{"id":24828,"date":"2015-08-22T11:50:52","date_gmt":"2015-08-22T11:50:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/?p=24828"},"modified":"2015-08-22T11:50:52","modified_gmt":"2015-08-22T11:50:52","slug":"george-anca-de-cand-noaptea-nu-mai-e-femeie","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/2015\/08\/22\/george-anca-de-cand-noaptea-nu-mai-e-femeie\/","title":{"rendered":"George ANCA: De c\u00e2nd noaptea nu mai e femeie"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>DE C\u00c2ND NOAPTEA NU MAI E FEMEIE<\/strong><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

24. 09. 81 <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ieri dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103, doi tineri must\u0103cio\u015fi, cu un chestionar despre cum se rad oamenii. Le-am spus c\u0103 n-am timp dec\u00e2t pentru \u00eentrebarea principal\u0103: cu ce lam\u0103 v\u0103 rade\u0163i? <\/span><\/span>Am aruncat: <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>Erasmus<\/span><\/span>\u201d <\/span><\/span>\u015fi i-am \u00eencurajat s\u0103 educe tinerii \u00een materie. Ca \u015fi ale celui de la recens\u0103m\u00e2ntul apartamentelor, care a recunoascut \u2013 privirile lor veneau direct de la poli\u0163ie.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Paper-ul <\/span><\/span>Divyagrahah <\/em><\/span><\/span>e un jurnal de traducere \u015fi un s\u00e2mbure de antologie sanscrit\u0103, pe care-l voi da pe rom\u00e2ne\u015fte pentru vreo publica\u0163ie din \u0163ar\u0103 \u015fi pentru istoria culturii. De la Aurangabad Marathwada University, o circular\u0103 prin Dept., despre o conferin\u0163\u0103 lingvistic\u0103 \u00een decembrie. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cRomanian as Romance Language. An Indo-Europenistic Structural Approach<\/span><\/span>\u201d. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Festival Ionesco la Alliance Francaise \u2013 Lec\u0163ia, Jacques, C\u00e2nt\u0103rea\u0163a. <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>Sc\u00e2nteia<\/span><\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/span> contra Valesa<\/span><\/span>. <\/span><\/span>M-am scuzat la Marek, r\u0103spunz\u00e2ndu-i c\u0103 am trimis la tipar patru strofe din <\/span><\/span>Silva<\/em><\/span><\/span>, balada protejatei lui. Azi, iar\u0103\u015fi alegeri, du p\u0103 11 \u2013 nu mi-a mai dat nimeni vreo idee, eu cu cine votez. Cu <\/span><\/span>Ionescu?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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25. 09. 81. Delhi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Clasa ghicitorii. Pesimist-optimist, la cerere. Misero longa, felici brevis.Teoria \u015fansei individuale, c\u00e2nd vii dintr-o \u0163ar\u0103 mic\u0103. Str\u0103vechiul musulin Mukhe m\u0103 salut\u0103 numindu-m\u0103 Tagore, c\u0103ruia i-a\u015f sem\u0103na. Spre deosebire de el, care a fost de 26 de ori la M., acela, dec\u00e2t o dat\u0103… Dar poemul despre Rom\u00e2nia… La care Mukhe amenin\u0163\u0103 cu dou\u0103 c\u0103r\u0163i dac\u0103-l trimit acolo. Marek m\u0103 z\u0103p\u0103ce\u015fte cu Skorupski. Scrisoare de la Mircea Eliade.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

O antologie de liric\u0103 popular\u0103 rom\u00e2neasc\u0103. Fata e shakti, b\u0103rbatul Shiva. Religiosul e ocolit, ca \u015fi vitalul. Freudism diletant, structuralism refulat, neacoperit nici \u00een aluzii de fond. Institutul, o scam\u0103 \u00een afara aerului real<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Orga literaturii rom\u00e2ne audibil\u0103 aici \u00een registru de flaut<\/span><\/span>?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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26.09.81. Delhi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Committee of courses and studies in Romanic Group, 29<\/span><\/span>th<\/span><\/span><\/sup> September 1981 at 11.00 A.M., in room No 42, Arts Faculty Building. Agenda to be placed on the table 1. R. S. Alhuwalia, 2. Dr. A. V. Parasnis, 3. Dr. G. Anca. 4. Mrs. Vibha Maurya. Studen\u0163ii mei de la diplom\u0103 insist\u0103 pentru Advanced Diploma. Discut cu Nansi s\u0103 \u00eencerc\u0103m s\u0103 ne facem via\u0163a mai bun\u0103 chiar aici, r\u0103m\u00e2n\u00e2nd \u00eendelung, dec\u00e2t s\u0103 improviz\u0103m \u00een necunoascut altceva.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Alte istorii, mai suportabile \u00een grotescul egoismului lor victorios, dec\u00e2t \u00eentoarcerea goanei spre moarte c\u0103tre o bucurie de necuprins<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Am\u00e2n piesa Almora. Schimbat\u0103 lepra pe temni\u0163\u0103, temni\u0163a pe morm\u00e2nt, morm\u00e2ntul pe fars\u0103, joaca pe v\u00e2na rom\u00e2neasc\u0103, sporov\u0103iala pe muzic\u0103, muzica pe audi\u0163ie, audi\u0163ia pe priveghi, priveghiul pe puja, puja pe ce-o fi, ce-o fi pe ce n-o fi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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27. 09. 81. Delhi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Crea\u0163iile tuturor mai mult se pierd ori se fac religie. Sunt, dup\u0103 toate cele, \u00een perioada mea sanscrit\u0103. Probabil voi scrie \u00een aceast\u0103 limb\u0103. O fac de mult \u00een somn, dorm \u00een jnana. Nu mai e vorba de a dep\u0103\u015fi un pas.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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28. 09. 81. Delhi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

De diminea\u0163\u0103, nor, dup\u0103 clas\u0103 chiar plou\u0103. Posesivul \u015fi genitivul. <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>The Universe: How and Why<\/span><\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/span>, la 3. 30 pm (Kothari, V.Ch.). Bulgarul (\u00eenainte de ore) \u015fi polonezul, (dup\u0103), \u00een clasa mea. \u00cei dau lui Ashok un advisory board: Nagendra, Sharma, Keyna, Bossert, Bestazzi, Iuga, Hook, Jagdat. M\u0103 pune, m\u0103garul, s\u0103 semnez. \u00cenc\u0103 trei zile \u015fi: Almora. A doua oar\u0103 \u00een Himalaya. Sintaxa sanscrit\u0103, separat. Porumbeii nu-\u015fi ud\u0103 penele de ploaie.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

D.S. Kothari. <\/span><\/span>How<\/em><\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Expanding universe; the visible is complex, the invisible is simple; Atman \u2013 Brahman; the absolute identity as fundamental principle of the sciences.<\/span><\/span> Why<\/em><\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Ordinary language is not done for understanding the electron. Electronul e aici \u015fi, \u00een acela\u015fi timp, \u015fi-n alt\u0103 parte. A spus-o \u015fi-n hindi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

