viteza","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/2015\/07\/06\/george-anca-proba-de-viteza\/","title":{"rendered":"George Anca: Proba de vitez\u0103"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/07\/ANCA.G.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-24380\" title=\"ANCA.G\" src=\"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/07\/ANCA.G.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"179\" height=\"282\" \/><\/a>11. 04. 82. Delhi 10.42 p.m.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Peste o or\u0103 \u0219i ceva \u00eemplinesc 37 de ani \u0219i nimic nu se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103. Yoginder Bhargava mi-a trimis o felicitare. Fratele lui Yogindra Wadva mi-a adus o invita\u021bie la nunta unchiului lor, luni, o zi \u00eenainte de conferin\u021b\u0103 (mi-am schi\u021bat-o).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Traduc\u0103toarea <em>Miori\u021bei <\/em>nu se \u0219tie dac\u0103 va veni, afl\u00e2ndu-se \u00een stare de depresiune din dor de fiic\u0103 &#8211; \u00een examene &#8211; care la 12 ani nu \u0219tie c\u0103 ea \u00eei este mam\u0103. Pentru m\u00e2ine, so\u021bul ei, de care a fost separat\u0103 cinci ani, mi-a sugerat s\u0103 mergem \u00eempreun\u0103 la mama ei \u0219i s\u0103-i reamintim de <em>Miori\u021ba <\/em>de mar\u021bi. S\u0103 vedem. M-a pocnit o sete tropical\u0103 \u0219i am \u00eenghi\u021bit \u00een ne\u0219tire orice ap\u0103 \u0219i acum n\u0103du\u0219esc, iar dogorul nici n-a \u00eenceput.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cemi voi numi cartea de aici <em>Indian Ink<\/em>? Abia a\u0219tept s\u0103 fiu mai liber dup\u0103 14, s\u0103 avansez cu traducerile din mine \u00eensumi. <em>The Milky Way<\/em> nr. 3 va fi dedicat povestirilor dictate de Nana. Num\u0103rul urm\u0103tor&#8230; s\u0103 mai tr\u0103im p\u00e2n\u0103 la iarn\u0103. Proiectele nu m\u0103 mai \u00eenfl\u0103c\u0103reaz\u0103. Nevoiesc r\u0103coare.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Mi-am redactat conferin\u021ba \u00een englez\u0103. Nu \u0219tiu ce idei con\u021bine \u00een rom\u00e2ne\u0219te, ceva calcuri. Tot \u021bigara beedi e libertate. Domiciliu liber-for\u021bat. Cea\u0219ca poate goal\u0103. Ganesh l\u00e2ng\u0103 cineraria. Kinograful \u00eengro\u0219at de exerci\u021biile Nanei, cedat mie dup\u0103 ce am izbit peni\u021ba stiloului de zid, ner\u0103bd\u0103tor s\u0103-i deschid u\u0219a. Brejnev la Bonn. Congresul sindicatelor rom\u00e2ne.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nivelul de trai cel mai redus din Europa R\u0103s\u0103ritean\u0103. Povestea cu societatea rom\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een literatur\u0103 putea s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eemboln\u0103veasc\u0103. Mi-e at\u00e2t de limpede c\u0103 literatura se resimte de o cumplit\u0103 strangulare. Ceea ce mi-a tot fost sf\u00e2nt pare a se \u00eendep\u0103rta. Mi-e s\u0103rac\u0103 engleza, dar poate devin \u00een zece ani un stilist, cum nu m\u0103 \u0219tiusem \u00een rom\u00e2n\u0103, presat de con\u0219tiin\u021b\u0103 \u0219i nu de inspira\u021bii \u0219i impulsuri panteiste, de care m-am \u00eenverdnicit \u00eentr-una, neb\u0103gat \u00een seam\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">12.04. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Viki postea de 6 ori 7 zile. Saradrul era plin de admira\u021bie pentru el. Spaltul adus de ei ar\u0103ta la fel cum i-l d\u0103dusem lui Anil, c\u00e2nd, deliberat, renun\u021basem la corecturi, at\u00e2t spre a nu ob\u021bine alte gre\u0219eli, c\u00e2t \u0219i dintr-o neglijen\u021b\u0103 confuz\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la modernitate \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103toare. A\u0219a c\u0103, dup\u0103 ceai \u0219i ur\u0103ri \u00een rom\u00e2ne\u0219te, i-am trimis de unde veniser\u0103, invit\u00e2ndu-i, cu jum\u0103tate de gur\u0103, mar\u021bi, la conferin\u021ba mea.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Cur\u00e2nd, a venit Naviug, cu dulciuri, obicei bengalez, \u00een ocazia anivers\u0103rii mele. I-am spus c\u0103 o s\u0103-i dau o lec\u021bie de lupt\u0103, dar tocmai atunci intraser\u0103 Lidia, Martin \u0219i Marek. Naviug tot voise s\u0103-i cunoasc\u0103, era acum cazul. Eu m\u0103 jucam cu Martin, care privise cu aten\u021bie expozi\u021bia Nanei, ar\u0103t\u00e2nd ce-i pl\u0103cea. Ne plimbasem \u0219i r\u00e2sesem, ne b\u0103tusem, ne luptasem, ne ascunsesem, ne fug\u0103risem, teutoni ori wadna jesko.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Marek m\u0103 l\u0103udase \u00een fa\u021ba unor editori de art\u0103 \u0219i poezie (dar Naviug r\u0103m\u0103sese la Macmilan, Oxford, Heinemann). \u00cei p\u0103ruse c\u0103 eu am tr\u0103it ca un filosof c\u00e2nd r\u0103m\u0103sesem, pe vremuri, singur \u00een India.. Spune c\u0103 Nana va fi mai \u00eenalt\u0103 ca mama ei, ca mine \u2013 \u0219i el e cel mai \u00eenalt din neamul lui.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">S-a dus ziua mea de na\u0219tere. Columbire \u00een cer. Ram-Ram. C\u0103ldura se insinueaz\u0103 \u00een noapte. Sus e temperatura mormintelor. Tenta\u021bia depresiunii se preg\u0103te\u0219te de la na\u0219tere. Via\u021ba se superficializeaz\u0103 de azi pe m\u00e2ine \u2013 sufletul \u00eei simte bolovanul tot mai indispus, totu\u0219i cu s\u00e2c. Urm\u0103 preced\u00e2nd talpa ce \u0219i-o va asuma. Plictisul Parisului dezbucure\u0219tenizat, al Delhi-ului cu noi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Pe cine s\u0103 lase rece \u2013 au fost deja 40 de grade \u2013 Besaki, anul nou, de \u00eenceput al religiei sikhite \u0219i al seceri\u0219ului \u00een Punjab? Nansi se vede invitat\u0103 de vecine. Mirate la auzul vie\u021bii noastre, venirii \u0219i imposibilit\u0103\u021bii expedi\u021biei.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">parc\u0103 nu mai sunt nic\u0103ieri, nu mai am inim\u0103 \u00een st\u00e2nga, doar la suprafa\u021b\u0103 c\u00e2te-o cicatrice de speriat copiii<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00eencep fiece t\u0103cere alt\u0103dat\u0103 sunet ca \u0219i cum nu a\u0219 sf\u00e2r\u0219i-o m\u0103car m\u0103 am\u0103gesc de pl\u0103cere cu vreun \u00een\u021beles<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">13. 04. 81 D<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sunt ani de c\u00e2nd m-am r\u0103t\u0103cit \u00eentr-un ora\u0219 mic, G\u0103e\u0219ti \u2013 cum \u201egae\u201d e \u201evac\u0103\u201d \u00een hindi, m\u0103 v\u0103d printre V\u0103c\u0103re\u0219ti -, apoi \u00een Bucure\u0219ti \u0219i Roma \u2013 acolo, pornind de la arcuri de triumf. Diminea\u021b\u0103, plecasem \u00een Model Town s\u0103-l vizitez pe R. L. Shukla, \u00een leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu talk-ul meu de m\u00e2ine.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am str\u0103b\u0103tut p\u00e2n\u0103 acolo, podidit de c\u0103ldur\u0103. Nu luasem adresa, \u00eencercasem s\u0103 mi-o amintesc, dar memoria se tope\u0219te\u0219i ea, dup\u0103 cum, la frig, s-o fi fix\u00e2nd \u00een blocuri evocatoare. Labirint \u00een Model Town. Lumea se pusese \u00een mi\u0219care ca o miere arhaic\u0103. O gurdwara deschis\u0103, acum, de Anul Nou, \u00eentru euforia religioas\u0103 a sickhi\u021bilor.