{"id":6282,"date":"2012-06-09T18:38:04","date_gmt":"2012-06-09T18:38:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/?p=6282"},"modified":"2012-06-09T18:38:04","modified_gmt":"2012-06-09T18:38:04","slug":"furnici-albe-xii-1-12-de-george-anca","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/2012\/06\/09\/furnici-albe-xii-1-12-de-george-anca\/","title":{"rendered":"FURNICI ALBE (XII.1-12.) de George Anca"},"content":{"rendered":"

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George Anca<\/p>\n

XII<\/p>\n

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– Fastul mi-l \u00eenchipuiam \u015fi eu, ca tot bagabontu’, o farfurie, trebuia s\u0103 mi-o \u00eenchipui, pentru c\u0103 era acoperit\u0103 de capul meu, trebuia s\u0103 mi-l \u00eenchipui, pentru c\u0103 era acoperit de o furnic\u0103 mare.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei iar scandal c\u0103 furnica nu mai era acoperit\u0103, iar crabul calfakir, \u015fi ce e scris pe banyan, tu ia capul, tu farfuria, lua\u0163i vinovatul, ce facem cu nebuna dac\u0103 \u00eencepe s\u0103 c\u00e2nte din alt\u0103 lume?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Se \u00eentunec\u0103 de pr\u00e2nz, ridicatu-v-a\u0163i, foarte gre\u015fit, c-o s\u0103 v\u0103 cure\u0163e, toarn\u0103, fr\u00e2nghii de cenu\u015f\u0103 putrede, t\u0103ia\u0163i-le pe cre\u015ftet, da\u0163i-v\u0103 de poman\u0103, ploua\u0163i-v\u0103 a r\u0103cori-v\u0103-\u0163i, pe uitate, de voi, c\u0103 tunelul se boteaz\u0103 \u015fi va lep\u0103da, lep\u0103da\u0163i-v\u0103 s\u0103n\u0103to\u015fi, s\u0103 ne fie.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Pentru azi ca niciodat\u0103 \u015fi ca totdeauna mi-e frig, \u00een schimb, tot ce curge e rece, \u00eemi \u00eenghea\u0163\u0103 cenu\u015fa p\u00e2n\u0103 mai \u00eencolo, peste forma corpului, ia mai r\u00e2de\u0163i de tot omul \u00een ragapsalmodiomede, ce te-mpingi, nu sta de vorb\u0103, n-ai niciun haz, nicio sc\u0103pare.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu nimeresc jocul, de-aia isp\u0103\u015fesc, nu v-a\u0163i l\u0103sat de prostii prea vechi, prea noi \u015fi voi, eu m\u0103 ofer \u015fi re\u00eenregistrat de visul b\u0103t\u0103u\u015f al u\u015filor b\u0103tute, nu-mi pot inventaria \u015ftirbiturile, cartea, diferen\u0163ele dintre ambi\u0163ie, c\u00e2t mai cost\u0103 din plat\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu e\u015fti de aici, afar\u0103 ori \u00een\u0103untru, frumos \u00ee\u0163i mai st\u0103, mi se moaie inima de clipa ta, n-ai voie s\u0103 mai vezi filmul, te cuno\u015fti c\u00e2t \u0163i-ar fi pl\u0103cut, ca-ntr-o oglind\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 lumin\u0103, uit\u00e2ndu-te, spintec\u00e2ndu-te boala stelelor din m\u0103runtaie, te-am cump\u0103rat cu t\u00e2rn\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– P\u0103i sigur, niciun bocet, s\u0103 v\u0103 mai desc\u0103rca\u0163i \u015fi nervii, v-a\u0163i modernizat \u015fi ce mai l\u0103sa\u0163i \u00een mu\u015furoi, la oase, ce ritualuri s\u0103 ne-mprumuta\u0163i, c\u0103 \u015fi vai de capul vostru, ne cunoa\u015ftem de undeva, dup\u0103 pantof, mintea noastr\u0103 nu e de pe urm\u0103, ca noi cu voi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Iar n-o nimerii, am chiar \u00eencurcat-o, n-am habar de joc, probabil am b\u0103ut, mi-oi fi ie\u015find \u00een cale \u015fi dup\u0103, n-ai dec\u00e2t, mi-e de lumea asta de m\u0103 a\u0163ineam s-o pomenesc \u015fi poate s\u0103 m\u0103 cer\u015fesc prin de\u015fert, ba nu, prin ploaie, nici prin tunelul inten\u0163ionat, auzi, ca o gre\u015feal\u0103 mo\u015ftenit\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Hereditate, p\u0103i cum, dictate, da’ mai terminda, termiditate, crabiditate, le-am adulmecat prin praful din norii de praf, \u00eenc\u0103 mai tu\u015fesc s\u0103-mi scuip zece ani \u015fi mai mul\u0163i nu, ca de atunci \u00een urm\u0103 \u015fi m-a\u015f crede, ce mai, suntem ocupa\u0163i.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu tr\u0103nc\u0103ni-n fronton prin apa de la r\u0103d\u0103cin\u0103, te fluier\u0103 v\u00e2ntul \u015fi nu la moar\u0103, nici \u00een tunelul din locul g\u00e2tului, c\u00e2t te m\u00e2nca un crab din gol \u015fi te-ai rec\u0103p\u0103tat din plin de la furnic\u0103, inim\u0103 de aur, ce te f\u0103ceai de nu ploua \u015fi n-o lua \u015fi ea nu te c\u0103r\u0103u\u015fa.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– V-am b\u0103nuit pref\u0103cu\u0163i de pe pat, de le zice\u0163i paturi, din hr\u0103nitoarea-mi piatr\u0103, stana de sub umbrele de bambus, de tot potopite, cum va pica, vreodat\u0103 s\u0103 nu v\u0103 par\u0103 r\u0103u, dar c\u0103 nu v-a\u015f fi b\u0103nuit.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– A\u015fteptarea ta e-n lingur\u0103, a mea m-a dat gata \u015fi s-a ales praful de noi, \u00eenghite-n sec, te blagoslovisem cu pantoful, n-a mers, te-ai dus pe copc\u0103 la primele m\u0103runte libert\u0103\u0163i, \u00eenchipuite \u015fi mai bolnav, \u015fi mai s\u0103n\u0103tos dec\u00e2t c\u0103lare \u015fi pe jos.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ai \u015fchiop\u0103tat t\u00e2r\u00e2ndu-te imaginar, acum cere-\u0163i scuze la masca zv\u00e2nt\u00e2ndu-se c\u00e2t n-o p\u0103lmuise frunza bananierului, te la\u015fi pe-o parte, cum te-ai fi \u00eentors din somn pe de\u015fteptare, \u0163i-e fric\u0103 de ce n-ai fost la film, c\u0103 adic\u0103, ai tr\u0103it degeaba, nu te-ai turnat.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Chestiile astea sunt de mic interes \u015fi n-ave\u0163i dec\u00e2t s\u0103 \u015fi boci\u0163i raderea dumneavoastr\u0103, privi\u0163i \u00een toat\u0103 lumea, ce vede\u0163i dac\u0103 tot nu mai ave\u0163i ochi s\u0103 vede\u0163i, nu v\u0103 mai c\u0103uta nimeni, c\u0103 n-are \u015fi poate nici de unde, v-am smuls cumva spre a v\u0103 for\u0163a s\u0103 rena\u015fte\u0163i \u015fi s\u0103 ne vedem cu bine t\u0103lpile.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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– \u00cencep s\u0103 vin\u0103 peste o or\u0103, i-am invitat acum zece ani, n-aveam s\u0103 ne spunem din ce avusesem atunci pe buze, eram certa\u0163i de-o via\u0163\u0103, cu m\u0103nu\u015fi, cu ghea\u0163\u0103, las un semn \u00eentre ce nu a fost \u015fi \u00eenc\u0103 nu este, ne-ncercuim \u015fi niciun cerc nu ne mai \u00eenv\u00e2rteasc\u0103, nicio talang\u0103 nu ne mai de\u015ftepte, am \u00eenghi\u0163it, a\u015ftept \u015fi efectul, o copie, tot un drac, m\u0103 impresioneaz\u0103 u\u015fa deschis\u0103, mi se-nt\u00e2mpl\u0103 cam cum se lumineaz\u0103 dup\u0103 ploaie prin u\u015f\u0103, dar eu sunt \u00een\u0103untru, zac \u00een mine, dau s\u0103 m\u0103 t\u00e2r\u0103sc, s-or pune \u00een mi\u015fcare caii verzi, renun\u0163, iar renun\u0163\u00e2nd am tot impresia aia \u015fi mai trec, poate \u015fi tu \u00ee\u0163i mai aduci aminte de invita\u0163ie, n-am comunicat-o din sfiiciune, nu te uita c\u0103 m-am schimbat violent \u00eenc\u00e2t sunt \u00een stare s\u0103 a\u015ftept s\u0103 deschizi u\u015fa, e deschis\u0103, neinvitat\u0103, ori tocmai de-aia, am renun\u0163at \u015fi la g\u00e2nduri, la g\u00e2ndul t\u0103u chiar, p\u00e2n\u0103 nu de mult \u00eemi f\u0103cea pl\u0103cere s\u0103 te acuz c\u0103 m-ai omor\u00e2t, nu ucis, omor\u00e2t, nici omor\u00e2t, din sfiiciune, \u0163i-ai \u00eentors ochii, \u0163i i-ai p\u0103strat la vederea drumului \u00eenainte, vreau s\u0103 zic vederea de drum, m\u0103 luasei la cozile ochilor, totu\u015fi, te construiesc s\u0103 m\u0103 a\u015ftep\u0163i \u00een av\u00e2tarea bocetului, cum era s\u0103 nu regret\u0103m singurul dor de a vedea filmul, ne-a costa cel pu\u0163in desp\u0103r\u0163irea, nomadizarea, se discut\u0103, cred \u015fi eu, se exploateaz\u0103, puisem mai mult de-o groaz\u0103, taie, ce nervi anevoie, m-ai spart, \u015fi mai \u00eencolo c\u0103 asta e, piatr\u0103 de piatr\u0103, \u00ee\u0163i spun drept c\u0103 m-am \u00eendoit \u015fi de tine, m\u0103 rupsesem, z\u0103ceam de sus \u00een jos, dup\u0103 relief, dansam \u00een