{"id":24890,"date":"2015-09-04T08:11:20","date_gmt":"2015-09-04T08:11:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/?p=24890"},"modified":"2015-09-04T08:11:20","modified_gmt":"2015-09-04T08:11:20","slug":"george-anca-nenorocirea-fericirii-lui-salg","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/2015\/09\/04\/george-anca-nenorocirea-fericirii-lui-salg\/","title":{"rendered":"George Anca: Nenorocirea fericirii lui Salg"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\" align=\"center\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/george-anca2.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-medium wp-image-24891\" title=\"george anca2\" src=\"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/george-anca2-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/george-anca2-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/09\/george-anca2.jpg 720w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" \/><\/a>NENOROCIREA FERICIRII LUI SALG<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">7. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Alegerile studen\u0163ilor, mai pa\u015fnice dec\u00e2t ale profesorilor. Mi-au pomenit demisia din DUTA, \u00een glum\u0103, \u015fi nu m-am acceptat filosof, dar scriitor. Miercurea viitoare e ziua lui Guru Nanak. Nu \u015fi a lui Fernando, deci \u2013 trebuie s\u0103-l reprogramez, de la Y.M.C.A., pentru joi ori vineri. Dac\u0103 nu zboar\u0103. Bhose mi-a \u0163inut, m\u0103garul, cererea. Niciun chef de dactilo, \u015fi totu\u015fi. B\u0103iatul de la CBI s-a distrat cu o fraz\u0103 din \u201cNight Sanatorium\u201d &#8211; am introdus, deci, limbajul traducerii viselor. Descindere neanun\u0163at\u0103 \u2013 R\u0103doi-Leu, cu o sut\u0103 de exemplare din <em>Indian Observer<\/em>, cu articolul meu, nesemnat. Vor JNU. M\u0103 descurajeaz\u0103, cu Aurangabad. \u00cemi cer raport anual. Am zis de Hetzler \u015fi societatea ei.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cen final, \u00eemi inspecteaz\u0103 manuscrisul romanului \u2013 de ce \u00een englez\u0103? Se aga\u0163\u0103 \u015fi mai inginere\u015fte \u00eentreb\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 ce vreau s\u0103 spun de manuscrisul rom\u00e2nesc <em>P\u0103duri \u00eentre noi. <\/em>M-am \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at cu prostia lor. \u015ei-au sc\u0103zut din represivitate. Par uneori chiar rom\u00e2ni.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nansi m\u0103 convoac\u0103 s\u0103 punem papagalul \u00een colivie. L-am pus. Colivia e un palat din Kings Way. De-a\u015f bate toat\u0103 noaptea la ma\u015fin\u0103, stimulat de cenzori inexpecta\u0163i, cu formula: am trecut pe aici, nu puteam s\u0103 te ocolim. Erau \u015fi copiii cu ei. Au trebuit s\u0103 \u0163in\u0103 seam\u0103 de maniera mea.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Polonezii, \u00een vizit\u0103, nu v\u0103zuser\u0103 poemul lui Czeslaw Milosz \u00een <em>Illustrated Weekly<\/em> \u2013 li l-am oferit. La povestea cu o catedr\u0103 \u201cLudmyla\u201d \u00een dept.-ul nostru, replic\u0103: \u015fi una \u201cAdam\u201d (Gyerek), chiar dac\u0103 \u0103la o fi \u00een pu\u015fc\u0103rie. Ne mai b\u00e2rfim du\u015fmanii. S\u0103rim de disperare.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">D-na Lila se intereseaz\u0103 de piese rom\u00e2ne\u015fti, pentru studen\u0163ii care vin la ea-n bibliotec\u0103. Discut\u0103m Caragiale, Ciprian, Sorescu. Gata fostele \u201cSaloane\u201d, acum \u201cOf the Savios\u201d. Versiunea englezeasc\u0103 de-o trece ca \u015fi cum n-ar fi existat \u00een rom\u00e2ne\u015fte. \u015ei ne mai crempon\u0103m de inspectori expectori.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Alergie nuclear\u0103. 12 nov. Columbia. Basarab Nicolescu \u00een cerul lui Indra la Paris.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Luni 9. 11. 81 D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cen c\u0103ma\u015f\u0103 indian\u0103, efect imediat \u00een dept. Distribuit <em>The Indian Observer.<\/em> Trimis\u0103 la Almora, recomandat, prima jum\u0103tate a romanului. Spre Mallroad, o femeie c\u0103zut\u0103 \u00een strad\u0103, pe spate, pe partea carosabil\u0103, ca moart\u0103. Numai o fat\u0103 \u00eentr-un t\u00e2rziu se \u00eendrapt\u0103 spre ea, apoi al\u0163i c\u00e2\u0163iva, \u00een fine, un mare cerc. Ma\u015finile, scuterele trec \u00eencolo \u015fi-ncoace.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Fernando nu e-n hotel, \u00eei las plicul. Prin Circle, o fat\u0103, Lee Auon, din Canberra \u2013 acolo \u015fi-a luat B.A.-ul \u00een Asian studies, dar provine din Sydney. Caut\u0103 Maharastra Emporium. O invit pe la noi. La Madhya Pradesh Commissioner Office, doar Bapna a fost schimbat cu R. K. Mishra, care afl\u00e2nd despre ce e vorba, cheam\u0103 la telefon Bombay-ul.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Vorbe\u015fte el, apoi \u015fi eu cu Shyam Vyas, virgilul nostru \u00een Indore, \u00een 20 noiembrie 1977, acum aproape patru ani. Am \u00een fa\u0163\u0103 \u2013 \u00eei \u015fi spun \u2013 fotografia lui cu Nana \u015fi cu mine din <em>Inedited.<\/em> Vrea s\u0103 ne revad\u0103 \u00een Bombay. Secretara lui Mishra, Indira Swarup, scrie poezii. \u00cent\u00e2lnesc \u015fi pe R. S. Sharma, Asst. Editor Tribune Group Chandigarh (provine din M.P.) &#8211; Editor in Chief acolo e Prem Bhatra, fost ambasador \u00een Kenya \u015fi Singapore.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ap\u0103sat dintotdeauna de zilele de luni. Drept care, voi dactilografia \u201cp-aia cu c\u00e2pa\u201d. \u015ei papagalul se zbucium\u0103. Cel vorbitor, de odinioar\u0103: \u201csun\u0103 telefonul, vorbe\u015fte la telefon\u201d, iar c\u00e2nd \u00eel pierduse Mariana prin p\u0103dure, la Ol\u0103ne\u015fti: \u201cCocu\u0163\u0103, vino la mama\u201d.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Shyam m\u0103 emo\u0163ioneaz\u0103. V\u0103d a\u015fa: M.P. Information Centre (Bombay) \u2013 International Society Brancusi (New York) \u2013 Romanian Lectureship (Delhi) \u2013 <em>Brancusi 105<\/em> \u2013 Speakers: Mulk Raj Anand, Florence Hetzler, George Anca. Ce frumos ar fi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Merg cu Nansi la ora de muzic\u0103 a fetei. Ea \u00eenc\u0103 nu detest\u0103 zilele de luni. Iube\u015fte tot. Zic zilele trecute: s-o m\u0103rit\u0103m, dac\u0103 e pe-a\u015fa, de pe-acum, cu Shishir, vechiul ei amic. La care, ea: e unul \u015fi prin partea asta \u2013 arat\u0103 spre Kings Way.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sunt tulburat de propria-mi via\u0163\u0103 pentru \u201cdrag\u201d-ul americ\u0103nesc. Ce dracu&#8217; ne a\u015fteapt\u0103? Seara, ne viziteaz\u0103 Margaret, d\u00e2ndu-mi m\u00e2n\u0103 liber\u0103 \u015fi chiar \u00eencuraj\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 pentru programul Bombay. Aflu c\u0103, la amurg, Mulk a fost \u00eendep\u0103rtat de la Marg (ea, Margaret, regret\u0103). S-a r\u0103cit de Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi? Ne \u00eenc\u0103lzim absurd (eu, nest\u00e2ngist, a\u015fezat \u00een dreapta canapelei, Nansi ne trateaz\u0103 cu ceai), la povestea catedrei \u201cLudmila\u201d.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">10-15. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Clas\u0103 Galaction. Timorare \u00een dept. Ajuns la p. 72. Fernando nu poate veni joi, ci vineri. Simpozion Latino-american de sanscritologie, Mexico, februarie 1982.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Fernando cu taxiul aproape s\u0103-mi ia piul Sudip cu \u015fah la ceai a treia nu i-o dai poporul lui Pisulski b\u00e2rfe\u015fte nu pe ruski ba ne iubim Ludmile ce ni s-au dat copile chimii \u015fi naturale lui Bob Zealandale.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Moldova (sovietic\u0103), pavilion propriu la Fair-ul interna\u0163ional indian. Acent pe vinuri \u2013 Neagra de Purkar \u2013 \u015fi pe Kasa Mare: pentru prima oar\u0103, cuvinte rom\u00e2ne\u015fti \u00een ziarele indiene? Prin ru\u015fi! \u015ei noi, \u00eenvin\u015fii \u00eenvin\u015filor.