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cencepusem s\u0103 m\u0103 dezinteresez de orice adres\u0103. C\u00e2nd m-am pomenit \u00eentr-un largo. Ie\u0219ind prin alt\u0103 parte \u00een Mallroad, mi-am \u00eenchipuit c\u0103 sunt Basho sub un palmier \u0219i am pornit-o luminat spre cas\u0103, bucuros de a fi renun\u021bat, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd, prin Camp, s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg ce-mi spunea o b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103 care m\u0103 luase de m\u00e2n\u0103. Poate voi muri \u00een mi\u0219care, r\u0103t\u0103cit.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Prin r\u0103t\u0103cire, tr\u0103iesc \u00een perfect\u0103 necuno\u0219tin\u021b\u0103 de cauz\u0103. \u00censumi voi r\u0103m\u00e2ne acolo, nu se \u0219tie unde, m\u00e2nat de un demon ermetic, orb, c\u00e2nt\u00e2nd fals dar c\u00e2nt\u00e2nd. Porta Pia, reper al r\u0103t\u0103cirii romane. Spre Cernica \u00een Bucure\u0219ti, \u00een Model Town, \u00een vechiul Delhi. Albe aripi de colonii spre de\u0219ert.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">14. 04. 81 D<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Strange things auzite despre mine (A. S. M. ). Pe fundul paharului vie\u021bii lui Mitic\u0103 s-a str\u00e2ns \u00een strat gros nulitatea. O toarn\u0103 pe g\u00e2tul oricui banderol\u00e2nd-o \u00eentr-o grea\u021b\u0103 de propagand\u0103 nemairidicol\u0103,dar cu mult mai jenant\u0103 dec\u00e2t r\u00e2g\u00e2iala unor diete locale. El dubleaz\u0103 cu succes to\u021bi du\u0219manii culturii rom\u00e2ne.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">De diminea\u021b\u0103, ambigu\u0103 venirea vice-chancellor-ului la dept. de istorie. Marek \u00ee\u0219i umfla roata din spate a bicicletei cu o pomp\u0103 de \u00eemprumut. Edward are logodnic\u0103 rom\u00e2nc\u0103, \u0219tie pe Iorga pe de rost (din amor convertit?) Urc scara \u00eempreun\u0103 cu Sudesh. Sus, Nansi \u0219i Urmila, Nana pierdut\u0103 printre ele.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Pe drum Sudesh trepida a fi g\u0103sit pentru prima oar\u0103 din noiembrie 1978, c\u00e2nd cu ciclonul nostru comun, interpretat de el, public, a fi fost, prin urme de mare radioactivitate, efectul unui obiect zbur\u0103tor necunoscut, din alte spa\u021bii: \u00eentr-o c\u0103rticic\u0103, \u00een subiect, un capitol argumenta aceea\u0219i poveste prin m\u0103rturiile unui paznic de noapte din Pose\u0219ti, verificate de Universitatea din Bucure\u0219ti. Am continuat s\u0103 discut\u0103m radioactivitatea, despre ciclon, piesa mea <em>Good luck, Radha<\/em>, care verific\u0103 boala \u00eenver\u0219unat\u0103 pus\u0103 de dr. Roy pe seama reac\u021biei la sezonul cald.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am revenit pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt, la <em>Miori\u021ba<\/em>, la doamna lui Sudesh, care-\u0219i ferea psihopatic ochii din calea lui. I-am luat textul scris pe o coal\u0103 dubl\u0103 de caiet in quarto, amintind sudul tamil, dar \u0219i linii de geometrie devanagari. Comentariul \u00eencepea cu: <em>Miori\u021ba <\/em>is a famous Romanian ballad.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Iubirea \u0219i prietenia universal\u0103, grija de a nu descuraja b\u0103tr\u00e2na genera\u021bie, complotul uciga\u0219 \u2013 via <em>Mahabharata<\/em> totul \u00een lumea epopeilor neidentificate. Nansi m-a descurajat c\u0103 n-a\u0219 avea timp s\u0103 dactilografiez comentariul, neav\u00e2nd cine le \u021bine companie, nu am\u00e2ndorura deodat\u0103, dar fiec\u0103ruia pe r\u00e2nd, ea ner\u0103spunz\u00e2nd nici privirilor lui.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Seara am aflat c\u0103, de o decad\u0103, tot caut\u0103 s\u0103-i cear\u0103 iertare, sau s\u0103 o asigure c\u0103 \u00eei va aduce fiica odat\u0103 cu ea acas\u0103, dar st\u0103 a\u0219a r\u0103u cu socri \u0219i ce mam\u0103 va avea fata aia? Duminic\u0103 \u0219i acum a \u00eencercat \u00een zadar \u0219i se teme c\u0103 ar fi \u0219i altceva, anume c\u0103 ea ar fi evitat. Punct \u00een care l-am contrazis.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 exclud\u0103 acest interval de profesiune, care a declinat enorm de la primele episoade, fascinante, coincidente cu dec\u0103derea psihicului so\u021biei sale, amintindu-i c\u0103 numai r\u0103bdarea f\u0103r\u0103 alternativ\u0103 \u00eel aranjeaz\u0103 b\u0103rb\u0103te\u0219te, \u00een\u021belept. Acum el singur pentru cuplul lor, mai \u00eenainte impresion\u00e2ndu-ne prin balans, discre\u021bie, tradi\u021bionalism.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am insistat asupra specificului feminin, al propor\u021bionalit\u0103\u021bii refuzului cu avansurile seduc\u0103torului. Am crezut c\u0103 \u0219i pentru ei c\u0103ldura, la cotitura \u201eprim\u0103verii\u201d &#8211; 40 de grade \u2013 spre var\u0103 \u2013 e c\u0103ldur\u0103 mare, \u00een\u021belege\u021bi-i, argumentase \u0219i Alexandru, m\u0103g\u0103riile ambasadoriale fa\u021b\u0103 de munca mea g\u0103sit\u0103, se vedea, vitejeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nu-i ziceam destin, nimic, dar ceva de dedesubt ne apropia \u00een regretul amarnic de a fi v\u0103zut o femeie neaccept\u00e2ndu-\u0219i so\u021bul \u00eentr-un autobuz public, pentru toat\u0103 lumea. \u00cei amintisem \u2013 pornindu-se \u00een fluxul Mallroad-ului, l\u0103s\u00e2ndu-se n\u0103ruit\u0103 de o nebunie sf\u0103tuit\u0103, b\u00e2jb\u00e2ind \u00een iubirea universal\u0103, neexplic\u00e2ndu-se nim\u0103nui pe lume, nici sie\u0219i \u2013 ating\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 totu\u0219i, imaginar complice \u0219i incon\u0219tient familiar, pe coaps\u0103: oare \u00eencotro a dep\u0103\u0219it suicidul?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Parc\u0103 \u00eenainte de lunch-ul comun \u2013 Nansi preparase \u0219i unul vegetarian sut\u0103 la sut\u0103. \u00cen cel\u0103lalt, ateriz\u00e2nd din Columbia imaginar\u0103 buc\u0103\u021bele de carne de la masa lui John Young. Sudesh s-a retras, petrec\u00e2ndu-\u0219i mar\u021bea \u00een post.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">A ap\u0103rut Viky cu <em>Ek shanti<\/em>, pe care l-am expediat \u00eentr-un ascunzi\u0219, c\u0103ci cur\u00e2nd venise Pop. Pe Alexandru \u00eel l\u0103sase jos, de l-am invitat sus. \u0218i au plecat b\u0103ie\u021bii, spun\u00e2ndu-le c\u0103 Pop le va lua \u0219i pe ele \u00een timp util.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nansi mi-a spus seara c\u0103, \u00eenapoindu-se Sudesh, Urmila p\u0103r\u0103sise camera unde venise el \u0219i se dusese \u00een alta. Nevast\u0103-mea av\u00e2nd de umblat de la unul la altul. Cu el mai discut\u00e2nd OZN-uri. Cu ea, nimic.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">U\u0219a mare a Facult\u0103\u021bii artelor, \u00eencuiat\u0103. P\u0103trundem prin aripa dinspre Chatra Marg, Sala 23, \u00eencuiat\u0103. Shukla, \u00eentr-un fel de \u0219edin\u021b\u0103, se mir\u0103, amintindu-mi c\u0103 am de vorbit la trei. Afl\u0103 abia acum c\u0103 vice-chancellor-ul ar fi a\u0219teptat s\u0103 vin\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ne \u00eencurc\u0103m \u00eentre u\u0219i, c\u00e2nd afl\u0103m c\u0103 sala 23 e pentru englez\u0103, a\u0219a c\u0103 ne mut\u0103m calabal\u00e2cul \u00een amfiteatrul \u2013 plat \u2013 22, instal\u00e2nd tratatele Miclea-Florescu-Dumitriu (<em>Istoria logicii<\/em>, \u00een englez\u0103).