{"id":7045,"date":"2012-07-23T07:30:27","date_gmt":"2012-07-23T07:30:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/?p=7045"},"modified":"2012-07-23T07:32:38","modified_gmt":"2012-07-23T07:32:38","slug":"emilia-tutuianu-agapia-%e2%80%93-lumina-din-adanc","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/2012\/07\/23\/emilia-tutuianu-agapia-%e2%80%93-lumina-din-adanc\/","title":{"rendered":"Emilia \u0162u\u0163uianu: Agapia \u2013 Lumina din ad\u00e2nc"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Sanctuar al iubirii\u2026Locul care te ridic\u0103 \u00een spa\u0163iile cele mai \u00eenalte ale fiin\u0163ei tale, \u00eenl\u0103tur\u00e2nd zgura ce \u00eempiedic\u0103 zborul spre iubire. Agapia trage o perdea impenetrabil\u0103 peste fiin\u0163a noastr\u0103, care se r\u0103zvr\u0103te\u015fte dar \u015fi se supune timpului \u00een egal\u0103 m\u0103sur\u0103.\u00cenconjurat\u0103 de p\u0103duri seculare, cu mun\u0163i b\u0103tr\u00e2ni \u015fi singuratici, Agapia m\u0103rturise\u015fte un sentiment mai cuprinz\u0103tor al timpului. Tr\u0103irile suflete\u015fti se distileaz\u0103 \u00een bog\u0103\u0163ia sacr\u0103 a efluviilor ce se revars\u0103 asupra naturii \u00eenconjur\u0103toare.<\/p>\n

O, cum mai strig\u0103, \u00een cugetul omului, natura aici\u2026! Ce tainic se simt leg\u0103turile \u00eentre toate cele create de Dumnezeu, cum se r\u0103sp\u00e2nde\u015fte \u00een jur, plec\u00e2nd din fiin\u0163a ei, acea lini\u015fte ad\u00e2nc\u0103, cu iz de \u00eemp\u0103care \u015fi de iubire a toat\u0103 lumea!<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/a>Tainic, ea arunc\u0103 o ancor\u0103 de lumin\u0103 \u00een minuscula noastr\u0103 existen\u0163\u0103, interpun\u00e2ndu-se \u00eentre inima omului \u015fi dragostea nelegiuit\u0103- l\u0103s\u00e2nd s\u0103 cad\u0103 asupra sufletului nostru dionisiacele ei emo\u0163ii.
\nC\u00e2nd intri \u00een Agapia, strada te \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015feaz\u0103 t\u0103cut, \u00een fo\u015fnetul domol al pa\u015filor ce vin s\u0103-i cunoasc\u0103 misterul.
\nFiecare cas\u0103, fiecare poart\u0103, fiecare chip, \u00ee\u0163i d\u0103 o emo\u0163ie unic\u0103. Fiecare floare, fiecare col\u0163, este un tabernacol cu amintiri, ce vibreaz\u0103 \u00een lumina diafan\u0103 a ozonului limpede, pe care po\u0163i, parc\u0103, s\u0103-l atingi cu m\u00e2na.
\nAcoperi\u015furile caselor sunt \u00eenv\u0103luite \u00een topazele oblice ale razelor de soare, ce \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftie aromele smirdare ale unor sipete misterioase.
\nAici, religia nu mai este \u00eenchis\u0103 \u00eentre ziduri \u2013 existen\u0163a pune fa\u0163\u0103 \u00een fa\u0163\u0103 dou\u0103 viziuni: cea artistic\u0103 \u015fi cea religioas\u0103. Acest fapt influen\u0163eaz\u0103 fiecare p\u0103rticic\u0103 a vie\u0163ii monahale.
\nDin curtea m\u0103n\u0103stirii, dac\u0103 str\u0103ba\u0163i coridoarele r\u0103coroase de sub arcadele edificiului, te treze\u015fti \u00eentr-o sidefie lumin\u0103 cu iz fatum de begonii \u015fi trandafiri, ce se r\u0103sfa\u0163\u0103 z\u00e2mbitoare la soare.
\nStr\u0103b\u0103t\u00e2nd str\u0103du\u0163ele \u00eenguste, recuno\u015fti cu emo\u0163ie casa \u2013 unde personajele ce dormitau \u00een ad\u00e2ncurile fiin\u0163ei lui Ionel Teodoreanu \u2013 au prins via\u0163\u0103.
\nM\u00e2na cu care a scris, \u0163in\u00e2nd \u00een ea o raz\u0103 de soare, a m\u0103rturisit cu rectitudine tuturor dragostea \u015fi fericirea de a iubi. Aici, el a pl\u00e2ns \u015fi a r\u00e2s, odat\u0103 cu personajele sale.