La sf\u00e2r\u015fit, m-am salutat cu Nagendra, care mi-a spus c-o s\u0103 ne vedem (nu era prea bine dispus \u015fi totu\u015fi). Margaret nu g\u0103sise a fi fost inspiring, neaccept\u00e2nd s\u0103riturile, la care eu am regretat c\u0103 nu sunt \u015fi mai tinerii pu\u015fi \u00een situa\u0163ia aia. M-a adus cu ma\u015fina \u015fi, cur\u00e2nd, venise s\u0103-i ar\u0103t <\/span><\/span>Peace Progress<\/em><\/span><\/span>, pe care a g\u0103sit-o destul de inocent\u0103, r\u0103m\u00e2n\u00e2nd la pl\u0103cerea g\u00e2ndului de a merge \u00een America, la congresul educatorilor pentru pace.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Florence Hetzler vine-n februarie aici \u015fi a trimis vorb\u0103 c\u0103 vrea s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103 despre Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi \u00een India, iar Margaret a scris, de zece zile, la amba lui Mitic\u0103, m\u0103i, m\u0103, care n-a r\u0103spuns cum c\u0103 s-ar bucura. Sini\u015ftrii dracului, \u0103\u015ftia au refuzat pe maestrul Costache c\u00e2nd voise s\u0103 le doneze opera. Ce sc\u00e2rbe \u2013 din trunchi \u00een a\u015fchie.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Dar \u00een februarie, la 105 ani de la na\u015fterea lui, Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi va avea cea mai \u0163eap\u0103n\u0103 puja, poman\u0103 de poman\u0103. \u00cemi traduc scenariul. \u00cei cer lui Eliade, iar\u0103\u015fi, piesa, c\u0103-mi vine s\u0103-l \u015fi-njur \u2013 oi juca-o cu studen\u0163ii. Indore, din nou<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Aflu de la ea c\u0103, p\u00e2n\u0103-n 1983, avem \u00eenc\u0103 program de schimburi culturale. Ni se apropie Almora.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

pironesc platitudini cu priviri de pe sub ochi \u00eenghe\u0163 \u00eentr-un tunel cutremurat dimine\u0163ile renun\u0163 \u015fi deschid capul \u015fi merg pe jos \u015fi scriu ce nu mi se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 \u0163ip la studen\u0163ii de cret\u0103 a\u015ftept copil\u0103ria la pr\u00e2nz mi-e fric\u0103 de somn \u015fi de sati \u00een sanscrit\u0103<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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29. 08. 81. Delhi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00centr-un plic, dup\u0103 ore, \u00eenainte de commitee of courses, o carte de vizit\u0103, adres\u00e2ndu-mi-se cu <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>stimate tovar\u0103\u015fe Dr. Anca<\/span><\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/span> , cu <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>dv<\/span><\/span>\u201d,<\/span><\/span> \u015fi invit\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>\u00een vederea unor comunic\u0103ri<\/span><\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/span> pentru luni (ieri), 29 (azi), ori mar\u0163i (mar\u0163i) 30 sept. Am sunat pe n.v. de la vecini: <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>vedem noi<\/span><\/span>\u201d.<\/span><\/span> La clas\u0103, citirea \u00een continuare a unor nume sun\u00e2nd hindu: D\u0103rm\u0103nescu, Gane, Ghica etc. Maiastra \u2013 Milarepa, s-o chema show-ul meu br\u00e2ncu\u015fian \u00een februarie (colaborator tibetan \u015fi hindi). Tibetan Temple. – Milarepa – Indore Palace. The Sculptor \u2013 Anywhere Maiastra.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Capo nu e de acord cu introducerea, la anu<\/span><\/span>‘ <\/span><\/span>a advanced diploma, nici prea \u00eenc\u00e2ntat s\u0103 m\u0103 lase la Varanasi, la congresul sanscrit, dar, dac\u0103 am invita\u0163ie, bine. Am l\u0103sat moart\u0103 \u015fi chestia postului de reader. N-a zis nu, s\u0103 apar\u0103 d-na T. la examen. O propunere ar exista s\u0103 predea \u015fi nevestele lectorilor.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Cu 26 \u015fi pe jos, am ajuns umbrit. Lumea-n pauz\u0103 de pr\u00e2nz (1 \u2013 3). Nevasta noului portar, cu figur\u0103 de actor, \u00eei spune feti\u0163ei lor s\u0103 stea de vorb\u0103, c\u0103 eu sunt rom\u00e2n, nu ca \u0103la. Care-o fi fost \u0103la. Valla-ul cu m\u0103garul intr\u0103 pe poart\u0103. Artistul sun\u0103 goarna. Femeile, cu bijuterii, cu t\u0103\u015fti \u015fi cutii de Johnny Walker, se t\u0103l\u0103ngesc spre poarta cu m\u0103g\u0103rarul, \u0163\u0103r\u0103ne\u015fte, pu\u015fc\u0103ria\u015f.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Dup\u0103 un timp, \u00eemi vine omul. \u00cel a\u015ftept \u00een holul de discu\u0163ii, privind la c\u0103r\u0163i, asistat cu mare \u00eengrijorare de actor: nu-i fusese prea clar c\u0103 n-am bombe ori credea c\u0103 nu pot f\u0103r\u0103 companie: era nou.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

U.R.T. \u015fi-a semnat cererea s\u0103 apar\u0103 la examen \u00een prim\u0103var\u0103. Referin\u0163a mea: Dr Urmila Rani Trikha is the first Indian Sanskrit scholar <\/span><\/span>who has learnt as much Romanian as to be able to translate from it a good number of essential works. One of her translations was appreciated by Professor Satya Vrat Shastri, our dean. Consequently, we will be proud to contribute to formal recognition of her deep proficiency, through the examinations of M.E.L. Department in Romanian.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Popicul a <\/span><\/span>cobor\u00e2t<\/span><\/span> singur, adus de sil<\/span><\/span>\u0103 \u015fi parc\u0103 a \u00eenceput cu <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>suntem informa\u0163i<\/span><\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/span> c\u0103 ai trimis Suzanei G\u00e2dea o list\u0103 de propuneri de oameni care s\u0103 vin\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103-i g\u0103zduie\u015fti d-ta, care te pl\u00e2ngi c\u0103 n-ai ce m\u00e2nca. <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>\u00ce\u0163i comunic oficial c\u0103 nu ai voie s\u0103 trimi\u0163i asemenea propuneri. Nu prin po\u015ft\u0103, prin noi<\/span><\/span>\u201d. <\/span><\/span>Alt\u0103 chestie, mai sinistr\u0103, c\u0103, pentru a treia oar\u0103, min. ed. de pe Nuferilor m\u0103 confirm\u0103, dar UGC, de aici, nu r\u0103spunde, \u015fi c\u0103 el o s\u0103 spun\u0103 c\u0103 au re\u0163ineri. Laud\u0103 ungurului.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Secy ap\u0103ruse, mai cumsecade \u2013 are activit. polit., revelion, reuniuni dansante. Am pledat dou\u0103 ore \u015fi jum\u0103tate la surzi de sfoar\u0103, cu explica\u0163ii \u00een gol, cumplit \u00eentrist\u0103toare. I-am f\u0103cut aten\u0163i s\u0103 m\u0103 trateze pe mine, nu o abera\u0163ie. Replic\u0103 retractil\u0103, nesimpatetic\u0103. Folosul celor cinci volume plus unul. Tovar\u0103\u015ful cu Gierek, nemul\u0163umit, cu d’Estaing, cu Brejnev, cu Arafat, cu Eanes. Poze de maidan, ca \u015fi fund\u0103tura exportului de p\u0103scut la personalitatea aceluia…<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Probabil, prin c\u00e2rciumile bucure\u015ftene se discut\u0103 scrisorile mele. La urma urmei, am cerut 30-40 de oameni s\u0103 vin\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103. Palma a prins. Mi-o dau \u00eenapoi, ritos. La ora asta n-am voie s\u0103 mai trimit o scrisoare acas\u0103<\/span><\/span>?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Fumam la beedi \u015fi mi se vedeau picioarele. Ce-or fi zis portarii de-at\u00e2ta lunga<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>M\u0103 voi reface, dar moartea le va purta amprentele. \u015ei c\u00e2nd te g\u00e2nde\u015fti ce lepre. Ajungi s\u0103 crezi c\u0103 numai militarii mai au amintiri din casa mor\u0163ilor. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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30.09. 81<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Clas\u0103-conversa\u0163ie. Hindu\u015fi \u00een eroare. Cererea d-nei T., predat\u0103. Etajul sanscrit, al \u015fastrelor, din biblioteca mare. La 11, la polonezi \u015fi buddhi\u015fti. Tadeusz Scorupski mi-a p\u0103rut bine-\u00eenfipt \u00een tibetanism, \u00eenchis \u00een sine, p\u00e2n\u0103 la o intermitent\u0103 anticre\u015ftinie. Chiar l-am \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 e cre\u015ftin \u015fi mi-a r\u0103spuns c\u0103 uneori.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