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">B\u0103team la Arnota, c\u00e2nd Nana-mi spune c\u0103 a venit un om \u00eenalt, cu p\u0103r alb. Peter Hook, cu musta\u0163\u0103 \u015fi f\u0103r\u0103 pletele de odinioar\u0103. La \u00eendoielile mele dac\u0103 India exist\u0103, \u00eemi spune c\u0103 America exist\u0103 din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd. Gr\u0103bit, spre Rajasthan. M\u0103 g\u0103se\u015fte mai pu\u0163in entuziast. Ne amintim de lucruri. Mergem p\u00e2n\u0103 la Alpna, spre Prem Singh. A predat la Whalpole lingvistic\u0103 \u015fi structuri literare.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Pagina 106. Bas. Fii fericit\u0103, limb\u0103 englez\u0103, cu un cer\u015fetor care \u0163i-a dat din lepra min\u0163ii lui. \u015ei tu, mam\u0103 limb\u0103 rom\u00e2n\u0103, oplo\u015fe\u015fte-m\u0103 \u00een t\u0103cerea ta. Chapters: I Of the Smoke in the Middle of Life (6 parts); II Of Madona (9); III Of the Brother SanMarco (5); IV Of the Savios (5); V Of the Night Sanatorium; VI Of the Rag (7); VII Of Continua (9); VIII Of Radha (6); IX Of Maiastra (7); X Of Auru\u015fa (3); XI Of Sir Pierrot (1); XII Of Arnota (3). 73 ullasas and avatars.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">16. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">umilii mei umil v\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">ademenesc molitv\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">de paria transilv\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">s\u0103ri\u0163ii mei s\u0103rit v\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">c\u00e2rligii mei c\u00e2rlig v\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00eencerceleaz\u0103 tigv\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">moldavi moldavi moldav\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">lui Por paria da-v\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dr. Narayana, din Hyderabad, \u00een c\u00e2rji. World Family. \u00centruchipat\u0103 specific. Poate de-aia va avea succes. Leaderii religio\u015fi ai Japoniei \u015fi Thailandei i-au promis sprijin. Mai mult se \u00eencrede \u00eentr-un Faleiro, din Goa (str\u0103in indian). Ar vrea o asocia\u0163ie de prietenie India-Rom\u00e2nia. Vrea s\u0103 m\u0103 introduc\u0103 la Niramkari. Refuz, m\u0103 desolidarizez de orice politic\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sare s\u0103 facem revista \u00eempreun\u0103, dac\u0103 pl\u0103te\u015fte careva. Poate Reader Diggest sau The Statesman. \u00cei dau, la cerere, <em>Sur\u00e2sul Hiro\u015fimei. <\/em>Luase \u015fi <em>The Indian Observer<\/em>. Nansi simte ceva nelalocul lui. Eu m\u0103 mul\u0163umesc s\u0103 v\u0103d oarecare umilin\u0163\u0103 \u00eentr-un temperament de protestatar.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">O scrisoare de la Peter, trimis\u0103 \u00eenainte de a pleca, dac\u0103 nu pe drum (68 Driscoll House, Elephant + Castle &#8211; 172 New Kent Rd. London SE, 4YT England). C\u0103 poate vine. Plus un sonet \u201cinspired (among other things) by the story you sent me about the widow grieving for her husband &#8211; something Tagore wrote about Tulsidas\u201d. \u0102sta semneaz\u0103, altfel, chilly belly in November.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Poemul e admirabil \u00een petrachism-tagorean. Chiar dac\u0103 nu de impecabilitatea de clopot lingvistic a poemului lui primit zilele trecute de la el, de Walpole. El e, v\u0103d, foarte interesat de <em>The Milky Way. <\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Conspectam c\u0103r\u0163i de la bibliotec\u0103, \u00eentrerupt de vizita lui Ioan Pop, ata\u015fatul cultural. S\u0103 prelucrez apelul de pace al lui Ceau\u015fescu, \u00een clas\u0103 \u015fi, ba \u00eenc\u0103, \u00een mese rotunde. I-am dat t\u0103ieturile din ziar despre grevele, demonstra\u0163iile de strad\u0103, incendierea unei mili\u0163ii, aruncarea cu pietre \u00eentr-un elicopter (ziarele public\u0103 \u015fi numele). Contrabalansate de \u015ftirea tot din TOI de azi a demonstra\u0163iei tinerilor (50.000) \u00een Bucure\u015fti, pentru pace. \u015ei 16 miliardele de zilele trecute.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nehru University n-are dec\u00e2t s\u0103 m\u0103 invite \u2013 acum le-ar fi trimis adresa chiar \u201ccasa mare\u201d. S-au \u00eenghe\u0163at toate cheltuelile, a\u015fa c\u0103 nahi Aurangabad. Pentru Hetzler, vor da film \u015fi expozi\u0163ie. Mitic\u0103 vine dac\u0103 vine V-Ch.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">17. 11. 81.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Clasa de diminea\u0163\u0103, <em>Scrisoarea I. <\/em>Au scris pe tabl\u0103 c\u00e2te-un distih. Am derulat cele patru examene, \u00een repeti\u0163ie. Sunt nevinova\u0163i. Rom\u00e2nul, neam\u0163ul \u015fi indienii, restul numai ru\u015fi, \u00eenc\u0103 pe at\u00e2\u0163ia (cam 6 la 6). De la 10.30 a.m., consiliu departamental. Am pus chestiunea Aurangabad, dup\u0103 ce am r\u0103mas numai indienii. Se pare c\u0103 se face. C\u00e2te un profesor de fiece limb\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Prezentarea \u201cRomance\u201d am pasat-o lui M. K. Sharma, \u015feful dept.-ului meu, \u015fi lui G. Koch, neam\u0163ul (p\u0103rea s\u0103-l intereseze). Telefon lui Umesh. Dac\u0103 e gata \u00een ianuarie cartea mea, <em>Abhinava \u2013 Baudelaire<\/em>, va fi v\u00e2ndut\u0103 \u00een dept. C\u0103 i-a pl\u0103cut mult \u015fi vine \u00eentr-o zi-dou\u0103 aici. Zic Aurangabad, \u00een\u0163elege Japan. Poate nu iau dic\u0163ionarul englez \u015fi-l fac dodii tot.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am v\u0103zut-o de diminea\u0163\u0103 pe Margaret, pe povestea Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi. Ea e ea. Toate sunt ele. Ieri o pl\u00e2ngeam pe ploie\u015fteanca de se m\u0103rit\u0103 \u00een India. Apari\u0163ia lui Esaulov la u\u015f\u0103. M\u0103rgelele cu Nana, m\u0103 bate, vorbim italian\u0103. Ea credea c\u0103 schimb toat\u0103 literatura pe bile, nu numai seara asta.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Suspect\u0103 rec\u0103dere pe parabol\u0103. Kierkegaard e \u00eentru a cui m\u00e2ntuire, \u015fcolar al eternit\u0103\u0163ii? Fragmente \u201calese\u201d din \u201e<em>Cel mai bun dintre p\u0103m\u00e2nteni\u201d <\/em>de Marin Preda. Radio sau sex? Parabolizare \u00eentre upani\u015fade \u015fi a\u015fchia din carne. Literatura-infernerie.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Miercuri, 18. 11. 81<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">La clas\u0103, Raj Kumar, aparent cel mai dezinteresat student, instalase un microfon, \u015fi un elegant casetofon m\u0103 a\u015ftepta pe mas\u0103. Ei m\u0103 a\u015fteptau \u00een b\u0103nci, ca respect \u015fi surpriz\u0103. Mi-am rearanjat lec\u0163ia \u2013 ei trebuind s\u0103 noteze cuvinte \u015fi versuri: \u201cMiori\u0163a\u201d, \u201cDoina\u201d, \u201cSingur Poetul\u201d, \u201cLimba rom\u00e2n\u0103\u201d. Au r\u0103mas cu: \u201cm\u00e2ndr\u0103 mireas\u0103\u201d, \u201cracul\u201d, unii \u015fi cu \u201cmuscalii\u201d, mul\u0163i cu \u201cNistru\u201d, al\u0163ii cu \u201curbea\u201d (urbs sun\u0103 prost \u00een hindi, ca \u015fi a g\u0103si, s\u0103 nu mai zic fac \u00een englez\u0103). To\u0163i re\u0163inur\u0103 \u201cdu\u015fman\u201d (comun rom\u00e2nei-hindi-urdu-arab\u0103-etc.). \u015ei tot a\u015fa.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Trehan insista s\u0103 reasculte imprimarea. Talwar se trezea v\u0103z\u00e2nd cu ochii. Le d\u0103dusem \u015fi reviste. Casetofonistul tres\u0103lta \u2013 va fi mereu prezent de-acum \u015fi va asculta zilnic lectura (doamne, fere\u015fte). Bahtia era acolo, Shiv se afi\u015fase, Rajendra scria cuvinte inexistente. Vijay \u00een\u0163elegea cel mai mult. Absen\u0163ii erau reprezenta\u0163i de ei, iar prezen\u0163a \u015fi-au ajustat-o singuri.