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Cur\u00e2nd, Mitic\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i f\u0103cuse apari\u021bia. Ne-am str\u00e2ns m\u00e2inile. Oamenii lui au \u00eenceput s\u0103 aranjeze c\u0103r\u021bile. P\u00e2nza ecranului o b\u0103tuse Alexandru \u00een rama de sus a tablei (Mitic\u0103 \u00eei aruncase c\u0103 saboteaz\u0103, la el \u00een fabric\u0103). Se intereseaz\u0103 dac\u0103 Vi-Ch vine. Nu \u0219tiu, dar \u00eel chem pe Shukla. \u0102la, c\u00e2nd aude: c\u0103 vine acum.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Vecinul meu, botanistul D. C. Gupta, intr\u0103 radios. Mitic\u0103 se ridic\u0103 \u0219i-l salut\u0103 radios. &#8211; A, dl Shukla. &#8211; Nu, zic, \u0103sta e a\u0219a \u0219i a\u0219a, \u0103la vine. D-na \u0219i dl Sivaramaya \u00eemi creeaz\u0103 un sentiment de mul\u021bumire, \u00eei introduc. Studen\u021bi mai vin \u0219i ei, \u0219i Vinod \u2013 pe care m\u0103 prefac c\u0103 nu-l cunosc.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">P\u0103trunde Shukla. \u00cemi spusese afar\u0103 c\u0103 nu <em>Miori\u021ba \u2013 <\/em>e-n afara subiectului -, ci conferin\u021ba mea e \u00een program, aia r\u0103m\u00e2ne. \u00cen\u0103untru, dup\u0103 saluturi protocolare, ne a\u0219ez\u0103m am\u00e2ndoi la mas\u0103 \u0219i m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 cum s\u0103 fie. 1 \u2013 el (2 minute, m\u0103soar\u0103); 2 &#8211; eu (15 minute, \u00eei spun); 3 &#8211; ambasadorul, adic\u0103 H. E., cu c\u0103r\u021bile (5 min.); 4 &#8211; film, \u201eTrepte \u00een istorie\u201d (15 min).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">R\u0103m\u0103sese s\u0103-l \u00eentreb eu c\u00e2nd vrea Mitic\u0103 s\u0103 apar\u0103, la \u00eenceput ori la urm\u0103? O trimit pe Nansi s\u0103 se intereseze. Ea se \u00eentoarce, c\u0103 a zis Pop s\u0103-l \u00eentreb eu pe Mitic\u0103. Merg \u0219i o fac. La urm\u0103, Shukla \u00eemi spune s\u0103-l invit la mas\u0103. Bine.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Prezint\u0103 programul, mul\u021bumindu-mi mie pentru ce aveam s\u0103 spun, caracteriz\u00e2nd chiar ceea ce \u00ee\u0219i \u00eenchipuia c\u0103 va urma \u00een conferin\u021ba mea, un prilej pentru ei de a mai cunoa\u0219te c\u00e2te ceva despre o \u021bar\u0103 est-european\u0103, apoi ambasadorului, pe care \u00eel credea prima oar\u0103 acolo, d-nei Trikha pentru a comenta conferin\u021ba mea \u0219i c\u0103 va fi v\u0103zut \u0219i un film.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">M-a invitat \u0219i mi-am citit conferin\u021ba, uneori coment\u00e2nd-o. <em>Elegia II Getica <\/em>de Nichita St\u0103nescu am recitat-o anglo-indian, fascin\u00e2nd, zicea dl Trikha, pe Chakravarti, dar se pare c\u0103 pe mai mult\u0103 lume, sigur mi\u0219cat\u0103 de <em>Gayatri <\/em>Mantra \u00een sanscrit\u0103 \u0219i \u00een rom\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">S\u0103 fi trecut jum\u0103tate de or\u0103. La sf\u00e2r\u0219it, nu m-am mai \u00eentors la mas\u0103. M-am dus \u00een locul d-nei Trikha, l\u00e2ng\u0103 Nansi. Care d-n\u0103 \u0219i-a citit comentariul la conferin\u021ba mea, dar despre <em>Miori\u021ba.<\/em> Dac\u0103 sunt \u00eentreb\u0103ri, i-a venit ideea lui Shukla. Chakravarti s-a interesat de antologiile poetice, teoretizate de mine, cu poeme precum cel citat. Apoi, dac\u0103 existen\u021bialismul a avut vreun impact asupra literaturii rom\u00e2ne. Drept care m-am desf\u0103\u0219urat asupra tr\u0103irismului, el mul\u021bumindu-mi pentru trip.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">A doua \u00eentrebare \u2013 constat\u00e2nd formal c\u0103 altcineva n-are \u2013 venise de la Shukla \u00eensu\u0219i: ce e cu socializarea literaturii? Am descris, cu serioase asocieri, <em>Imposibila \u00eentoarcere<\/em>, recoment\u00e2nd Marin Preda, dar \u0219i L\u0103ncr\u0103njan sau Buzura. Ceva idei despre o alt\u0103 conferin\u021b\u0103 pe care eu n-am preparat-o, deliberat, spre a nu crea confuzia unei literaturi par\u021biale.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nu voi \u0219ti niciodat\u0103 ce efect general \u0219i individual va fi avut comentarea sinuciderii Anei lui Ion (\u00een indiferen\u021ba Dumanei \u0219i Joianei, Duminicii \u0219i Joiei), r\u0103m\u00e2n\u00e2nd la ideea principalului personaj, fie \u0219i social: timpul. Se pare c\u0103 am intrat \u00een detalii care au declan\u0219at o nou\u0103 participare, mai gelozit\u0103 de rom\u00e2ni, dar pe placul inteligent al gazdelor, de atmosfera c\u0103rora m\u0103 resim\u021beam cu bucurie.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ce influen\u021b\u0103 are Tagore \u00een Rom\u00e2nia? m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 Vinod (fotografiase, c\u00e2nd expusesem, iar \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103-l ia \u0219i pe Mitic\u0103, \u0103sta \u00ee\u0219i acoperea fa\u021ba, c\u0103 obraz nu are). R\u0103spund pe publica\u021bii \u2013 dou\u0103 sute de titluri. Lamba, viclean, vrea explica\u021bia influen\u021bei: invit\u0103-m\u0103 la tine \u00een departament \u0219i dezvolt tema, zic, \u0219tii c\u0103 e vast\u0103; orice carte, \u0219i tradus\u0103, \u00ee\u0219i are cititorul lui devotat.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Shukla revine: influen\u021ba lui Prem Chand? Cinci c\u0103r\u021bi \u00een tiraj mare, m\u0103 fac c\u0103 nu \u00een\u021beleg; <em>Shatranj kekilari<\/em>, comentez un pic, ad\u0103ug\u00e2nd \u2013 \u0219tiu, Sir, sunte\u021bi pentru Prem Chand, eu r\u0103m\u00e2n la Rabindranath.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Fiebin\u021beala unei noi impresii se consumase sub cele peste zece ventilatoare \u2013 tot at\u00e2tea posibile sp\u00e2nzur\u0103tori.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u201eIstoricul trebuie s\u0103 fie logic\u201d, comenta Mitic\u0103, public, \u00eentr-un t\u00e2rziu. Dup\u0103 ce citase, cu gura p\u0103c\u0103tosului, din Stalin, c\u0103 scriitorul este inginer de suflete.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Iar despre el, amintise c\u0103 e un inginer, \u0219i cite\u0219te uneori literatur\u0103. Dar cei de fa\u021b\u0103 vor avea o lectur\u0103 foarte frumoas\u0103, de o or\u0103 \u0219i-un sfert, anume <em>Istoria Rom\u00e2niei.<\/em> El nu crede c\u0103 e corect spus \u201esocializarea literaturii\u201d &#8211; n-am auzit nic\u0103ieri de asta \u2013 e a mea, i-am zis.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dar avea dreptate d-na Trikha, cu iubirea universal\u0103, perorase Miti \u2013 e \u0219i-n rom\u00e2ne\u0219te, i-am zis. Caracteristic\u0103, de altfel, pentru politica extern\u0103 a Rom\u00e2niei. Mai num\u0103rase p\u00e2n\u0103 la zece \u00een rom\u00e2ne\u0219te \u0219i, chipurile, \u0219i-n sanscrit\u0103. C\u0103, adic\u0103, e tot una. \u0218i repetase bazaconia cu Deva-Devi. N-aveam nici putere, nici chef s\u0103 m\u0103 mai ru\u0219inez eu \u0219i de ce.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dup\u0103 staliniada lui Mitic\u0103, filmul. \u201eE \u021bar\u0103 bun\u0103\u201d, \u00eemi spunea Om Prakash, studentul meu pe care-l biciuiam s\u0103 repete nume dacice \u0219i ceau\u0219e\u0219ti. Trepte \u00een istorie, m\u0103i, m\u0103i. \u0218tiam c\u0103 Nansi, pe undeva, d\u0103dea s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103. La <em>De\u0219teapt\u0103-te rom\u00e2ne<\/em>, mi-a confirmat mai apoi. B\u0103usem demult ceai \u0219i ultimul biscuit \u00eei revenise Nanei, \u0219i apoi i se f\u0103cuse, s\u0103raca, sete.