{"id":7487,"date":"2012-09-17T07:23:47","date_gmt":"2012-09-17T07:23:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/?p=7487"},"modified":"2012-09-17T07:43:35","modified_gmt":"2012-09-17T07:43:35","slug":"redundanta-avatarica-de-george-anca","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.marianagurza.ro\/blog\/2012\/09\/17\/redundanta-avatarica-de-george-anca\/","title":{"rendered":"REDUNDAN\u0162\u0102 AVATARIC\u0102 de George Anca"},"content":{"rendered":"

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REDUNDAN\u0162\u0102 AVATARIC\u0102<\/em><\/div>\n
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Cuprins:<\/em><\/div>\n
Nick<\/em><\/div>\n
Major bones<\/em><\/div>\n
Triste\u0163ea rudelor<\/em><\/div>\n
Turle lungi<\/em><\/div>\n
Saloanele Doamnei Ratlow<\/em><\/div>\n
Redundan\u0163\u0103 avataric\u0103<\/em><\/div>\n
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NICK<\/strong><\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Lui Pushi aka Rabindranath<\/em><\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 F\u0103 altceva dup\u0103 ce stai de vorb\u0103. Le scrii pe urm\u0103. S\u0103 ai curaj s\u0103 mergi pe chestii-cheie. Vorbind, g\u00e2nde\u015fti, unii flec\u0103resc, m\u0103 enerveaz\u0103. Snobism, s\u0103 m\u0103 duc la vot, nici la scriitori, tab\u0103ra mea e dezorganizat\u0103, ailalt\u0103, organizat\u0103. Ai treab\u0103 cu popii, p\u0103rintele Serghei de Tolstoi. O bud\u0103 de infractori, li(t)ota asta de scriitori b\u0103ga\u0163i \u00een fa\u0163\u0103. Singurul scriitor e Breban.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 nu mai vii c\u0103 \u00eemi aprind \u0163igara. \u00ce\u015fi taie venele dac\u0103 o \u00eentrebi de ce fumeaz\u0103. Ar trebui s\u0103-\u0163i arunc cu\u0163itele, nici m\u0103car nu sunt ascu\u0163ite. Nu ai fost bun la matematic\u0103 pentru c\u0103 nu s-a \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at numerologie, Pitagora? Fizica trebuie studiat\u0103, radia\u0163iuni, ce materie nevie?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cei convine cu vistavoiul la poart\u0103. O peti\u0163ie. Se rezolv\u0103, tovar\u0103\u015fe inginer. Atunci mai direct, acum am evoluat, nu te omor. Majoritatea fac demen\u0163\u0103 alcoolic\u0103. S\u0103-i \u0163inem pumnii lui Bute. Chip\u0103ru\u015fi \u00een furaje.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Numai ei pe batist\u0103, tot \u0163ambalul. Vorba lungit\u0103, storc\u0103toare de demoni indu\u015fi. Gr\u0103mad\u0103 de defecte, ca \u015fi Danton. A defectat, ucis de securitate. Frica de evrei, alt holocaust. Feciorelnicia criminalilor uni\u0163i. Ce-am inventat m\u0103 inventeze, o katha. The Un-Dead. Drog bate. Mucabele la costum, tichie Platei \u00een fum. Ca o compasiune \u015fah, nu avansam, abia schimbam. Ne-om de\u015fifona umilin\u0163a involutar\u0103. Coran intelect.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103-mi dai pielea \u00eenapoi, ca la Dorohoi. Jacob e Iago, Santiago de Compostella, Cristian Ionescu, \u00eent\u00e2lnit la o bere. \u00cen Gran Canare, cu Dan Munteanu, numai de Cior\u0103nescu n-am vorbit noi. \u00cen America de Sud e alt\u0103 limb\u0103 dec\u00e2t \u00een Spania. Mai \u00eenvechit\u0103. Teatrul e foarte viu, se simte traducerea, dac\u0103 e \u00een spaniol\u0103 sau \u00een sud-american\u0103. Se \u00een\u0163elege, da’ nu articulo de papel.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Duhori anti-duh. Transcriere de pe h\u00e2rtie \u00een virtual, descoperire. Cel mai lung roman, \u00een 40 volume, \u201eTokugawa Levasu\u201d de Sohachi Yamaoka. La Aiud, Sandu Tudor. Cu \u0163iganca la r\u00e2u, Pu\u015fi apud Lorca, mata de pelo \u2013 nu coc-Bal\u015f. Noroi, prea dur, Techirghiol, nu hum\u0103-tin\u0103, la marginea r\u00e2ului s-a-ntins pe spate putoarea \u00eentre ap\u0103 \u015fi uscat, nu clis\u0103, poate prund, lunca din Mirce\u015fti. Eu m\u0103 formez mereu. Azi sunt mai format ca ieri.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cartea mansuetudinii scriind-o (de c\u00e2nd?), \u00een companii corporate (carcerate voluntar, cu vizite la internat, fiic\u0103-mea a mai r\u0103m\u00e2nea \u00een atelierul de icoane, suferind ca de vreme), c\u00e2t s\u0103 nu m\u0103\u00a0 mai uit la box. Cu Eliade, \u00een propriet\u0103\u0163i, yet a nu-\u015fi putea cump\u0103ra un aparat medical, ba o universitate s\u0103-i ofere, \u00eel duce b\u0103iatul lui Nestor \u015fi-l ia de la rector, mai discu\u0163ie \u2013 memorii-ideatic\u0103-simbol-b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u0163e.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Lenu\u015f, cu pizza \u015fi tort pentru ziua ei, dup\u0103 o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103. Fata, pe webcam, de ziua Szegedului, de-a vampirii lui Stoker, Doyle (Steckton), Wilde (Gray), \u015fi dac\u0103 \u00eengrop\u0103m cenu\u015fa boxului \u2013 ce de amenzi, c\u0103 va umbla f\u0103r\u0103 centur\u0103. Discipolii trepana\u0163i ai lui Lucifer. Celor de pe rutele sinuciderilor le va fi rambursat pre\u0163ul integral al biletului.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Frumo\u015fii sunt trufa\u015fi. Schimb\u0103 avioanele \u00een aer. \u015ei tu, \u015fi Pintilie, \u015fi Tocilescu. Ionu\u0163 \u00ee\u015fi pusese \u00eentr-o carte \u015eacote s\u0103 se joace, p\u0103i e al meu, s-a f\u0103cut c\u0103 n-aude. Furnici ancore. M-am scris. Te-ai apucat s\u0103 traduci Romance somnambulo. Verde, verde, che te chero verde. Verde carne, verde pelo. Mama lui de verde. N-are rime, ca \u00een Co\u015fbuc, \u00een marja unei poezii senzitive. \u0102sta a tradus stele mari de promoroac\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 B\u0103i nenic\u0103, p\u0103i tu \u015ftii c\u0103 to\u0163i malahi\u015ftii \u0103\u015ftia se trag din Ulysses. Tu e\u015fti anti-Joyce total. Luna mea gitana. Nu le poate vede – groaznic. Pe la semafoare cer\u015find. Yellow stone. Wyoming. Cuar\u0163ul, mai exact dec\u00e2t zirconiul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Din nou cu Br\u00e2ncu\u015fi d’ai purgatoriului transcris. Discret p\u00e2n\u0103 la discreditare, timidul lui Cezar. Ultima oar\u0103, nici la lume s\u0103 m\u0103 uit. Azi iar c\u0103r\u0163i \u015fi intelectuali supravie\u0163uind. N-ai cancer. Ai \u00eent\u00e2lnit o hacienda. Atmosfer\u0103 ca-n Spania. Costoso. Noi tot crucea nimerim nebapti\u015fti aferim.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De pierd caietele, bine c\u0103 nu se \u00een\u0163elege ce scrie. Mai e \u015fi duminic\u0103. S\u0103 nu dea de Aristide Kamanita al t\u0103u \u015fi al lui Zberea. Hamond ar putea regiza Furnicile. Ramona de la analize vrea o carte. Tu nu dormi, eu visez r\u00e2nduri. \u0102i b\u0103tr\u00e2ni \u00een lan\u0163 indemnizat, \u0103i tineri de \u015fi-or fi d\u00e2nd seama.