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">La secretariat, multiplicat glosarul. M\u00e2ine, munc\u0103 voluntar\u0103, s\u0103 le sort\u0103m \u015fi caps\u0103m, o sut\u0103 de copii, 25 de pagini. Un sardar \u00ee\u015fi opre\u015fte scuterul s\u0103 m\u0103 duc\u0103-n Mallroad, dac\u0103 merg acolo \u2013 \u00eentr-acolo era clar c\u0103 merg. Nu-l cunosc, e profesor de zoologie la Khalsa College. Margaret \u00ee\u015fi scoate dreapta a steag, din vitez\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nansi a eliberat papagalul, biet Soliman, prin c\u00e2te va trece, \u00een jngla libert\u0103\u0163ii sacrificiale. Papagal \u015fi colivii, mie mi-a fi \u201cMilky-Way\u201d-urile, observ\u0103 Nansi, de ne declar\u0103m a ne \u00een\u0163elege unul pe altul. I-ar fi dat drumul \u015fi pentru c\u0103 m\u0103 extinsesem \u00een sufragerie din cauza lui Soliman.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Joi, 19. 11. 81.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Kierkegaard \u00eemi e interlocutor. Sunt unul dintre personajele ironizate de el, care-i \u00eentoarce ironia, schimb\u00e2nd rolurile. Nu putem fi doi. Kierkegaard \u015fi eu suntem unul. Tu vei fi fost, cine \u015ftie, dumnezeu. Tu \u2013 eu, deci \u2013 nu m-ai vrut secretar. \u0162i-am dictat o poliloghie \u015fi m-am l\u0103sat de treab\u0103. Atunci, pentru parabola ta. Dar acum? Ia g\u00e2nde\u015fte-te.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am prins la minte s\u0103 nu m\u0103 mai pierd c\u00e2nd simt c\u0103 m\u0103 pierd. S\u0103 adulmec ziua alternant\u0103, nu mai bun\u0103, nu mai rea. Micu\u0163ul Martin, de trei ani, s-a trezit strig\u00e2nd, vesel, \u201cValensa, Valensa\u201d.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">20. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">M\u0103ritat\u0103, \u00eentr-un sat, violat\u0103 de to\u0163i b\u0103rba\u0163ii familiei, b\u0103tut\u0103 mortal, crema\u0163ionat\u0103 de vie, \u00een com\u0103. Altei mirese, tot licen\u0163iat\u0103, tot cer\u00e2ndu-i-se \u00eenc\u0103 \u015fi \u00eenc\u0103 de zestre, g\u0103sit\u0103 moart\u0103 \u015fi declarat\u0103 sinucis\u0103. Femeia, zice Nansi, este considerat\u0103 neproductiv\u0103. Cine o ia de so\u0163ie vrea desp\u0103gubire din partea celor ce le-a scos \u201cdohotul\u201d din cas\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">M\u00e2ine, \u00een comisie, pentru angajarea unui lector care s\u0103 predea italian\u0103. Sardarul \u00eei e favorabil candidatului, pus la plural numai \u00een h\u00e2rtia de numire. A admis c\u0103 voi pune \u00eentreb\u0103ri.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">21-24. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Decanul Satya Vrat Shastri venise deja, la fel sardar Alhuwalia \u015fi capo, ceva mai t\u00e2rzior (candidatul, Malik, intrase) \u2013 Parasnis. Sardarul a pus \u00eentreb\u0103ri \u015fcol\u0103re\u015fti, \u00een italian\u0103, candidatul a r\u0103spuns la fel. L-am \u00eentrebat care sunt premia\u0163ii Nobel ai Italiai. Pe Pirandello \u00eel scoseser\u0103 din teatru. Satya Vrat mi-a cerut o c\u0103rticic\u0103 de mine, s-o lans\u0103m \u00eent\u00e2i \u00eentr-o conferin\u0163\u0103 asupra indologiei rom\u00e2ne, prima dintr-o serie \u015fi din alte \u0163\u0103ri.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Mai \u00eencolo, Esaulov. Romanul lui, \u201cSf\u00e2r\u015fitul unei vie\u0163i\u201d, este favorabil Indiei. Am fost de p\u0103rere c\u0103 Dostoievski se implic\u0103 pe sine, ca ins, \u00een oper\u0103, mai mult dec\u00e2t Tolstoi. Primisem \u015fi de la S. Day scrisoare, c\u0103 voi \u0163ine dou\u0103 conferin\u0163e \u00een ianuarie. Altfel, scrisoarea era adresat\u0103 lui Mitic\u0103. Hopa-Mitic\u0103 \u2013 J.N.U. se rom\u00e2nizeaz\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Yogindra \u015fi Subhash se \u00eensoar\u0103 \u015fi ei \u2013 dup\u0103 Aroora, Charanjit, Veena -, pu\u0163in \u00eenainte de nunta lui Bery, mult de a lui Yogindra, Wikey \u015fi Shashi. Dhola, de brav, vrea s\u0103 fac\u0103 un dic\u0163ionar hindi-polonez-rom\u00e2n, ne\u015ftiind nici cum \u00eel cheam\u0103. Nana a pictat Almora House din memorie, de ziua lui Neetu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ce-o fi vrut M. s\u0103 spun\u0103 c\u0103 ar iubi-o mai mult pe F. dac\u0103 ar fi evreic\u0103? Oare, Gantzer? Sosuri metafizice cu ardei anglo-bengalez. Noi, cu auzul la r\u0103zboiul declarat de C. \u0163\u0103ranilor. Pite\u015ftizarea Parisului. Kuzne\u0163ov-Goma. Nansi, cu discuri Zamfir de la Salg, audi\u0163ie la Beteille.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Vorbele unor b\u0103tr\u00e2ne pline de toate relele \u015fi gesturile sublime ale unor sp\u0103l\u0103torese poate virgine r\u0103m\u00e2n la fel de impracticabile. Doar sporind nu dorin\u0163a, c\u00e2t amintirea nenorocitei de exhib\u0103ri interioare la sexul sugerat dimpotriv\u0103. Nici nu \u015ftii ce exacerbeaz\u0103 India mai dihai. Disperarea, ori r\u0103spunsul ei comic? R\u00e2sul lui Kierkegaard?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Catch 22? The Economist despre Rumania? Rebecca, alte femei, \u015fi mai ales sp\u0103l\u0103torese untouchables? Vizita blonzilor, str\u00e2mb\u0103tura sofiot\u0103? Lumumba muscalul cu toyota numai a lui? Cataliticul, neoccidental? Destul sunt al\u0163ii ignoran\u0163i \u00een noi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">diminea\u0163a schimb\u0103 vechile seri de dans clasic<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">deodat\u0103 mizeria dintre linii joac\u0103 str\u0103vechi priviri fixe<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">avem drumul cu to\u0163ii ne are pe to\u0163i drumul cu soarele<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00eenc\u0103 netineri \u00eenc\u0103 neb\u0103tr\u00e2ni \u00eenc\u0103 nevii \u00eenc\u0103 nemor\u0163i<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">soarta pustiei dintre unul \u015fi to\u0163i nemurirea<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">de\u015firat\u0103 \u00een r\u00e2nduri de proz\u0103 scrise femeie\u015fte<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00eemp\u0103r\u0163irea ritmului fr\u00e2nt \u00een dou\u0103 \u00een loc de p\u00e2ine<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">din dep\u0103rtare magic\u0103 iau timpul cel scurt<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u015fi diminea\u0163a e lung\u0103 ca un fel de via\u0163\u0103 acceptabil\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">pe motive de lumin\u0103 tropical\u0103 \u015fi a\u015ftept\u0103ri ra\u0163ionale<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">de a nu se petrece nimic peste \u00eenainte \u015fi \u00eenapoi<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nansi \u015fi Nana au plecat la circ, \u00een Chowndni Chowk \u2013 Red Fort, cu Urmila. Dau s\u0103 dorm. Sun\u0103 po\u015fta. De la Almora, romanul. Manuscris corectat nervos, in good faith. Versiunea englez\u0103 e o realitate.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Amita este, \u00een Rom\u00e2nia, exacerbat indianc\u0103, opun\u00e2nd, cu superbie, cultura ei, p\u0103r\u0103sit\u0103, celei \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fate \u00een via\u0163a p\u0103m\u00e2ntean\u0103. Rom\u00e2ni aici \u00een India, noi o putem \u00een\u0163elege \u015fi admira. \u015ei nou\u0103 urc\u00e2ndu-ni-se la cap minun\u0103\u0163ia cre\u015ftin\u0103 \u2013 acas\u0103, adorat\u0103 numai \u00eentruc\u00e2t se afl\u0103 sub represiuni di granda. Un cult pentru India \u2013 ca al Amitei pentru Eminescu, ne reeminescianizeaz\u0103 permanent. Plus c\u0103 bengaleza noastr\u0103 vede omul Buddha. \u00cen rom\u00e2ne\u015fte, Hristos se poate numi Eminescu. M\u00e2ine a\u015f dactilografia un articol \u015fi l-a\u015f trimite la The Statesman.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Miercuri 25. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ultima circular\u0103, din noiembrie, c\u0103 paper-ul meu a fost aprobat. O scrisoare trimis\u0103 \u00een 28 septembrie \u015fi \u00eenm\u00e2nat\u0103 de G. Mukharjee, dup\u0103 dou\u0103 luni \u2013 o invita\u0163ie \u00een dept. La administra\u0163ie n-a fost primit\u0103 recomandarea dept.-ului pentru mine, ci pentru doi ru\u015fi, plus G. M., care pred\u0103 tot rus\u0103. Sunt trimis la dept. Acolo, mi se arat\u0103 copia, mi se d\u0103. M\u0103 \u00eentorc la administrativ.