De-acum putusem s\u0103 ne cunoa\u015ftem c\u00e2t de c\u00e2t. \u00cei spusesem c\u0103 a\u015ftept s\u0103-l aud exprim\u00e2ndu-\u015fi ideile neamestecate cu obedien\u0163e exterioare \u015fi el vorbise ca la Londra de buddhismul indo-tubetan \u00eentr-o vrie, chiar dac\u0103 sobr\u0103, istorist\u0103, g\u0103sind viabil\u0103 orice religie printr-o cultur\u0103. Pe Milarepa \u015fi Pdamasambhava (Guru Rimpoche), adu\u015fi \u00een discu\u0163ie de mine \u015fi de b\u0103tr\u00e2na domni\u015foar\u0103 Dr. Sengupta, ni i-a servit din acela\u015fi pachet cu etichet\u0103 didactic\u0103. P\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103, drept op\u0163iune vag\u0103 s\u0103 se fi ar\u0103tat tantrismul ca filosofie practic\u0103 de via\u0163\u0103.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ne-am reunit \u00een jurul musafirului, cu campa \u015fi biscui\u0163i, Tiwari, \u015feful dept. de buddhism, fostul \u015fef, alt prof., Dr. Sengupta, Marek, Lidia \u015fi eu, invitat de to\u0163i. (Nu m\u0103 l\u0103sa inima, din motive \u015ftiute de gazde, cui de refuz discriminator). Deci fiecare a venit cu o idee buddhist\u0103, \u00eendeosebi practicitatea, antimisticismul, rostul guru-ului \u2013 trebuie p\u0103r\u0103sit am crezut, cu voce tare \u2013 dup\u0103 ce te \u00eenva\u0163\u0103 s\u0103 traversezi r\u00e2ul, replicase Tiwari.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Eu am conchis, aproape, despre o un budhism v\u0103zut nu numai ca medita\u0163ie nevie \u2013 D. S. Kotfari punea istoricii \u015fi fizicienii pe o traiectorie vedantin\u0103 \u015fi buddhist\u0103 \u00een asimilarea trecutului, prezentului \u015fi viitorului, plus fizica golului. \u00censu\u015fi shunyata, din <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>nimic<\/span><\/span>\u201d, <\/span><\/span>se prefera <\/span><\/span>\u201c<\/span><\/span>deschidere<\/span><\/span>\u201d.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Cei de la dept. de buddhism se \u00eent\u00e2lnesc la 2 pm \u00een fiece vineri \u015fi, dup\u0103 decan, mi-au extins \u015fi ei o jum\u0103tate de invita\u0163ie. Am mai schimbat c\u00e2teva amabilit\u0103\u0163i reci, separat, cu Scorupski, oferindu-i un <\/span><\/span>Ek shanti<\/em><\/span><\/span>, pentru el, \u015fi unul pentru David Mathew, colegul lui din Londra, cu care m-am \u00een\u0163eles cel mai bine la o mushair\u0103 indo-pakistanez\u0103 prin <\/span><\/span>‘<\/span><\/span>78.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ashok, sp\u0103sit, c\u0103 nu mai crede niciodat\u0103 \u00een indieni, \u00eemi produce aceast\u0103 scrisoare: To Dr. Grorge Anca <\/span><\/span>\/ <\/span><\/span>Ashok Tyagi. <\/span><\/span>\/ <\/span><\/span>Reference your application, dated the 14-9-81 <\/span><\/span>for grant of permission to fils the declaration under section 4\/5 of the press & Registraion of Books Act, 1867 in respect of your newspaper\/magazine entitled ‘<\/span><\/span>inedited<\/em><\/span><\/span>‘ \/ Regitrar of Newspapers & Magazines (ss) \/ Dy Commissioner of Police. Licensing Delhi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Edit redevine Inedit. Treab<\/span><\/span>\u0103<\/span><\/span>rom\u00e2neasc\u0103<\/span><\/span>, <\/span><\/span>de-acum<\/span><\/span>\u015f<\/span><\/span>i indian<\/span><\/span>\u0103<\/span><\/span>. <\/span><\/span>Nansi s-a dus, printre c\u00e2ini, dup\u0103 beedies. C\u00e2t de indieni ne-a pref\u0103cut aventura salv\u0103rii.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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1 octombrie 1981.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Despre fric\u0103 s-a vorbit, ca \u015fi despre diferite crize, din unghiul globalit\u0103\u0163ii nivelante. Sunt at\u00e2tea milioane de frici c\u00e2\u0163i locuitori are patria nici unuia. Speran\u0163a ca <\/span><\/span>Arnota <\/em><\/span><\/span>\u015fi <\/span><\/span>Ave Auru\u015fa <\/em><\/span><\/span>s\u0103 le juc\u0103m \u00een Almora House \u015fi \u00een casa d-nei Sen, sau \u00een vreun ashram, oriunde, spre a le publica, <\/span><\/span>Panch kavyas theatre a deux <\/em><\/span><\/span>by G.A. Fist staged: 1975, <\/span><\/span>M\u0103iastra <\/em><\/span><\/span>(Romanian version), Rm. V\u00e2lcea; 1978, <\/span><\/span>Good luck Radha<\/em><\/span><\/span>, Delhi; <\/span><\/span>Pierrot <\/em><\/span><\/span>\/ Pui de puf<\/em><\/span><\/span>, Shiv Niketan School, New Delhi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Americanii <\/span><\/span>\u015f<\/span><\/span>tiu s<\/span><\/span>\u0103<\/span><\/span> stoarc<\/span><\/span>\u0103<\/span><\/span>mor\u0163ii<\/span><\/span> altora. <\/span><\/span>F. vorbe\u015fte \u00een \u015fase locuri din India despre Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi. Margaret vede Almora ca venind s\u0103-mi vindece t\u00e2mpenia bozgori\u0163ilor de ieri \u015fi-mi mai paseaz\u0103 o tifl\u0103: s\u0103 las r\u0103d\u0103cini \u00een mun\u0163ii \u0103ia cu z\u0103pad\u0103. Oi fi pierdut \u015fi instinctul muntelui. Observa\u0163ia ei c\u0103 aici ne sacrific\u0103m.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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2 octombrie spre vinerea mare<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Disear\u0103, \u00een Almora<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Vrie de co\u015fmar (\u015fi totu\u015fi parc\u0103 nici de murit n-ar fi chestie de moment), vria de lucru, vria de \u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2niere, \u015fi c\u00e2te vrii cinstite periculos peste \u00eenn\u0103scutele obedinen\u0163e la a primi \u015fi absorbi, de a nu da \u015fi nu cadorisi nici feciorii nici sufletul, pe care ni-l d\u0103m involuntar \u00eentr-una.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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3 octombrie 1981 Almora<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