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eram trei, doi \u2013 eu cu taic\u0103-meu. Oi fi av\u00e2nd \u015fi eu un fiu. Eram adversari ireductibili, ori ne ap\u0103ram de represiune, umbl\u00e2nd \u00eempreun\u0103. Creierul \u00eempingea scalpul. \u00cenainte de vot, tura, abdomene, dup\u0103, corectura furnicilor. Amnezia\u00a0 halucinatorie Anand-Nandini ar fi cheia generativ\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Kant nu contest\u0103 ideea de dumnezeu, nu e o categorie constituit\u0103, e un postulat necesar, unii l-au acuzat de ateism. Marx a spus c\u0103 evreii conduc lumea prin cre\u015ftinism. N-am auzit asta, poate c\u0103 religia e opiu. Blaga \u015fi Ro\u015fca au f\u0103cut teologie ca s\u0103 scape de armat\u0103. Metafizica e a lui Hegel, nu te miri c\u0103 Stuart-Mill \u00eel face schizofrenic, englezii sunt psihologi\u015fti, n-au niciun metafizician mare. Kant a \u00eengropat metafizica natural\u0103. St\u0103niloae zice c\u0103 omenia e contrariul individualismului. Spiritualitatea ortodox\u0103, acceptat\u0103 de poporul rom\u00e2n.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Re\u0163eaua din re\u0163ea, dublu structurat\u0103, politic\u0103 \u015fi terorist\u0103. Autoatentate. Vrem neoameni. Pe o p\u00e2nz\u0103 de tr\u0103dare. Cred c\u0103 te pot detesta. You’ll never beat the Irish. Rusul schimb\u0103 sezonul. Ros\u0103tur\u0103 de la proteza inghinal\u0103, cu ce s\u0103 m\u0103 dau, cu g\u0103lbenele, bine, cu aloe. Fix ca’n ’45. Exces de incopeten\u0163\u0103. Unknown. Silogismul troc. Pantologie. Dodifici toate speciile. Primul motto, din Schlegel. Simona are Moscova \u00een spate.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Era cum m-a\u015f fi dus la teatru, de \u00eenconjuram lacul \u00eenghi\u0163ind tirade. Criticul pentalogic, tot cinci mottouri, iar eu un viitor troc, contrastudiu. S\u0103n\u0103tatea de a nu repeta destinul celuilalt editor poate sub crim\u0103. Crabii neraci, cruste exterioare, de sc\u00e2rbo\u015fi. Un gol de-n chaos. Hai \u015fi cu pa\u015foptu’. Oi mai fi fost \u015fi n-oi fi vost’. S\u0103 credem aceste aranjamente, dac\u0103 nu vrem s\u0103 c\u0103dem pe sc\u0103ri.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ziua de San Federico. Puci la Sevilla. S-a al\u0103turat \u015fi Granada. Fiecare \u00ee\u015fi f\u0103cea mendrele, se r\u0103zbuna pe diverse chestii. Be\u0163ia s\u00e2ngelui, treab\u0103 de r\u0103zboi civil, a\u015fa \u015fi Bosnia. Nici nu \u015ftiau de partea cui lupt\u0103. Inchizi\u0163ia, cea mai a dracu’.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Frica de dumnezeu \u015fi de prostia din jur. Evanghelia pe piept. Ai grij\u0103 ce scrii, lucrurile se vor \u00een\u0103spri. Cine b\u0103ie\u0163i, cine fete, cine fericit? Ai pustiit-o. Punjab. Ciorapul de la protez\u0103 \u00een ma\u015fina de sp\u0103lat. Am auzit de V1, V2, mais quand? \u00cen Groapa Paraschiv\u00a0 \u00eel bate pe Bosoncea. Nirvana alcoolic\u0103. Nu exist\u0103 sc\u0103pare. Nu se sus\u0163ine psihologic. Iar ai tras dungi? Unsu-tunsu. R\u0103zboia\u015f civil.\u00a0 Din peana lui Corneille. Baru\u0163u.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cum se \u015fi pr\u0103v\u0103leau peste p\u00e2ini, mai moi la noi, after all, dar degeaba, deduceai din intona\u0163ia miorl\u0103it\u0103, aluia, aluia, aici \u00eei, ne trebuia, unde om fi crezut c\u0103 suntem, geaba meci. Vei fi auzit ploaia muezin\u0103. Vi\u015fine, vii \u015fi ne. Iacobini la coas\u0103. Mene, mierle, trene cer’le \u015fperle. Nu s-a sp\u0103lat pe m\u00e2na dreapt\u0103. C\u00e2t c\u0103 erai din Homer, Praleo. C\u0103lug\u0103ra gitana.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ce face\u0163i azi c\u00e2nd vorbe\u015fte Ostaka? De vorbit cu vorbe a nu mai vorbi, interzis pe via\u0163\u0103. Povestea tat\u0103lui a\u015ftept\u00e2nd biciclista, roat\u0103 vertical\u0103 d’alei \u00eencinse. Deci, sem\u0103n\u00e2nd tat\u0103lui meu, domnule, ai conversa repetat cu femeia, pe aceea\u015fi politic\u0103, nefanatic, yet, ar trebui s\u0103 fii contabil, s\u0103 joci table, s\u0103 cite\u015fti filosofie, voce n-ai.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M-ar visa c\u00e2inii. Victimul. Problema ta e \u0163inuta. S\u0103 te autoinventezi. Mersul t\u0103u nu-mi place. S\u0103 mergi ca A, nu ca B, ca un c\u00e2ine care-\u015fi caut\u0103 m\u00e2ncarea pe jos. S\u0103 faci at\u00e2rn\u0103ri. Scolioz\u0103. C\u00e2nd calci pe scen\u0103, fiecare deget de la picior are corespondent \u00een trup. S\u0103 \u015ftii s\u0103 \u015fi stai bine. Important e degetul cel mare. Caut\u0103 mersul s\u0103 fie de calitate. Via\u0163a e o scen\u0103. C\u00e2nd e\u015fti t\u00e2n\u0103r e mai u\u015for. S-o iei \u00eencet. \u00cen via\u0163a social\u0103, suntem actori. Emil Constantinscu a luat lec\u0163ii de la Caramitru. Leg\u0103tur\u0103 \u00eentre \u015fah \u015fi dramaturgie, deschidere, ap\u0103rare, final. H\u0103\u0163i\u015ful \u015fi schema.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tanti Fane, doctorilor, c\u0103 s\u0103 nu moar\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 nu termin\u0103 nepoata cartea de scris. Merg pe v\u00e2rfuri s\u0103-mi sui \u015fira. Crezusem c\u0103 te iei de c\u0103ma\u015f\u0103. Cin’ s-o mai vedea la televizor, belea? N-are cine mai ie\u015fi pe unde, ap\u0103, pulbere. Rela\u0163ia cu calcanii. \u0102\u015ftia demoleaz\u0103 climatul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De ce nu \u00eenv\u0103\u0163a\u0163i voi matematic\u0103? \u0102sta este casus belli. At\u00e2ta ai voie. \u015etii s\u0103 scrii? Moartea sufletului dumnezeiesc. Trestii de vulcan umane. Zb\u00e2rn\u0103. Ia pastilele. M\u00e2n\u0103 necunoscut\u0103. Cai cu boi. Dup\u0103 amprente. Torah. La subiect. Alta preia controlul. Tri\u015fti din \u0103\u015ftia. Ca la Massada. N\u0103scu\u0163i din aceea\u015fi pisic\u0103, dintr-o contradic\u0163ie. Te-a trecut pe extasy. Nu se poate \u00eent\u00e2mpla ce se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103. Fur\u0103-\u0163i libertatea. Tetrarhia lui Diocle\u0163ian. A\u0163i dat \u00een beng\u0103, cu o clepsidr\u0103 \u00eenainte. Rextier. De lips\u0103 c\u0103rticea. Vara devreme. Clipit blind. Bibanul a mu\u015fcat. Dou\u0103 le\u015fin\u0103turi. Aud toate urletele. Overdoz\u0103. S\u0103 dispai. Vrei o banan\u0103? Mai stinge sabia. \u0162i-or da \u00een creast\u0103. M\u0103 g\u00e2dil. Bujiile \u00een menghin\u0103. Mama de la est. Noi r\u0103m\u00e2nem, voi pleca\u0163i. Cineva s\u0103-i dea o \u00eenghe\u0163at\u0103 pe b\u0103\u0163. Au b\u0103ut to\u0163i petrol. Te-a b\u0103tut soarele-n cap, uitat pe sc\u0103rile templului. Ne e dor de absen\u0163a ta. Blitzcreig. Am pozat matul cu calul t\u0103u \u015fi cu tine. The battle for Damascus. Mi fido di Maria. Se termin\u0103 guvernele.\u00a0 Unde e\u015fti, Petre? Lume bubuit\u0103. Dictobrut\u0103ria. Radiofratele. Urmeaz\u0103 c\u0103s\u0103pirea. Aduce\u0163i cazmaua. Pl\u00e2nge\u0163i to\u0163i \u00een pumni. Auzi voci, vezi lumini puternice c\u00e2nd \u00eenchizi ochii? Leprezentare. \u015earlament.