cap, nori f\u0103r\u0103 fulger, dac\u0103 e\u015fti de acord, peste o or\u0103 \u015fi jum\u0103tate ne-am duce \u00eentr-o vizit\u0103 la doamna Nandini, sufer\u0103, nu bine c\u0103 nu sufer\u0103 cum sufer\u0103, c\u0103 sufer\u0103 cum nu sufer\u0103, n-am idee de nesuferin\u0163\u0103, o s\u0103 ias\u0103 circ \u015fi cu \u00eent\u00e2lnirea-n cerc, de-ar fi iluzie \u015fi nu e nici de-aia, c\u00e2nd b\u0103teau ideile din palme, la stadion, ai zis, ba prin u\u015f\u0103, nu, c\u0103 prin ferestre, nicio scar\u0103, \u00een sus ori jos, depindem, cum se r\u00e2m\u0103, cum se d\u0103r\u00e2m\u0103, nu m\u0103 mai pisa, intr\u0103m la ap\u0103, ai vrea, ap\u0103 dulce, e\u015fti limpede \u015fi te-a mai apucat \u015fi-o tuse, \u0163i-ar pl\u0103cea caracati\u0163a, confuzia dintre furnici, n-aveam nicio prejudecat\u0103, nicio judecat\u0103, poate te a\u015fteptam s\u0103 vii c\u00e2nd or \u00eencepe s\u0103 vin\u0103, cum nu te-am invitat dec\u00e2t acum zece ani \u015fi numai pe tine, numai aceia vor veni neinvita\u0163i, iar tu vei fi uitat \u015fi de ei, m\u0103 faci gelos de le \u00eenchid u\u015fa \u00een nas, tu ce te faci, poate e duminic\u0103, anii c\u0103l\u0103toriei negre, scuz\u0103-m\u0103, iar, m\u0103 recuno\u015fti, abuzez \u015fi-a\u015fa, \u00een genul sfiiciunii, masculin po\u0163i zice nu zici, bine, numai tu e\u015fti sfiicioas\u0103 \u015fi nu m\u0103 bagi nici \u00een pizda mamii, cenu\u015f\u0103, mi-am \u00eenghi\u0163it calamburul, mai libereaz\u0103-m\u0103 dac\u0103 po\u0163i, e o gur\u0103 de belie, cobori \u00een gura beliei, ce faci \u00een momentul de fa\u0163\u0103, ce tot faci aici \u015fi-mi rupi de la gur\u0103 colacul, nu te \u00eentreb, \u0163i-aduci aminte c\u0103 nu te \u00eentreb nimic, pentru c\u0103 nu-mi r\u0103spunzi, nici nu \u015ftiu ce faci cu \u00eentreb\u0103rile de-\u0163i \u00eenchipui c\u0103 ar trebui s\u0103 te \u00eentreb, de exemplu, niciun exemplu, chiar, unde e\u015fti \u00een clipa asta, unde te afli, dac\u0103 \u015ftii s\u0103-\u0163i \u00eenghi\u0163i sfiiciunea r\u0103spunde-mi unde m\u0103 aflu, m-a\u015f afla \u015fi-atunci am sta noi de vorb\u0103, nu-n singur\u0103tate, nici \u00een libertate, \u00een u\u015f\u0103, dac\u0103, iar dac\u0103, nu \u0163i-e cu sup\u0103rare, cum \u0163i-a fost c\u00e2nd \u00een loc s\u0103-mi r\u0103spunzi mi-ai dat de \u00een\u0163eles c\u0103 \u00eencep s\u0103 vin\u0103 peste o or\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Nu te las s\u0103 vorbe\u015fti, ai avut vreme, vremea ta a trecut, nu te mai lega la cap degeaba, erai odat\u0103 c\u00e2nd nu erai, nu-\u0163i mai aduci aminte, nimeni, nu tu, \u015fi tu, \u0163i-am deslu\u015fit unele zbuciume, fire\u015fti, domnule, le decapita\u0163i, sp\u00e2nzura\u0163i de teapa singuraticilor matale, sp\u00e2nzura\u0163i de teap\u0103, \u0163i-a\u015f zice iar vreo dou\u0103, dac\u0103 nu te-am fi rupt zece anii \u0103ia, da’ a\u015fa, c\u0103 nu puteai \u00eentoarce \u015fi nu te \u00eentorceai, te \u00eentorceai \u015fi nu puteai \u00eentoarce, dinadins, mai aveai \u015fi un sfert, m\u0103car atunci te debarasai de caraghiosl\u00e2cul de concep\u0163ie despre caraghiosl\u00e2cul corporal, ce suflet ai pus pe cale, o nimica toat\u0103, te concentrai asupra fluturelui \u015fi-nc\u0103 ispr\u0103veai un porumbel, o iau \u015fi eu ca tine \u015fi nu razna, te prefaci, o s\u0103-\u0163i par\u0103 r\u0103u, o s\u0103 regre\u0163i, o s\u0103-\u0163i dai seama, \u00eentr-una, \u015fi minte tot n-o s\u0103 te-nve\u0163i, vei termina \u015fi cu tine tot caraghios, o \u0163in pe-asta, m-ai molipsit o sum\u0103, \u00ee\u0163i calc pe coad\u0103, dac\u0103 ai l\u0103sat vreo urm\u0103, c\u0103ram crabul c\u00e2nd eu, c\u00e2nd furnica mic\u0103, ne-au scos pe nas c\u0103 te-a\u015fteptau ei pe tine de zece ani, nu tu pe ei, \u015fi nici ca tine, nici ca ei, ce dracu’, de-au n\u0103v\u0103lit, drag\u0103, frumos, \u00een absen\u0163a-\u0163i, ta-ta, \u015fi-ast\u0103 var\u0103 la Cr\u0103ciun, s\u0103 m\u0103 pricepi, c\u0103 eu nu bat c\u00e2mpii, ne-au luat la b\u0103taie, aici am pus cod, c-aia furnic\u0103 era la veveri\u0163a dintr-o coad\u0103, n-am pl\u00e2ns nicio filosofie, nu m\u0103 pl\u00e2ng, \u00ee, ce mi-a pocnit, un c\u0103cat, nu-\u0163i descriu situa\u0163ia, am t\u0103ria asta de caracter, fa\u0163\u0103-verso \u00ee\u0163i reg\u0103se\u015fti iubirile, b\u0103, alea te-au l\u0103bit p\u00e2n\u0103-n g\u00e2t, de n-ai mai ajuns la film, c\u0103 te duci, c\u0103 faci mobilizare c\u0103 te plou\u0103 furnici \u015fi p\u0103ienjeni \u00een acoperi\u015f, c-alegi piatra de-o t\u0103rie, c\u0103 sare-n aer tot \u015fi via\u0163a voastr\u0103-ntreag\u0103, \u00eentr-o con\u015ftiin\u0163\u0103, asta o pui de la tine, c\u0103 te visezi ori te g\u00e2nde\u015fti pe un mal, pe cine s\u0103 aju\u0163i c\u00e2nd se d\u0103r\u00e2m\u0103, dac\u0103 mai zboar\u0103 fluturii, mai de Doamne-ajut\u0103 c\u00e2te-un tantric, \u00een sp\u00e2mzur\u0103toarea t\u0103m\u00e2iat\u0103, dar e Pa\u015fte, gunoie\u015fti candid har \u015fi-l pustie\u015fti, \u00eel punge\u015fti s\u0103-l faci de dus, de-ntors, umfl\u00e2nd gu\u015fa cu amintiri imaginare ori p\u0103c\u0103toase \u015fi-n singur\u0103tate, ce te mai t\u00e2r\u0103\u015fti spre coad\u0103, mu\u0163i simetric de-a-ndoaselea spre \u00eenceput, ca \u015fi cum vrei s\u0103 te mai na\u015fti o dat\u0103 murind a doua oar\u0103, ce te-ntristeaz\u0103-atunci, de te-ai opri, de \u00eenc\u0103 te rupi, firimituri, \u015fi te-mpingi, fum, \u015fi bananierul \u0103la, bine, erau \u015fi acum de zece ori zece, de, erau \u015fi banyani, mul\u0163ume\u015fte doamnei, c\u0103 lini\u015fte, pruncie, asta ai iertat-o post-scriptum, cum \u0163i-e norocu’, crabule, tot r\u0103ul spre furnic\u0103, nu-\u0163i \u00een\u0163eleg nefiin\u0163a, \u00ee\u0163i cam rumegi mama \u015fi surorile \u015fi pe mine, poate c\u0103 bine faci, s\u0103 ai dare feciorelnic\u0103, urat\u0103, da’ nici singur nu \u0163i-ai ajuns, c\u00e2t mai r\u0103m\u0103sesei \u015fi pe unde, c\u0103 nu reiese nici geometric, de-am schi\u0163at nimica toat\u0103 \u015fi abia mental, cum te zdrobe\u015fti \u015fi personal ca-n halucina\u0163ia firimiturii caste \u015fi pace, un crab pentru fiecare, ca s\u0103 nu zici c\u0103 nu am habar de micile-\u0163i cumpli\u0163enii, \u0163i-a\u015f zice c\u00e2teva, da’ \u015fi-a\u015fa m\u0103 \u0163ii minte, nu c\u0103 a\u015fa \u0163i-am cobit, vorbeam, c\u0103 tot nu m\u0103 l\u0103sai, n-aveam loc nici s\u0103 m\u0103 t\u00e2r\u0103sc, prea intimi iar \u015fi mizeria-mi jignea trecute avataruri, te cam fandaxeai \u015fi c\u00e2r\u00e2iai din crust\u0103, c\u00e2teodat\u0103 m-am amuzat \u015fi te-am luat, nu-\u0163i face griji sentimentale nici cu foaia bananierului, doarme-o cum \u00ee\u0163i vine, dac\u0103 chiar te \u0163in curelele.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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– Nici acoperi\u015f, nici temelii licitate, \u00eentre, \u00ee\u0163i pic\u0103 m\u0103seaua \u015fi intri, Nandini \u0163i-a aruncat o privire, umbr\u0103 de piatr\u0103 nezidit\u0103, t\u0103iat\u0103 \u00een urcu\u015f, la dus, v\u0103 tot duce\u0163i, de ce nu v\u0103 \u00eentoarce\u0163i niciodat\u0103, sunt zece ani, a\u0163i sclerozat catacombe nemaivinovate, trezi\u0163i-v\u0103, ia-i privirea-n serios, c\u00e2t c\u0103 e t\u00e2rziu bine, \u0163ine-o pentru trezire \u00eentru crab, nu r\u00e2de ca proasta-n bazar, n-ai fason de furnic\u0103, \u0163i se deosebesc ou\u0103le, s-ar putea s\u0103 fi fost crab, te-a-mpins privirea \u0103leia spre cr\u0103p\u0103tura carapacei, te-ai amestecat cu duhul \u015fi limbile soacrei, \u015fi-n tunelurile goale de m\u0103duv\u0103 din\u0103untrul bambu\u015filor te mai \u00een\u0163epi, \u0163eap\u0103 str\u0103juia u\u015fa de-o b\u0103teai, chiar adineauri, \u00een \u00eentunericul lini\u015ftii \u0163i s-a n\u0103z\u0103rit, dinspre stan\u0103, un ecou ipocrit de libertate, nu prea merit\u0103 s\u0103 fii crab, scrie o furnic\u0103, \u0163i-ai dat foc \u00een privirea brunei \u015fi-\u0163i mai rodeai \u015fi m\u0103seaua, un fel