De ziua de na\u015ftere a lui Mahatma Gandhi, ieri, toat\u0103 ziua, am c\u0103l\u0103torit spre Almora cu ochii plini de ce peisaje… C\u0103mile de p\u0103m\u00e2nt ne purtau setea pe margini de nimic, dar drumul se ad\u00e2ncea de la sine \u00eentru nem\u0103surat\u0103 m\u0103rginire a vechilor sentimente. Au trebuit s\u0103 vin\u0103 mun\u0163ii, des\u0103ila\u0163i \u00een fascina\u0163ii albe pe \u015fei.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Seara pl\u0103team toll tax de intrare \u00een Almora. De diminea\u0163\u0103, din fa\u0163a casei al c\u0103rei musafir fusese \u015fi Rabindranath Tagore, am privit, printre albu\u015furi uria\u015fe de nori, treimea \u00eenz\u0103pezit\u0103 Trishul. Coco\u015ful ne trezise din neadormire \u015fi Nana s-a l\u0103sat r\u0103pit\u0103 de zorii Ushas, dup\u0103 ce Calea Laptelui ne d\u0103ruise cu cele mai multe stele. De vreo trei ore, tr\u0103im \u00eenceputul primei zile \u00een Almora, cu auzul plin de greieri neobosi\u0163i.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Nana \u015fi Nitu, cu c\u00e2inii nepalezi, printre brazii argintii \u015fi aranjamentele horticole ale lui Surjit, Deputy Commisioner of Almora District. Doamna ne arat\u0103 fotografii de familie din c\u00e2teva \u0163\u0103ri \u015fi nenum\u0103rate ritualuri. Triste\u0163ea speculat\u0103 ne apropie informal. Mun\u0163ii \u015fi soarele din jur au ajuns la v\u00e2rsta noastr\u0103 de acum, nu ne mai permit, ca de mult, emana\u0163ii vesele ca pentru zei de niciodat\u0103. Dar ne d\u0103ruie cu zei de totdeauna.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Clopotele unei biserici cre\u015ftine pe cine-or fi chem\u00e2nd<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>R\u0103spund \u00eempu\u015fc\u0103turi. Gazda:<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I hear a blind corolla<\/p>\n

I see a lightning without memory<\/p>\n

dunya ati pita<\/p>\n

Zilele lui Rama. Ramlila \u00een Almora. Lec\u0163ie de muzic\u0103 indian\u0103 \u00een Almora House. S\u0103 fie numai triste\u0163e? <\/span><\/span>P\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi-n be\u0163ia v\u00e2rfurilor<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Bucuria se reg\u0103se\u015fte pe sine \u00een sahrdaya. Ori va fi fiind o bucurie suprem\u0103 s\u0103 fii trist, astfel fiind esen\u0163ialmente.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Zi fissiporous \u2013 toddler \u2013 monoculist\u0103, dodist\u0103, stephanian\u0103, fistul\u0103, ucidere cu o m\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi dou\u0103 cu\u0163ite, cu dou\u0103 m\u00e2ini \u015fi trei cu\u0163ite. Masterji Tara, la armoniu, tabla, sitar, compozi\u0163ie. Jumali, jumali, jumali \u2013 \u00een pahari, f\u0103r\u0103 mil\u0103.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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4. 10. 81<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

A doua zi, dup\u0103 a treia, cea mai dormit\u0103 noapte \u00een Almora H. De diminea\u0163\u0103, amfitrionul, sosit de la Nainital, ne intimeaz\u0103 c\u0103 Sumitranandan Pant e al Almorei. Lucrurile merg spre poezie. Ca \u015fi Dodona, dodia ar suna \u00eenenglez\u0103: pudenda. Uite c\u0103 englezoaice care-au renun\u0163at s\u0103 \u00eenve\u0163e francez\u0103 din cauza unor cuvinte sun\u00e2ndu-le de nepronun\u0163at, au venit \u015fi pe aici \u015fi-au r\u0103mas etern.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Dac\u0103, t\u00e2n\u0103r, careva a scris la nebunie versuri, apoi \u00ee\u015fi strig\u0103, \u00een cel mai bun caz, asta a fost o parte din via\u0163a mea, \u015fi o neag\u0103 \u00een pletora impostoare de acum. Iar tu lauzi nu chiar oarecare al vechilor lui scrieri. \u00cel mai \u015fi visezi duc\u00e2ndu-se, din banc\u0103, la mai marele care-l recomand\u0103 drept exemplu celorlal\u0163i. Te mai \u015fi plimbi printre cosmos \u015fi greieri, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd o strun\u0103, tot metalic\u0103, de comuniune sensibil\u0103. Nici antinatural\u0103, nici areligioas\u0103 \u00eentru transmutata-i poeticitate.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Curg\u00e2nd cu pietrele \u00eenchipuite r\u00e2uri pe o potec\u0103 fanteziind \u015fi oprindu-te \u00een fa\u0163a verziciunii apei, adus\u0103 \u00een rond de copaci galbeni \u00eenflori\u0163i. Apoi descinz\u00e2nd printre pinii elefantieni spre admirarea tot a florilor \u015fi sunetelor. \u015ei \u00eenchei sus, \u00een curte iar\u0103\u015fi, cercul pentru \u00eenc\u0103 o roat\u0103. \u015ei-\u0163i \u00eenchipui c\u0103 preten\u0163iile celor care se pretind c\u0103 sunt singurii \u00een drept s\u0103 le aib\u0103. Se vor mai \u00eembl\u00e2nzi. Cred c\u0103 gre\u015fe\u015fti<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Mai scrie tu, dac\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i mai vine, ce t\u00e2n\u0103r te fr\u0103m\u00e2ntai printre mun\u0163ii t\u0103i. \u015ei-acum refuzi a te eterniza dintr-o etichet\u0103. Cumva strigat\u0103, ori impus\u0103. Ar fi loc poate de vreo amintire. Ori de vreo fantezie, \u00eempu\u0163inat\u0103 la rigoare. Num\u0103r\u0103toarea sunetelor vie\u0163ii nu numai c\u0103 ar continua, dar s-ar \u015fi colora. Doar greierii sunt aici ai tuturor p\u0103durilor t\u0103iate. Fiind orice-or s\u0103 mai creasc\u0103. \u015ei umbli \u015fi te reverezi copac. M\u0103car de care-oi fi, oi fi ars.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