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nu le trebuie copie. M\u0103 trimit la Khanna, care-mi re\u0163ine, totu\u015fi, copia \u015fi ultimele scrisori de azi. Vor fi discutate azi la 4. M\u0103 invit\u0103 s\u0103 vin m\u00e2ine s\u0103 v\u0103d rezultatul. Nansi vede \u015fi o m\u00e2nu\u0163\u0103 a actualului \u015fef al dept. Cine dracului m\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nc\u0103 mai mult \u015fi mai mult, de ce \u015fi \u00een numele cui? Evident, nu-i intereseaz\u0103 rom\u00e2na, dar au primit-o \u2013 s\u0103 se spele pe cap.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Bietul Khanna (adic\u0103 eu): am primit scrisoarea dv. &#8211; \u015fi \u0103ia erau ru\u015fii. Confuzii sinistre. Abia Gautam mai spera c\u0103 nu sunt sub ru\u015fi de tot. M-ar bate g\u00e2ndul s-o las balt\u0103, \u015fi ce p\u0103cat ar fi. Nansi m\u0103 pune s\u0103 fac ciorne de cereri pentru Riadh. C\u00e2t dracu o fi un Rial? Plicuri simple, am cump\u0103rat. Pentru ea, ca designer, e mai atr\u0103g\u0103tor. Eu n-am \u015fanse dec\u00e2t ca sociologist \u015fi, cu o mie mai pu\u0163in plat\u0103, editor.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">26. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dr. Mittal a afi\u015fat, prin aviziere, anun\u0163ul conferin\u0163ei mele de m\u00e2ine: \u201cBuddhism in Romania\u201d. Jappa: Francesco d&#8217;Assisi, Eminescu, Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi, Blaga, Maya. Nansi \u015fi-a g\u0103sit de lucru la Oxford University Press. Universitatea, prin dl. Khanna: te pl\u0103tim jum\u0103tate, te trimitem la Aurangabad. Ravinder Pant: Campaign? Nansi vine la conferin\u0163a mea. Trimis\u0103 prezentarea \u201cRomance\u201d la MacMillan, Arnold-Heinemann \u015fi Samkalen Prakashan.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">27. 11. 81. D. Sf\u00e2ntul Ioasaf.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">The Indian Times \u015fi The Statesman anun\u0163\u0103 conferin\u0163a mea \u201cBuddhism in Romania\u201d. TOI scrie chiar \u201cBidhism\u201d (c\u0103ci beedi fum\u0103m). Clasa de ast\u0103zi, \u201cDhammapada \u00een rom\u00e2ne\u015fte\u201d. N-auzise nici unul. N-am dormit azi-noapte, \u015fi toat\u0103 via\u0163a noastr\u0103 de aici se f\u0103cea c\u0103 e, la fel, \u00eenc\u0103 mai tic\u0103it\u0103, pe undeva prin America.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">O doamn\u0103 v\u0103zuse \u00een ziar \u015fi venise. Erau dl. Shivaramaya, d-ra Sengupta, Sangasen, c\u00e2\u0163iva studen\u0163i, \u00eenmul\u0163i\u0163i p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103. Am procedat cu speach-ul. Am fost onest cu subiectul, am r\u0103mas \u00een tem\u0103. Mittal, c\u0103 ne-am \u00eent\u00e2lnit str\u0103ini \u015fi am devenit prieteni. D-ra Sen, dac\u0103 Eliade a scris despre Buddha. Un student: care e popula\u0163ia buddhist\u0103 a Rom\u00e2niei? (cei de pe tabl\u0103).Cineva m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103, \u00een particular, de Csomo de Korosy.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">la ellora sororal<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">libertate de-un rial<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">filial maharajal<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">la ellora sororal<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">din inim\u0103 la Riadh<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">s\u0103biile nu ne cad<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">anii ne cer\u015fesc r\u0103sad<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">din inim\u0103 la Riadh<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">pe la Oxford c\u0103tre toac\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">insula dintr-o b\u0103ltoac\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u015fi balene \u00een puiac\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">pe la Oxford c\u0103tre toac\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">dar \u015fi pe\u015ftii pe sub mal<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">cad \u00een lun\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 hal<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00een lanterna de-un rial<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">cad \u015fi pe\u015ftii de sub mal<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">zi-i de delhi surioar\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">ce se macin\u0103 la moar\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">ia un par de m\u0103 omoar\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">zi-i de delhi surioar\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sus\u0163in c\u0103-n timp ce-mi anun\u0163am inten\u0163iile, nemai acoperite (dinadins?), m\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam la cu totul altceva. Paloare \u00een costum negru. Contemplam o energie nedeclan\u015fat\u0103, \u0163inut\u0103 \u00een\u0103untru s\u0103 hoiteasc\u0103 \u00een paranteze deschise de mine \u00een gol.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nana, dup\u0103 clasa de muzic\u0103 indian\u0103, direct la Memna. M\u00e2ine, <em>Visul unei nop\u0163i de var\u0103<\/em> de Shakespeare, \u00een hindi, \u00een regia lui Fritz Bennewitz \u2013 dup\u0103 Bucure\u015fti \u015fi Roma (Nu-l cheam\u0103 nimeni acas\u0103, mi s-a pl\u00e2ns, de\u015fi zice Namaste).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ioasaf \u00een Bucovina<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ioasaf \u00een Calendar<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ioasaf lumii lumina<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Bucovinei minutar<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Bucovina Ioasaf<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">lotusul spre B\u0103l\u0163i \u00eenot<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">dezlipit \u00een epitaf<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">sorocindu-se de tot<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">moa\u015fte \u00een ocol p\u0103trat<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">patimi \u00een rotund spiral<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">arborele aplecat<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">r\u0103d\u0103cinii piedestal<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">28. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ploaie rece. Pe caldar\u00e2m, urme de uscat, \u00een form\u0103 de porumbel. Am promis o diplom\u0103 pentru un campion de \u015fah. Yogindra mi-a trimis un \u201cCrematoriu\u201d, \u201cpoem.\u201d<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">scriu c\u0103 mor citesc tr\u0103iesc<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">cu islam cotrocenesc<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u015fi mo\u015f Gheorghe cu p\u0103rin\u0163i<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">de-l v\u00e2ndur\u0103 pe argin\u0163i<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">la \u0163igani \u00een \u0162\u0103nd\u0103rei<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">ca-n Stambul la mama ei<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><em>Midsummer Night<\/em><em>&#8216;<\/em><em>s Dream.<\/em> National School of Drama \u2013 1981. Guest Director: Fritz Bennewitz G.D.R.. (spectacole \u00een:) F.R.G., Romania, Italy, USA, Philipines, Venezuela, India (&#8217;70, &#8217;73, &#8217;78, &#8217;79, &#8217;80, &#8217;81). Studen\u0163ii anului 3. Teatru \u00een teatru, grecitate shakespearen\u0103 pe un manch cu farmec sanscrit.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sala plin\u0103. Redegi\u015fti destui. Lume invitat\u0103. Nana a apreciat. Shama nu s-a mai speriat, ca la <em>Macbeth <\/em>(Barnam Van, \u00een hindi, stil yakshagana). Vecinul m\u0103 felicit\u0103 pentru conferin\u0163a de ieri. Margaret s-a izbit de realitatea c\u0103 Guest House e ocupat\u0103 de ru\u015fi (Nana: deci India a fost ocupat\u0103). Gupta, c\u0103 s\u0103 ne \u00eent\u00e2lnim luni, la \u015fase jumate, cu un editor pentru romanul meu. Lali a f\u0103cut un radioreportaj \u00een Punjab (\u00eempotriva Kalisthan-ului).