\u00a0 Mama cur\u0163ii ce dore\u015fte?\u00a0 Crim\u0103 continu\u0103. Cum e vremea la Tiraspol? Absen\u0163a politicii. M\u00e2na Rusiei. Se uzeaz\u0103 praful de pu\u015fc\u0103. Galerii \u00een vacan\u0163\u0103, pe ger, pe cer. Hara\u015fo. Ce trebuie s\u0103 facem, domnule? Oamenii obi\u015fnui\u0163i. O mas\u0103 amorf\u0103 profund viciat\u0103. Slujbe de c\u00e2rc\u0103. Criado. Admini. S\u0103 control\u0103m. R\u0103zboi cultural. Conducerea la Moscova. Bastionul din Uppsala. Mazilu de noapte. \u015eapca \u015fi prosopul. \u00cenapoi. Cotrop. Sub talpa ruseasc\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 50 de ani. Valizele \u015fi valea. \u00cenc\u0103iera\u0163i-v\u0103 mai tov\u0103r\u0103\u015fe\u015fte. Desc\u0103rca\u0163i-v\u0103 dracii printre cracii nudistelor tinere, hai cafteal\u0103, neamule. Sunt tr\u0103d\u0103tor. Doar cu m\u0103\u015ftile pe fa\u0163\u0103. Vara tr\u0103d\u0103torilor d’El\u0163\u00e2n-Makarkin-hipertrof-poa (personal operativ acoperit).\u00a0 Confiden\u0163ial. Du-te mai la est. Fiecare cuv\u00e2nt invers. Suveranitatea plenului. C\u0103ut\u0103m b\u0103t\u0103ile inimii. Xanax. Popularizarea eroilor clasei muncitoare. Stat de drep\u0163i. Guri\u0163\u0103 de aur. Burghezia abia se formeaz\u0103. Subcon\u015ftient colectiv stalinist indus. \u00cemi pare r\u0103u c\u0103 e\u015fti agitat. Nomen artis. Nu mai sta ghiocel. Aranj\u0103m cu Ivan s\u0103-\u0163i dea voie s\u0103 votezi. Nick-uri. Lucrativni. Iube\u015fte revolu\u0163ia. Stoljeni\u0163\u00e2n mare scriitor, nu Chiri\u0163\u0103. Nu citesc scrisorile deschise de trupele de cenzur\u0103. Ghilotina, alte capricii. Ben, curios dac\u0103 patriarhul \u00eei r\u0103spunde lui Coru\u0163, poate curu\u0163ii lui Doja-Pu\u015fi-Andru. De ce nu aplic\u0103m noi dialectica lu\u2019 Socrates? \u00a0….alegerilii din 1946, 30 decembrie 1947, 11 iunie 1948, lovilu\u0163ia din ’89, mineriadele, duminica orbului, iar acum\u00a0 lovilu\u0163ia din luna lu’ iulie.\u00a0 Rusia ne a\u015fteapt\u0103 cu bra\u0163ele deschise.<\/div>\n
MAJOR BONES<\/strong><\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Lui Mihai Stan <\/em><\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S-a oprit apa. Ochi usca\u0163i. M\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la maiorul Stan S. Stan. G\u00e2nde\u015fte-te la Ofelia. Ciolane sub s\u0103lcii, la blanche Ophelia flotes comme un grand lys. <\/em>Mi-am dat seama c\u0103 e\u015fti poet. Rimbaud. Major bones. Arestat \u00een tren SSS. Iar? Prieten, c\u0103 a spus cum se tr\u0103ie\u015fte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cistita relaxat\u0103, st\u00e2rcit\u0103, st\u00e2rpace. Nu orice umor. Majora\u0163ii, pedeaps\u0103 proast\u0103 de \u00eempunge. O musc\u0103 dac\u0103 vrei s\u0103 o prinzi, o atragi din fa\u0163\u0103. Arma de\u015fteptului e laba. \u0102\u015ftia cu b\u0103ie\u0163i, biografia\u0163i-v\u0103 tat\u0103l, mitralia\u0163i cu nuci americane. Diacre \u00een fiacre, cutia, travestita e miza nebunatic\u0103. Dona Flor e Seus Dois Maridos <\/em>de Jorge Amado, ci nu The Last Lyon <\/em>by William Nicholson per c\u00e2nd mi-a dat Cristina ultimul leu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cei bate inima. Mai stai \u00eenc\u0103 o lun\u0103. Abia s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2na a \u015faptea. Las\u0103 deflor\u0103rile. Deadline. Milic\u0103, \u0103la s-a sp\u00e2nzurat de \u0163ig\u0103rile noastre antiastmatice. Radio abla\u0163ie la inim\u0103, cu profesorul Anca. N-a putut prin vena sclerozat\u0103, a intrat prin aort\u0103. Mi-era team\u0103 s\u0103 nu se rup\u0103 vena cav\u0103. \u015ei biologie, pe nume bazele darwinismului. Dracula epics censorship<\/em> (DRACE). S\u0103 fie foarte atent\u0103, foarte cuminte. Dinic\u0103 a cerut suc de ro\u015fii cu vodc\u0103. \u201eI am Vlad, Prince of Valahia\u201d, plus iele, ursitoare, v\u00e2rcolaci, blesteme, joc de societate.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Behold a Pale Horse<\/em>, ce \u015ftii tu, Dealul Calului, iepele tatei, Revista \u015fi Revieva, s\u0103 moar\u0103 calu’ lu’ matale? F\u0103cuse consiliul, trecea pe la mese, s\u0103 semn\u0103m, ne pl\u0103tea, Puc\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i spuse, Pu\u015fi: eu \u00eel \u00een\u0163eleg pe Ion, el nu bea, se plictise\u015fte. N-avea voie. N-am mai citit de mult pe Dostoievski. Soljeni\u0163\u00e2n, plecarea pe front, ce desp\u0103r\u0163ire, nu lacrimi, credea \u00een revolu\u0163ie, \u00eencepuse s\u0103 afle ni\u015fte chestii cumplite. De Gaulle: \u201eCette decision prend effet aujourd’hui, a midi\u201d.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tunisia, cald \u015fi acolo. Fata popii Margareta se plimba cu bicicleta. Goga s-ar fi \u00eensurat cu ea, unde-o fi, nu exist\u0103, nu apare la televizor. Letters from the darkness<\/em> by Nancy Ganga. Glazuri pe Donosteea, tot ea. A cerut potul, nepotul. Te dai \u00een leag\u0103ne cu cartaginezi tunisieni \u00een lupta pentru Mediterana. Comedia lui Plaut, sora lu’ aia cu ceasu’.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vreau s\u0103-\u0163i spun o chestie, Cuza i-a p\u0103c\u0103lit. Sigur c\u0103 \u0163in la \u0163ara mea. Europa exist\u0103 ca s\u0103 nu se mai bat\u0103 Fran\u0163a cu Germania. Vot de blam. Bl\u00e2nd cu pana. Cac\u0103 ciuleandra. Pofte demente. A\u015fa de inexistent. Patru compartimente, \u015fi unul de eminescologie. Nici esoteric, nici exoteric. Nu fac altceva dec\u00e2t s\u0103 m\u0103 ocup de tine. Ne descurc\u0103m din pensii. De-ar tr\u0103i Anca. Scrisei Siberii pe ruga pentru ploi lini\u015ftite. Coitum triste. Roman\u0163ariu gitan<\/em>. Pepene de dulce vinerea. Vidra. Omor\u00ee-\u0163i-o. Bahubali. Unge-\u0163i-l. Messiah.<\/em> \u201eDi me Giuseppe Haydn\u201d. Registrul recept\u0103rii lui Eminescu. Marlow\u00a0 mort la 29 de ani. The Beggars Opera. <\/em>To\u0163i tupila\u0163i. Burta \u00een cu\u0163it. Mucii-n frez\u0103. Fa\u0163a \u00ee\u0163i arat\u0103 via\u0163a.\u00a0 Drac botezat. Urechea toac\u0103. Latr\u0103 la lun\u0103 potrivit\u0103. Fiori prin energii. Akinotepsie. Agnozia timpului.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pasticcio – Dana Mihailovici: Romania are 16528 de milionari in dolari – Magdas: 50% prezen\u021b\u0103: trebuie s\u0103 fure un vot intr-o sec\u021bie (un vot intr-un jude\u021b) – Alexandru Athanasiu:\u00a0 va avea parte de un sfarsit tragic – PSDerie: Toarasi, cel mai bine ar fi sa vie chinejii ! Sal vad io pela care poasai numere!<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De prin toate v\u0103g\u0103unile. \u015eeful spiritual. B\u00e2ngui. Peste balustrad\u0103. \u201eAlmost all the major bones\u201d. Farinelli. Nu are cine s\u0103 scopeasc\u0103. \u015eerpuind fug\u0103rirea. \u201e\u00cen zi de Cr\u0103ciun s\u0103 moar\u0103 cel ce se va atinge de acest spital\u201d, Br\u00e2ncovenesc. S\u0103-mi scot p\u0103rin\u0163ii din morminte. Te-ai n\u0103scut \u00een Bucure\u015fti, fiu lui Major Bones.<\/div>\n