de revedere, i-ai \u00eenghi\u0163it din v\u0103z, se rezolv\u0103 a\u015fa problema foamei, din ochi, \u015fi s\u0103 nu te vezi cu anii, s\u0103 nu te mai vezi, clar, niciodat\u0103, uit\u0103-te-aici, pene \u015fi nene, prad\u0103 din veac nemi\u015fc\u0103toare, era diminea\u0163\u0103, pleca\u0163i la film, \u00een fine, nici n-a\u0163i apucat s\u0103 intra\u0163i, s\u0103 ie\u015fi\u0163i din tunel, lucreaz\u0103 \u015fi pe\u015fterile, deseneaz\u0103, vrei s\u0103 fitile\u015fti c\u0103 de \u00eendat\u0103 ce am p\u0103truns ne-am g\u0103sit un pluton de autoexecu\u0163ie \u015fi redegradare, pedeaps\u0103 orgiilor voastre, nu ploua, nu se mira nimeni c\u0103 nu fusesem \u00een stare s\u0103 murim, din moment ce amintirile se prohibiser\u0103 de la sine, ba curve, ba puradele, cum ai bate c\u00e2mpii de zece s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015f cu zece anii de la tulpin\u0103 la r\u0103d\u0103cin\u0103 cam printre cracii miresii, c\u00e2nd m\u0103car te mai \u015fi rostogoleai \u00een speran\u0163a col\u0163ilor, crabilor, s\u0103-i furnici ca la mama lor, c\u00e2rp\u0103 c\u00e2rn\u0103 \u015fi botoas\u0103 ca maimu\u0163a, ori\u015fic\u00e2tu\u015fi de c\u00e2t, te-ai \u00eentins \u015fi \u0103ilal\u0163i tot s\u0103-\u0163i caute stana topit\u0103, de-nghe\u0163ase, prin coclaurele parc\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 ap\u0103, dup\u0103 potop pierdur\u0103m \u015fi firul \u00eenn\u0103molit al duratei, c\u0103 te-a b\u0103tut un deget de sus, te-au \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at corbii, balaurii, veveri\u0163ele, nu s-ar mai mi\u015fca, ar trece, iar cap\u0103tul dimpotriv\u0103 tot nu s-ar mi\u015fca, te-ai \u00eentoarce pe unde te-ai t\u00e2r\u00e2t, niciun semn, care va s\u0103 zic\u0103 mai \u00eencet, tot mai \u00eencet, te-ai p\u0103strat pe din afar\u0103, la vederea rupturilor, taie c\u0103r\u0163ile perechi cu sabia de la carte, \u0163i-ai sprijinit libelule de nori \u015fi le faci teoria c\u0103 nu e\u015fti libelul\u0103, ba le jigne\u015fti \u015fi c\u0103 nu zbori, c\u0103 nu halucinezi trecuta furtun\u0103, z\u00e2mbe\u015fti, faci ochi, n-ai natur\u0103, \u015fi vrei s\u0103-\u0163i faci rost, c\u0103 e compromis\u0103, c\u0103 o ispr\u0103ve\u015fti, i-ai da-n scris, c\u0103 de-ai tr\u0103i s-o \u00eent\u00e2lne\u015fti pe undeva prin tunel, de c\u00e2nd s-a spart, a\u015fa am auzit, m-ai spart, era pe limba ta \u00een singur\u0103tatea scheletului, de-l speculai la talcioc drept schelet al singur\u0103t\u0103\u0163ii, nu prea te-ai prins la mi\u015fcare, nici c\u0103 nu te mi\u015fcai, \u00eentoarce-te, nimic, nu \u015fade frumos, nici \u0163ipenie \u015fi-\u0163i pare bine \u015fi-a\u015fa, pu\u0163in obraz, unde \u0163i-e grijajena, ca s\u0103-\u0163i plac\u0103, dup\u0103 ce mai ie\u015fi din al c\u00e2telea ou, \u015ftiu ele furnicile ce \u015ftiu, lini\u015fte\u015fte-te, gr\u00e2ul se va muia firesc, z\u00e2mbe\u015fte, nu tu, ca s\u0103 vezi \u015fi s\u0103 fii at\u00e2t de bun, nu te uita, s\u0103 te dai mai \u00eencolo.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Te-ai \u015fuc\u0103rit \u015fi-ai trage de-o parte, ca chestie, c\u0103 de.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0162i iar m-ai invitat s\u0103 m\u0103-ntorc \u015fi m-ai \u00eempinge, m\u0103 g\u00e2dil.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Semn bun, apuc\u0103-te de pictur\u0103, ia-te de cap, cap.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Principii \u015fi principi, palmieri s-apropie, \u00eempietri\u0163i la coaj\u0103, sus.<\/strong><\/p>\n

E\u015fti la mijloc, traseul te \u00eenconjoar\u0103 pe-afar\u0103, de nerecunoscut.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei negril\u0103 \u0103sta nestorco\u015fit da’ t\u00e2r\u00e2nd lan\u0163 \u015fi limb\u0103 ro\u015fie de-a doua.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Limba-l t\u00e2r\u0103\u015fte pe el, el t\u00e2r\u0103\u015fte lan\u0163ul, e liber, lib.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Parc\u0103 nu-l fug\u0103resc cu crab \u015fi furnic\u0103 s\u0103-i pocnesc lan\u0163ul.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Schimbi stilul la spartul bazarului \u00een amurg murg.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei pe mama, fi-va-i pe limb\u0103 \u00eentre ap\u0103 \u015fi mal moale.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Taci atunci c\u0103 se potrive\u015fte de trei ori timpul cu b\u00e2ta.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Tocmai c\u0103 nu prindeau nici vacile s\u0103-mpung\u0103-mpinse.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei-ai scos limba de c\u00e2t le blestemasei f\u0103r\u0103 ru\u015fine.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ce ru\u015fine c\u00e2nd mai ne \u00eenecasem \u015fi se t\u00e2rau peste noi?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– C\u0103 nu lucra, din motive de via\u0163\u0103, dar s\u0103 v\u0103 fi luat seama.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Dup\u0103 aia mi-am calculat luatul c\u00e2nd ce s\u0103 mai blestem.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei societatea voastr\u0103 \u00eenfund\u00e2ndu-se \u00een mal s-a preg\u0103tit.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu vrei s\u0103 spui asta, p\u0103durea se \u00eendep\u0103rtase ca palmierii.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Aproape-aproape, cu burta la gur\u0103, ne pierde ocazia.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– M-a\u015f sfii da’ nu acuma, am ghinionul fugitului negril\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Abia te-a\u015ftep\u0163i, te calci, te vizitezi, nimeni, pe c\u0103utate.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Mai devreme, c\u0103 pe urm\u0103 am c\u0103utat la nori, nimic, tot o ap\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei, da, yaksha <\/em>se revoltase \u00eempotriva b\u0103tr\u00e2nilor, nu-\u0163i mai venea la socoteal\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u00centre cer \u015fi \u00eentre p\u0103m\u00e2nt, nici tunel, nici \u015farpe s\u0103 ne-ncap\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– F\u0103cusei fr\u0103\u0163ie de centru, de cu noapte, nu \u0163i-era pe la mas.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– S\u0103-mi cad\u0103 \u015fi mie acoperi\u015ful martirilor \u00een ceaf\u0103, tot nu contez.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– A\u015fa te po\u0163i s\u0103ruta \u015fi ajunge, \u015fi \u00eentinde \u015fi \u00eentoarce, toarce.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– M-ar feri crabul, m\u00e2nca-l-a\u015f, din scoic\u0103-n \u0163estoas\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ai ratat \u015fi avataruri animale, dac\u0103 nu te-a\u015f fi animalizat.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– De-aia mai trag n\u0103dejde \u015fi nu numai de-o via\u0163\u0103, c\u0103 e gata.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Exagerezi \u015fi cu deosebirea dintre sf\u00e2r\u015fit \u015fi \u00eenceput.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Veacul n-o s\u0103 mai \u00eenceap\u0103, noi dac\u0103 l-om sf\u00e2r\u015fi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– N-o lua a\u015fa, c\u0103 e p\u0103cat de isterie, c\u00e2t c\u0103-n singur\u0103tate.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Mie nu mi-a\u015f mai zg\u00e2ria obrazul cu o pudoare dep\u0103\u015fit\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Obscur, ghicesc de-o sastiseal\u0103 premeditat\u0103 cras.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Din miloag\u0103 simetrie, mi-ai repro\u015fa, e o pas\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Tot pase \u015fi niciun pas mic, c\u00e2t m-am spetit.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Gologanul de symbolon nu face-un ban dincoace.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Golanul de bibiluri nici at\u00e2t \u015fi cuminte \u015fi gol.