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dup\u0103 film, Shukla l-a condus pe H.E. Mie mi-a sc\u0103pat. Le-ar fi salutat pe Nansi \u0219i Nana, copilului m\u00e2ng\u00e2indu-i \u0219i obrazul. Umesh venise \u00een partea a doua, de r\u0103spunsuri, a conferin\u021bei, putuse auzi schimburile mele publice, nu \u0219i interprofesionale. M\u0103 simt, cel pu\u021bin, poststalinist, c\u0103 postmitic\u0103 e mai greu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">S\u0103 fi gustat, nu c\u00e2t mi s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat mie, mul\u021bumirile analitice, \u00een numele lui Visi, ale lui Chakravarti, relu\u00e2nd ideatica mea, neobstaculat\u0103 de nicio socializare a literaturii, de vreun mecanism-oglind\u0103 al reflect\u0103rii, dar de autodevorare \u2013 cuv\u00e2ntul \u00eemi apar\u021bine. Atmosfera lui se potrive\u0219te tensiunii oratorice declan\u0219at\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la denominarea unei \u201eglorious day\u201d \u00een lupta care p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103 e via\u021ba.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">G\u0103sise dou\u0103 vorbe \u0219i pentru Mitic\u0103 (\u0103sta bine c\u0103 nu conduce ma\u0219ina, mi-ar c\u0103lca casa). Pop \u00eemi repro\u0219ase \u00een stilul Miti c\u0103 vorbisem 40 de minute. Finalmente, \u00eemi raporta c\u0103 i-a spus lui Mitic\u0103 c\u0103 niciodat\u0103 n-au avut o ac\u021biune a\u0219a de bun\u0103. C\u0103, adic\u0103, lui i-a pl\u0103cut. Ba scosese peste m\u00e2n\u0103 22 de rupii, costul ceaiului, pe care-l transferasem automat secretarului departamentului \u00een ochii de dedesubturi ai celor care mai r\u0103m\u0103seser\u0103 pe acolo.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Neru\u0219inat min\u021bise c\u0103 probabil \u00eei vor da ceva doamnei Trikha, dar s\u0103 nu-i spun. Ne culesese, pe Vinod \u0219i pe mine, care-i refuzasem ma\u0219ina. Conduc\u00e2nd \u00een mar\u0219arier, d\u0103r\u00e2mase o motociclet\u0103 din fa\u021ba por\u021bii lui Gupta. O ridicasem eu cur\u00e2nd. \u00cen timp ce Pop repede se aruncase s\u0103 cumpere mango, pe neve, \u00een vorbele de \u201emy god\u201d ale speriatului motociclist r\u0103s\u0103rit intimidat de pe undeva. Ma\u0219ina corpului Pop se dusese, altfel, cum venise.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Vinod a urcat, eu m-am dus cu cuplul-ventilator, p\u00e2n\u0103 ea a urcat ca din cenu\u0219\u0103 \u00een Vede, iar cu el am dublat sharing-ul pe un la revedere de \u201ela urma urmei, am mai mult timp\u201d, \u201ep\u0103cat c\u0103 nu juca\u021bi \u0219ah, dar m\u0103 ve\u021bi \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba chiromancie\u201d. Vinod predic\u0103 un du\u0219man cunoscut dec\u00e2t un amic necunoscut. \u0218i-a z\u00e2mbit cu Mitic\u0103. Rusu i-a aprobat pe Eminescu, Blaga, Nichita \u2013 de Iuga n-a auzit. Pop ar fi d\u0103r\u00e2mat motocicleta omului c\u00e2nd el, Vinod, \u00eei r\u0103spunsese, la invita\u021bia \u0103luia spre New Delhi, c\u0103 mai r\u0103m\u00e2ne.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00centr-un timp, Vinod vrea s\u0103-i scrie lui Ceau\u0219escu, dar acas\u0103. C\u0103 auzise conferin\u021ba mea \u0219i nu credea c\u0103 pot fi a\u0219a de serios, drept care s\u0103-i trimit\u0103 dic\u021bionare. De fapt, el cere dic\u021bionare, nu m\u0103 laud\u0103 pe mine.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Esha a venit s\u0103 se scuze c\u0103 a lipsit \u2013 a, nici n-am observat lipsa, am glumit. Plus c\u0103 seam\u0103na cu Radha, a, ce m\u00e2ndr\u0103 a zis c\u0103 e. Pe Andr\u00e9, \u00eentors de la Bombay, \u00eel doare stomacul, a\u0219a c\u0103 are spital \u00een cas\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Poem al lui Vinod, cum Shiva b\u0103use toat\u0103 otrava manthan \u2013 m-am mirat c\u0103 nu observase poemul, de aparen\u021b\u0103 semit\u0103, \u00eempotriva lui Mahesh, tip\u0103rit \u00een revista scoas\u0103 de Azad la W.C.P St. \u00een februarie. C\u00e2te n-am p\u0103l\u0103vit, p\u00e2n\u0103 s-a \u00eendurat s\u0103-mi p\u0103r\u0103seasc\u0103 m\u0103seaua \u00een durere. De-am luat-o din fir a p\u0103r cu Nansi, mai amestec\u00e2ndu-se \u0219i Nana cu Mitic\u0103-r\u0103ulic\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Afacerea sofalei \u2013 Pop dixit \u2013 n-ar fi b\u0103tut \u00een mine, ci Dima ar fi pus m\u00e2na pe alte lucruri. Eu ce s\u0103 cred? Vinod g\u0103sise c\u0103 \u0103la ar fi putut s\u0103 pozeze \u00een generos.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nansi a zis, da, a aprobat activitatea lectoratului pe ziua de azi. \u0218i s-a l\u0103sat purtat\u0103 de Nana spre dormitorul lor, abandon\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 s\u0103 ascult \u0219tirile, pe care, neprinz\u00e2ndu-le, le las \u00een pace cam la \u201earmata sovietic\u0103\u201d \u00een special English. Cine nu contempl\u0103 fundul lacului secat al timpului \u00een 14 aprilie? Al vostru, Horace G. Hagen.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">15.04. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ascult\u00e2nd, \u00eentre 11 \u0219i 12 noaptea, orele de aici, transmisia ateriz\u0103rii Columbiei, am avut, la sf\u00e2r\u0219it, revela\u021bia unei ore care n-a existat ca or\u0103, dar ca altceva, \u00een orice caz, f\u0103r\u0103 cantitate. De diminea\u021b\u0103, n\u0103p\u0103dul vr\u0103biilor, pocnite de ouat, s\u0103-\u0219i fac\u0103 alte cuiburi. \u00cen a\u0219teptarea taxiului, cu Nana, l\u00e2ng\u0103 un copac albastru, cu p\u0103m\u00e2ntul albastru de jum\u0103tatea florilor scuturate. De dou\u0103-trei ori se duce p\u00e2n\u0103 la copacul de papaia s\u0103-i priveasc\u0103 singurul fruct p\u00e2rguindu-se.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Bulgarului, care trece, \u00eei denun\u021b, emo\u021bion\u00e2ndu-l aparent, dogmatismul. El venise \u0219i num\u0103rase c\u00e2te ma\u0219ini de-ale rom\u00e2nilor ar fi fost acolo. N-a mai intrat, c\u0103ci se ajunsese probabil la film. Taxiul vine. \u00cei reamintesc Nanei s\u0103-i dea <em>Ek Shanti <\/em>d-nei Gauba.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">16. 04. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Asear\u0103 ne-am decis s\u0103 revedem Dharamsala, \u00een iunie. Cu Ajay voi urca la Triund, el m\u0103 asigur\u0103 c\u0103 vom face \u0219i filosofie.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Kushwant Singh nu era la birou, i-am l\u0103sat prin secretar dou\u0103 exemplare din <em>Ek shanti.<\/em> Am trecut \u00een cl\u0103direa de al\u0103turi, unde am stat de vorb\u0103 cu responsabilul pentru public affairs. B\u0103rbos, cu pip\u0103, cu trei ani \u00een Polonia, fost \u00een Rom\u00e2nia \u00een anul cutremurului. Nirala \u0219i Sikhant Varma sunt scriitorii lui. Eliade i se pare strong.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Num\u0103rul urm\u0103tor va fi al lui Milosz. Argumenteaz\u0103 prin cartea lui Karpovich, wonderful. Participarea lui la discu\u021bie in between. Subiecte: Heresy, Preda, lingvi\u0219tii, Anacreon, istoria \u201eshanti\u201d, Iseley, bog\u0103\u021bia rom\u00e2nei, contribu\u021bia mea. El prefer\u0103 shakti.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">17. 04. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nana are 39 de grade. Nansi e disperat\u0103. N-ai cu cine discuta. Harbans \u0219i Naviug vorbesc despre malarie ca despre nimic. Harbans laud\u0103 ha\u0219i\u0219ul, blesteam\u0103 vinul \u2013 \u00eendeosebi pentru a m\u0103ri pofta sexual\u0103 a femeilor, nu \u0219i a b\u0103rba\u021bilor. \u00cen Punjab, Jawaldar-ul e un personaj detestat de sat, turn\u0103torul c\u0103tre guvern a tot ce se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 \u00eentre oameni. N-ar fi un om inteligent, nici avut.