\nStr\u0103b\u0103t\u00e2nd o \u00eempletitur\u0103 de str\u0103du\u0163e, pres\u0103rate cu \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103ri, ce se ivesc parc\u0103 din trecutul \u00eendep\u0103rtat, \u015fi urc\u00e2nd spre colina din spatele m\u0103n\u0103stirii, nu po\u0163i s\u0103 nu-\u0163i aminte\u015fti r\u0103scolitoarele versuri ale lui Vlahu\u0163\u0103:<\/p>\n

\u201el\u0103sa\u0163i potop de frunze aicea s\u0103 m\u0103-ngroape,<\/em>
\n\u00een farmece de visuri \u015fi-n pulberea de stele,<\/em>
\ns\u0103 dorm sub straja voastr\u0103, \u00een veci de voi <\/em>aproape.!<\/em><\/p>\n

Din trupul \u015fi sufletul Agapei a izvor\u00e2t g\u00e2ndirea profund\u0103 a poetului Vlahu\u0163\u0103, a c\u0103rui cas\u0103, plin\u0103 de panouri, documente, fotografii de epoc\u0103 \u015fi vitrine cu manuscrise, ne vorbe\u015fte de via\u0163a sa zbuciumat\u0103, dar \u015fi de verticalitatea sa moral\u0103.
\nPrivirea \u0163i se opre\u015fte asupra unei scrisori, adresat\u0103 de Vlahu\u0163\u0103 fiicei sale, Margareta, la \u00eemplinirea v\u00e2rstei de \u015faptesrezece ani.
\nEste imposibil s\u0103 despar\u0163i preceptele religioase de parametrii \u00een care poetul include totalitatea normelor de conduit\u0103 pe care trebuie s\u0103 le respecte fiica sa, pentru a g\u0103si fericirea.
\nScrisoarea este un adev\u0103rat eseu.
\nFericirea dob\u00e2nde\u015fte, la Vlahu\u0163\u0103, o sinonimie unic\u0103 \u2013 bun\u0103tatea. Cele dou\u0103 no\u0163iuni se condi\u0163ioneaz\u0103 reciproc: \u201es\u0103 fii bun, ca s\u0103 po\u0163i fi fericit\u201d.
\nO cite\u015fti, o recite\u015fti \u015fi sim\u0163i c\u0103 nu te po\u0163i desp\u0103r\u0163i de ea\u2026\u015ei atunci o iei cu tine \u015fi c\u00e2nd \u0163i-e mai greu, o murmuri ca pe o rug\u0103ciune\u2026
\n\u201eS\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u015fti Mimilic\u0103 drag\u0103, \u015fi s\u0103 fii bun\u0103, \u2013 s\u0103 fii bun\u0103, pentru ca s\u0103 po\u0163i fi fericit\u0103. Cei r\u0103i nu pot fi ferici\u0163i. Ei pot avea satisfac\u0163ii, pl\u0103ceri, noroc chiar, dar fericire, nu.<\/em><\/strong>
\n Nu, pentru c\u0103, mai \u00eent\u00e2i cei r\u0103i nu pot fi iubi\u0163i \u015fi \u2013 al doilea, \u2026 al doilea\u2026de! Norocul \u015fi celelalte \u201epere m\u0103l\u0103ie\u0163e\u201d, care se aseam\u0103n\u0103 cu el, vin de-afar\u0103, de la oameni, de la \u00eemprejur\u0103ri, asupra c\u0103rora n-ai nici o st\u0103p\u00e2nire \u015fi nici o putere, pe c\u00e2nd fericirea, adev\u0103rata fericire \u00een tine r\u0103sare \u015fi-n tine-nflore\u015fte \u015fi leag\u0103 rod, c\u00e2nd \u0163i-ai preg\u0103tit sufletul pentru ea.<\/em><\/strong>
\n \u015ei preg\u0103tirea este o oper\u0103 de fiecare clip\u0103, \u2013 c\u00e2nd pierzi r\u0103bdarea, \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftii tot ce-ai \u00een\u015firat \u015fi iar trebuie s-o iei de la \u00eenceput.<\/em><\/strong>
\n De aceea \u015fi vezi a\u015fa de pu\u0163ini oameni ferici\u0163i\u2026At\u00e2\u0163i c\u00e2t merit\u0103\u2026<\/em><\/strong>