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu \u0163i-a ie\u015fit nici \u0163ie, n-ai luat-o, mai guliai \u00een\u0103untru.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Se las\u0103 greu \u015fi pantoful, chiar a\u015fa \u00eeng\u0103urit de miroase.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Cum s-a nimerit de-a gre\u015fit tunelul, c\u0103 picior, nici talp\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nici urm\u0103, corecteaz\u0103-te-n harul bleg de te b\u0103l\u0103ce\u015fte.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– A\u015f mai da-nd\u0103r\u0103t ca racul \u015fi tot mi-e fric\u0103 de furnic\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– S\u0103 crezi c\u0103 vei repeta, \u00een arcul grinzii, \u00eenc\u00e2ntul.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– M\u0103car amintirile s\u0103 nu te fi ratat \u015fi mai singure.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Trece \u015fi-asta, m\u0103car \u0163ie s\u0103-\u0163i datorezi nicio br\u00e2nz\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Cu bananierul eram serios, dar cum s\u0103 m\u0103 apropii?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u00cencet, dezrostindu-te, te adunai din filma\u015fii ro\u015fii.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Mai t\u00e2rziu peste dou\u0103 trei \u0163este, multe nemuriri cur\u00e2nd.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Baliverne, z\u0103u, c\u00e2t mi-am mai r\u0103cit \u015fi urechile.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– A pocnit un drac de era s\u0103 zic era s\u0103 zici via\u0163\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Pune data, ora, crabul, c\u00e2t dup\u0103 furtun\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei pe urm\u0103-mi sco\u0163i pe nas c\u0103 aia nu e, nu era via\u0163\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Fac \u015fi eu ce pot, te recunosc uneori \u015fi vin, fii pe pace.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– De-aia \u015fi \u0163op\u0103i pe din\u0103untru, postesc \u015fi de vise.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Har\u0163iul te-ar aranja ca-n obscenit\u0103\u0163ile de miere.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei serenade de dulce impoten\u0163\u0103, nu, har\u0163i hora\u0163ian, cara.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Caraba crabului, nu te mai fasoli de jum\u0103t\u0103\u0163i.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Tot nu s-ar fi ales nimic de prafu-mi \u00een ochi mai orbi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Te m\u00e2ndrea vreo mafie \u015fi ne cinsteam trinacru.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– E pe mas\u0103, \u00een schi\u0163\u0103, banyanul p\u00e2r\u00e2it, m\u0103 hlizeam.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu mi\u015fca de te-ascult\u0103 cu patima libernecazului.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Numai de inten\u0163ii nu m\u0103 cau\u0163i, nici de parise.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– S\u0103 nu mai po\u0163i fi nici m\u0103car am\u0103r\u00e2t, aia lab\u0103b\u0103l\u0103barie.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– M\u0103 uit la lumen iar, rar, noptaticei bl\u00e2nde\u0163i.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– De-un conac, p\u00e2n’ faci rost de sunete caraghioase.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u00cen locul \u0103la de unde-mi vine sufletul, \u00eemi imaginez un corp.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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– N-o s\u0103 m\u0103 las, chiar dac\u0103 se d\u0103 filmul, de data asta, de-am t\u00e2r\u00e2t \u00eensu\u015fi tunelul, tun\u00e2ndu-l din muntele mare-n cel dulce, de-o poft\u0103 de de\u015fert, ne udasem z\u0103ceam o zoaie cu firimituri de capete de cenu\u015f\u0103, nu sar \u00een aer, cu umeri, cu vreun dulap de sprijin, cu gesturi mateine, \u00eemi dau cu p\u0103rerea, ca ultimul, ce-o fi fost \u00een capul meu s\u0103-mi \u0163in clanul \u00een eternitatea aia g\u0103unoas\u0103, c-o amprent\u0103 pe niciun lin\u0163oliu, m-am certat cu furnicile, nu cu crabii, nu-mi pas\u0103, nu-ncep nimic iar, tot la film, trecem la o alt\u0103 cast\u0103, dac\u0103 mai e nevoie de trecut, economie de ghemuit, t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015f cu carapacea, ad\u0103postul la ad\u0103post, pe unde-om lua-o, n-om lua, c\u0103 nu ne-or \u00een\u0163epa \u0163\u00e2n\u0163arii dengue, poate nu film\u0103m, ne d\u0103m premii, deschidem rana s\u0103 ni se nasc\u0103 un fiu, \u00eel l\u0103s\u0103m pe el de paz\u0103 \u015fi odihn\u0103 \u00een tunel, c\u00e2t i-ar p\u0103rea de nesf\u00e2r\u015fit, cre\u015fte, cre\u015fte-n scade \u015fi-n cascade, d\u0103-ne Doamne, ce s\u0103 nu ne t\u00e2r\u00e2m c\u0103 ne \u015fi compune barb\u0103 alb\u0103 \u0103la de-a luat-o \u015fi el de la cap\u0103t, dou\u0103 b\u0103rbi albe, cer\u015fim tot ce ne trebuie, filmul ni-l oferim, am auzit str\u0103in\u0103tate, potc\u0103 mare, c\u0103 vise, c\u0103 iluzii, c\u0103 halucina\u0163ii, chiar tunel, ia s\u0103 vedem m\u0103car a\u015fa, pe zid, nu la zid, nu \u00een zid, \u00eemi \u00eenchipui ce m\u0103 v\u0103d, m-aleg, \u00een orice chip, c\u00e2nd toarn\u0103 una apa chiar de pi\u015f\u0103 pe mine, salamandr\u0103, m\u0103 sacrific pentru band\u0103, c\u0103 n-ai ajunge singur fa\u0163\u0103-n fa\u0163\u0103 cu filmul, dac\u0103 e pe-a\u015fa, s\u0103 m\u0103 strige furnica, o cale s\u0103 m\u0103 strige, nu e nicio furnic\u0103, e mare, marea furnicii, dans\u0103m, ne-a luat min\u0163ile imaginea noastr\u0103 ne\u00eenchipuit\u0103, vibrat\u0103, zidit\u0103, totu\u015fi, ce s\u0103-i faci, tot prin doruri de oglinzi, hai \u015fi tu, haidem to\u0163i, falimet filma\u015filor, ne \u015fuc\u0103rim, greva cer\u015fetorilor, cine mai joac\u0103, ne juc\u0103m numai \u00een de noi, scene bunele, de-am s\u0103r\u0103cit de r\u0103i, \u00een cur cu slava \u015fi felia, vindem ce nu cer\u015fim, din lepr\u0103 ne facem pingele la gaura pantofului de filmare \u015fi care n-a cr\u0103pat \u015fi se mai t\u00e2r\u0103\u015fte poate s\u0103 ias\u0103, s\u0103 intre, se na\u015fte, moare, ne-am aranjat \u015fi cu curvele, c\u0103ci ele au pe vino-ncoace la film, de cai verzi pe pere\u0163i ne crema\u0163iona pe voi, c\u0103 de iepe nu ne ardea, ba a mamii, nu mai avea poporul \u00eencredere, r\u00e2dere, p\u0103i cum, de-aici \u00eencep eu, to\u0163i dup\u0103 mine, pe film, pe dalb\u0103 fl\u0103m\u00e2nzire, c\u0103 ne-am vorbit \u015fi ne-am t\u0103cut \u015fi celelalte, alea conteaz\u0103, p\u0103i dac\u0103 furnicile-\u015fi aduc aminte c\u0103 au fost crabi \u015fi crabii c\u0103 au fost furnici, asta ce-nseamn\u0103, \u015ftiu eu, la liber, la film, mai a\u015fa, p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd, s\u0103 treac\u0103 \u015fi ve\u0163i m\u0103sura, \u00eent\u00e2i de lat suntem rotunzi, din acest unghi subiectiv, un fel de voci chemate de la oase, instrumente la mine, a\u015fa lumea, ochi mari, \u015fi orbii, roi \u015fi roi, robi \u015fi corobi, pe cer, pe cerb, m\u0103-ntreb ce-a\u015f spune \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103 \u015fi \u00een recompens\u0103, unii absenteaz\u0103 din via\u0163\u0103, din mizeria noastr\u0103 cea de toate filmele \u015fi trebuie s\u0103 \u00eentrerupem filmarea, vizionarea \u015fi celelalte, care ele conteaz\u0103, s\u0103 nu rena\u015ftem din gre\u015feal\u0103, din pipi, uita\u0163i-v\u0103, nu a\u015fa, peste ochi, de-al treilea, c\u0103 de-aia de ne d\u0103r\u00e2m\u0103m, ne d\u0103m foc \u015fi ne trimitem cenu\u015fa la filmare, c\u0103 s-ar putea s\u0103 pierdem culoare.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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C\u00e2nd avem timp \u015fi ne avem bine, nu ne-avem nicicum.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ne desp\u0103r\u0163im \u015fi noi ca oricare, la ce-am fi stat \u00eempreun\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n