TRISTE\u0162EA RUDELOR<\/strong><\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cenc\u0103rcat\u0103, \u00eent\u00e2i cu Hegel \u015fi Marx, apoi cu Sorel, Paretto \u015fi Fanon, Hannah Arendt \u00eemi d\u0103 impresia c\u0103 indienii din SUA ar putea d\u0103r\u00e2ma administra\u0163ia. Lui Hugo, \u00een vis: v-am trimis o cerere, dar n-a ajuns la d-str\u0103; nu stau singur, nici numai cu nevasta; de-aia n-am copii. Ce poezie i-a dictat Jan Angelei \u015fi ea a scris-o pe ziar: Noaptea dezbin\u0103 cetatea-n t\u0103r\u00e2muri du\u015fmane \/ Trag v\u00e2rcolaci la edecul miturilor de prisos. Stefano Poggi in Introduzione: \u201ePer Faber la caratteristica di una filosofia che abbia a che fare con l’esperienza e quella di essere riflessiva\u201d.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Voi continua scoaterea de citate, dar eu n-am mai scris nimic. Asear\u0103, am fost la un concert \u00een beci. Dup\u0103 aia, am b\u0103ut vin \u015fi coniac. La mas\u0103, m-a apucat frica. Sunt oameni care, leg\u00e2ndu-se de incoeren\u0163ele tale, te \u015fi anuleaz\u0103 \u00een \u00eenchipuirea \u015fi actele lor, ca apoi, am\u0103r\u0103ciunea s\u0103 fie numai a \u00eenchipuirii \u015fi actelor tale. E\u015fti nemaipomenit de supus urm\u0103ririlor premeditate cu genera\u0163ii \u00eenainte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te sim\u0163i deodat\u0103 h\u0103ituit, \u015fi n-ai cum fi, astfel \u00eenc\u00e2t se duce toat\u0103 fericirea. Iar eu am nevoie de iubire. S\u0103 fie \u00eenfiat\u0103 iubirea mea, m\u0103car.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Noica nu m\u0103 minte. M\u0103 vede cum sunt \u015fi m\u0103 vede c\u0103 sunt. \u00cen principiu, ce-mi mai trebuie? \u00cen principiu, nimic. Dar eu n-am mai scris. Nici n-am avut unde. Nici ce? Cum s-o lu\u0103m?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Practic, eu nu vreau s\u0103 scriu. Cel mult s\u0103 \u00eencurc scrisul. E drept, \u00een felul \u0103sta, eu vreau mai mult s\u0103 scriu dec\u00e2t s\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc. \u015ei ceea ce vreau cu adev\u0103rat este s\u0103 fiu \u00eentreg. Or, eu dau oric\u00e2nd impresia de a fi ne\u00eentreg. \u015ei nu sunt a\u015fa, \u00eens\u0103 nici eu nu g\u0103sesc un unghi potrivit de a m\u0103 vedea \u00eentreg, \u015fi-l tot schimb, \u00eenc\u00e2t oricine, din afar\u0103, asist\u0103 la un joc f\u0103r\u0103 gust. \u00cenv\u00e2rtesc un telescop prin care s\u0103 prive\u015fti din cer \u00een jos.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Hezel-Franki m\u00e2ng\u00e2ie acum nici un minut foaia din st\u00e2nga, \u00een dorin\u0163a de a se \u00eentinde pe ea. Soarta lui vine din America, era s\u0103 zic, veche, o Americ\u0103 a americanilor. P\u0103i aici sunt \u00een\u015fira\u0163i prietenii, cuno\u015ftin\u0163ele, cu \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103rile lor ideale. Io de ce m-am prostit 26-27 de ani? Rar principii a\u015fa: dac\u0103 vorbe\u015fti serios \u00eentotdeauna e\u015fti pierdut, nemai\u015ftiind niciodat\u0103 s\u0103 vorbe\u015fti \u015fi aiurea, iar dac\u0103 vorbe\u015fti mereu aiurea nu e\u015fti pierdut, chit c\u0103 nu mai \u015ftii, la o adic\u0103, s\u0103 vorbe\u015fti serios. \u00cens\u0103, cu adev\u0103rat serios poate vei vorbi doar dup\u0103 o via\u0163\u0103 de vorbire neserioas\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acum s\u0103 nu-mi fie chiar fric\u0103 de tot. A\u015f vrea s\u0103 articulez, nu vorbe, c\u00e2t situa\u0163ii f\u0103r\u0103 termen de compara\u0163ie, a\u015f vrea s\u0103 fiu un op\u0103cit absolut, s\u0103 se mire to\u0163i pe ner\u0103suflate, a\u015fa cum am crezut c\u00e2teva clipe \u00een via\u0163\u0103 c\u0103 mi-ar fi posibil. \u015ei nu: marf\u0103 grav\u0103, de doi bani, f\u0103r\u0103 i\u0163e hlizite la infinit, aia m\u0103 descop\u0103r din ce \u00een ce \u015fi nu mai pot s\u0103 deschid gura, nici lopata s\u0103 deschid\u0103 pentru mine nasturele unei gropi. R\u0103m\u00e2n mut atunci, speriat de a spune, cumva, un cuv\u00e2nt prea a\u015fteptat, prea nerecunoscut, o salutare sincer\u0103 \u00een sufletul meu, izvor de contrazicere \u015fi lehamite \u00een ceilal\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De mirare cum am \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fat ca pe un leu paginile despre altul \u015fi despre tu \u015fi despre noi. \u00cel alesesem pe tu, ca bun cre\u015ftin ce sunt. Acum parc\u0103 m\u0103 tem, parc\u0103 tremur \u2013 ceva \u00een genul \u00een\u0163elegerii lui altul ca pe tu. \u00centunecatul altul. Misteriosul tu. \u015ei noi, de nici unii, unul singur l\u00e2ng\u0103 ceilal\u0163i, l\u00e2ng\u0103 al\u0163ii \u2013 minune opac\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iat\u0103-mi \u00eenalta filosofie, \u0163i-am spus. Am \u00eemprumutat-o, nici vorb\u0103, de-aia m-am deplasat la filosofi \u015fi la savan\u0163i de diferite vederi \u015fi specialit\u0103\u0163i, cu bun\u0103 \u015ftiin\u0163\u0103 provoc\u00e2ndu-le o impresie proast\u0103, dac\u0103 nu \u015fi mai r\u0103u. \u00cencep s\u0103-i cred pe ei, \u00eencep s\u0103 cred. Un c\u00e2\u015ftig foarte mare: s\u0103 nu-mi pierd m\u0103car eu \u00eencrederea \u00een ei, sper\u00e2nd c\u0103 nici ei nu-\u015fi vor pierde proasta impresie.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Concentrat o zi (3 ore) pe s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103, timp de 6 luni. Treab\u0103 pentru locotenen\u0163ii intelectuali… (Tocmai c\u00e2nd m\u0103 hot\u0103r\u00e2sem s\u0103 notez, chiar din urm\u0103, \u201edate\u201d, care \u00eentr-un t\u00e2rziu vor impresiona gra\u0163ie exactit\u0103\u0163ii lor de moment, transformate \u00een romantism, cu vremea. C\u00e2nd colo, m\u0103 vor avea \u00een eviden\u0163\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la 50 de ani ai mei, p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een 1994, scris \u00een livret. De… \u00censeamn\u0103 c\u0103 tr\u0103ind p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci, chiar se merit\u0103 s\u0103 notez. Prima noti\u0163\u0103 de principiu, nu \u015ftiu dac\u0103 exact\u0103: ofi\u0163erii din ziua de azi au de a face cu intelectualii).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Momentul, ai zice, nu merit\u0103 consemnat. Poate tocmai de aceea ar trebui consemnat (nu \u015fi \u00eenf\u0103ptuit), ca \u00een urm\u0103 s\u0103 ne putem da seama.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 V.V., scriitor. Amar. De ziua lui, peste zece oameni \u00een \u00eenc\u0103pere. Peste 10 ani \u2013 peste 100 de oameni. \u015ei noi.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D.J., inginer. Inginer ca inginer, dar proprietar \u2013 casa a fost cump\u0103rat\u0103, pe vremuri, din milionul c\u00e2\u015ftigat de taic\u0103-s\u0103u, profesor universitar, la loterie. Se poart\u0103 proprietarii (\u015fi ei se vait\u0103).