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">M\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc s\u0103 lansez cercul Sanscrit-Latin la Marathwada. Rom\u00e2na-mi va fi drum-text spre context poststructural. Visez destul de omene\u015fte, uneori chiar pasional. &#8211; Cum \u00ee\u0163i place vremea asta? m-a \u00eentrebat Beteille. &#8211; E ca mine, i-am r\u0103spuns, cu bonomie buddhist\u0103. Memna traduce aforismele lui Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi \u00een sanscrit\u0103, O. M. Anujan \u00een mamayalam, S. K. Das \u00een bengali. Cine, \u00een tamil?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Leela ne-a dat \u201cMarg\u201d, \u201cGraphis\u201d. Nana i-a luat oxonianei de Nansi o carte ilustrat\u0103. \u00cempreun\u0103, am citit alte dou\u0103, de la Cambridge, una tradus\u0103 \u015fi-n latin\u0103. M\u00e2ine, duminic\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103rcat\u0103 \u2013 conspecte, corectur\u0103-roman (m\u0103car o copie), iar luni, lansarea \u00een lucrul Aurangabad-ului.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">30. 11. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sufletul s\u0103-mi fie supragramatical \u00een capcana sintaxei. Limbile, tot alt\u0103 sintax\u0103, mereu mai nelatin\u0103. Hai, comunicare extralingvistic\u0103. Esha spune c\u0103 la OUP au pl\u0103cut desenele Rodic\u0103i \u015fi, c\u00e2nd vor veni textele de la tipografie, \u00eei vor trimite paginile s\u0103 le ilustreze.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Posibilitatea kierkegaardian\u0103. Ghinionul lui Hjelmslev. Triste\u0163ea lui Andersen fericind copiii. \u015ei Hamlet \u2013 Danemarca, Tamil. Fiindu-\u015fi deodat\u0103 tat\u0103 \u015fi p\u0103m\u00e2nt, i-a venit s\u0103 \u00eencerce partea misterios promi\u0163\u0103toare a umilin\u0163ei de a tr\u0103i pe limba noastr\u0103. \u201cS-a n\u0103scut un condamnat la moarte\u201d, adev\u0103rat, Vasile Culic\u0103 \u2013 a \u00eenviat un condamnat la via\u0163\u0103 \u2013 o \u015ftie orice buddhist.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">1. 12. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Clas\u0103 bloomfieldian\u0103, mereu \u00eens\u0103, \u201cRomanian teaching in India. Towards a Sanskrit-Latin Sahytya\u201d. Sim\u0163ul Ellorei mi-o fi venind \u00een suflet dintr-o existen\u0163\u0103 de statuie. Statuii \u00eei succede norul. Norului, ploaia-p\u0103r\u0103sire. Fum \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftiat a via\u0163\u0103, cu concentr\u0103ri de pe\u015fter\u0103, yoga f\u0103r\u0103 templu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sharma m-a invitat \u00een \u201doficiul\u201d s\u0103u, sub o scar\u0103, destul de spa\u0163ios. O or\u0103 mi-a ar\u0103tat fotografii de freedom fighter (umbl\u0103 \u00een c\u00e2rje) \u015fi a insistat asupra rela\u0163iilor lui diplomatice, \u00eendeosebi cu jugoslavii. \u00centr-o poz\u0103, \u00eel ghirlandeaz\u0103 pe Tito, dup\u0103 cum, \u00een altele, apare cu Gandhiji ori Pandit Nehru.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ar vrea s\u0103 bem cafeaua, duminicile, la restaurantul ambasadorilor (se g\u00e2nde\u015fte \u015fi la publicarea romanului meu). \u00cel \u015ftie pe Keyna, pe chestia ma\u015finii lui trimis\u0103 \u00eenapoi \u00een Polonia. Iseley nu ascult\u0103 de sugestii. Azad e selfish. Ambasadorul p\u0103cii, \u00eens\u0103, l-a c\u0103utat.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cen drum spre gar\u0103, un t\u00e2n\u0103r cu figur\u0103 de artist, m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103, \u00een francez\u0103, dac\u0103 nu sunt francez. Sunt muncitor indian, \u00eei r\u0103spund. Se mir\u0103. \u00cemi spune o poveste despre doctorul ambasadei franceze, care i-a dat o re\u0163et\u0103 de penicilin\u0103. \u015ei-i mai trebuie bani \u2013 c\u00e2\u0163i? &#8211; paisprezece rupii \u2013 regret, 2-3 pot s\u0103-\u0163i dau (\u00eei cer rest la cinci).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">De la gar\u0103, \u00eenapoi la Connought Place. State Entry. Nu mai sunt locuri \u00een expresul New-Delhi \u2013 Aurangabad, p\u00e2n\u0103-n 22 decembrie. Optez pentru Manmad. N-am bani \u015fi pentru \u00eentors, m\u0103 duc m\u00e2ine. Biletul de dus, \u00eel am la mine \u2013 \u00een 15 , la ora 9.30 p.m.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Au venit plicurile pentru examene.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">2 decembrie 1981 Delhi<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Connought Place, diminea\u0163\u0103. Rezervat bilet de \u00eentoarcere. \u00cenapoi \u00een trei ore. \u00cenainte de templu \u2013 casta cartezian\u0103 sp\u0103l\u00e2ndu-\u015fi bra\u0163ele, picioarele, s\u00e2nii. Paper-ul mi-ar trebui gata, \u015fi multiplicat, s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2na asta, plus subiectele de examen, prezen\u0163a la cursuri.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">The hymn to hymn isn&#8217;t mine<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">the hymn of masturbation may be<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">in place of god with a body<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">a little in delirium disappearing in spirit<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">some watching your linga through the universe<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">dreaming of a hundred days intercourse<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">and dying into innocent flowers a yuga<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">the heart returned into zero<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">moved by the broken bones<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">there was like mother goddess Durga<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">forgiving us before and after and within<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">words ever greeting bhy sahib<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">of silent mothers full of male samsara<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">see the statues so well dressed<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">yoni bahut harassed up to Sophia<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Sergiu Al-George s-a stins din via\u0163\u0103 \u00een Bucure\u015fti. Nenorocire, fericirea lui. L-a omor\u00e2t India? Vorb\u0103ria mea? \u201cAm tr\u0103it o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 via\u0163a unui profesor rom\u00e2n \u00een India\u201d. Lui Salg nu-i era fric\u0103, moartea nu exist\u0103 \u2013 reintegrarea \u00een ordinea universal\u0103 \u2013 consim\u0163ire. Poietica limbajului originar. Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi, Noica, Eliade. S\u0103-i spun Nanei? Cum \u00eei voi spune lui Nansi?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u015ei-l mai \u015fi auzisem \u201cmi-am f\u0103cut suma\u201d. Dorina e acolo, noi aici. C\u00e2t de mult va fi ur\u00e2nd India? Nu l-ai f\u0103cut, doamne, nefericit, tu o \u015ftii, spune-i-o tu. Ne f\u0103ceai c\u00e2ini \u015fi poate i-am fi l\u0103trat moartea. Poate ne-ar fi pedepsit, cum nu-i era-n fire, \u00ee\u015fi ierta \u015fi c\u0103l\u0103ii.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Mircea Eliade despre Sergiu: \u201c\u00een\u0163elegea admirabil g\u00e2ndirea indian\u0103\u201d. Asear\u0103, Margaret: \u201cN-a scris Sergiu?\u201d I-am r\u0103spuns c\u0103 avem ve\u015fti, s-a v\u0103zut cu socrul meu \u015fi i-a spus de bine de Nana &#8211;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u201cam f\u0103cut o iubire\u201d &#8211; \u015fi despre noi. \u201cVoiculescu \u015fi cu mine ne vedeam adesea\u201d (pasiunea pentru India). \u00cemi voi face comunicarea in memoriam.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Margaret e obsedat\u0103 de moartea unei fiice, demult, iar vara trecut\u0103, a mamei. Dl. Chatterjee a plecat ast\u0103zi \u00een Australia, bucur\u00e2ndu-se \u015fi pentru mine spre Ajanta \u015fi Ellora. Un om pe care l-a \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fat a r\u0103mas \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fare \u2013 singur\u0103 acas\u0103, s-o ajute vedenia indian\u0103 a mor\u0163ii, pe ea, care \u015ftie cum s\u0103 comunice \u015fi cre\u015ftine\u015fte.