La ce ne-am \u015fi r\u0103rit de nu ne venea la \u00eendem\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 ie\u015fim.<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0103 intr\u0103m, singur, n-ai dec\u00e2t s\u0103-\u0163i declari simpatie.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Exact cu \u00eenchipuirea ta, singur\u0103-n singur, nimic.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Te intereseaz\u0103 puteai r\u0103m\u00e2ne cu mine, ori s\u0103 nu te la\u015fi f\u0103r\u0103 mine.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Te-ai g\u00e2ndit altfel \u015fi m-am g\u00e2ndit \u015fi eu tot altfel.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– De ce-a\u015fteptai \u015fi mai singur erai, n-am nicio idee.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Te-ai \u00eempinge o idee mai \u00eencoace \u00een tot patul apatic.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Asta da, cre\u015ftine\u015fte, po\u0163i s\u0103 sim\u0163i \u015fi-o ciupitur\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Mai mult de c\u00e2nd eram \u00eempreun\u0103, dec\u00e2t o furnic\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Pe-acolo, a fost un gest din senin, nepus la mas\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Mi-am scos \u015fi eu dedesubturile, am fason de muson.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei vezi c\u0103 se lungi \u00eentre normal \u015fi moral.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Normoral, mda, \u015fi-o z\u0103pad\u0103 demult pictat\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– M\u00e2na aia ninge altfel, z\u0103pada iar de-o simpatie.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Simbad\u0103, zindabad\u0103, zimdin\u0163at\u0103, s\u0103rutm\u00e2nat\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Cum s-a inspirat la iu\u0163eal\u0103, de-o singur\u0103tate vacant\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– S-o ning personal cum \u00eemi \u0163ine companie, mi-e frig.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Te afli \u00een starea de agregare a pomelnicului viitor.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Singurilor, gur\u0103 mare, nu al singurilor vii, \u0103ilal\u0163i.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Fiecare e singur \u015fi dac\u0103 mai e \u015fi viu moare singur.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei singur \u015fi viu \u015fi singur \u015fi mort, neretoric, neoteric.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ai mai pomenit, experimentai pure abstrac\u0163ii \u00een crust\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ocoleam singur\u0103tatea cenu\u015fii cu scrumul singur\u0103t\u0103\u0163ii mele.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Pe urm\u0103 mi-a fost dor, din foc \u00een morm\u00e2nt, de sinele dor.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u00centors eram f\u0103r\u0103 sine, \u015fi doar m\u0103 dusesem eu.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– P\u0103rticica asta, din ner\u0103bdarea oboselii de a nu sf\u00e2r\u015fi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu-mi dau seama, sunt prea singur s\u0103 mai am impresia sf\u00e2r\u015fitului.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– M\u0103car aum zece ani, zece s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni n-aveai nevoie.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– N-aveam interes s\u0103 privesc nici \u00eenainte nici \u00eenapoi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u00cen golul de singur\u0103tate aproape te-ai dat peste cap.<\/strong><\/p>\n

-A\u015fa s\u0103 fi fost, unde puteam s\u0103 ajung t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015f-gr\u0103bi\u015f?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu la \u00eenceput, c\u0103 era \u00eendep\u0103rtat prin tehnic\u0103 incon\u015ftient\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Incon\u015ftien\u0163\u0103 c\u00e2t de tehnic\u0103, m\u0103 autoflagelam separat.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Separat \u015fi de rupturile singur\u0103t\u0103\u0163ii, de m\u0103 rupsesei.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ne rupsesem \u00een parte, ce te-a\u015f mai rupe acum de crac\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– T\u0103rie, pic-pic, \u015fi-ai pica \u00een nord, rece, s\u0103-\u0163i citesc.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ce-a\u015f auzi a\u015f istorisi crabilor ascult\u0103tori de furnici.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Am \u00eenghi\u0163it, ceva resturi de plasticitate, m\u0103 temeam de cocolo\u015fi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Cocolo\u015findu-m\u0103 azi \u015fi m\u00e2ine am cocolo\u015fit chipuri calde.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u00cenchipuindu-\u0163i c\u0103 le face vreo pl\u0103cere le-ai masturbat.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Asta ar fi o noble\u0163e, pe plat\u0103, cu blazon \u015fi dob\u00e2nd\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u0162i-era-n obicei s\u0103 iei la goan\u0103 pe cine rechemai.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Cu deosebire \u00eentre palmier \u015fi bananier, f\u0103-i castel.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Jos palmierul, sus bananierul, tot palmierul.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Palmier cu dou\u0103 capete unul de bananier, plus.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Banyanul jos, sus palmierul, sus bananierul ca mai sus.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Un banyan cu dou\u0103, trei capete, de r\u0103d\u0103cini, de palmier, de bananier.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– M-am pierdut, a\u015f putea fi tu, banyanul, palmierul, bananierul.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Le-ai \u0163inut lor minte ordinea \u015fi \u0163ie nicio lum\u00e2nare.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Se fr\u00e2nsese la jum\u0103tate, lemnul fumega, aia stins\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Avea un haz ceara aia alb\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 niciun rost, absolut.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Numai \u00een ea mi se topeau \u015fi mie ochii p\u00e2n\u0103-am ajuns la banyan.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ba ori bu, te bubabumb\u0103cesc c\u00e2nd te prind \u00eenapoi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ce \u015fi a\u015ftept, ca s\u0103 n-o mai dau dup\u0103 ordine herdine.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Chestia e de context abstras, contras, stroflocit.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Dalba liot\u0103 s-a sup\u0103rat pe l\u0103sa\u0163ii de via\u0163\u0103 mor\u0163i.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– C\u00e2\u0163i pe zi, c\u00e2te zile pe c\u00e2\u0163i, numai de c\u00e2nd e\u015fti singur, un cimitir.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Chiparo\u015fi \u015fi singuri, unde-i punem, zic \u00eentre palmibanbun.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nu se zice bunanier, de \u0163i-a m\u00e2ncat din floarea mov.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Mi-am m\u00e2ncat-o din perfec\u0163iunea viciului de-a fi fost singur.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– A fi fost, ia, dac\u0103-\u0163i mai convine, \u00een schimbul c\u0103r\u0163ii.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nedecartate, c\u0103 n-am ochi de u\u015f\u0103, de t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015ful pe sub ea.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Te-o fi liberat, da’ niciun neliber s\u0103 nu fie amnistiat la ecou.