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O. M., muzician. Logodit cu D.P., o fat\u0103 cu care \u201enu se va c\u0103s\u0103tori niciodat\u0103\u201d, \u201es\u0103 vedem\u201d.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S.T.G.T., pereche de logodnici paradoxali, oric\u00e2t n-ar fi ei lua\u0163i separat. Pun problema purit\u0103\u0163ii unei rase ob\u0163inute prin unirea a dou\u0103 neamuri. Fie ierta\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 V.A., cuvios necanonic, asemeni lui V.T., adversaru-i, \u00een concediu insular (se zice). Poate Hawaii?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C.N., filosof dintre cele dou\u0103 r\u0103zboaie. Actualmente, angajat al unui laborator de psihologie al unui spital.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C.N., filosof. – problema jurnalului, a lui \u201ece vrei\u201d, a lui \u201e\u00eentru\u201d, problema problemelor \u015fi problema antico-nou\u0103 (arta cinematografic\u0103 nu e mare fiidnc\u0103 nu a ie\u015fit, ca altele, din credin\u0163\u0103.) Triada hegelian\u0103 = Sf\u00e2nta treime, conceptul=duhul sf\u00e2nt. Mircea Eliade \u015fi piesa lui \u201eColoana f\u0103r\u0103 sf\u00e2r\u015fit\u201d; Rafail \u015fi feti\u0163a cu patru copii \u2013 \u00een Anglia; teama de a fi pompat \u015fi de dezechilibru; s\u0103r\u0103cia \u2013 o leaf\u0103 de 2000, singur\u0103 \u00een cas\u0103; actul de prezen\u0163\u0103; propensiunea spre filosofie a Clujului; lista de adrese \u2013 eram \u015fi eu pe ea; eu \u2013 Anca -, n-a\u015f pune probleme, n-a\u015f ar\u0103ta manuscrise etc.; \u201eL-ai prins pe A. M.?\u201d; cine te simpatizeaz\u0103, cine-\u0163i sunt alia\u0163ii?<\/div>\n
M.\u00a0\u00a0 C. are complexe, \u00eenc\u0103 din copil\u0103rie \u2013 fiul geografului M;<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 J.A. (sau I.A.) i s-a \u00eemboln\u0103vit mama. C\u00e2nd va scrie primele versuri pe 1971? Un om al d\u0103ruirii. Vom p\u0103stra leg\u0103tura.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N.P., jurnalist. Dac\u0103 anul \u0103sta vom pleca, s\u0103 ne traducem c\u0103r\u0163ile. Dorin\u0163a lui de a citi opere teoretice ale lui Mircea Eliade. Ghid.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Z. S., pre\u015fedinte. I-am trimis o telegram\u0103 de Anul Nou.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dr. N. N. A telefonat ieri. Lipseam. Ce flux \u00ee\u015fi preg\u0103tise oare?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tat\u0103l meu. Ne a\u015fteapt\u0103 pe 10 ianuarie, \u00een contul lui Sf. Ion.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G. A., teolog; favorizat (sau nu?) de schisma din America.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 P.D., arheolog \u015fi A.D., artist\u0103; suferin\u0163\u0103 nea\u015fteptat\u0103. \u00cen\u0163elegerea d-lor cu ceilal\u0163i oameni este \u015fi \u00een func\u0163ie de un c\u00e2ine defunct. Oameni mari, cu tabieturi, suspicio\u015fi, creatori, impresionabili, credincio\u015fi, deschi\u015fi judec\u0103\u0163ilor aspre \u015fi dogmatice, bravi.<\/div>\n
M.\u00a0\u00a0 B., critic. M\u0103 cheam\u0103 \u00een vizit\u0103, cu un litru de vin.<\/div>\n
M.P., criticul. Vrea s\u0103-l primesc \u00een saloane. (M\u0103 onoreaz\u0103 prin a nu scrie despre mine niciodat\u0103, ci despre cei \u00een func\u0163ie).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Revista C. Acolo mai lucrez \u00eenc\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C.C., muncitor, nu i s-a luat nicio declara\u0163ie pentru vreun ziar. Nu i s-a acordat de la uzin\u0103 gratifica\u0163ie. Tat\u0103l s\u0103u a murit a\u015ftept\u00e2nd americanii. Moldovean.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 T. G., socru, na\u015ful s\u0103u a lucrat peste 40 de ani \u00een abatorul care terorizeaz\u0103 nasurile Bucure\u015fti-ului. Socrul meu a afalt c\u0103 abatorul se va muta la periferie, pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 el.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 R., V\u0103duv\u0103. 16 chiuretaje. \u00cel vis\u0103 pe r\u0103posat d\u00e2ndu-le de m\u00e2ncare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Amintirea tuturor. A celor pu\u0163ini. A g\u00e2ndurilor refuzate.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 creezi o capodoper\u0103 e o crim\u0103 pentru perioada urm\u0103toare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 iei \u00een serios e s\u0103 vrei s\u0103 fii luat \u00een serios \u015fi ce-ai f\u0103cut?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 T. G., actor muzicos. M\u0103 invit\u0103 ast\u0103-sear\u0103 s\u0103 mai pl\u00e2ng. D\u0103 spectacol. Preg\u0103te\u015fte \u00eenc\u0103 unul \u00een smoking. (Toaca bate, nu se aude, parc\u0103 s-ar auzi, se aude, \u00eenc\u00e2t, cine auzind-o, oamenii cred c\u0103 au avut-o \u00een ei \u015fi au venit cu ea).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 T. P. (Tru\u015fc\u0103), fotbalist, \u00eel \u00eent\u00e2lnesc cinstit, iar el, dup\u0103 turnee pe la toate echipele A, m\u0103 \u00eendeamn\u0103 rug\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 s\u0103 fiu ho\u0163.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 F. A. (normal, trebuia Floarea Floric\u0103).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Un institut, o secretar\u0103 bor\u0163oas\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 P. T. (poet ca ini\u0163ial\u0103 a numelui mic). El cu nr. de \u00eenregistrare la casieria Buletinului oficial \u2013 dormit Ciulni\u0163a).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015earpele Boa constrictor din Gambia.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mimesisul: neput\u00e2nd face eu literatur\u0103 a\u015fa cum s-a f\u0103cut, a\u015f vrea mai mult s\u0103 ar\u0103t cum trebuie f\u0103cut\u0103 cea nef\u0103cut\u0103. \u015ei cum? Tocmai atunci m\u0103 apuc\u0103 regretul de a nu putea dori ceea ce deja exist\u0103, nici m\u0103car mister (clasic), nici aventur\u0103 (a la Chasterton), nici umanism de iluzie (Steinbeck), nici, nici, dar eu cu poezia…?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acela\u015fi G. P., \u00eent\u00e2lnindu-l numai pe strad\u0103. Mi-am amintit de filosoful C. N. Nmic mare nu se poate na\u015fte f\u0103r\u0103 pietate, sau c\u0103 totul se na\u015fte din petate. S\u0103-i spun c\u0103-mi elogia pietatea, \u015fi G. P. s\u0103-mi r\u0103spund\u0103 ce a vrut s\u0103 zic\u0103?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 (La spectacolul lui T. G. – publicul lui. Impresarul Titi B\u0103lteanu, cu figur\u0103 de dasc\u0103l bisericesc, directorul de ditur\u0103 I. O. B\u0103tr\u00e2ni care n s-au pierdut, copii care nu s-au pierdut, adul\u0163i care nu s-au pierdut; actorii Puiu \u015fi Marina Velcescu \u2013 capabili de comuniune. De-am putut lucra p\u00e2n\u0103 peste ora 2. Povestea lui 13: o lesbian\u0103 cu p\u0103l\u0103rie de aniversare cinematografic\u0103.)