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Inima. Moarte. India. E noapte rece \u00een India, \u00een moarte, \u00een inim\u0103. E frig. Am venit \u00een India s\u0103-mi fie cald. E chiar frig. Nu ne e cald. Nu ne mai poate fi cald \u00een India. \u015ei trebuia s\u0103 mearg\u0103 la Philadelphia. Radioul s-a tot oprit, zilele trecute. S-a tot oprit, nu \u015fi ast\u0103-sear\u0103, a necrologului.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">5. 12. 1981<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Cu Nansi: \u201cCe crezi c-a f\u0103cut Sergiu, mai bine nu ascultam\u201d \u201cA vorbit?\u201d \u201cA murit.\u201d La clas\u0103: Chara, dac\u0103 traduci \u201com\u201ddin rom\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een englez\u0103, \u00een care dintre limbi realizezi sensul \u00een mintea ta? Sir, cred c\u0103 \u00een englez\u0103. C\u0103 engleza ar fi mai aproape de rom\u00e2n\u0103 dec\u00e2t de hindi. Moartea lui Al-George, \u00een rom\u00e2ne\u015fte, moartea mea.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Cu Lila, profesorul \u015fi fetele lor. Nu, \u00eent\u00e2i cu Nana. \u201cNana, nea Georgic\u0103 a murit\u201d. Tocamai ie\u015fise c\u00e2nt\u00e2nd, de la oglind\u0103. S-a \u00eennegurat (verb din \u201cAventurile \u015fahului, citit azi \u00een clas\u0103\u201d). Nana:<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u201cChiar dac\u0103-mi r\u0103m\u00e2ne o buc\u0103\u0163ic\u0103 uite at\u00e2t de mic\u0103 din geanta pe care mi-a cump\u0103rat-o el, n-o arunc\u201d.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">La telefon, Leu (nu R\u0103doi): \u201cVreau s\u0103-\u0163i spun c\u0103 ambasada \u015ftie abera\u0163ia asta de dou\u0103 s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni\u201d. \u201c\u015ei i-a\u0163i b\u0103ut pomana?\u201d Nansi i-a spus lui Margaret \u015fi aceasta vrea date din carte \u015fi \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103-l comemoreze pe cel mai realizat indianist rom\u00e2n, \u00eentre crea\u0163ie \u015fi filosofie, \u00eentre via\u0163\u0103 \u015fi nemurire. Memna a fost cea mai amu\u0163it\u0103. Dup\u0103 telefon, am vorbit \u00eendelung cu vecinii de scar\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">I-am spus \u015fi ungurului, care s-a ar\u0103tat \u015focat, amintind, \u00een replic\u0103, tragedia de la Qutab Minar \u015fi de Starbach, mort mai \u00eenainte. Nana mai \u00eentrebase: Cine l-a \u00eengropat? I-am r\u0103spuns c\u0103 Dorina, cine altcineva? Nansi a mers cu ea \u00een Kamla Nagar \u015fi i-a cump\u0103rat pantofi, sandale, pantaloni, ciorapi, minun\u0103\u0163ii. Acas\u0103, Nansi \u015fi-a tras un deget pe r\u0103z\u0103toare, picur\u00e2nd cu s\u00e2nge cimentul p\u00e2n\u0103 la oglind\u0103. La un pr\u00e2nz, pe \u00eenserate, vom m\u00e2nca varz\u0103, poman\u0103 lui Salg.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Margaret a scris articolul \u201cThe death of a great Romanian indologist\u201d &#8211; \u00eel va trimite la \u201cThe Patriot\u201d. Urmila va citi <em>Arhaic \u015fi universal <\/em>\u00een rom\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi va vorbi la conferin\u0163a asupra sanscritologiei rom\u00e2ne (<em>Sanskrit-Romanian Sahitya<\/em>). Sunt sigur, va face-o \u015fi R. K. Sharma, doar ne-am \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fat, el, Salg \u015fi eu, to\u0163i vii. Polonezii, \u00een pas\u0103 bun\u0103, \u015fi-au f\u0103cut vizita lor de s\u00e2mb\u0103t\u0103 (au venit \u015fi ieri, neg\u0103sindu-ne).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nu se bea, drag\u0103 Salg la nunt\u0103, pe aici. Nici la poman\u0103. Voi reu\u015fi s\u0103-mi dactilografiez paper-ul? Cred c\u0103 da. Moartea pe cap de indolog. Oare de ce vor fi fiind romani\u015ftii mai longevivi dec\u00e2t indiani\u015ftii? 6 ani de pu\u015fc\u0103rie i-au sl\u0103bit inima (comentariu sanscrit).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nana: \u201cDe c\u00e2te ori v\u0103d o floare de bananier, \u00eemi aduc aminte de domnul Sergiu Al-George. Ce mult voia s\u0103 vad\u0103 \u015fi el una. \u015ei n-a v\u0103zut niciodat\u0103 \u00een via\u0163a lui. Am g\u0103sit una \u00eentr-un loc plin de mizerii, el nu putea s\u0103 intre acolo. M-am dus p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103 cu Bulbul \u015fi Radha, dar a doua zi cineva o t\u0103iase. Am g\u0103sit alta. Dar Domnul Al-George a plecat a doua zi\u201d.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Lung\u0103 discu\u0163ie despre moartea copiilor, ieri, la Qutab Minar. Nansi are de dat explica\u0163ii. M\u00e2nc\u0103m. Dup\u0103 dinner, Nana: \u201c\u015fi tot ieri a murit \u015fi domnul Al-George?\u201d. Invariabil, acum \u00eei zice \u201cdomnule\u201d, iar \u00een fa\u0163\u0103, din \u201cdoctore\u201d \u015fi \u201ctu\u201d nu-l scotea. De se \u00eendr\u0103gostise domnul de ea.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dup\u0103 mas\u0103, \u015fi-a \u00eembr\u0103cat pantalonii noi, pantofii \u015fi ce i-a mai cump\u0103rat mama. \u015ei-a pus \u015fi geanta. A venit dup\u0103 mine la buc\u0103t\u0103rie: asta o am de la domnul Al. George, \u015fi m\u00e2ine mi-o coase mama aici.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">6. 12. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nu i-a pl\u0103cut domnului Salg varza amestecat\u0103 cu ampicilin\u0103, deci, a doua oar\u0103, \u00een India, \u00een atmosfera lui, am dat la boboci. Printre co\u015fmare, \u015fi chipul s\u0103u, \u015fi paper-ul. Dar m\u0103 v\u0103d, \u00een diminea\u0163\u0103, at\u00e2t de str\u0103in.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">7. 12. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Clasa de diminea\u0163\u0103, final pentru Salg. Ne-am obi\u015fnuit cu g\u00e2ndul. Am terminat de redactat, direct pe stencil\u0103, paper-ul, 6 pagini, c\u00e2te 60 de r\u00e2nduri, 3 \u2013 4 mii de cuvinte. Marek, la pr\u00e2nz, cu un articol mai vechi din The Statesman, despre Rom\u00e2nia, plus verva lui politic\u0103, acceptarea libert\u0103\u0163ii interioare ca mai de pre\u0163 dec\u00e2t averea.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cen dept., cu Nana (cu ea nu se piere). Multe \u00eent\u00e2lniri. M\u00e2ine am, probabil, 100 ex. din paper. \u00cel voi distribui p\u00e2n\u0103 la unul. Sp\u0103late vasele. Nansi-\u015fi smulge s\u00e2nge din deget \u015fi cite\u015fte despre uciga\u015ful de fete \u2013 cu c\u0103rare la mijloc \u2013 al americanilor. Scrisorile de la Almora se himalaizeaz\u0103, cu budhism, o mandal\u0103-eseu, poeme \u2013 \u015fi \u00een rim\u0103 (Anca-Lanka). S\u0103 fierb laptele.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">G\u0103l\u0103gie spre Khalsa College \u2013 violen\u0163e iar? Profesorii intr\u0103, din zece, din nou \u00een grev\u0103. Am \u00een\u0163eles c\u0103 Sharma, the head, ar vrea s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103 \u2013 s\u0103 sparg greva \u00eenainte de a fi avut \u015fi eu o dat\u0103 \u00een via\u0163\u0103 parte de a\u015fa ceva? Munca noastr\u0103 ce altceva dec\u00e2t grev\u0103 o fi?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ampicilina s-a \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at cu mine. \u015ei moartea aia. Rena\u015ftem \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103 \u00een frig \u015fi egoism. P\u0103cat de nilimarian\u0103, c\u0103 vrea s\u0103 scrie un roman \u201cNamaskar, Nicolae\u201d, care Nicolae? \u015ei-l va scrie, nebuna. Iar eu \u015fi Nansi \u00eei vom crea atmosfera. Tot vrea s\u0103 treac\u0103 la buddhism, cu Nicolae cu tot.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nana a v\u0103zut pe motociclet\u0103 pe cineva sem\u0103n\u00e2nd cu dl. Alg. Dr. Cobra. \u0102\u015ftia nu se \u00eembat\u0103. \u201cvre\u0163i paper-ul, nu?\u201d (Kbr). Copiii, \u00een hindi: \u201cBufni\u0163a e prietena mea\u201d. \u201cVreau s\u0103 v\u0103d statuia\u201d. \u201cStudentul \u0103la r\u0103u al t\u0103u nu \u015ftia s\u0103 citeasc\u0103\u201d. \u201cEu nu citesc, \u0103\u015ftia scriu pictat\u201d. \u201cPe la palmieri, apoi pe la papagali\u201d. \u201cUn picnic\u201d.