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ego probabil se aude eco, da’ ecoul, s\u0103racu’, \u015fi eu…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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– M\u0103 t\u00e2r\u0103sc s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc \u015fi tunelul s-a ferit, a dat \u00een feerie, te-apropii de la zece metri, prin singur\u0103tatea somptuoas\u0103, c-un z\u00e2mbet pe fa\u0163a luminoas\u0103, p\u0103rul str\u00e2ns \u00een conci, rochie lung\u0103, pa\u015fi aristocratici, ochii-n acela\u015fi sur\u00e2s, fa\u0163\u0103-n fa\u0163\u0103, parc\u0103 m\u0103-ntorceam \u015fi o tain\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ce s\u0103 ne mai t\u0103inim c\u0103 ne vedem din calculul durerii despreunate, \u00een vis \u015fi \u0103la, desp\u0103gubitor c\u00e2t s\u0103 ne mute aceea\u015fi boal\u0103, \u0163ie-n t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015f, mie-n mu\u015furoaie, \u00eemi luasem o fa\u0163\u0103 c\u00e2t s\u0103 \u0163i se par\u0103 schimbat \u015fi tunelul de la fort ori dinspre mare ori altul.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Bomba din acoperi\u015fult tunelului martirilor \u00ee\u015fi p\u0103streaz\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 niscai reci ecouri prin cea\u0163a avionului \u00eempu\u015fcat, cobor\u00e2sei dintr-un zbor altfel, numai tu, \u015fi-n vis s-ar fi cuvenit o amitire a v\u0103milor, singura realitate din ochii t\u0103i de-o lume se \u00eenduio\u015fa.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ia \u015fi te desentimentalizeaz\u0103, apuc\u0103-te, de exemplu, s\u0103 urli, \u015fi sf\u00e2\u015fie-mi rochia, alert la doliu-i din mod\u0103, poate am pulpele calde, poate sunt \u00een c\u0103lduri, \u0163i-oi sparge capul c\u00e2nd mi-ai face felul, dar nu te uita, cine s-o uita tot cu ochii mei va miji vreo scuz\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Cum c\u0103 m\u0103 t\u00e2r\u0103sc \u015fi descop\u0103r un pantof \u015fi m\u0103 \u00eenfrigur, \u00eel deschid s\u0103 plutesc spre ghea\u0163a t\u0103lpii, s\u0103 ne \u00eentre\u0163inem prin ea, ca-ntr-un premiu, c\u0103 ne c\u0103lc\u0103m iar \u015fi floarea mov nu te-a t\u0103iat, n-ai sculptat-o ca pe rod, cum s-or fi pip\u0103ind evolu\u0163iile funerare \u015fi roditoare ale florii mov nu e nicio culoare \u00een clipa astei revela\u0163ii, nici vorb\u0103 la talp\u0103, o m\u00e2ntuire de prisos, ceva s\u0103-\u0163i inspire o iluzie de dar, neprimit, imposibil de pom\u0103nit, \u015fi \u00eencerc s\u0103-\u0163i dau de \u00een\u0163eles c\u0103, bine, n-ai dec\u00e2t s\u0103-mi d\u0103rui mie zg\u00e2rietura m\u0103r\u0103cinilor de bouganvillea.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Pentru c\u0103 nu te-am iertat, dintru \u00eenceput, nu mi-o iert, ce cau\u0163i singur\u0103 \u00een singur\u0103tatea ireal\u0103 a tunelului v\u0103z\u00e2ndu-\u015fi de ajunare \u015fi puja<\/em> h\u00e2\u0163\u00e2n\u00e2ndu-se de aerul din vecie vizitat de scena mamei cu demonul f\u0103r\u00e2mat la picioare tuns scurt.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Mi-ai \u015fi pus capul de idoli\u0163\u0103 ce i l-ai zg\u00e2riat pe zid \u015fi-ai jurat s\u0103 mi-l ar\u0103\u0163i c\u0103-mi seam\u0103na, observ\u0103 c\u0103 nu numai culori dar \u015fi zg\u00e2rieturi s-au dus \u00een plata Domnului, demonului, \u015fi doar geometrii supradimensionate ne p\u0103g\u00e2nizeaz\u0103 decorul.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Tu inspiri o victim\u0103 t\u00e2r\u00e2ndu-se s\u0103-\u0163i inspire o recunoa\u015ftere trist\u0103, \u00ee\u0163i \u00een\u0163eleg stinghereala sur\u00e2sului, paloarea-\u0163i m\u0103 furase c\u00e2t s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc, perpelindu-m\u0103 dup\u0103 o etichet\u0103 a \u00eent\u00e2mpin\u0103rii molcomului zbor.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Nici nu zburasem, \u00een\u0163elegerea o rumegasei p\u00e2n\u0103 s-au retezat, ajutat de fiin\u0163e decorative, conforturi agonice, renun\u0163\u0103ri la lumini colorate, la ve\u015fti din nori \u015fi de pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt, te \u00eenghesuisei \u00een coclauri vizi pentru a-mi face loc numai mie.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– C\u0103 numai tu \u00eencapi mignon\u0103, \u00een picioare, peste p\u0103rerea de mine, cum, atunci, fa\u0163\u0103 la fa\u0163\u0103, mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 fie adev\u0103rat \u015fi visul de ajungere, din stop, \u0103la nemairegretat, \u015fi el de-o neculoare, pe vremuri, talp\u0103 la talp\u0103, ne sfin\u0163eam la cracii miresii.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Pare-mi-se tot singur, dup\u0103 \u00eencruci\u015f\u0103ri de pa\u015fi \u00een aer liber, la o alegere tot mai \u00eemp\u0103timit\u0103, de-ai t\u0103cut zece ani \u015fi-o torni la gogo\u015fi \u00een incertul prezent de m-ai convocat s\u0103 joc finalul melodramei, las\u0103-m\u0103, dar, s\u0103-\u0163i dau din lumea asta spa\u0163iul vast.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u015ei nu e cald, nici ghea\u0163\u0103, sexul \u0163i l-a\u015f vrea dilatat, foarea mov, necolor\u0103 a bananierului, autofecund\u00e2ndu-se prin rod, nu m\u0103 pot t\u00e2r\u00ee pe prea albele-\u0163i pulpe \u015fi sanscrite, am \u00eencheietori de nimic, \u00eemi dep\u0103\u015fe\u015fti visul \u015fi f\u0103r\u0103 groaz\u0103 m\u0103 onorezi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Timpul se va mai schimba, se va \u00eenro\u015fi, \u015fi tu \u00eemi vei dilata sexul cre\u015ftine\u015fte, t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015f-gr\u0103bi\u015f, de la deal la vale, \u00eent\u00e2i voi avea aerul c\u0103-\u0163i voi plesni o palm\u0103 \u015fi te dr\u0103cui, pe urm\u0103 ce s\u0103 mai zic, floare de bananier te-o rodi pl\u00e2ng\u00e2nd.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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– Sosirea ei a prevenit ce se min\u0163ise din gargara zodiacului, da’ cine s\u0103 te lini\u015fteasc\u0103, nici crabul, c\u00e2nd \u0163i-a anun\u0163at, pe tipar, s\u0103 se produc\u0103 dovad\u0103 \u015fi geometrie, c\u0103 te-a ajuns te-a rezolvat, te \u00eenso\u0163e\u015fte, a\u015fa, lucrurile s-au aranjat \u00een \u00eenc\u0103 un infinit de iluzorie bun\u0103tate \u015fi a\u015fteptare \u00eenvrednicit\u0103, chiar o masturbant\u0103 neverosimilitate a vie\u0163ilor de r\u00e2nd, decolorate \u015fi de bun\u0103 voie, nu numai de mu\u015furoiul pornit de la film, de unde se \u00eentinseser\u0103 mai dihai, at\u00e2t c\u0103 era luni, c\u00e2t \u015fi s\u0103 g\u00e2dile antiadministra\u0163ia, c-aveam \u015fi noi, nu sc\u0103pam, ne t\u00e2ram tot timpul \u00een de noi, altfel contam \u00een anume rapoarte, foarte sus, de n-am auzit c\u00e2t ne scuipam v\u00e2nt, e \u015fi ru\u015finea de ru\u015fine, darmite consumul tunelului, reminiscen\u0163a eternei neputin\u0163e de a te \u00eentoarce ori de a face un pas, am\u0103girea organizat\u0103 cu ipocrizie, c\u0103 bananierii erau de furnici albe, i-am retzat s\u0103-i suim \u00een palmierii sui\u0163i \u00een banyanii flutur\u00e2nd r\u0103d\u0103cini de crabi, tot cu un zbor al ei, de s-a prezentat, pe acela\u015fi loc, eloxat, ba \u00eenc\u0103, de s-au lipit la zid \u00eentr-o roat\u0103 de simetrie bananieri de furnici albe mai drep\u0163i, o neoclarvizionare, la film, le-om smulge, ne stric\u0103m natura viral\u0103, dezinformat\u0103, nou\u0103sprezece \u00een loc de dou\u0103zeci, mai nimic din o sut\u0103 \u015faizeci \u015fi nou\u0103, cine num\u0103r\u0103 nu tr\u0103ie\u015fte, cine nu tr\u0103ie\u015fte et caetera, da’ bine-a f\u0103cut, a\u015fa-mi trebuia, c\u0103 m-am f\u0103cut fericit o clip\u0103, de-o a\u015fteptasem c\u00e2t \u00eemi fusese veacul, b\u00e2rfele c\u0103 ne sim\u0163eam altfel imagina\u0163ia, mai terre-a-tere, c\u0103 fondurile cosmice ne cost\u0103 duminicile, c\u0103 \u0103la n-a fost \u00een tunel \u015fi ne \u00eenc\u00e2nt\u0103 pantof\u0103reasa, se vor reprograma \u015fi-alea, ne \u00eencheiem acum t\u0103r\u0103\u015fenia, nici chiar ald\u0103ma\u015ful, c\u0103 ne r\u00e2de amltash<\/em>ul, prin foile lui am v\u0103zut bananierul cum prin cercul mutelor ne-am \u00eempotmolit t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015ful s\u0103 juc\u0103m \u015fi noi c\u0103r\u0163i, de