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nansi n-are ochi s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103. F\u0103r\u0103 explica\u021bii. Anmol adormise din bel\u0219ug. Ce-o fi, totu\u0219i, \u00een capul lui Nansi, ce dinte o fi av\u00e2nd contra mea? Dac\u0103 nu voi vorbi eu \u2013 tot n-o s\u0103 am cine \u0219tie ce r\u0103spuns \u2013 va continua s\u0103 tac\u0103?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am dactilografiat \u201eMiori\u021ba \u00een hindi\u201d, pe rom\u00e2ne\u0219te. M-am v\u0103zut, ca niciodat\u0103, c\u0103z\u00e2nd de somn \u0219i m-am trezit \u00een cur\u00e2nd cu mare spaim\u0103. M-am repezit la Nana, care hohotea, neascult\u00e2ndu-\u0219i mama. \u00cei aprinsese lumina \u0219i copilul urla f\u0103r\u0103 alinare. Se a\u0219ezase \u00een semilotus \u0219i privea spre mine, asemenea, cu glasul mare acoperindu-i ochii. &#8211; Te doare ceva? &#8211; Nu (auzeam printre hohote). C\u0103utam s\u0103 mim\u0103m c\u0103-l gonim pe ur\u00e2tul, ori r\u0103ul din vis, c\u0103ci un vis e. D\u0103dea din cap c\u0103 fusese \u201eaia repede \u0219i mare\u201d. S\u0103 plece de-aicea! Discutasem c\u0103 ne concentr\u0103m. \u00cent\u00e2i \u0219i-nt\u00e2i, vine un fluture acolo \u0219i zice, a, ce bine c\u0103 te concentrezi pe mine, nu mai plec. Apoi, o albin\u0103, \u00een trikuti, ca pe o floare, \u0219i nu rinocer.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ardea cumplit. N-o puteai atinge. Ia cerut lui Nansi, mai \u00eencolo, s\u0103 taie batista \u00een dou\u0103. Ceva \u021b\u00e2n\u021bari m\u0103 v\u0103rgaser\u0103 pe mine \u0219i am f\u0103cut haz. Se instalase \u00een patul de la balcon \u0219i a re\u00eenceput s\u0103 suspine.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">De-am ie\u0219it \u0219i ne-am \u00eentors aproape imediat s\u0103-i spun o poveste. Gata, o z\u00e2n\u0103 pe nume I\u0219tar s-a trezit \u00eenainte de r\u0103s\u0103ritul soarelui \u0219i i s-a \u00eenchinat lui \u0219i fluviului. Apoi s-a \u00eentors \u00eentr-un palat plin cu toate fiin\u021bele: un c\u0103\u021belu\u0219 \u00eentr-o camer\u0103 de aur, ba \u201eera\u201d chiar o curte pe cinste; ni\u0219te cai albi, la subsol, dar ce lunci se \u00eentindeau de jur-\u00eemprejur; elefan\u021bi cu jungl\u0103 cu tot.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dar ei i s-a f\u0103cut dor de z\u00e2noiul Mundor. A luat calul alb Misolonghi \u0219i a c\u0103l\u0103rit ca o amazoan\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la palatul lui. \u0218i mai mare dor unde st\u0103tea singur. &#8211; S\u0103 m\u0103 la\u0219i tu singur, drag\u0103 I\u0219tar, s-a pl\u00e2ns el. M-a\u0219 duce cu Misolonghi p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een palatul t\u0103u. &#8211; S\u0103 nu te dea jos. &#8211; P\u0103i&#8230; \u0218i na, c\u0103 l-a tr\u00e2ntit \u00een fluviu, dar apele i-au spus c\u0103 \u0219tiau de la I\u0219tar c\u0103 el va veni s\u0103 se scalde. Apoi sus, p\u00e2n\u0103 la soare \u2013 vrei s\u0103 m\u0103 faci cioc\u00e2rlie, drag\u0103 Misolonghi?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nansi m-a \u00eentrerupt, s-o las pe Nana s\u0103 doarm\u0103. \u0218i-a mai adus aminte o dat\u0103, d\u00e2nd iar s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103. Acum, la vreun ceas, Nansi a mai tras-o de limb\u0103. C-ar fi ap\u0103rut un p\u0103trat mare, \u00een care ei nu-i \u00eencap m\u00e2inile, \u0219i c\u00e2nd mama a t\u0103iat batista (ea \u00eei spusese s-o taie), parc\u0103 ar fi t\u0103iat-o \u0219i pe ea. \u00ce\u0219i amintea c\u0103 fusesem \u00een fa\u021ba ei c\u00e2nd pl\u00e2nsese \u0219i pl\u00e2nsese din cauza p\u0103tratului, \u0219i c\u0103 i s-a mai \u00eent\u00e2mplat \u0219i la Noana, \u0219i \u00een Bucure\u0219ti. Nansi: acela\u0219i? &#8211; Tot c\u0103 vorbe\u0219te tare, repede, \u0219i se mi\u0219c\u0103 la fel, \u00eei repro\u0219ase.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">O rog pe Nansi s\u0103-mi fac\u0103 un ceai. \u00cen schimb, am de mers s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentre\u021bin cu Nana, care-mi comand\u0103 o discotec\u0103. Dup\u0103 ce ofertez \u2013 c\u0103 s\u0103-i turui de prin copil\u0103ria mea, la trei ani, despre t\u0103ierea mo\u021bului de aur. &#8211; Pe atunci nu mi se pierduse buricul.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u0218i-i povestesc despre t\u0103ierea buricului \u2013 desp\u0103r\u021birea de mam\u0103? &#8211; de se aflau acolo Costic\u0103 Grigorescu &#8211; Buricescu, zice ea \u2013 Costic\u0103 Brondac \u2013 G\u00e2ndac. Na\u0219a mea, \u00eembr\u0103cat\u0103 \u00een catifea, plin\u0103 de mere, nuci \u0219i dulciuri. Mi s-au \u00eemb\u0103tat cumetrii, frate. M\u0103 suiau pe mas\u0103 s\u0103 strig \u201eAna, Luca \u0219i cu Dej A b\u0103gat spaima-n burgheji\u201d, mai sp\u0103rgeau pahare.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Cu Noana \u00een albie, marinari, de Pa\u0219te. Frica de c\u00e2inii lui Str\u00e2mbeanu \u0219i Bo\u021bogan, peste drum de Fusceloaia lu Miron, na\u0219a Lucic\u0103i. \u0218i, sus, pe \u021a\u00e2ncu. \u0218i sugi direct de la Pitulicea&#8230; &#8211; p\u0103i nu erai mare, c\u0103 oaia e mic\u0103? \u0218i izlazul \u00eentre p\u0103duri. \u0218i, b\u0103ie\u021bii sunt mai r\u0103i ca fetele, dar nici cu ea nu mi-e ru\u0219ine.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Peste magazia de lemne, pe acoperi\u0219ul \u0219colii, prin chio\u0219c, \u00een pod, de unde aruncam din nou pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt mingiile din p\u0103r de bou exilate de Dumitru Veri\u0219an (toat\u0103 lumea \u0219tie). La cinci ani, m\u0103soar\u0103 Nana. &#8211; M\u0103 prinde Surda \u00een v\u00e2rful cire\u0219ului \u0219i-mi d\u0103 o mam\u0103 de b\u0103taie, de nu mai \u0219tiam cum m\u0103 cheam\u0103. Dar mi-a p\u0103rut bine dup\u0103 ce-am s\u0103rit gardul, c\u0103 tot mai aveam buzunarele \u0219i s\u00e2nul pline de cire\u0219e.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cen\u0219iratul fragilor, c\u0103zutul din copaci (\u201elovit de cruce\u201d). Nansi era gata cu ceaiul \u0219i m-a luat la goan\u0103. S\u0103 n-apar\u0103 iar. Ce, zic \u2013 un fleac de p\u0103trat? Odat\u0103 \u00eel ia la trei p\u0103ze\u0219te ori trei cu tabla \u00eenmul\u021birii \u0219i, la revedere. Nana m\u0103 invit\u0103 ca, dup\u0103 ce mai stau, mai lucrez, s\u0103 m\u0103 duc s\u0103 m\u0103 culc la ele.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00centr-acolo e lini\u0219te. \u021a\u00e2n\u021barii ce vor mai fi atent\u00e2nd. Se isc\u0103, dup\u0103 miezul nop\u021bii, \u0219i r\u0103coare. Aerul e \u00eenc\u0103rcat cu note \u0219i miresme de flori din copacii cu care ne-am \u00eemprietenit. Miroase a \u00eenflorit. M\u00e2ng\u00e2ie un duh de putere vegetal\u0103. Solitudinile se alungesc \u00een pun\u021bi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">18. 04. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">De diminea\u021b\u0103, venise iar Naviug. Nana a mai avut o viziune mare alb\u0103, pl\u00e2ng\u00e2nd din nou, ceva mai calm\u0103. Ne-am dus la Health Center, rev\u0103z\u00e2nd-o, dup\u0103 doi ani, pe d-na Alhuwalia. Nana avea 37 de grade. Un sunet ap\u0103rut dinspre inim\u0103 \u2013 suflu sistolic. \u00cenc\u0103 o dat\u0103, vorba de malarie, avea s\u0103 i se colecteze s\u00e2nge. Ochii? Singurul copil?