\n A, dac\u0103 nu ne-am iubi pe noi a\u015fa f\u0103r\u0103 m\u0103sur\u0103, dac\u0103 n-am face at\u00e2ta caz de persoana noastr\u0103 \u015fi dac\u0103 ne-am dojeni de c\u00e2te ori am min\u0163it sau ne-am surprins asupra unei r\u0103ut\u0103\u0163i ori asupra unei fapte ur\u00e2te, dac\u0103, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u015fit ne-am examina mai des \u015fi mai cu nep\u0103rtinire, (lesne-i de zis!), am ajunge s\u0103 r\u0103zuim din noi partea aceea de prostie fudul\u0103, de r\u0103utate \u015fi de necinste murdar\u0103, din are se \u00eengroa\u015f\u0103 dobitocul ce se l\u0103f\u0103ie\u015fte \u00een nobila noastr\u0103 f\u0103ptur\u0103. Se \u015ftie c\u0103 durerea e un minunat sf\u0103tuitor. Cine-i mai deschis la minte trage \u00eenv\u0103\u0163\u0103tur\u0103 \u015fi din durerile altora.<\/em><\/strong>
\n Eu am mare \u00eencredere \u00een voin\u0163a ta. R\u0103m\u00e2ne s\u0103 \u015ftii doar ce s\u0103 vrei. \u015ei v\u0103d c-ai \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u015ftii asta. Doamne, ce bine-mi pare c-ai \u00eenceput s\u0103 te observi, s\u0103-\u0163i faci singur\u0103 mustr\u0103ri \u015fi s\u0103-\u0163i cau\u0163i singur\u0103 drumul cel adev\u0103rat!<\/em><\/strong>
\n A\u015fa, Mimilic\u0103 drag\u0103, ceart\u0103-te de c\u00e2te ori te sim\u0163i egoist\u0103, de c\u00e2te ori te mu\u015fc\u0103 de inim\u0103 \u015farpele r\u0103ut\u0103\u0163ii, al invidiei sau al minciunii. Fii aspr\u0103 cu tine, dreapt\u0103 cu prietenii \u015fi suflet larg cu cei r\u0103i. F\u0103-te mic\u0103, f\u0103-te ne\u00eensemnat\u0103, de c\u00e2te ori de\u015fert\u0103ciunea te \u00eendeamn\u0103 s\u0103 strigi: Uita\u0163i-v\u0103 la mine!\u201d. Dar, mai ales, a\u015f vrea s\u0103 scriu de-a dreptul \u00een sufletul t\u0103u aceasta: S\u0103 nu faci nici o fapt\u0103, a c\u0103rei amintire te-ar putea face vreodat\u0103 s\u0103 ro\u015fe\u015fti. Nu e triumf pe lume, nici sprijin mai puternic, nici mul\u0163umire mai deplin\u0103, ca o con\u015ftiin\u0163\u0103 curat\u0103.<\/em><\/strong>
\n P\u0103streaz\u0103 scrisoarea asta. C\u00e2nd vei fi de 50 de ani ai s-o \u00een\u0163elegi mai bine. S\u0103 dea Dumnezeu s-o cite\u015fti \u015fi atunci cu sufletul senin de azi\u201d. <\/em><\/strong>
\nTe \u00eendrep\u0163i \u00eempov\u0103rat de g\u00e2nduri, fericit c\u0103 exist\u0103 asemenea locuri cu at\u00e2tea valori spirituale ale culturii noastre.
\nDin cele mai ad\u00e2nci ascunzi\u015furi ale fiin\u0163ei tale izbucne\u015fte, f\u0103r\u0103 voia ta, acel strig\u0103t \u00eenver\u015funat al l\u0103comiei de via\u0163\u0103, acel strig\u0103t puternic, care nu admite lucrurile de\u015farte, ci deschide larg poarta iubirii \u015fi \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015f\u0103rii plenare.
\nAici sim\u0163i \u015fi \u00een\u0163elegi micimea \u015fi \u00een\u0103l\u0163imea fiin\u0163ei omene\u015fti, a crea\u0163iei lui Dumnezeu, taina \u015fi frumuse\u0163ea naturii, a p\u0103m\u00e2ntului z\u0103mislitor de via\u0163\u0103, dar, mai ales, aici \u00een\u0163elegi \u00eentinderea sl\u0103biciunii suflete\u015fti, care nu de pu\u0163ine ori te-a \u00eencercat \u00een decursul vie\u0163ii.
\nSus pe colin\u0103, l\u00e2ng\u0103 o bisericu\u0163\u0103 mic\u0103, pe o banc\u0103 \u00eempov\u0103rat\u0103 de ani, o m\u00e2n\u0103 ostenit\u0103, m\u00e2ng\u00e2ie cu v\u00e2rful degetelor amintirile din suflet\u2026
\nP\u0103m\u00e2ntul mirosea a ploaie\u2026\u00cen suflet p\u0103trundea parfumul teilor \u00eenflori\u0163i\u2026Sufletul, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 cear\u0103 \u00eencuviin\u0163area s-a furi\u015fat \u00eencet \u015fi s-a contopit cu Agapia.
\nNu a\u015ftepta pe nimeni\u2026 nu a\u015ftepta nimic!<\/p>\n

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