ne-am pus la cale s\u0103 ajungem o dat\u0103 \u015fi o dat\u0103 la film, ideea e t\u00e2mpit\u0103, n-are nici \u00een clin nici \u00een m\u00e2nec\u0103, de niciodat\u0103, cu h\u0103l\u0103duirea-ne \u00eentru o nimcnicie aparent schiload\u0103, lepra nu ne decora mai prejos ostoirea de amor, n-aveam voie s\u0103 ie\u015fim, e drept, c\u00e2t c\u0103 ne vindecasem, un pic \u015fi prin amor, ne crescuser\u0103 aripi, drag\u0103, \u00een locul c\u0103rnii m\u00e2ncate de boala carnivor\u0103, nu de furnici, alea nici n-ar mai avea ce ciupi, t\u00e2rna exist\u0103, \u015fi capul, \u015fi cenu\u015fa, z\u0103u c\u0103 nu era mai minciun\u0103 ca o poezie cum ne t\u00e2r\u00e2m noi \u015fi s\u0103 ne pi\u015f\u0103m pe aproapele disp\u0103rut, orbul se pi\u015fa \u015fi tu ejaculai la miezul nop\u0163ii c\u0103 n-ai v\u0103zut niciodat\u0103 orb pi\u015f\u00e2ndu-se iar toat\u0103 femeia a balansat postul nostru \u00een ecologie, de zisesem de poant\u0103 crabi la masculin \u015fi furnici la feminin, c\u0103 nici at\u00e2t nu ne distingeam, m\u0103car \u0103ia \u015fi alea n-aveau, pentru c\u0103 n-aveau ambi\u0163ia s\u0103 mearg\u0103 la film, n-aveau de ce s\u0103 nu joace giurgina c\u00e2t o lop\u0103iam din \u0163east\u0103-n \u0163eap\u0103, s\u0103 nu zic din epopee-n epopee, secretul nostru este c\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u0163asem cum e de bine f\u0103r\u0103 cap fiind numai cap, f\u0103r\u0103 corp, de suflet n-am putut sc\u0103pa \u015fi ne-a mai \u015fi vizitat madama asta Nandini pe r\u00e2nd \u015fi \u00een mas\u0103, c-o fi, c-o p\u0103\u0163i, c\u0103 de-a s\u0103rutat o gagic\u0103 \u015fi-at\u00e2t, c\u0103 ea nu ne-a s\u0103rutat, c\u0103 era lege mar\u0163ial\u0103 \u015fi c\u0103, zicea nenea, ea \u00eens\u0103\u015fi era moartea, baliverne, ce-a mai pl\u00e2ns c\u0103 n-am implicat-o \u00een obscenit\u0103\u0163ile alea luate la ochi de t\u0103ietori, nu numai de filme, profesam \u015ftreangul, n-aveam acces, nu iese, iar dac\u0103 a\u0163i avut ocazia s\u0103 v\u0103 sp\u00e2nzura\u0163i \u00eentr-un bananier, v-a\u0163i trezit bine-merci.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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– Curbura traseului, s\u0103 str\u00e2mbi din nas, v\u0103de\u015fte adev\u0103rul c\u0103 numai \u00een tunel te po\u0163i t\u00e2r\u00ee, absolutiza, nesf\u00e2nt, p\u00e2n\u0103 una alta, ne-am fript sufletul, vechea ortoboeirie ne trage clopotul, nu c-am avea acela\u015fi dumnezeu, pe ce, nu c-am mai da iluzia sl\u0103vitei turme prin p\u0103stora\u015fu-i, ia-o pe-aici, dac\u0103 nici tunelul, nici piatra nu \u0163i s-au v\u0103dit, t\u00e2r\u0103\u015fte-te-n gol, gol de sine, umbra se va geometriza, la o clip\u0103, o s\u0103-\u0163i apar\u0103 sur\u00e2z\u00e2nd dracul \u0103la de muiere, \u00eengera din carte, dup\u0103 viteji, las\u0103 str\u0103codo\u015ful, d\u0103-i bice, nu-\u0163i permiteai dreptul iluziei respective, te vindeai de ambalaj, ca o influen\u0163\u0103, nu, trebuie s-o prinzi \u015fi s-o ar\u0103\u0163i, s-o pedepse\u015fti, n-o s-o doar\u0103, nu exist\u0103 dec\u00e2t \u00een realizarea ta, faci zarv\u0103, nu era fecioar\u0103, nevast\u0103-ta, la re\u00eencarnare, moi cronicile-n venin de viper\u0103 \u015fi, pe cont propriu, original, performezi fecundarea-i cu fierul ro\u015fu ca un crab fiert, nenicule, n-abuza de limbaj, rece, \u0163epe\u015fte, nu exist\u0103, \u00eendulce\u015fte nega\u0163iunea, ajungi prea \u00eenapoi, rupe-\u0163i de la gur\u0103 doctrina singur\u0103t\u0103\u0163ii r\u0103zbun\u0103toare, vampiric anacronism, a surcelelor aprinz\u00e2ndu-se unul de la altul, una de la alta, lab\u0103, t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015f, pune-i poalele-n cap, p\u0103durile \u015fi n-au o rochie at\u00e2t de ad\u00e2nc\u0103, foile de bananier \u015fi nu le dormeai pe burt\u0103, te \u00eentinsesei pe spate, ca bunicul caprei, doi cu disimetrii, t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015ful te scoate bor\u00e2t din statul plastic, din plasticit\u0103\u0163ile statice, aici te puteai repezi-\u00eentr-o scen\u0103 de dubiu nou, mai inutil ca boala, c\u0103 te \u00eembl\u00e2nzea, la ce bun ori, dac\u0103-ai auzit, politica-muzica, nu-\u0163i place, n-ai priceput ce-ai iubit, adic\u0103 de unde p\u00e2n\u0103 unde \u015fi cum, te ia dracu’ \u015fi de p\u0103cat \u00een sus, vino \u015fi dovede\u015fte-te cu demnitate de crab, \u00eentins c\u00e2t tropicul \u015fi astralizat f\u0103r\u0103 credit, mai mor\u00e2nce\u015fte-\u0163i pleoapele, de le mai por\u0163i, prin scama norilor, de se mai las\u0103, tot e ceva, \u015fi dac\u0103 d\u0103 Dumnezeu, e altceva, mereu altceva, de-o distrac\u0163ie, foarte just a-i fi refuzat spa\u0163iul, tot prostii prin tot spa\u0163iul, c\u00e2nd vremea a trecut \u015fi nu te las\u0103 nici pe iele nici sub ele, c\u0103 pu\u0163in a r\u0103mas \u015fi pu\u0163inul te r\u0103stoarn\u0103 tot, ce s\u0103 mai \u00eentorci personal, pe ce br\u00e2nci s\u0103 joace filmul cu u\u015file \u00eenchise pe din afar\u0103 de lac\u0103tele realizatorilor t\u0103i, sl\u0103ve\u015fte-i cu o b\u0103\u015fin\u0103 \u015fi \u0163i-ai f\u0103cut planul, iar ei te vor lua la \u00eentreb\u0103ri de am\u0103nunt, pe aceea\u015fi limb\u0103, ab\u0163ine-te s\u0103 mai adaugi zile, bag\u0103-\u0163i via\u0163a min\u0163ilor \u00een cap, s\u0103 te doar\u0103 e de buton, parc\u0103 te duci la femei migrenoase \u015fi asta, cum cu pa\u015fi nici \u0163i se apropie, iar tu, t\u0103m\u00e2ie, studiaz\u0103 mai sus, c-o p\u0103ze\u015fti boier de s\u0103r\u0103cia premiat\u0103 a\u015fa, c-o prive\u015fti c\u00e2t cuprinzi, de unde apare, din hala geometriei, p\u00e2n\u0103 dispare ating\u00e2ndu-te, acupres\u00e2ndu-se, s\u0103 n-o, nu te mai doar\u0103, p\u0103i ce, c\u0103 fii serios, c\u0103 ne vede, \u015fi e aranjamentul durerii ei de cap, asta nu-\u0163i place \u015fi sari la floarea mov, v\u0103 cunoa\u015fte\u0163i de undeva, vedenie, prinde-o \u015fi vezi-o, c\u0103 nu te mai jucasei, din vremea cealalt\u0103, tot o clipit\u0103, s\u0103-\u0163i ba\u0163i p\u0103rin\u0163ii, pe ce um\u0103r, sora, stricatule-claritate experimental\u0103 numai \u00een tunel, p\u00e2n\u0103 la os, o specie p\u0103relnic\u0103, de-aia efemer sublim\u0103, r\u0103m\u00e2n cu fluturele-n aer, m\u0103r de libelule, ce-mi trebuie mie s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lnesc cu tine \u015fi s\u0103 nu-\u0163i simt nici \u015foldul lunec\u00e2nd \u00een sensul opus, c\u0103 ne spulber\u0103m la atingere, ne-am nuclearizat \u00eentr-un hal f\u0103r\u0103 ah, n-am jen\u0103, \u015fi nu mi-l permi\u0163i pentru nimic.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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– Mai bine nimic dec\u00e2t amara reculegere \u00eentru sf\u00e2r\u00e2iala jertfei, fanfar\u0103, lacrim\u0103, ordinul nu e al mortului \u00eenviat, ordine de ne t\u00e2r\u00e2m \u00een ea nu avea habar de pantomima-con\u015ftiin\u0163\u0103, cum visezi \u015fi-odat\u0103 te-mpingi prin abur, de-o poveste pe pip\u0103ite, te ca\u0163\u0103ri pe talp\u0103 s\u0103 faci semne disperate c\u0103 e\u015fti perfect preg\u0103tit, contrazis \u015fi sufocat din gene, \u00ee\u0163i place, murind, genetica, nu stric\u0103 viitorului, ca s\u0103 nu-l ui\u0163i, s\u0103 fie de sufletul cui n-o s\u0103 fie, de-aia nu veni scrisoare, s\u0103 nu se i\u015fte ceva, careva, s\u0103-\u0163i lege br\u00e2ncile-n scris, dezleg\u00e2ndu-te la suflet printre rotogoale fumate nemaisanscrit, cum am anun\u0163at divor\u0163ul \u015fi c-o tacla talaka, nu te explica, e-acela\u015fi mit de nevoie, chiar fii pe pace, ajunge-\u0163i, c\u0103 n-o s\u0103 te ajungi, \u00eenmul\u0163ind exemple foarte ur\u00e2te, c-atunci de ce te-ai mai t\u00e2r\u00e2t o via\u0163\u0103, dac\u0103 nu de \u015fmecher \u015fi cer\u015fetor \u015fi \u00eendr\u0103gostit, sictir zise c\u0103pitanul \u00eentre ghe\u0163uri, un fel de cazzo, aici ai aruncat cu mucii-n fasole, te fasole\u015fti din spiritul unit\u0103\u0163ii unui matrapazl\u00e2c b\u0103t\u0103tor de