C\u0103ci te vei prinde concuren\u0163\u0103 greierilor \u015fi v\u00e2rfurilor \u00eenz\u0103pezite. \u00cen auz \u015fi la vedere, n-ar fi natural, ar fi subnatural. Aceste diferen\u0163e \u00eentre mentalit\u0103\u0163ile muntenilor. Veni\u0163i, poate nu chiar f\u0103cu\u0163i, poate chiar ren\u0103scu\u0163i. Ne vor fi desp\u0103r\u0163ind \u00een binele nostru. \u00cenc\u0103 de pe acum, \u00eenainte de a ne fi apropiat. Cum pare normal \u015fi frumos. Ca o patim\u0103 desp\u0103r\u0163itoare, \u00eenfocat\u0103 dublu. \u00ce\u015fi face jocul f\u0103r\u0103 mil\u0103. S\u0103 mai c\u00e2nt peisajul. Ori mai \u015fi prive\u015fti. \u00centru renun\u0163area la c\u00e2ntec \u015fi privire. O bl\u00e2nd\u0103 sinucidere \u00een doi<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Adic\u0103 s\u0103 nu mai c\u00e2n\u0163i, s\u0103 nu mai prive\u015fti c\u0103ci at\u00e2ta \u0163i-a mai r\u0103mas.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00een octombrie dumnezeu<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

ne desp\u0103r\u0163ise ziua de \u00eent\u00e2i<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

de restul s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2nii<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

sub soarele dimine\u0163ii Trishul<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

nu fumeg\u0103 asemeni Etnei<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

seara \u00eel revedem de pe acoperi\u015ful<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

de piatr\u0103 \u015fi-i d\u0103m din nou ce este<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

al lui din partea noastr\u0103 pentru<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

restul s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2nii din partea<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

pinilor sfin\u0163i de mai demult<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

astfel de-ai fi \u00een firea timpului<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

am crede c\u0103 ne-ai trimis \u0163ie \u00eensu\u0163i<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u015fi ne-am ruga p\u00e2n\u0103 t\u00e2rziu de-nt\u00e2i<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

de care ne-ai desp\u0103r\u0163it m\u00e2ntuitor<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00eentru slava ta \u00een alt loc<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

dar tot timpul pare restul<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

timpului \u015fi ziua de-nt\u00e2i<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

am \u00eenceput-o \u00eentr-un miez de noapte<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00eentreit \u015fi \u00eentunecat nefumeg\u00e2nd<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

numai asemenea Etnei<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

nu mai zic de Etna v\u0103zut\u0103 din Taormina<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

de Trishul v\u0103zut din Almora<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

de Pirandello v\u0103zut din Shri Ram Theatre<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

sunt vederi ale serii \u00een cer deodat\u0103<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

ce se vor face stele nehimalaiene<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

pentru stejarii himalaieni<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u015fi vocile auzite de portocale \u00eenainte de a \u00eeng\u0103lbeni<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

auzite de \u00eentuneric dup\u0103 facerea lumii<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

auzite de departe de sufletul mamei<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

nu mai aude dec\u00e2t greierii \u015fi vocile care se aud<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

ceva trec\u0103tori c\u0103tre Daldi o pas\u0103re necunoscut\u0103<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u015fi tot ce a\u015ftepts\u0103 aud p\u00e2n\u0103 mai t\u00e2rziu<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

o mezzoprivighetoare \u00een cel mai bun caz<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

tradus\u0103 la telefon pentru nepoata nonagenar\u0103<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

a transcendentalistului num\u0103rul unu<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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6 octombrie 1981, Almora.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Se va urni afar\u0103 soarele peste Trishul ca \u00eentotdeauna, niciodat\u0103 v\u0103zut de noi. Ieri petrecusem \u00een bazarul sculptat, catapeteasm\u0103 \u00eentre Kumaun \u015fi restul Himalaiei. Frumuse\u0163ea fetelor localnice str\u0103luce\u015fte \u00een replic\u0103 z\u0103pezilor ve\u015fnice de sus. B\u0103tr\u00e2nii \u015fi copiii se leag\u0103n\u0103 unii pe al\u0163ii, \u00een pa\u015fi. B\u0103rba\u0163ii admir\u0103 peisajul \u00een treac\u0103t. Din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd, alt Ravana michelangelian r\u0103sare pe trei sferturi, f\u0103r\u0103 cap \u00eenc\u0103, de 4-5 metri, \u00een vecin\u0103tate de temple \u015fi feudalism de \u015fopuri.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Caprele cu urechi cl\u0103p\u0103uge, frun\u0163i bombate, ochi introver\u015fi, se dezl\u00e2n\u0163uie bl\u00e2nde mai peste tot, \u00een \u015firuri, c\u00e2te una, b\u0103tr\u00e2ne \u015fi iede. Una m\u0103cel\u0103rit\u0103 \u00eentr-o mic\u0103 m\u0103cel\u0103rie. Dou\u0103 la u\u015f\u0103, rumeg\u00e2nd \u00een ne\u015ftiut\u0103 a\u015fteptare a r\u00e2ndului. M\u0103rfurile moderne primeaz\u0103 de departe, dar desf\u0103\u015furarea lor p\u0103streaz\u0103 un ritm \u00eemp\u0103cat, poate \u015fi sub nimbul zilelor de Ramlila.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Pu\u0163inii str\u0103ini par a se fi asimilat atmosferei. O stranie lini\u015fte solar\u0103, \u00een fluxul acestor pahari, \u00eempestri\u0163a\u0163i de c\u00e2te un tibetan tricot\u00e2nd vijelios \u00een v\u0103zul gr\u0103bit al trec\u0103torilor. Uitasem \u015fi de casa lui Vivekananda, atra\u015fi la vale \u015fi la deal de magnetul artificialului meticulos \u015fi rezonant al vechiului bazar, cu oameni frumo\u015fi \u00eentre vestigii de mun\u0163i \u0163\u0103rmuitori.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Fusese o diminea\u0163\u0103 de luni nemai\u00eempins\u0103 \u00een iz\u00e2n\u0103 de vreo duminic\u0103 dinainte \u015fi ne-o spuneam \u00eentre noi \u015fi gazdelor. Dup\u0103 pr\u00e2nz, Surjit \u00eemi citea poeme chineze\u015fti \u015fi de Gunther Grass. A ap\u0103rut, alb masiv, her George Nadara, \u015fi mai apoi doamna, austriecii. El mi-a spus cur\u00e2nd \u00een am\u0103nunt din legendele lui Vlad \u0162epe\u015f. Sunt indieni, antieuropeni, de zeci de ani. Copiii le tr\u0103iesc \u00een Anglia. Ei \u00eei a\u015fteapt\u0103 din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd pe aici. Fum\u0103m \u0163ig\u0103ri de foi \u015fi glumim cu fericire cu tot.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Spre cinci suntem oaspe\u0163ii doamnei Gertrude Emerson Sen, care ne a\u015fteapt\u0103 perfect preg\u0103tit\u0103. Casa, nu numai muzeu. Fotoliul \u00een care a stat Tagore. Bastonul lui Vivekananda. Portretele domnului Sen. Tone de c\u0103r\u0163i, albastrul proasp\u0103t al scaunelor. B\u0103tr\u00e2na doamn\u0103 de 91 de ani, noi \u2013 ceaiul este \u00een cinstea rom\u00e2nilor. Fixat cu dou\u0103 s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni \u00een urm\u0103.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Familia ziaristului de marc\u0103 Bhatacharya \u015fi a gazdelor noastre, oamenii nr. 1 ai locului. Gazda de acum m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 dint\u00e2i dac\u0103 mai exist\u0103 Bohemia, unde a lucrat tat\u0103l ei, parc\u0103 arheologie, \u015fi care sigur va fi \u015ftiut \u015fi Rom\u00e2nia. Ea \u00eens\u0103\u015fi a venit din Constantinopol \u00een Bucure\u015fti \u00een 1922, \u00een trecere. \u00cen tinere\u0163e, dup\u0103 un an de profesorat la Chicago \u015fi dup\u0103 ce scrisese \u00een 24 de \u0163\u0103ri latino-americane, oferindu-\u015fi serviciile, a pornit-o spre Asia. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ajunge \u00een 1913 \u00een China \u015fi Japonia, fiind director al revistei <\/span><\/span>Asia. <\/em><\/span><\/span>\u00cei face pl\u0103cere s\u0103 evoce un interviu luat lui Gandhi, primul, \u00een Lahore. A luat, t\u00e2rziu, dou\u0103 palme, din simpatie, de la p\u0103rintele na\u0163iunii, c\u00e2nd i-ar fi spus c\u0103 a \u00eengropat noua violen\u0163\u0103. Din China, d-na B. insist\u0103 asupra costumelor – \u015fase \u2013 ale lui Silviu Brucan, repet\u00e2ndu-i \u015fi bancuri chino-rom\u00e2ne\u015fti, via ru\u015fi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Lu\u0103m dinner-ul la maiorul Mj. Gurnam Singh. O piele de piton, o Almor\u0103 imaginar\u0103 pictat\u0103 \u2013 o hart\u0103 pe ceramic\u0103 a Insulei Mauritius, A doua mes\u0103 cu Old Monk, topul romanului indian. Solda\u0163ii au prins un pui de maimu\u0163\u0103 \u015fi copiii au ce face. Declarasem c\u0103 nimeni nu m\u0103 place \u00een India, iar ei, c\u0103 a\u015f fi bun pentru ce fac ei.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