<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O \u00eent\u00e2lnire, alta, apoi din nou aceea dint\u00e2i mai a g\u00e2ndurilor odat\u0103, dar p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd numai a g\u00e2ndurilor? \u00cen Europa e iarn\u0103 grea, \u00een Bucure\u015fti n-a nins. La vil\u0103 sose\u015fte filosoful G.P. \u015ei-mi spune c\u0103, pentru prima oar\u0103, nu ne \u00een\u0163elegem. Este o \u00eent\u00e2lnire de interior. S-o descriem.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cluj, 1968. Gangul muzeului de istorie nu se mai termin\u0103, se l\u0103\u0163e\u015fte p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een biroul \u015fi peste trecutul lui C. D., autorul tratatului despre t\u00e2rfele din Roma veche, \u015fi se lunge\u015fte spiral\u00e2ndu-se spre etaj, c\u0103tre balcon, \u00een curtea interioar\u0103. P\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103, p\u0103trundem \u00een Vita dulci, unde m\u00e2nc\u0103m \u00eenghe\u0163at\u0103 \u015fi pr\u0103jituri. P\u0103strasem exclama\u0163ia din gang a lui I. I. R. \u201ela Bucure\u015fti, acolo este G. P.\u201d. \u015etiam c\u0103 este, semna \u00een \u201eLuceaf\u0103rul\u201d lui E. B. C\u0103 I. I. R.era la Cluj nici nu \u00eemi amintesc s\u0103 fi aflat-o vreodat\u0103 \u00eenainte, doar \u201eReligia geto-dacilor\u201d, citit\u0103 \u00een biblioteca academiei, ganguri iar\u0103\u015fi…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Abia oprit \u00een holul vilei \u2013 ie\u015fisem s\u0103-l \u00eent\u00e2mpin -, G. P. Am observat c\u0103 avea numai m\u00e2ini \u015fi tot netezea coperta lucioas\u0103 a celei mai noi c\u0103r\u0163i a lui I. I. R., despre care am \u015fi vorbit acum pentru prima oar\u0103 de c\u00e2nd ne \u00eent\u00e2lnim noi \u00een holul vilei. Mi-a p\u0103rut, \u00een timpul discu\u0163iilor \u00eenv\u0103lm\u0103\u015fite, c\u0103 arheologul cu a doua carte dup\u0103 \u201eGetica\u201d \u015fi-a re\u00eent\u00e2lnit \u00een interior prietenul studiat la Paris. Urmare a desp\u0103r\u0163irii cordiale, am ie\u015fit \u00een frig.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Re\u00eent\u00e2lnirile, hran\u0103 pentru deziluzii aberante, \u00eencepuser\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eembuibe caldar\u00e2mul proasp\u0103t din curtea vilei \u00eenc\u0103 de ieri. Demult, dup\u0103 ce o privisem \u00eenconjurat\u0103 de tablourile ce o \u00eenf\u0103\u0163i\u015fau t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103 \u015fi o \u015fi ascultasem, o doamn\u0103 din lumea cea mai bun\u0103, a cabinetelor intrate \u00een istorie, mi-a reap\u0103rut prin fa\u0163a B\u0103ii Arcului, mai \u00eencolo, pe trotuar, sub un chip altul, f\u0103r\u0103 s-o aud sau s\u0103 cred c\u0103 a\u015f mai fi \u00een stare s-o aud, at\u00e2t de sintetic \u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2nit\u0103, at\u00e2rnat\u0103 de p\u0103l\u0103ria muced\u0103 \u015fi de grinzile \u015fi ele zb\u00e2rcite ale unor ochelari, \u00eenc\u00e2t o fa\u0163\u0103 a unui mort la trei zile de var\u0103 \u00eencins\u0103 dup\u0103 ce a fost tr\u0103znit s\u0103 par\u0103 de copil sp\u0103lat \u00een laptele picurat dup\u0103 ce supsese de ajuns pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 masca plimb\u0103re\u0163ei mecunoscute, dar amintind-o aberant pe frumoasa b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103 falnic\u0103 vorbind \u00eentre tablourile-i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei-am re\u00eent\u00e2lnit-o pe muma aceea trecut\u0103, c\u00e2nd am ie\u015fit ieri. Sau azi? (Ieri am c\u0103l\u0103torit \u015fi a\u015fa prin ora\u015f. Am citit pentru prima oar\u0103 \u00een via\u0163\u0103 firma hotelului Tranzit de pe strada Mili\u0163iei, iar azi, dintr-o camer\u0103, \u00eemi telefon\u0103 Ion, nefelicitatul din provincie, \u201ec\u0103 vine el s\u0103 i-o spun \u00een Capital\u0103\u201d, ceea ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am trecut prin fa\u0163a B\u0103ii Arcului, am traversat spre Poieni\u0163a Copiilor. M-am surprins \u00eent\u00e2mpinat de sur\u00e2sul unui om foarte bun, foarte bl\u00e2nd. Filosoful C. N. Adev\u0103rat\u0103 re\u00eent\u00e2lnire (tot \u00eentr-o zi de frig, acum un an, pe vizavi, \u00eent\u00e2lnindu-l, am vorbit ca \u015fi cum lumea aceasta e f\u0103cut\u0103 din g\u00e2nduri, nu din treburi rom\u00e2ne\u015fti.) Sunt c\u00e2teva ore. (Spaniolul tablei ronde \u00eemi scrie \u201esunt c\u00e2teva s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni\u201d).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M-am \u00eentristat din oboseal\u0103, altfel m\u0103 \u00eenfocasem \u015fi eram hot\u0103r\u00e2t s\u0103 izbutesc povestirea unui adev\u0103r. Acum, nu numai ca mine, adev\u0103rul \u00eemi r\u0103sare prea \u00eencurcat. Din 6800 \u2013 7000 de file, 30 ar pune probleme (pornografii, antisemitism, antirusism). Dou\u0103 proiecte \u2013 edi\u0163ie xerox, BCU, edi\u0163ie cu translitera\u0163ii. Se discut\u0103 sus. Trimit articolul. O telegram\u0103, s\u0103 fie am\u00e2nat. \u00cend\u00e2rjire. Sarailie. Pahare murdare de apa din sticlele goale. Afar\u0103 \u2013 frig.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I-era frig, a spus-o, anul trecut, \u015fi am intrat \u00een holul unei institu\u0163ii geologice, azi \u00eentr-o cofet\u0103rie, pentru a sc\u0103pa de frig. O re\u00e2nt\u00e2lnire de interior. \u015ei adev\u0103rul r\u0103m\u00e2ne nepovestit. C\u0103ci \u015fi o poveste, cui s\u0103 i-o spui? (P\u0103ream s\u0103 ne \u00een\u0163elegem prima oar\u0103).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Les homme, si l’on veut, s’attaquaient dans la rencontre. Mais ils se rencontraient rarement. (Rousseau).<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe R. a l\u0103trat-o un c\u00e2ine. Ea crede c\u0103 din cauza vulpii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D.S. A telefonat s\u0103-mi mul\u0163umeasc\u0103 pentru urarea de anul nou. I-am explicat R. c\u0103 el e mai important ca al\u0163ii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Genera\u0163ia se alc\u0103tuie\u015fte din noi. A\u015fa \u00eenc\u0103 ar mai merge. Dar c\u00e2nd te socote\u015fti ori prea \u00een\u0103untrul, ori prea \u00een afara genera\u0163iei, \u00een a\u015fa fel \u00eenc\u00e2t s-o la\u015fi \u00een plata domnului \u015fi nici s-o iei ca lumea \u00een serios, ei, spune, domnule, \u015fi dumneata.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe cine iubesc \u015fi cu ce poveste. Pe cine ur\u0103sc \u015fi cu ce poveste. Ce m\u0103 apuc\u0103 s\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc \u015fi ce \u015fi cum g\u00e2ndesc dac\u0103 este cu putin\u0163\u0103 asta, cu \u201etonul mistic\u201d.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G. P. o fi av\u00e2nd, cu adev\u0103rat, ceva de Avram Iancu? O fi un gramatician dac\u0103 d\u0103 exemplu urm\u0103toarea propozi\u0163ie: Basarabia este p\u0103m\u00e2nt rom\u00e2nesc?