ochelari, ochelari de cur, bine \u0163i-a \u015fi civilizat zis, nu iese, nici \u00een izmene, nici altminteri, c\u0103 tu e\u015fti optimist \u015fi tesm\u0103cuie\u015fti la talpa luciferic\u0103, hai noroc, m\u0103 jigne\u015fti, \u015fi nu-\u0163i spun, nu-\u0163i fac onoarea, nu-\u0163i fac nimic, nici n-a\u015f avea \u00eencotro, aici n-au loc de neadev\u0103rurile-\u0163i despre adev\u0103rurile-mi, care-or fi alea, p\u0103i or fi de zece ani, s\u0103 zicem, la m\u00e2n\u0103, dac\u0103-mi tai m\u00e2na, cu ce s\u0103 iau plata, c\u0103 m\u00e2na ailalt\u0103 mi-a trecut la o veselie, \u015ftii, s-a spulberat ca nimic \u00eentre cracii miresei, voisem s\u0103 m\u0103 asigur c\u0103 sunt moral \u00een inten\u0163iile bestialit\u0103\u0163ii subsemnatului, am \u015fi povestit c\u0103 \u0103la cu t\u00e2rna m\u0103 teroriza \u015fi am l\u0103sat-o balt\u0103 pe soru-sa, \u00eendr\u0103gostindu-m\u0103 de curva din \u015fedin\u0163\u0103, de-am ridicat-o la t\u0103iere \u015fi tocmai curgea apa respectiv\u0103 pe chelia \u0163estoasei, de-am f\u0103cut leg\u0103tura cu coperi\u015ful, gaura din talp\u0103, situa\u0163ia se simplific\u0103 pe zi ce trece, aproape nu mai exist\u0103 regul\u0103 de trei, niciun triunghi nu mai are haz, m\u0103 refer la leac, \u00eemi dai ce-\u0163i dai, da, da, periferia refuzului meu \u0163i-e propriul prinos, te v\u0103d uneori \u00een locul meu, nu te invidiez nici atunci, mi-ai compromis natura, dar nu mai am nevoie nici de credin\u0163\u0103, nu te cred, nu m\u0103 cred, m\u0103 t\u00e2r\u0103sc spre cr\u0103p\u0103tura carapacei, s\u0103-nv\u0103\u0163, s\u0103 m\u0103-nv\u0103\u0163 r\u00e2s, \u00eemi sperii discursul mental, \u00ee\u0163i dau cuv\u00e2ntul meu de t\u0103cere, formularistica am prezentat-o printre regnuri de te-am \u00eendr\u0103git mai ceva dec\u00e2t discu\u0163ia asta f\u0103r\u0103 iert\u0103ciuni, se f\u0103cuse t\u00e2rziu de mai ‘nainte, primii bananieri de furnici albe tres\u0103ltau laborios, ca orice \u00eenceput, nici ecou, de-acu’ \u00eemi tai genera\u0163ia \u00een sil\u0103 pe-o ruin\u0103 carnal\u0103, pe-o re\u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2nire \u015ftirb\u0103, d\u0103-te mai a\u015fa, un timp \u00eemi voi repeta veacul de veac \u015fi apoi, dac\u0103 te t\u00e2r\u0103\u015fti cum mi-am t\u00e2r\u00e2t, nu sufletul, te-njur, c\u0103 de, mi-am tot petrecut cu curvele \u015fi te-am neglijat ca prin cer, \u015fi iar \u00eemi pierd \u015firul \u00een confuzia asta becisnic\u0103 de se \u00eenchipuie la infinit c\u00e2nd vreau s\u0103 povestesc contrariul, fie o natur\u0103 a\u015fa cum e, fie un sentiment, fie nemintea dintre dumnealor, nu mi-o fi nici mie u\u015for \u00een c\u0103rare, \u0163an\u0163o\u015f peregrin\u00e2ndu-mi nes\u0103lt\u0103rea\u0163\u0103 mandakranta<\/em>, c\u00e2t m-a \u0163inut \u015fi cu aia, o aventur\u0103 solitar\u0103, ne\u00eenregistrabil\u0103, tocmai pierdusem gustul filmului \u015fi mi-am tri\u015fat o vie \u00eemp\u0103r\u0103\u0163ia ta, ca s\u0103 perseverez \u00een confuzie, s\u0103 m\u0103 re\u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u0163\u00e2nez pe-o revizie capital\u0103-n creierii verzi ai munceilor c\u00e2t pe-aici s\u0103 mi se-a\u015ftearn\u0103 bananieri.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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– Voiam s\u0103 vin chiar azi, ori c\u00e2nd terminam de venit s\u0103-\u0163i spun c\u0103 am venit, c\u0103 am sf\u00e2r\u015fit, \u015ftii, am tot planurile alea, da’ unu’ parc\u0103 nu-l mai am, nu c\u0103 s-a plinit, poate vremea, precis c-o s\u0103 m\u0103 invi\u0163i, ca pentru a-i da o idee, trebuie s-o traduc \u00een causerie, ceea ce tot nu se poart\u0103, voi dechide u\u015fa dint\u00e2i \u015fi m\u0103 t\u00e2r\u0103sc p\u00e2n\u0103 la poart\u0103, m-am uitat pe sub u\u015f\u0103 \u015fi-n lumina dimine\u0163ii tropicale, film\u00e2nd de jos \u00een sus, am z\u0103bovit pe luciul ro\u015fietic al frun\u0163ii umbrind culoarea t\u00e2rnei, repede tot nervos, de-o fa\u0163\u0103 ritmat\u0103 optimismului contrasemnat, ca s\u0103 nu ie\u015fim la pepeni, noi, avoca\u0163ii himalaieni de divor\u0163uri, dac\u0103 n-ai recunoa\u015fte scrisul, e-n alt\u0103 limb\u0103, \u015ftiu c\u0103 vremea ne-a p\u0103scut, c-un cerc aproape, ne-a \u0163ipat strugurarul de-a surzit visata, nu insist, ce mai, mi-ai ar\u0103ta c\u0103 cine e sus, adic\u0103 a fost \u015fi-n vremea noastr\u0103, de-a mea \u00eemi caut alte cuvinte, gata, de exemplu, \u015fi ce urmeaz\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i vei traduce singur, ca \u015fi cum chiar urmeaz\u0103, hai, domnu’, de-asear\u0103 z\u00e2mbeam la dou\u0103 veacuri c\u0103 sporov\u0103iai la dou\u0103 r\u0103zboaie \u015fi, las\u0103, lume p\u0103c\u0103tuiam \u015fi-n tunel, \u0163i-am spus c\u0103 nu-\u0163i spun, ai r\u00e2s la poman\u0103, te-ai str\u00e2mbat, s-o m\u0103rturisim pe-a dreapt\u0103, \u015fi nicio iertare, cred c\u0103 nici nu vin, ca s\u0103 cred ceva, a\u015f da de alt\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2mpin\u0103toare, a, m-am refugiat iar la furnici, m\u0103 trag \u00een sus, ca \u015fi cum m-a\u015f t\u00e2r\u00ee cu puterea tinere\u0163ii, avem scandal, ne m\u00e2nc\u0103m fiindc\u0103 nici nu ne cunoa\u015ftem ca lumea, iubirea e tot un ou, l-am servit la mutare, n-am parte, consider\u0103 vegetalul, pe-acolo reu\u015feau metamorfozele, martorele-mi sunt de alt\u0103 p\u0103rere, le b\u00e2rfim \u015fi separat, \u00eensingurarea emo\u0163iilor ne-o ajuta nu-n munc\u0103, nu de suflet, ci \u015fi, la-nc\u00e2ntec iar, p\u00e2n\u0103 m\u00e2ine poim\u00e2ine, de-acum zece ani p\u00e2n\u0103 acum zece s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, trecutul se suge, mi-a crescut oul de l-am \u00eenghi\u0163it \u015fi m\u0103 \u00eenghite \u00een acest moment de onoare problematic\u0103, de nerecomandat, c\u00e2t\u0103 vreme nu-n\u0163elegem bum-ul de deasupra tunelului, vine prin cre\u015ftet, se m\u0103n\u00e2nc\u0103 pe gur\u0103, sunt vinovat interior, totu\u015fi, cu dialog, totu\u015fi, vinovat, totu\u015fi, dialog \u015fi nu-mi vei spune dec\u00e2t ce-\u0163i voi spune \u015fi la desp\u0103r\u0163ire vei ar\u0103ta \u00een sus, gura, mestec\u0103 \u015fi vinul bun, cu simetrii \u00een orice naivitate, dac\u0103 nu te-ai sup\u0103ra a\u015fa te-a\u015f decreta, m\u0103 sup\u0103r de nesup\u0103rare, c\u0103 nesim\u0163it m\u0103 t\u00e2r\u0103sc \u015fi nu mai ajung nici la cercul mutelor, c-am luat-o-n mar\u015f, cu liota, s-atac\u0103m filmul, tu-l vezi serile \u015fi asta ar atrage importanta dumitale povestire, m-a\u015f ru\u015fina f\u0103r\u0103 ru\u015fine, am face \u015fi pu\u0163in\u0103 politic\u0103, am morm\u0103i-o \u00eenchipuindu-ne \u0163ip\u00e2nd, pe urm\u0103 socialul \u015fi, hop, c\u0103 mai ce, ce zice, cine zice, m\u0103-n\u0163elegi, nu e niciun roman, p-acolo, un timp, v-a\u015f fi putut descrie \u00eemp\u0103r\u0103\u0163ia cu documente, tu \u015fi eu, nu, nu vin, ori \u00eemi imaginez c\u0103 n-am venit, chiar dac\u0103 vin, la ce s\u0103 vin \u015fi la ce s\u0103-mi imaginez c\u0103 vin ori c\u0103 n-am venit, ehe, veneam acum zece ani \u00eencoace, nu-mi cuno\u015fteam destina\u0163ia, de destin, nu-mi p\u0103sa, \u015fi destinatara venea, cum am spus, dinspre un izvor \u015fi eu dinspre palmieri, c\u0103 din coaja unuia tunelul m-a \u00eenconjurat \u015fi cum m-a \u00eenconjurat \u00een anumite g\u00e2nduri de nedeclarat, c\u00e2t c\u0103 abia de-i ziceam, de unde vii \u015fi tu femeie, c\u0103 eu m\u0103 duc \u00eentr-acolo, \u015fi te-am mai v\u0103zut \u015fi, doamne, de te-oi mai vedea, mereu amu\u0163eam, orbeam, de-o nostalgie t\u00e2mpit\u0103 c\u0103 n-o s-o mai v\u0103d de bine ce n-o vedeam, o revedeam.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u00a0George Anca<\/strong><\/p>\n

Delhi, 15 august \u2013 11 octombrie 1983<\/strong><\/p>\n

Academia Interna\u0163ional\u0103 \u201eMihai Eminescu\u201d, Bucure\u015fti, 2001, ISBN 973-99497-1-1<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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