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Expediat <em>Ek Shanti <\/em>c\u0103tre Iuga, Alexe, Creeley, Iseley, Srinivas, Mankekar, Gary, ziare din Delhi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">&#8230; sc\u0103rile \u00een spiral\u0103 ale servan\u021bilor se \u00eenv\u00e2rtesc spre cerul molcom r\u0103corit de noaptea ca o alt\u0103 Indie&#8230; p\u0103rul Margaretei doarme pe o amintire r\u0103sturnat\u0103&#8230; suflul stelelor inspir\u00e2nd abandon&#8230; nicio tapasias nu concureaz\u0103 m\u0103runtele-mi fiin\u021be de durere ce m\u0103 alc\u0103tuiesc \u00een r\u00e2s&#8230; tocmai ne apuc\u0103m de umbra unei cirezi \u0219i ne l\u0103s\u0103m t\u00e2r\u00e2\u021bi \u00een eternitate&#8230; pe c\u00e2nd nici Stalin nu mai era copil nici stalini\u0219tii nu se vedeau \u00eenc\u0103 Stalin&#8230; Durga amurga&#8230;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">19. 04. 81<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">&#8230; deriv\u00e2nd din Acord&#8230; institu\u021bie voluntar\u0103&#8230; presiuni nelegale de ambele p\u0103r\u021bi&#8230; perpetuarea culturii rom\u00e2ne \u00een spa\u021biu \u0219i timp&#8230;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">zadarnica vizit\u0103 a lui Novalis a\u0219tept\u00e2nd-o sub Jupiter&#8230; eres un profesor de energie Ruben eheu&#8230;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">20. 04.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am dactilografiat peti\u021bia c\u0103tre vice-cancelar in connection with dificulties we are facing during hot season. Petrecusem cu Nansi vreo or\u0103 la Health Center, ne-am f\u0103cut turneul la Masih \u2013 Visi nu era \u00een ora\u0219. Thusu \u0219i Parida. La amiaz\u0103, ne f\u0103cusem cu un cooler.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Acas\u0103 am g\u0103sit \u0219i o scrisoare de la Peter Hook, datat\u0103 10 April 1981: Caro Giorgio, your fratello <em>Sole <\/em>is really <em>sole <\/em>now that your sorella Lun(atic)a has left him for another (per un altro). She left last May. I was d\u00e9sol\u00e9 \u2013 My days were like the night and every happy time was like a distant little star that kept blurring out of focus and getting lost. Cobwebs everywhere. Rotting legs under earth, slaked with lime and many other unpleasantnessnes. Merda!<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Yes, I hope you would extend your wanderings westward. I&#8217;ve enquired with a man in the Romance Department. The present Romanian is not excellent + wants to leave. The dept. would be happy to have some one like you to teach Rumanian and animate Michigan life in general. But they would not pay. For that you should to apply to Fulbright-Hays (they have an office in New Delhi \u2013 On Haley Road, I think, near Connought Circus) and try to get a Fulbright lectureship here at Michigan. If you decide to try please let me know and I will prepare people here to the idea. (Also put me down in the application as reference). Finally send me a copy of one or two of your volumes.. OK. I&#8217;m out of space: Yes, I will collaborate most blondly in <em>Akash Ganga<\/em>. I have written a sonnet, Indian in spirit, French in vestment, which I send under separate. Can you ask Theban to send me off \u2013 prints of my article? I am coming to Delhi in August for 4 months. Love to Nana and tip hat to Trompone. Namste to Rada. Ed ai altri. Peter.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">21. 04. 81. Delhi<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Persoana cu care e Vinod \u00een proces pe chestie imobiliar\u0103 a f\u0103cut apel la Curtea Suprem\u0103 \u0219i amicul meu se repezise p\u00e2n\u0103 acolo, unde g\u0103sise \u00eenchis din pricina mor\u021bii unui \u00eenalt judec\u0103tor. Prinsese, deci, un moment s\u0103 treac\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103 cu falca st\u00e2ng\u0103 \u00een p\u0103m\u00e2nt, cap infectat. Eu, ce s\u0103 fac, \u00eel numisem cur\u00e2nd pre\u0219edintele Asocia\u021biei Interna\u021bionale a Pseudonimelor.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Bine, cum c\u0103 n-ar fi cunoscut, atunci, propriu-i nume \u0219i-l poate socoti pseudonim. Parc\u0103 glumeam, \u00eei \u0219i citisem un poem plin de vorbe inutile.- i-am re\u021binut c\u00e2teva versuri de-o parte. <em>Ek shanti<\/em> \u0219i discu\u021biile noastre pe text n-aveau dec\u00e2t s\u0103-l influen\u021beze.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Num\u0103rul viitor din <em>Akaash Ganga<\/em> se prefigureaz\u0103 deja altfel dec\u00e2t \u00eel g\u00e2ndisem cu o lun\u0103 \u00een urm\u0103 \u2013 \u0219i cum va fi? Simt o urgen\u021b\u0103 s\u0103 adaug <em>Miori\u021bei Me\u0219terul Manole<\/em> (\u00een hindi) \u2013 poeme, c\u00e2t loc r\u0103m\u00e2ne. Dac\u0103 primesc sonetul lui Peter, \u00eel includ, plus c\u0103 ne-a vizitat azi Subodh, cer\u00e2ndu-mi Eminescu \u0219i Caragiale, iar eu i-am spus s\u0103-mi trimit\u0103 o scrisoare cu poeme de-ale ei \u00een hindi, probabil \u00eei voi face loc.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dentistul n-ar vrea, \u00een Rom\u00e2nia, s\u0103 blestem doctorii indieni. \u00cei spun c\u0103 am timp aici, r\u0103m\u00e2n\u00e2nd mai mult. Ne \u00een\u021belegem, din moment ce gura mea e \u00eengrozitoare.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Indiana la \u0219ah \u00eemi pare mai contemplativ\u0103 dec\u00e2t alte deschideri, dar \u0219i conferind un cerc mai larg de \u021binte, fie \u0219i prea \u00eendep\u0103rtate, poate \u00een func\u021bie de mobilitatea, prin rocad\u0103, a rajah-ului, dar \u0219i dovedind, fa\u021b\u0103 de vazir, o cuno\u0219tin\u021b\u0103 de cauz\u0103. Nu \u0219tiu \u00eens\u0103 de ce partenerii mei indieni, care o foloseau de predilec\u021bie, au p\u0103r\u0103sit-o dup\u0103 pu\u021bine jocuri \u00een care \u00eent\u00e2mpinaser\u0103 dificult\u0103\u021bi, iar eu \u2013 unde sunt bolnav? &#8211; nu mai ies din indian\u0103 \u00een partidele cu Nansi. Oricum, Dumnezeu a inventat \u0219ahul \u0219i cu g\u00e2ndul la noi. Deschiderile se \u00eenmul\u021besc \u00eencet, \u00een timp ce vise nesf\u00e2r\u0219ite \u00ee\u0219i fac veacul \u00een toiul \u00eent\u00e2lnirii topind ivoriul.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Pe Joseph Vimal Mohamad Singh \u00eel durea refuzul familiei fetei de a i-o da \u00een c\u0103s\u0103torie. Fata refuza, \u00eentr-un sf\u00e2r\u0219it, \u0219i ea. El voia un refuz scris, altfel, scrisorile lui, dac\u0103 murea, puteau fi folosite ca o dovad\u0103 de c\u0103s\u0103torie, deci drept de mo\u0219tenire.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Anume b\u0103rba\u021bi despre care nu \u0219tia nimic precis, nici m\u0103car c\u0103-i p\u0103r\u0103siser\u0103 nevestele ori concubinele \u2013 \u0219i n-ar fi de acord nici s\u0103 se g\u00e2ndeasc\u0103 la asta ca la un obicei american, \u00een hindu nefiind cazul s\u0103-\u0219i pun\u0103 problema tot a\u0219a \u2013 despre acei b\u0103rba\u021bi obi\u0219nuia s\u0103 spun\u0103 c\u0103 i-a \u00eent\u00e2lnit. Era v\u0103dit un om de rela\u021bii, minus cu iubita lui, pe timpul vie\u021bii cel pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">M-am jenat s\u0103-i iau exemplele postmaritale, rupturile pe viu. Dar le contemplam \u0219i-n timp ce Sudeep se consuma \u00een deschiderea indian\u0103, lu\u00e2ndu-\u0219i tot at\u00e2t de lungi merinde de lupt\u0103, parc\u0103 \u00eentr-o lume mai real\u0103, totu\u0219i, dec\u00e2t \u0219ahul cu femeile. Pare m\u00e2ntuit \u0219i se va c\u0103s\u0103tori odat\u0103, imediat, ie\u0219ind din laborator. Dup\u0103 trei jocuri \u00een care-\u0219i magnificase rutina \u00een ambele p\u0103r\u021bi, \u00een ultimul \u2013 unde se schimbaser\u0103 \u0219i vazirii \u2013 a provocat o situa\u021bie cu trei ostatici, ut contra ut, plus doi sau trei pioni. Rolul ut-ului, \u00eempreun\u0103 cu perechea lui, e de vast peisaj erotic, singur\u0103t\u0103\u021bile lor \u00eenduio\u0219eaz\u0103 tabla.