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">8. 12. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nana ieri: ciungul p\u0103c\u0103le\u015fte, s\u0103-\u015fi fac\u0103 rost de bani \u015fi s\u0103-\u015fi cumpere alt\u0103 m\u00e2n\u0103. Clasa de azi, familia de cuvinte a casei. Boss-ul lui Vinay murise \u015fi-l incinerau azi \u00een Ghaziabad. A treia lectur\u0103 din \u201cAventurile \u015fahului\u201d, \u00een caligrafierea Anc\u0103i Mateescu. Nansi \u015fi eu, pe balcon, hogind: oi\u0163\u0103, oi\u0163\u0103! nu e de acord; Cr\u0103i\u0163o, m\u00e2nca-te-ar lupii s\u0103 te m\u0103n\u00e2nce!<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Plec\u0103m, Nansi la Roy la spital, eu la banc\u0103 la bani. Acolo, un hippy de descenden\u0163\u0103 s\u00e2rbeasc\u0103, mai \u015ftiind \u00eens\u0103 dec\u00e2t dobr\u00ee deni, cu un copila\u015f auriu \u00een bra\u0163e. Cum va fi fost Christos, dar cam b\u0103los \u015fi cu buricul pe-afar\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nansi, mai \u00eenainte, \u00eenfipt\u0103 \u00een verde\u0163\u0103, a\u015ftept\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 cu Charminar-ul, \u015fi eu strig\u00e2ndu-i cum e mic\u0103 sub un \u015fal c\u00e2t Valul lui Traian: Giulietta Massina mia! La desp\u0103r\u0163ire-bifurca\u0163ie, v\u0103d mul\u0163i ochi qutab-minar-ieni a\u0163inti\u0163i \u015fi am o temere, dar m\u0103 v\u0103d printre palmieri \u015fi apoi cu chri\u015ftii de peste ocean. \u015ei \u00eenapoi acas\u0103, s\u0103 cur\u0103\u0163 cartofii, cu g\u00e2ndul la via\u0163\u0103, la Nansi \u2013 Ellora, Ajanta s-au interiorizat.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">O not\u0103, <em>A Note on Foreign<\/em> to Soren Kierkegaard, o voi scrie, altfel m\u0103 \u00eemboln\u0103vesc. M\u0103 dezboln\u0103vesc poate m\u00e2ine, dup\u0103 ce dactilografiez subiectele de examen. Pe Salg ni-l amintim \u00een pariu pascalian: nu venea \u00een India, murea; a venit, a murit. Nana (la mas\u0103, Nansi era la dentist): Dou\u0103 tragedii: una, c\u0103 a murit domnul Sergiu Al-George; a doua, la Qutab Minar s-a stins lumina \u015fi au murit 30 de copii. Dac\u0103 nu pleca \u00een Bucure\u015fti, se putea \u00eent\u00e2mpla \u015fi aici? La to\u0163i o s\u0103 ni se \u00eent\u00e2mple, \u015fi \u0163ie, \u015fi mie.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">I-am spus c\u0103 ea are, mai \u00eent\u00e2i, s\u0103-\u015fi creasc\u0103 copiii. I-a dus lui Margaret o copie din paper, spun\u00e2ndu-i c\u0103 ele am\u00e2ndou\u0103 sunt scise \u00een el. I-a dus apoi Memnei dou\u0103 copii. Nansi \u015fi-a scos m\u0103seaua. E o eroin\u0103. Voi fi \u015fi eu, al doilea. Aici, numai de scos se poate. E stranie rela\u0163ia \u00eentre barb\u0103 \u015fi psihologie, parc\u0103 ai avea o mie de b\u0103rbi, dup\u0103 st\u0103rile suflete\u015fti. Masc\u0103 \u015fi scut \u015fi \u00eenvederare.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Prof. Shivaramaya (la paper): ce e ARP? Nansi a f\u0103cut inventarul nebunelor cu noi. Nimeni, \u00een afara contului. Am tot zis azi c\u0103 nimic dintre p\u0103catele clasice nu e grav. \u015ei ar fi absurd s\u0103-\u0163i dai pielea ori sufletul pentru necazul vreunuia din ele.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Propozi\u0163iile de idei sunt dintr-o lume nevorbit\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u015fi cum se inhib\u0103 cuvintele \u00een fa\u0163a lui Kierkegaard.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">La fel India, moartea lui Salg, propriile<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">presim\u0163iri ca din eternitate, pierderea<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">de orice \u00een favoarea sinelui.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Clas\u0103 cu popor. Willing students. Alhuwalia, \u015fi el. Hasina. Adev\u0103rat encounter-paper. Scrisoare c\u0103tre inginer (My child, my wife and myself we are sick because of the impossible heating. The rooms are in the darkness after twilight), punct, \u015fi electricienii intr\u0103. Scrisoare lui Satya Vrat spun\u00e2ndu-i c\u0103 sunt gata pentru ianuarie, cu urm\u0103torul program:<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">SANSKIT ROMANIAN SAHITYA<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\"><em>In memoriam Dr. Sergiu Al-George<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Prof. Satya Vrat Shastri: Opening Address<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Prof. A. K. Sharma: An Encounter<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Prof. Margaret Chatterjee: Philosophical Chats<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dr. Urmila Rani Trikha: From <em>Gita<\/em> to <em>Archaic and Universal<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dr. George Anca: Romanian Sanskrit School and Correspondence<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00cen drum spre facultate, \u00eent\u00e2lnire-paper cu Netty Bossert (N. has to blossom), apoi cu japoneza (cum o fi chem\u00e2nd-o). Satya vrea dat\u0103 de la vice-chancellor, dorindu-i participarea la deschiderea, cu programul meu, a unei serii de asemenea conferin\u0163e, urmate de publicarea unor bro\u015furi (a mea ar fi a\u015fteptat\u0103 de \u015feful dept. Publica\u0163ii). \u00cel vrea \u015fi pe ambasador (\u0103luia \u00eei crap\u0103 m\u0103seaua, precum \u015ftim.) Ne \u00een\u0163elegem, ca totdeauna. \u015ei-ntre noi e Salg, a c\u0103rei moarte fertilizeaz\u0103 atmosfera.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Paper lui madame Parasnis ( \u015fi ea \u015fi el, din Maharastra \u2013 \u015fi noi, tot din Rom\u00e2nia, i-am zis de Nansi \u015fi de mine); de diminea\u0163\u0103-l mai primiser\u0103 Shunglu (c\u0103 va \u00eenv\u0103\u0163a \u2013 dar e scris de m\u00e2n\u0103?) \u015fi Gerhard, \u00een mood de r\u00e2s nem\u0163esc. Am mai l\u0103sat dou\u0103 la buddhi\u015fti, pentru Mittal \u015fi Lahiri \u2013 b\u0103tr\u00e2na domni\u015foar\u0103 profesoar\u0103 de chinez\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Pe urm\u0103, am mers la polonezi, cu care am luat un ceai lung, \u00een gr\u0103din\u0103, sub un soare blond ca ei, \u00eemp\u0103rt\u0103\u015findu-ne ca unul. \u00cempins de studen\u0163i \u2013 ce paradox -, m\u0103 v\u0103d sp\u0103rg\u00e2nd greva, la care n-am fost mobilizat de DUTA. Ne mai orient\u0103m \u015fi m\u00e2ine, doar azi se aflau to\u0163i \u00een clase (unele clase, nenorocit de anacronice, cu piedestal pentru catedr\u0103 \u015fi ru\u015fi pe scaune).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Lui Nansi ce-i pas\u0103, \u015fi-a scos m\u0103seaua. Polonezii bat spre buddhism. Eu m\u0103 voi duce la Aurangabad. La \u00eentoarcere, voi avea un ianuarie \u015fi februarie ochi. Poate D. Lit. Subiectele de examen, babu ji.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">10.12. 1981.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Prima zi a grevei de dou\u0103 s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni a profesorilor (DUTA, \u00een care sunt membru). Prima zi de grev\u0103 din via\u0163a mea. Am depus paper-ele, cinci, scrise la liber. Deci n-am de la ce face grev\u0103. Nevoie de fum rece, din narghilea. \u201cEvery one who has read the classical authors knows how many things are Caesar could try out in order to kill time\u201d(Kirkegaard, <em>The present Age<\/em>).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">11. 12. 1981<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">A\u015f vrea s\u0103 trimitem, p\u00e2n\u0103 plec la Aurangabad mar\u0163i, scrisori \u00een toate col\u0163urile lumii pe unde avem prieteni \u2013 Los Angeles, Bangkok, Bucure\u015fti, V\u00e2lcea, T\u00e2rgovi\u015fte, Chicago, Dunedin, Melbourne, Paris, Roma, Manheim, Buenos Aires, Detroit, New York, Cornwall. Nana, cum a venit de la \u015fcoal\u0103, c\u0103 scrie scrisori.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Asear\u0103, paharul cu lapte s-a g\u0103urit \u015fi tot laptele s-a dus. Ne c\u0103zuse mult\u0103 varz\u0103, acum \u015fi fructe, felii de portocal\u0103. \u201cDe la cine ai \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at s\u0103 bei ap\u0103 \u00eenainte de mas\u0103?