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tot G. P., respect\u00e2ndu-l, \u00eenjur\u0103 pe C.N. pentru pentru 2-3 replici de acum 30-40 de ani. (\u201e\u00cel \u00eenlocuiesc pe M\u201d – M, mort; \u201ePentru noi G. C. \u00eenseamn\u0103 mai mult dec\u00e2t R. M.\u201d). Pas nouvelle, bonne nouvelle: N. B. ori E. P. \u015fi alogenii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 R. sus\u0163ine c\u0103 d-l Bovary exist\u0103. Nu e de acord c\u0103 exist\u0103 singur\u0103 doamna.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Departe de ceea ce mi\u015fun\u0103, se zbate, disper\u0103 \u015fi crap\u0103, departe de aproape, departe de departe, nu mi-e dor de fe\u0163e, c\u0103ci, \u00een \u00eenchipuire m\u0103car, le v\u0103d. Cred c\u0103 mi-e dor de m\u0103\u015fti, de p\u0103duri arse pu\u0163in \u00eenainte, de grinzi detestate acum. Poate c\u0103 trecerea dureaz\u0103 mai mult dec\u00e2t via\u0163a mea care ar trece \u00een moartea mea \u015fi dec\u00e2t moartea mea care ar trece \u00eentr-o triste\u0163e a rudelor. Poate c\u0103 trecerea de la o vreme la alta este mai lung\u0103 dec\u00e2t fiecare din cele dou\u0103 vremi. \u015ei oricum, astfel, acestea nu-\u015fi pot aminti una de alta, nu se pot continua, \u00een\u0163elege.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nenorocirea este s\u0103 nu cumva s\u0103 se fi sim\u0163it \u00een trecere \u015fi cei ce-au existat \u00eentr-o vreme distinct\u0103. Trecerea ar avea prea mult de la to\u0163i. Vremurile distincte, nu-\u015fi d\u0103 nimeni seama\u00a0 c\u0103 ar fi astfel \u00een timp ce le petrece, ci din afar\u0103 (numai dup\u0103, fiindc\u0103 previziunea unei vremi distincte nu s-ar putea dec\u00e2t din s\u00e2nul unei alteia, la fel de distinct\u0103, deci tautologic\u0103, iar din mijlocul trecerii, previziunea unei vremi distincte n-ar fi alta dec\u00e2t amintirea celei trecute).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iubirea de p\u0103rin\u0163i, de p\u0103m\u00e2nt, de cer seam\u0103n\u0103 unei \u00eengrop\u0103ciuni \u015fi este. Departe de p\u0103m\u00e2nt, de p\u0103rin\u0163i \u015fi de cer, ne lipse\u015fte via\u0163a \u00een \u00eengrop\u0103ciunea fericit\u0103. A te \u00eentoarce cu g\u00e2ndul te apuc\u0103 pl\u00e2nsul trupului, a te \u00eentoarce cu trupul te apuc\u0103 pl\u00e2nsul g\u00e2ndului. Cur\u00e2nd nicio \u00eentoarcere nu mai e posibil\u0103 dec\u00e2t \u00een \u00eenchipuirea g\u00e2ndului (o evaziune nu numai \u00een g\u00e2nd, dar \u015fi dincolo de g\u00e2nd).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen p\u0103rin\u0163i, \u00een p\u0103m\u00e2nt, \u00een cer trebuie, Doamne, s\u0103 mai existe o cale \u00eenso\u0163itoare a celui plecat, care s\u0103 nu-l lase \u00een paragin\u0103 \u015fi \u00een p\u0103r\u0103sire. C\u0103ci paragina, \u00een mu\u0163enie, \u00een ura iubirii uitate din ce \u00een ce, ne mai amu\u0163e\u015fte l\u00e2ng\u0103 bucuria b\u0103t\u0103ii de clopot (al ploii topite din z\u0103pezi g\u0103urite de cioc\u0103nitoare).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen p\u0103r\u0103sire ce va mai fi?<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu ne sperie ochii lumina \u00eentotdeauna. Sar genele \u015fi se dau peste cap apoi ard reflex. M\u0103rturisim a fi fost lumin\u0103 \u015fi (ne-)o fi n\u0103p\u0103dit atunci dracul din lumin\u0103. A\u015fa \u015fi cu pove\u015ftile b\u0103tr\u00e2ne. N\u0103v\u0103lesc. \u0102\u015ftia, zice R. despre pe\u015fti, nu \u015ftiu s\u0103 fac\u0103 dec\u00e2t pui, leap\u0103d\u0103 un r\u00e2nd, apoi altul. Ne ajunge dracul din pove\u015ftile b\u0103tr\u00e2ne. \u015ei c\u00e2t de b\u0103tr\u00e2ne?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Primul r\u0103zboi mondial mi se pare mai vechi dec\u00e2t lupta de la C\u0103lug\u0103reni, \u015fi lupta de la C\u0103lug\u0103reni mai veche dec\u00e2t lupta de la Tapae, \u015fi lupta de la Tapae mai veche dec\u00e2t primul r\u0103zboi de pe lume, de care nu am auzit nici cu urechea la pove\u015fti nu \u015ftiu c\u00e2t de b\u0103tr\u00e2ne. nici cu visul din care mi-a\u015f da via\u0163a s\u0103 m\u0103 pot trezi. nici cu (nimic) p\u0103rerea.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De la un timp \u00een jos, un veac s\u0103 fie, \u00een noi totul o ia \u00een sus, prin spa\u0163iul unde sufletul s-ar duce la cer, dac\u0103 s-ar duce (f\u0103r\u0103 pove\u015ftile b\u0103tr\u00e2ne). Ce a fost p\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 ne fi n\u0103scut a fost dup\u0103 ce s-a n\u0103scut mama noastr\u0103. \u00cendrug\u0103 tu, m\u0103tu\u015f\u0103, \u00eent\u00e2mplarea cu \u00eengroparea \u015fi cu dezgroparea. Mor. Parc\u0103 m\u0103 \u0163in eu la zilele cuiva? Nu \u0163i-e mil\u0103 de mine? Parc\u0103 mi-e mie mil\u0103 de cineva?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dup\u0103 ce a fost adev\u0103rart\u0103, n-a fost un timp, apoi a fost poveste. Povestea e ca primarul r\u0103u cu oamenii de-a umblat cu nem\u0163ii, \u00een primul r\u0103zboi, l-au omor\u00e2t, l-au dezgropat dup\u0103 \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntare \u015fi l-au pus \u00een picioare (era \u00eenalt \u015fi sub\u0163irel), \u00eengropat iar, l-au dezgopat \u015fi l-au dus \u00een p\u0103dure, l-au legat de un copac unde a fost g\u0103sit prim\u0103vara, f\u0103r\u0103 ochi \u015fi pr\u0103p\u0103dit.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Povestea m\u0103 impresioneaz\u0103 pe mine. P e tine, nu. S\u0103 fiu modest \u015fi s\u0103 n-o mai scriu? A\u015fa, nu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cine este de luat \u00een seam\u0103 \u015fi de unde? Cabinetul Pendulei s-a pustiit \u00eentr-at\u00e2t \u00eenc\u00e2t eu n-am avut ochi s\u0103-l v\u0103d, pentru c\u0103 nici n-am ajuns, iar dac\u0103 a\u015f spune c\u0103 am ajuns, asta ar fi fost nu \u00een realitate, nici \u00een fantezie, poate nici \u00een auzire.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Oi fi de o mie de ori lene\u015f. V\u0103d c\u0103 nimic nu iese f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 dai drumul muncii. S\u0103 mai fi r\u0103mas, \u00eens\u0103, pentru asta, ceva spiritual?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Prin \u201estr\u0103in\u0103tate\u201d, lumea \u00een\u0163elege la noi ceva superior, \u015fi asta nu din cosmopolitism, ci din umilin\u0163\u0103, s-ar spune. \u201e\u00cel a\u015fteptam la gar\u0103 s\u0103 vin\u0103 din str\u0103in\u0103tate\u201d, povestea adineauri un muncitor zilier de 61 de ani. Din str\u0103in\u0103tate? Oho. De unde? \u201eDin Uniunea Sovietic\u0103\u201d. A… Uniunea Sovietic\u0103 e str\u0103in\u0103tate?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I. C. Br\u0103tianu, incognito, \u00een Ardeal, viziteaz\u0103 \u015fcoala din N\u0103s\u0103ud. Directorul \u00eei prezint\u0103 turistului clasele \u015fi tot ce avea \u015fcoala. C\u00e2nd erau doar ei doi, necunoscutul \u00eei m\u0103rturise\u015fte cine este \u015fi-i d\u0103 un s\u0103cule\u0163 cu aur \u2013 pentru \u015fcolile rom\u00e2ne\u015fti din Ardeal.