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">22.04. 81.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Orhideea mea devine, \u00een titlu, la traducere, Arnota \u2013 m\u0103n\u0103stire, morm\u00e2nt, \u00eentr-o campagne de salvare. Vorbim de o femei av\u00e2nd drept singur\u0103 avere \u0219i companie morm\u00e2ndul tat\u0103lui ei, \u00eengrijind \u0219i de mormintele sinuciga\u0219elor. Subiectele lungi sunt de via\u021b\u0103 \u0219i \u00eenviere. Consacrarea lor comport\u0103. M\u0103 \u00eentrerup. M\u0103 dedic Arnotei. Traduc\u00e2nd, m\u0103 iluzionez c\u0103, \u00een scrierea mea, conversa\u021bia \u00eentre oameni acoper\u0103 revela\u021bii.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">even unseen<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">orchid you are<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">in our guard<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">no marble<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">decapitates you<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">we love you again<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">under the tree of life<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">embracing us<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">in adoration<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">while forests<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">of princely line<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">are bestiring<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">you remember<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">24.04. 81. Delhi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ieri, spre pr\u00e2nz, Nansi a dedus c\u0103 era Sf\u00e2ntul Gheorghe. Nana se dusese la \u0219coal\u0103. Noi ne-am l\u0103ast jocurilor \u2013 \u0219ah, dame, iamb. Nansi a g\u0103sit timp pentru Rider Digest, ceva amintiri despre Truman juc\u00e2nd poker \u0219i f\u0103c\u00e2nd dreptate. Eu am terminat de transcris traducerea brut\u0103 a <em>Arnotei.<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am ie\u0219it numai p\u00e2n\u0103 la dentist, dar filmul nu fusese developat. Am reluat jocurile cu Nana. La miezul nop\u021bii ne-am uitat la lun\u0103, stele, carul mare c\u0103r\u00e2nd zenitul. Jucasem \u0219ase partide cu Sudeep, \u00een afar\u0103 de nenum\u0103ratele cu Nansi. Zadarnic a\u0219tep\u021bi pionul \u00eenapoi \u0219i totu\u0219i va ap\u0103rea, c\u00e2teodat\u0103, fie \u0219i ca vazir, pe la spartul t\u00e2rgului. Dar nu-i va mai aduce aminte nimeni c\u0103 tr\u0103sese elefantul dup\u0103 el pe o grani\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00centre timp, n-a r\u0103mas nimeni la locul lui, nici cei ce p\u0103ruser\u0103 s\u0103 a\u0219tepte. Parc\u0103 n-ar mai exista niciun p\u0103rinte, niciun fiu, doar cruci. Din Sf\u00e2ntul Gheorghe r\u0103m\u0103sese doar calul. M\u0103car balaurul s\u0103 mai fi dat t\u00e2rcoale, m\u0103car interior s\u0103 fi \u00eencol\u0103cit lunara paloare a nop\u021bii ciuruit\u0103 de haos.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Organiza\u021biile duceau spre neant ele \u00eensele odat\u0103 cu m\u0103cinarea opozantelor. Aproape disp\u0103ruser\u0103 numerele de circ. Se r\u00e2dea \u00een traducere. Se visa din moarte \u00eendoctrinat\u0103. Amintirile se substituiau experien\u021belor, \u00een mituri luminate \u0219i totu\u0219i at\u00e2t de atentatoare \u00eentr-un timp abolit. C\u00e2teva aluzii caricaturizau istoria \u00een superman. T\u0103cerile se balansau \u00eentre crema\u021biune \u0219i \u00eenhumare. \u0218tiin\u021bele se ofereau unor simple buc\u0103\u021bi de materie legate de catarg. Tropicul b\u00e2hlit plutea pe o efemerid\u0103 \u00een convulsii.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Tandre\u021be, distrug\u0103toare s\u0103 fi fost, numai tandre\u021be \u00eentru pierdutul \u00eencep\u0103tor \u0219i legiunile m\u0103ciucindu-se mai apoi \u00een joac\u0103, dar de tandre\u021be, o metod\u0103 pentru sufletul metalic al viitorului, pentru t\u00e2nga p\u0103m\u00e2ntului \u0219i a tuturor binalelor. Tandre\u021bea de dup\u0103 senza\u021bie \u0219i senza\u021bional, confuz\u0103 \u00eentre religii \u0219i humor, recunoa\u0219tere \u0219i forma\u021bie.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">S-o facem tandr\u0103. Eu voi da primul semne de distrare, nemaiconcentrat \u00een beregata elefantului ori a c\u0103milei, ci plimb\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 printre ele \u00een \u00eencercarea de a g\u0103si pe altcineva s\u0103-i spun altceva. Ce victorie ori ce \u00eenfr\u00e2ngere ne-ar fi de ajuns? Re\u00eencarn\u00e2nd \u00een\u021belep\u021bii ne va fi groaz\u0103 de at\u00e2tea. Cu nebunii, mai treac\u0103-mearg\u0103. Cum nu mai avem a \u00eencepe nimic s\u0103 \u00een\u021belegem ce sf\u00e2r\u0219im, ce va fi \u00eenceput vreodat\u0103, diferit, num\u0103rat, na\u021bional, idealist, nepersonal, t\u00e2n\u0103r, ca \u00een tinere\u021be.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Finalul \u00eenchide ce n-a existat, nu s-a anun\u021bat la deschidere. Ce se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 cu norii de deasupra unui c\u00e2mp de b\u0103t\u0103lie, ne\u00eengreuna\u021bi de cerul lui Krishna, se va fi \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u00e2nd \u0219i cu noi, deasupra de\u0219erturilor sculptate. Apud Sri Rajneesh, ce bun e nimicul. De ce nu ne-ar \u00eenghi\u021bi \u0219i el?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">25. 04. 81. Delhi<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nana a visat din nou p\u0103tratul negru. S-a trezit, n-a mai pl\u00e2ns, i-a spus doar lui Nansi, care, a doua zi, e neagr\u0103. De oboseal\u0103, c\u00e2nd mi-am pus asear\u0103 sare \u00een lapte, Nana m-a fulgerat cu privirea: ce-\u021bi spui, m\u0103, at\u00e2ta sare! I-a spus lui Nansi c\u0103 i s-a p\u0103rut c\u0103 m\u0103 mi\u0219cam prea repede.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">D-na Gauba tr\u0103ie\u0219te \u00een revela\u021bie \u0219i public relations. O carte a unui porto-rican, intrat\u0103 prin 1964 \u00een m\u00e2inile ministrului informa\u021biilor de atunci, ea a pus-o \u00een scen\u0103 \u00een ultimele trei zile cu copiii, revorbit\u0103 de ei. Regii indian, chinez, african sunt cei trei crai de la r\u0103s\u0103rit veni\u021bi s\u0103 se \u00eenchine copilului Iisus, \u00eemp\u0103c\u00e2ndu-se etc.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">D-na Gauba \u00eemi spune, \u00een gloria ei, c\u0103 <em>Ek shanti <\/em>este foarte frumos \u0219i \u00eemi mul\u021bume\u0219te a-i fi l\u0103sat \u00eenc\u0103 dou\u0103 exemplare. C\u00e2nt\u0103 la pian \u0219i din gur\u0103, peste spectatori, acompaniind mistic spectacolul. Se transpusese \u00een timp cre\u0219tin. Cre\u0219tin, oric\u00e2t de hindus. V\u00e2rsta sanscrit\u0103 se \u00eemp\u0103rt\u0103\u0219ea \u00eentr-o emo\u021bie ubicu\u0103 a oamenilor sorbindu-\u0219i din ochi odraslele \u0219i pe ei \u00een\u0219i\u0219i. Ea-\u0219i era \u0219i mam\u0103 \u0219i fiic\u0103 sie\u0219i.