\u201d. \u201cDe la domnul Sergiu Al-George\u201d. Oare respectul s\u0103 fie legat genetic de moarte (dup\u0103 cum iubirea tutuit\u0103, de via\u0163\u0103)?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">12. 12. 1981.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am expediat 16 scrisori, pl\u0103tind 88 de rupii \u015fi 10 paisa. Or fi acas\u0103 tataii, Noana, Iugii, M\u0103riucile? Sorin, Eliade, Alec\u015fii, d-ra Leblan, Bob \u015fi Rose, Creeley, Gill, Umesh?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Vinod a avut g\u0103lbinare, \u00eencep\u00e2nd din 4 noiembrie \u2013 c\u00e2nd a plecat spre cas\u0103 Sergiu. La Dalmia a fost un reading poetry, el s-a dus \u015fi la Bathinda, unde-i murise un unchi. Plecase \u00een ziua c\u00e2nd eram a\u015ftepta\u0163i, Sergiu \u015fi eu, la el. Sergiu a murit \u00een 11 noiembrie.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00centre 14-20, sub egida armatei, e un \u015fantier literar, cu Mulk Raj Anand. I-am dat diferite pagini pentru acela. Ne cert\u0103m pentru Inedited, el insist\u0103 pro The Milky Way. Ce mai facem? Pe mine m\u0103 dor inima \u015fi m\u0103seaua. Cetatea din Bathinda e-n ruine.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Estetica lor, via Florence Hetzler, \u00eel incit\u0103. Cel mai excit\u0103? Schimb\u0103m c\u0103r\u0163i po\u015ftale oficiale pentru a citi eu o poezie \u00een februarie, la seara de poezie a Guild-ului autorilor indieni. Sunt 500. Doamne, fa\u0163\u0103 de mult mai mul\u0163i, \u00eentr-o \u0163ar\u0103 cu o popula\u0163ie de 30 de ori mai mic\u0103. Ceva despre reclama ruseasc\u0103 descreierat\u0103 \u00een jurul Moldovei, prin ziare. \u0102ia parc\u0103 vor s\u0103 m\u0103 omoare pe mine personal.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">ce s\u0103-i facem, Sergiu, Margaret, Urmila<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">vino s\u0103 te superi Dumnezeu cu mila<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00een veci nu te superi nici tu nici Satya<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">vino tu cu Gita las\u0103-mp\u0103r\u0103\u0163ia<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">nu vii alt Bhava s\u0103 tremuri pe un pod<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00eemp\u0103cat de vorbe-n dodii cu Vinod<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">c\u00e2t c\u0103 te-ntrebasei unde p\u00e2n\u0103 unde<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">dada rom\u00e2neasc\u0103 se decorespunde<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">fie-ne Dorina martor\u0103 sultan\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00een Bathinda pl\u00e2ns\u0103 nemairajastan\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">dar pe c\u00e2nd era ea sclavului iubit\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00een neclare orne de supu\u015fi zidit\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">din ziduri \u00een aer s\u0103rind \u00eemp\u0103rat\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">roibului \u00een spate \u0163ie s\u0103 r\u0103zbat\u0103<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">s\u0103 fi fost prin doi\u015fpe dup\u0103 nou-n\u0103scutul<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Dumnezeu ce singur \u015ftie-\u015fi a\u015fternutul<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">aibe-ne M\u0103iastra \u00een paz\u0103 departe<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">a o sut\u0103cincia na\u015ftere \u00een arte<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">vorb\u0103rea\u0163a Florence aurind t\u0103cere<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u00een sanscrit\u0103 umbr\u0103 retezat\u0103-n sfere<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">aure corole-n haina bleumarin<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">ochilor din scuter plata cu amin<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">roag\u0103-se Fernando tolerat cu papii-<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">sta\u015fii ieri \u00een junt\u0103 \u015fi tocmeli \u00een Apii<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">c\u0103-n Ajanta luna razele-\u015fi traduce<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">s\u0103 ne lumineze m\u00e2inile de cruce<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">vom l\u0103sa Benares p\u00e2n\u0103 la Tibet<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">sude catacombe cratere Haret<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">ne vom da cu magii \u00eent\u00e2lnire picii<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">s\u0103 ne t\u0103v\u0103leasc\u0103-n dulciuri firfiricii<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">de poe\u0163i credin\u0163\u0103 de b\u0103rba\u0163i accep\u0163ii<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">s\u0103 \u00eenoate pluta ierbii \u00een\u0163elep\u0163ii<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Nana s-a num\u0103rat printre delega\u0163ii de mare vaz\u0103 ai conferin\u0163ei na\u0163ionale indiene asupra UFO. Artist\u0103, a c\u00e2ntat \u00een magic-show-ul unui profesor de fizic\u0103. A fost ziua lui Shama, de-a zis Nana c\u0103 va cobor\u00ee luni din taxi s\u0103-i cumpere un present. O carte despre mobilierul rom\u00e2nesc \u00eei oferise, la \u00eenghesuiala surprizei, Nansi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Iluminarea spectacolului corespunz\u00e2nd cu maxima compasiune. Georeligia pentru lunatici. Martorii incit\u0103 protagoni\u015ftii la propriile represiuni de sine \u015fi de al\u0163ii. Cu limbile de balaur \u2013 cel de la sf\u00e2r\u015fit, cel care r\u00e2de? M\u00e2ine aparen\u0163\u0103, azi disparen\u0163\u0103, ieri transparen\u0163\u0103.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">13. 12. 81. Delhi<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Marek cu Martin, pe biciclet\u0103, \u00een soarele ca ei. C\u0103 s\u0103 dau de b\u0103ut c\u0103 m-au publicat \u00een <em>Art and Poetry Today <\/em>ca principal autor, plus c\u0103-n \u201drevista lui\u201d am l\u0103udat-o pe Margaret. M\u0103 \u00eencruci\u015fez cu to\u0163i trei \u2013 veneau s\u0103 ne fotografiem \u00een familii unite. Revista lui Keshav Malik \u015fi Krisna Khullar a preluat paper-ul meu din mai \u201dSanskrit Romance Ontopoetics\u201d, care inspirase lui Peter un sonet (citatul Tagore c\u0103tre Tulsidas), av\u00e2ndu-\u015fi suflul din 1979 \u015fi fiind o treapt\u0103 spre poetica mea indo-latin\u0103. Straniu metafizic sim\u0163 al eficien\u0163ei.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Despre moartea unui prieten i-am putut povesti copilului \u015fi a \u00een\u0163eles. Cum i-am explica Polonia mar\u0163ial\u0103? Ne imagin\u0103m dialoguri (interzise), pa\u015fi (interzi\u015fi), istorie (interzis\u0103). Martin e at\u00e2t de blond \u00eenc\u00e2t lumina r\u0103zbate ca \u00eentr-un permanent Cr\u0103ciun tropical.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">14. 12. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\u201cM\u0103 exploatezi de parc\u0103 sunt Solidaritatea\u201d (Nansi). \u00cen Connought Place, confirmat\u0103 plecarea, nu \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eentoarcerea din Aurangabad. Ajanta \u015fi Ellora, Gdansk \u015fi Gomora. B\u0103ile Govora. Pe unde lungi, Bucure\u015fti II, dintr-un buletin de \u015ftiri lipse\u015fte Polonia. Noaptea viitoare voi goni spre Aurangabad-Ajanta-Ellora, g\u00e2ndind la Kierkegaard \u015fi Eminescu (\u00eentre \u0163\u0103rile lor \u2013 Polonia, un singur univers al mor\u0163ii \u015fi buddhismului).<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">15. 12. 81. D.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ashok a venit cu taic\u0103-s\u0103u, care e dispus s\u0103 pl\u0103teasc\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la dou\u0103 mii de rupii pentru <em>Inedited. <\/em>\u00cel public\u0103m \u00een ianuarie.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>NENOROCIREA FERICIRII LUI SALG &nbsp; 7. 11. 81. D. Alegerile studen\u0163ilor, mai pa\u015fnice dec\u00e2t ale profesorilor. 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