R\u0103s\u0103ritul soarelui pe Trishul, pe Nanda-Devi, pe Iclesia. O maimu\u0163\u0103 ro\u015fie \u00een pin, amenin\u0163at\u0103 din gur\u0103 \u015fi cu pu\u015fca, apoi cu o piatr\u0103, de un soldat. Golda a urcat pe acoperi\u015f s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103. Au trecut trei ore. Plimbare spre leprozerie, printre puie\u0163ii n\u0103cl\u0103i\u0163i de almor\u0103. \u00cen Almora mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 fiu spaniol \u2013 la mia alma in Almora, un romancero, ceva.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

7.10. 81. Bansir, ieri.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Templu Shiva. \u00cenapoi, un palat al mun\u0163ilor al milionarului gujarati. Foi\u015for de lucru, c\u0103zi de bambus, Kumaun, colec\u0163ii de sculpturi \u015fi tapiserii clasice \u015fi moderne, templul personal, c\u0103prioara, florile, leag\u0103nele. C\u0103r\u0103rile ar reflecta, spune, sufletul s\u0103u. Seam\u0103n\u0103 cu Balachunder, maestrul veena.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Suntem pu\u015fi la mas\u0103. A c\u0103l\u0103torit peste tot \u015fi a scris despre. Are o vil\u0103 \u015fi vapoare la Bombay, pentru iarn\u0103. Marea \u00eel atrage c\u00e2t \u015fi muntele. Surjit, c\u0103 d-na B. auzise de la Brucan cum rom\u00e2nii \u00eei cer lui Dumnezeu, ca ultim\u0103 dorin\u0163\u0103, s\u0103 aib\u0103 la cin\u0103 pe to\u0163i chinezii, dar s\u0103 treac\u0103 prin Rusia. N. adapteaz\u0103: \u015fi noi s\u0103 chem\u0103m la cin\u0103 pe ru\u015fi, via China.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Particularul, c\u00eet de bogat, ar fi interesat s\u0103 lucreze oric\u00e2t pentru el \u015fi pentru nimeni altcineva. El vrea s\u0103 cultive copaci \u00een p\u0103durea lui, ori a statului, pentru c\u0103-i iube\u015fte, \u015fi vrea s\u0103 nu fie penalizat. A plantat \u015fi trei mii de meri. Vorbe\u015fte de Basarabia familiar. A fost \u00een Rusia dup\u0103 dou\u0103 luni petrecute \u00een Occcident. Contrastul i-a s\u0103rit \u00een ochi, industriile fiind mai slabe \u00een a doua, ca \u015fi standardul de via\u0163\u0103. Ca teme indiene, se mul\u0163ume\u015fte s\u0103-\u015fi contemple propria situa\u0163ie oarecum \u00een pericol.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Seara citim Gerald Hopkins, apoi Pascal \u00een original, \u015fi ne d\u0103m cu p\u0103rerea unul despre altul. Suntem reinvita\u0163i \u00een decembrie, sau chiar \u00een var\u0103 (c\u00e2nd au mul\u0163i musafiri). Diminea\u0163a, relu\u0103m discu\u0163ia printre mun\u0163i, arbori \u015fi flori. – \u015etii c\u0103 pre\u015fedintele Sadat a fost asasinat<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>– Ru\u015fii<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>– Rom\u00e2nii! – Indienii.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Puja paka n-ar fi fost azi, dar azi, \u00een ochii multora, \u015fi ai copiilor, \u015fi ai fetelor noastre, caprele au fost decapitate. Oare \u015fi c\u0103prioara tuturor solitudinilor, de ieri, s\u0103-\u015fi fi a\u015ftept\u00e2nd r\u00e2ndul \u00een pr\u0103pastia din jurul uria\u015fei linga<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Fran\u0163uzoaicele ar fi asistat cu pl\u0103cere la execu\u0163ii. Copilul \u0103sta pribeag s-a pref\u0103cut \u00een ied \u015fi, amestecat pe golgota lor din Bazar, \u00ee\u015fi va fi isp\u0103\u015fit iezii amorezii.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Bine c\u0103 fetele s-au sc\u0103ldat \u00een soare. Ast\u0103-sear\u0103 vor fi din nou regine, una bengalez\u0103, una pahari. Nana c\u00e2nt\u0103 colinde, acompaniindu-se la tabla. Nitu \u00eemi cere pove\u015fti \u00eenainte de culcare. P\u0103rin\u0163i-socri vor \u00eentregi interiorul teatrului. M\u00e2ine pe vremea asta, ne apropiem de Delhi ca de o cas\u0103 mai singuratic a noastr\u0103. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Soarele de aici ni se va insinua \u00een amintire cu s\u00e2ngele caprelor decapitate ca pentru nimfomanie; \u00een fapt, ele \u00eentrec\u00e2ndu-\u015fi sacrificatorii prim\u0103vara, vara, toamna, iarna, dar aici se petrec \u015fase anotimpuri. S-a sf\u00e2r\u015fit \u0163igara de foi, \u015fi conversa\u0163iile noastre, de la munte la munte, ne asurzesc gratuit, ca \u015fi miezurile lor. Ceva a mai fi r\u0103mas de fumat \u015fi v\u00e2ntul r\u00e2ure\u015fte pinii golindu-i de somnul lini\u015ftii muncite mai mult de greieri.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