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Cei de acas\u0103 vor ciocni ou\u0103 ro\u0219ii peste trei ore. Aici, \u00cenvierea vine peste o jum\u0103tate de or\u0103, neserbat\u0103 nici de noi. M\u0103 \u00eenchin nop\u021bii Indiei. Misterul tinere\u021bii s-a spulberat. Parisul de b\u0103tr\u00e2ni se leag\u0103n\u0103 \u00een suveniruri. \u00cemi am\u00e2n avatarurile.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">27. 04. 81. Dehi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ajunsesem la Fulbright Foundation, \u00eentre\u021bin\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 cu Mr. Ramakrisnan, director din 1973 acolo. Surpriza de a m\u0103 afla \u00een fa\u021ba unui indian nu m-a deteriorat, termenii vizitei mele intr\u00e2nd \u0219i ie\u0219ind c\u00e2t se a\u0219ternea scrisoarea lui Peter (a\u0219teptat aici aproape cu ner\u0103bdare, el av\u00e2nd \u00eentr-adev\u0103r Fulbright lectureship).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Onorabilul director m-a ascultat cu delicate\u021be, scuz\u00e2ndu-se c\u0103, nefiind nici indian, nici american, nu-mi poare fi de folos. Recomand\u00e2ndu-mi s\u0103-l v\u0103d pe dr. Theodor Ricardi, ata\u0219atul cultural american, un lingvist cu care voi avea ce discuta. Iar pentru c\u0103 domeniul meu este literatura comparat\u0103, m-a invitat \u00een 2-3 mai la un seminar al dr. Nagendra, acolo \u00een Hailey Road, 12.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cemi mai spusese c\u0103 Ricardi e \u00een Nepal. Dar, fiind \u00een drum, m-am interesat \u0219i, cum se \u00eentorsese ieri, am stat de vorb\u0103. Aceea\u0219i poveste, inclusiv buna referin\u021b\u0103 a lui Peter, a\u0219teptat \u0219i aici. \u00cencepusem cu pu\u021bine cuvinte \u00een italian\u0103. Franco Lombardi nu era cuno\u0219tin\u021b\u0103 comun\u0103. Era la un timp curios, de ce n-a\u0219 merge \u00een Italia, pe asemenea motive?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">A r\u0103mas c\u0103 o s\u0103 se mai g\u00e2ndeasc\u0103, re\u021bin\u00e2nd argumenta\u021bia moral-poetic\u0103. Nu credea c\u0103 ar fi vreun loc de rom\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een Ohio, unde \u0219ef\u0103 de departament era o estonian\u0103, ci la Universitatea Columbia, \u00een New York. La Harvard, \u0219eful departamentului de lingvistic\u0103 ar fi Nicolae Iliescu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nu insistam cine \u0219tie ce. Elogiam poezia american\u0103. Am \u0219i 37, fa\u021b\u0103 de 73-74 ai maestrului, c\u0103ruia o s\u0103-i cer o referin\u021b\u0103. Fiind vorba de o discu\u021bie profesional\u0103, neuit\u00e2nd nici ontopoetria, indiferend de ce-o s\u0103 ias\u0103, mi-a pl\u0103cut maniera de diploma\u021bie a lui Ricardi. Dup\u0103 cum, p\u00e2n\u0103 la proba contrar\u0103, \u0219i Ramakrishnan mi-a impus.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Altfel, c\u0103ldura m-a dat peste cap. L\u00e2ng\u0103 mulajul rachetei-avion, mi s-a tulburat vederea, ame\u021bisem c\u00e2nd am urcat la discu\u021bie. \u00cen autobuz \u00eemi amor\u021biser\u0103 degetele drepte \u0219i buzele.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">De verzi \u0219i mici copiii doboar\u0103 nebune\u0219te fructele de mango. Pomi uria\u0219i se afl\u0103 \u00een cur\u021bi de cl\u0103diri somptuase, inclusiv la Fulbright-House, unde copiii sunt \u0219i mai tenace dec\u00e2t ca-n Barakamba Road. Te po\u021bi trezi oric\u00e2nd cu un pietroi \u00een cap. Pu\u0219ti mai mari stau la umbr\u0103 \u0219i primesc prada de la cei mai mici.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Un afi\u0219 cu o mam\u0103 cu fa\u021ba sf\u0103rmat\u0103 \u2013 f\u0103r\u0103 buze \u0219i nas \u2013 poart\u0103 \u00eenscrisul: ce-am f\u0103cut noi pentru Afganistan? \u00cel rev\u0103d \u0219i pe Sikander. N-am mai intrat la Hindustan Times. Destul de mul\u021bi turi\u0219ti, hipiza\u021bi vr\u00e2nd-nevr\u00e2nd \u00een frigare. C\u0103ldura apropie inutil \u00een izolarea dilatat\u0103. Cred c\u0103 Peter nu vine \u00eenc\u0103 \u00een sezonul \u0103sta.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">30. 04. 81 Delhi<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">N-am mai \u021binut jurnal, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd o prob\u0103 de vitez\u0103: primind luni de la dr. Nagendra, invita\u021bie la Seminarul de literatur\u0103 comparat\u0103 \u00een context indian, via Fulbright, luni noaptea \u0219i toat\u0103 mar\u021bea eram gata cu un model, numit \u201eSanskrit Romanian Ontopoetics\u201d. L-am dactilografit ieri pe matri\u021be \u0219i azi le-am multiplicat \u00een 50 de exemplare, pe 14 rupii, \u00een Kamla Nagar.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Cu Vickey, am mers pe scuter la Nagendra \u0219i i-am dat o copie \u0219i un <em>Ek shanti. <\/em>B\u0103tr\u00e2nul se afl\u0103 la periferia Model Town-ului, sl\u0103bit sfin\u021be\u0219te, eman\u00e2nd triste\u021be \u2013 poate \u0219tiin\u021ba? A r\u0103mas c\u0103 trece desear\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103, pentru jum\u0103tate de or\u0103. Cu toate c\u0103 nu poate urca. O s\u0103 \u00eencerce &#8211; un etaj, \u00eens\u0103. Ori o s\u0103 m\u0103 cheme s\u0103 ne plimb\u0103m pe jos.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nagendra m-a atras totdeauna, iar acum mai mult ca oric\u00e2nd. F\u0103r\u0103 m\u0103car s\u0103 m\u0103 potrivesc la ideile sale, pe care nici nu prea i le cunosc. Am idee de el \u0219i \u00eemi ajunge. Prin el \u00eemi z\u0103resc mai inteligibil cuno\u0219tin\u021bele m\u0103runt cernute de izolarea noastr\u0103. Proba mea de vitez\u0103 mi-a fost prilejuit\u0103 de el, \u0219i dou\u0103 zile mi-am dat \u0219ah lini\u0219tii, dac\u0103 nu s\u0103n\u0103t\u0103\u021bii.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Abia de am l\u0103sat-o pe Nansi s\u0103-mi citeasc\u0103 pe repede o scrisoare \u2013 eu tremur\u00e2nd sanscrito-latin. \u00cen plic, \u0219i o poezie biblic\u0103, am recitat-o, am meditat la expeditor, mai ceva ca la Nagendra, printre treburi de rutin\u0103 dactilografiat\u0103: Benaresul cu \u0218iva.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ne crezusem separa\u021bi de un timp care trecea \u00eentr-un peisaj ce se l\u0103sa altfel gustat \u2013 cenu\u0219\u0103 pres\u0103rat\u0103 pe v\u00e2nturi. C\u00e2nd, abia opri\u021bi din orice cale, parc\u0103 am fi mi\u0219cat \u00een gol. Om fi fost \u00eensu\u0219i golul. Prim semn de mi\u0219care-Veda. \u00cen\u0219ir\u0103m umbr\u0103 de umbr\u0103 spre suflete albe.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00centre timp, a ap\u0103rut, \u00een varianta peripatetic\u0103, Nagendra, a\u0219a c\u0103 am disp\u0103rut cu el pe alei, pe terenul de cricket, Cavalary Line, Mallroad. <em>Ramcharit Manas <\/em>e domeniul s\u0103u. Acas\u0103, erau \u00een vizit\u0103 d-na Kashyap, din Dharamsala, cu nora \u0219i nepotul.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>11. 04. 82. Delhi 10.42 p.m. Peste o or\u0103 \u0219i ceva \u00eemplinesc 37 de ani \u0219i nimic nu se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103. 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