S\u0103 nu existe loc de m\u0103rturisire dec\u00e2t \u00een s\u00e2ngele \u015firoind mistic din g\u00e2tul iezilor<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>Nu l-am v\u0103zut. Mi-am v\u0103zut copilul fugit de la vedere dup\u0103 ce v\u0103zuse \u015fi amenin\u0163\u00e2nd c\u0103 niciodat\u0103 nu se va mai duce la copiii maiorului.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

R\u0103m\u00e2nem c\u0103l\u0103tori \u00een noi \u00een\u015fine, \u00eempreuna\u0163i c\u00e2te pu\u0163in \u015fi cu mirare, \u00een s\u00e2ngele \u00eemp\u0103r\u0103\u0163iilor ce ne-au g\u0103zduit. Mereu mai pigmenta\u0163i, doar-doar ni s-o p\u0103rea a ne plimba necontenit \u015fi silnic printr-un abator. Clopotele leprozeriei bat numai duminica \u2013 vor bate mereu<\/span><\/span>?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Finalurile literaturii s\u0103n\u0103toase \u00ee\u015fi g\u0103sesc etern darul de a contrazice povestea, ce, \u00een loc s\u0103 se sf\u00e2r\u015feasc\u0103, se refuz\u0103 cu \u00eenceput cu tot. Cr\u0103unitul ciorii pe o singur\u0103 inspira\u0163ie este mai des trinitar \u015fi dual, ca literatura. Cum s\u0103 m\u0103 rog pentru poeme de pe acoperi\u015f<\/span><\/span>?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Nev\u0103zutul meu spate este jum\u0103tate din peisaj, inclusiv soarele, dar, \u00een lumina pierdut\u0103 din fa\u0163a mea a pre-amurgului, salut r\u0103coarea \u00eenfrigurat\u0103 a v\u00e2ntului de sear\u0103, ce va trezi cu greu, stea dup\u0103 stea, ajutate de lun\u0103 \u015fi luceaf\u0103r. Un kilogram de carne ar costa \u00een Japonia 300 de rupii. Dar de capr\u0103<\/span><\/span>? <\/span><\/span>O sut\u0103.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

at\u00e2tea iaduri Gertrude<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

ale fiec\u0103ruia de la fiecare<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

din Taormina la Almora<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u015fi florile de cosmos din Homer<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

cu ochi de Afrodit\u0103 privind puja paka<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00een numele orbului leprosului sf\u00e2ntului balaur<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

pe acoperi\u015ful p\u0103m\u00e2ntului acesta pahari<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

mi-a fost \u015fi drag\u0103 \u0163igara de foi<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

de iaduri nenum\u0103rate Gertrude<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

8. 10. 1981. Almora.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Asear\u0103, re\u00eent\u00e2lnire cu maiorul, nevasta \u015fi unul din copii. Ordonan\u0163a tocmai ne aducea o scrisoare \u015fi filmul, nedevelopat (… nu func\u0163ionase curentul). Mai aveau \u00eenc\u0103 bindu din s\u00e2nge de capr\u0103 pe frunte. 24 fuseser\u0103 decapitate dintr-o singur\u0103 lovitur\u0103, deci nicio piaz\u0103 rea, \u00een v\u0103zul solda\u0163ilor a\u015ftept\u00e2ndu-\u015fi s\u0103rb\u0103toarea, mai departe \u015fi dinner-ul, ofi\u0163erilor, nevestelor \u015fi copiilor lor. Nana \u015fi Nitu au fost singurele care, la primul cap c\u0103zut, au fugit acas\u0103 \u00eensp\u0103im\u00e2ntate.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Mj. tocmai voia s-o vad\u0103, dar ea refuzase s\u0103 vin\u0103. Am mai gustat Old Monk. Sporov\u0103ial\u0103. Au venit b\u0103tr\u00e2nii. Fetele au dat spectacol \u00een hindi, cu c\u00e2ntece \u015fi dansuri. La dinner, am discutat despre miere, pisici, c\u00e2ini, copaci. Mg. avusese un seminar despre con\u015ftiin\u0163\u0103. Un articol de mistic\u0103 de la N. Protocol. Port Sadat.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

S\u00e2ngele caprelor fecioare a aburit p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een amurg, \u015fi norii imacula\u0163i de peste Trishul se \u00eenro\u015fiser\u0103. Toat\u0103 Almora s-a rev\u0103rsat \u00een sacrificiu. Aici capra, \u00een Nepal boul desc\u0103p\u0103\u0163\u00e2nat dintr-o lovitur\u0103. Ca un pa\u015fte, un cr\u0103ciun, o v\u00e2n\u0103toare, ni se zice. Dar toat\u0103 lumea frenetic\u0103 la \u0163\u00e2\u015fnetul s\u00e2ngelui?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Sunt asigurat c\u0103 inocenta c\u0103prioar\u0103 a milionarului n-a fost sacrificat\u0103. St\u0103p\u00e2nul ei ar putea motiva c\u0103 a fost bolnav\u0103 \u015fi c\u0103 singur\u0103 a urmat norii \u00eenro\u015fi\u0163i de sacrificiu. \u015ei atunci am zice de o contribu\u0163ie cum se expusese Mj. Neg\u0103sindu-i-o.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Europeni sut\u0103 la sut\u0103 ur\u00e2nd Europa (dar \u015fi pe pahari), admiratori ai lui Hitler, pustnici milionari, guvernan\u0163i misogini \u2013 desigur nu numai printre pinii \u015fi supinii de aici. R\u0103s\u0103ritul r\u0103spunde dinspre sine: cu alt s\u00e2nge?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Avem cafea, \u015fi at\u00e2t gazdele tinere c\u00e2t \u015fi cuplul academic \u015fi p\u0103rinte, precum \u015fi singularul celei de-a treia genera\u0163ii ne petrec la ma\u015fina de lux care ne-a adus \u00een autogar\u0103, \u00eenc\u00e2t ne g\u0103sim, destul de proaspe\u0163i, \u00een autobuz, la ferestre pe st\u00e2nga (Nana \u015fi eu). \u00cei tot spun Nanei de Himalaya, de \u00een\u0103l\u0163imea lor. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Cu Nanda Devi \u015fi Trishul, n-avem dec\u00e2t s\u0103 ne sim\u0163im capre demne de Durga mata \u2013 va trebui mereu \u015fi mereu s\u0103 ne scarific\u0103m noi \u00een\u015fine, ori mereu \u015fi mereu s\u0103 ne l\u0103s\u0103m sacrifica\u0163i de orice fiin\u0163\u0103 ori nefiin\u0163\u0103 ivit\u0103 \u00een cale? S\u0103 fie tot una?<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Din Almora, plec\u0103m cu plinul sentiment al sacrificiului ritual, care nu contrazice, vai, poezia. Ba o muste\u015fte cald s\u00e2ngeros \u00eentru divinitate. C\u00e2t ne-am fi \u00eemb\u0103iat \u00een vorbe desonorizate, ne cuprinde decorul ce oricui i-ar suna crud, dac\u0103 nu degoutant, cum am \u015fi auzit. Orice drepturi ne-ar fi luate, ni-l lu\u0103m \u015fi noi pe cel al reflec\u0163iei \u00eentr-un exterior de alt\u0103 natur\u0103 (poate numai \u00een aparen\u0163\u0103).<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Seara, pe la 7, ajun\u015fi \u00een Delhi, pe la 8, acas\u0103. O scrisoare din T\u00e2rgovi\u015fte, de la tata. \u00cei scriu r\u0103spunsul himalayan pe ultima aerogram\u0103 din cas\u0103. Vecinii ne-au primit ca pe unii de-ai lor. Ne sim\u0163im mai bine aici.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Drumul de \u00eentoarcere, prin Dussera ora\u015felor de munte \u015fi de c\u00e2mpie, printre puhoaie fericite \u00een \u0163\u0103r\u00e2na iluziilor colosale str\u0103juite pretutindeni de va\u015fti m\u0103t\u0103huzi \u2013 efigii ale lui Ravana \u015fi fratelui s\u0103u a\u015ftept\u00e2ndu-\u015fi ispa\u015fa, la apus de soare, \u00een euforia mul\u0163imilor luminate la propriu de fl\u0103c\u0103rile bubuitoare m\u0103cin\u00e2nd neamul sf\u00e2nt al r\u0103pitorilor Sitei.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Egretele infailibile ori vulturii rujeol\u00e2ndu-\u015fi din cadavre \u00eentunecimea zborului, umbrele-p\u0103uni \u015fi p\u0103unii-umbre prin imperiile de trestie, ninsoarea florilor de pai-tropic. Minele autobuzelor dobor\u00e2te deun\u0103zi de ciocniri \u015fi derap\u0103ri, palmierii gener\u00e2nd zodii de orez \u015fi gr\u00e2u, n\u0103moalele de lotu\u015fi \u00een iad verde, avatarul p\u0103catului himalayan. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Toate se topeau \u00een \u015firuri f\u0103r\u0103 hotar de oameni \u00een alb gandhian. Cu toate rikshele \u00een isterie, c\u0103r\u00e2nd \u015fi paraliticii, cu \u00een\u015fi\u015fi cer\u015fetorii liberi de lepr\u0103 ori boli ale aceleia\u015fi profesii. \u00cen care trase de c\u0103mile, de boi \u00een\u0103du\u015fi\u0163i de galop \u015fi b\u00e2t\u0103. \u015ei iar pe jos \u00een cohorta incomparabil\u0103 condens\u00e2ndu-se din orizonturile umane ale Uttar Pradesh-ului.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ne alungam din Dussera \u00een Dussera, nemaistr\u0103ini dar \u015fi nemainoi. \u00cen cinste pentru dreptatea de a fi ars ca Ravana. Negustorind amintirile laice \u00een eterna preg\u0103tire pentru clipa stagnant\u0103 a actului cu, nici samba nici s\u00e2nge, doar \u00eenghesuial\u0103 a s\u0103rb\u0103torii. Fie-ne zilele dup\u0103 Dussera aceasta, \u00een care ne-am \u00eencheiat c\u0103l\u0103toria la Almora himalayan\u0103, \u00eenceput\u0103 \u00een ziua de na\u015ftere a lui Mahatma, zile de bine \u015fi aducere aminte.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

9. oct. 81. Delhi.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Banca \u00eenchis\u0103. Niciun ban, micio distrac\u0163ie, nici m\u00e2ncare. Cald. Blond\u0103 singur\u0103 cu fiul \u015fi mai blond. Reproduceri de mandale tibetane. Chere Madme Sen, nous vous remecions pour la belle soiree… true, Gertrude, tanti naraks… vraiment, Gertrude, tant d’ enfers…<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

triste s\u0103rb\u0103torile altora (\u015fi ce pierdu\u0163i \u00een ale noastre mai eram) iar ceilal\u0163i fie c\u0103 n-or \u015fti ce e r\u00e2sul parc\u0103 le ajunge lumina \u00een bucuria sacrificiului \u00een lume<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

ne vedem \u00eempin\u015fi cu cotul pe dreptate anume sinuciga\u015fi din locuri reci \u015fi cu buzunarele goale acelora\u015fi stele ne\u00eemp\u0103rt\u0103\u015fi\u0163i la fel \u00een presupus sim\u0163 critic al na\u0163iunii pure<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00eenc\u0103 o zi peste una alta ci timpul ne-a \u00eenecat din spa\u0163iu \u00een spa\u0163iu p\u00e2n\u0103 pe loc ne \u00eenz\u0103pezim \u015fi \u00een Himalya \u015fi \u00een scrisoarea de la T\u00e2rgovi\u015fte \u015fi-n refuzul de la Varanasi \u015fi-n s\u00e2ngele caprelor din garnizoana de r\u0103zboi secund<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Dumenzeu nu ne \u00eentreab\u0103 ce-am f\u0103cut via\u0163a ce triste\u0163e zei ce tri\u015fti veseli numai la r\u0103zboi cu tot s\u00e2ngele din noi la mutare atei\u015fti<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

libertate \u015fi triste\u0163e India s\u0103 ne r\u0103sfe\u0163e pe butucul muntelui s\u00e2ngele desc\u00e2ntului trupului s\u0103rutului viului ascunsului sfin\u0163ilor pl\u00e2nsului s\u00e2ngerului tristului sexului \u00eentr\u00eensului linga dansatorului suflet Kumaunului devi alb\u0103 dorului oache\u015f\u0103 odorului umbr\u0103 zbur\u0103torului abanos sculptorului smoal\u0103 must\u0103ciosului lun\u0103-apocalipsului<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

am pl\u00e2ns la tropic tot vis\u0103tor c\u0103 ne murise maica oaselor cea de lemn \u015fi de sora vie am pl\u00e2ns de dor tot la tropic \u015fi de c\u00e2te o femeie liber\u0103 de mine \u00een r\u00e2s \u015fi pl\u00e2ns niciuna s\u0103 m\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 asemeni st\u0103p\u00e2nilor de femei \u015fi de \u0163\u0103ri asasina\u0163i din dragoste<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

de c\u00e2nd noaptea nu mai e femeie \u015fi nu mai vrea s\u0103 fie nici noapte femeile nu mai sunt nop\u0163i \u015fi nu mai vor s\u0103 fie nici femei b\u0103rba\u0163ii nu mai sunt nop\u0163i \u015fi nu mai vor s\u0103 fie nici b\u0103rba\u0163i \u015fi de c\u00e2nd s-a f\u0103cut noapte femeie b\u0103rbat mi-a trecut via\u0163a Dumnezeule mare nume de femei mame numai mame nume b\u0103tr\u00e2ne de la na\u015ftere la moarte \u015fi \u00eenapoi f\u0103r\u0103 r\u00e2s nici al s\u00e2ngelui \u00eenlocuindu-le himenul v\u00e2ltori pl\u00e2nse cu lum\u00e2n\u0103ri c\u00e2t triste\u0163ea b\u0103rba\u0163ilor fiilor c\u0103lu\u015farilor \u00een\u015fela\u0163ilor nesur\u00e2z\u0103torilor mu\u015fca\u0163ilor dictatorilor impoten\u0163ilor platnicilor \u00eenr\u00e2uritorilor \u00eensp\u0103im\u00e2nta\u0163ilor eroilor patronilor fochi\u015ftilor<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

de la munte am adus ce-am dus dusesem ce-am adus \u0163easta c\u0103 nu mi-a r\u0103spuns nici pieptul nici restul \u015fi tu ai adus ce n-ai dus \u015fi ai adus ce-ai dus un somn \u00een loc de drag \u015fi poate o cutremurare a \u0163estei \u0163\u00e2\u0163elor restului \u00een Himalaya de data trecut\u0103 hai la culcare <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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