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2nd \u201eMioara\u201d lui C. P. a c\u0103zut zgomotos \u015fi to\u0163i, to\u0163i fierbeau \u015fi erau \u00eempotriva autorului, cuzistul Trifu a organizat o asocia\u0163ie amical\u0103 de sus\u0163inere a lui C. P. G. P., mi se pare pe front, i-ar fi repro\u015fat cum de s-a l\u0103sat sus\u0163inut de cuzistul \u0103la, el care…Episodul, replica adic\u0103 \u2013 nu \u015ftiu dac\u0103 extras\u0103 din \u201eMioara\u201d, G. P. nu \u015ftie dac\u0103 \u201eo s\u0103 aib\u0103 timp s-o scrie\u201d. Eu cred c\u0103 nu ce-a spus G. P., c\u0103 \u201ebine, nea Camil…\u201d, ci r\u0103spunsul lui C.P.: \u201eEu nu sunt numai antisemit, sunt \u015fi antiiudeu\u201d. Nici eu n-am timp s\u0103 i-o scriu, nu? \u015ei ce s\u0103 scriu, dac\u0103 nu am auzit nimic, dec\u00e2t pe filosoful \u201enaiv\u201d cu tinere\u0163e parizian\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N-am contemporani, ori, dac\u0103 exist\u0103 ei, eu nu le sunt contemporan. Mi s-a confirmat, \u00een ce m\u0103 prive\u015fte, ipoteza despre timp. Adora\u0163ia lui \u015etefan cel Mare se face prin biserici. Moldova din c\u0103\u0163ea a ie\u015fit, \u00een c\u0103\u0163aea a intrat, ar zice aceia ce povestesc cum c\u0103 mii de oameni se str\u00e2ng sub numele de \u201estili\u015fti\u201d, o sect\u0103 religioas\u0103, \u201ef\u0103r\u0103 biseric\u0103\u201d, instiga\u0163i din afar\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acum, dac\u0103 m\u0103 uit, nu \u015ftiu s\u0103 fi v\u0103zut sau s\u0103 v\u0103d un c\u0103\u0163elu\u015f c\u0103 str\u0103bate printre femei, apoi printre b\u0103rba\u0163i p\u00e2n\u0103 la altar. Nici vreo c\u0103\u0163elu\u015f\u0103. Doamne, niciun c\u00e2ine \u00een biseric\u0103, nicio biseric\u0103 \u00eentr-un c\u00e2ine. \u015ei numai bisericile lui \u015etefan \u2013 cele dinainte sunt din lemn ce plute\u015fte pe cer c\u00e2nd i se opresc ploile s\u0103 se \u00eenchine, \u015fi sunt \u015fi de zid cu ferestre \u015fi lespezi.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 F\u0103ceam socoteala c\u0103, la noi, secolul 19 nu s-a schimbat \u00een 20, ca oameni, mentalit\u0103\u0163i, soart\u0103, concep\u0163ie, posibilitate. Dou\u0103 secole sunt unul. Dincolo e \u00eenainte \u015fi \u00eenapoi \u2013 lemn \u015fi zid de \u00eenchin\u0103ciune.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ace\u015fti oameni b\u0103tr\u00e2ni, dintr-un instinct necercetat, nu se mai opresc din vorb\u0103, doar-doar vor fi \u0163inu\u0163i minte, indiferent cum. Crez\u00e2ndu-se sublimi, \u00een\u0163elep\u0163i, al\u0163ii perfec\u0163i, \u00een experien\u0163ele, \u00een r\u0103utatea lor, crez\u00e2ndu-se numai prin darul ce l-au a\u015fteptat \u015fi-l simt \u00een apropiere, ei atrag sprijinitori prin afinitate la prima vedere. Ei vor sim\u0163i numai prin trecut, dar \u00eel \u015fi vorbesc, reactualiz\u00e2ndu-l cu adev\u0103rat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vorbitorii viitorului \u2013 cei ai trecutului z\u0103resc personalit\u0103\u0163ile numai \u00een urm\u0103 \u015fi \u00ee\u015fi fac o glorie din a le b\u00e2rfi – par a se teme rareori \u015fi de primejdii necunoscute, p\u0103cat c\u0103 nu rev\u0103d \u00een timpul ce urmeaz\u0103 peronalitatea, excep\u0163ional\u0103 sau nu, \u015fi n-o pot vedea pentru c\u0103 numai g\u00e2ndul viitorului (\u00een maniera de azi) \u015fi recomand\u0103 o spaim\u0103 de personalitatea actual\u0103, \u015fi atunci se caut\u0103 dislocarea personalit\u0103\u0163ii viitoare, negarea ei dinainte de a se manifesta (p\u00e2n\u0103 acum se obi\u015fnuia, sus\u0163inut, negarea celor trecute).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Utopiile de azi nu reu\u015fesc dec\u00e2t s\u0103 reabiliteze, f\u0103r\u0103 a preciza, partea deteriorat\u0103 (de pro\u015fti) a de\u015ftept\u0103ciunii \u015fi viselor reale de odinioar\u0103. Lumea din fa\u0163\u0103 se concepe ca fiind astupat\u0103 de \u00eenmul\u0163irea vie\u0163ii, sau de via\u0163a \u00eenmul\u0163it\u0103, \u201ema\u015final\u0103\u201d, t\u00e2rzie, asta spre a l\u0103sa acuma loc bucuriei neaccept\u0103rii geniilor de dincolo de noi (\u00een noi se \u00eeneac\u0103 vechile genii \u015fi nimeni nu mai are chef s\u0103 treac\u0103).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M.M., ministru, se ocup\u0103 cu viitorul. Ast\u0103-sear\u0103 a \u0163inut o conferin\u0163\u0103 \u00een fa\u0163a conduc\u0103torilor \u015fcolari din B. C\u00e2teva zeci n-au \u00eenc\u0103put \u00een sala corpului didactic. M.M. era s\u0103 dea peste mine, \u00een capul sc\u0103rii, c\u00e2nd a sosit, la ora anun\u0163at\u0103. Cei r\u0103ma\u015fi pe afar\u0103 s-au \u00eenghesuit f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 poat\u0103 face un pas. Un ins \u00eenalt, \u00een negru, cre\u0163, tot vrea s\u0103 le \u00eenchid\u0103 u\u015fa \u00een nas \u015fi-i oc\u0103ra. \u015ecolarii directori f\u0103ceau comentarii, probabil potrivite. N-am nimic cu nimeni, dar nu-mi dau seama dac\u0103 a\u015fa ceva este sau nu un succes. \u015ei dac\u0103 este, de ce s\u0103 ne complic\u0103m \u015fi cu viitorul, vorba lui G.P.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ambi\u0163iile unei persoane sus-puse conving pe ceilal\u0163i de existen\u0163a unor concep\u0163ii \u015fi sisteme (declarate) fie prea tari, fie lipsite de noutate. Pot fi date peste cap de fleacuri (mijlocul de expresie al marilor personalit\u0103\u0163i).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 E o zi perfect luminoas\u0103, meirt\u0103 un imn. Ea singur\u0103 \u015fi-l roste\u015fte \u015fi cine-l aude se simte lumin\u0103. S\u0103 fii lumin\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103 nu te sperii c\u0103 vei teroriza tot ce tr\u0103ie\u015fte \u00een \u00eentuneric, s\u0103 nu te sperii c\u0103 te vei stinge \u00eenghi\u0163it de marele negru.<\/div>\n
La icoana m\u0103n\u0103stirii<\/div>\n
noastre \u00een genunchi stau mirii,<\/div>\n
Nu e fat\u0103 e sultan\u0103<\/div>\n
cu satan\u0103 \u00een sutan\u0103<\/div>\n
(s\u0103 mai cread\u0103 cine-i vede<\/div>\n
c\u0103 vreo stirpe se mai pierde).<\/div>\n
Nu e doamn\u0103 e otrav\u0103<\/div>\n
otr\u0103vit\u0103 de suav\u0103<\/div>\n
(de suav\u0103 \u015fi amar\u0103<\/div>\n
c\u00e2t o \u0163ar\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 \u0163ar\u0103)<\/div>\n
Nu e m\u0103tr\u0103gun\u0103 bun\u0103<\/div>\n
s\u0103 m\u0103rite peste-o lun\u0103<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G.P., fiind invitat de Z.S. la mas\u0103, c\u00e2ndva la Caffe de la Paix, a ap\u0103rut, fl\u0103m\u00e2d, vagabondul iudeu, respectabilul O.L. \u015fi Z.S l-a \u00eembiat s\u0103 \u00eenfulece firimituri din farfuria lui, ceea ce \u00eel f\u0103cea, zice G.P., fericit pe O.L. Azi, pre\u015fedintele Z.S mi-a trimis o carte de vizit\u0103 cu 3 r\u00e2nduri, numindu-m\u0103, din adres\u0103, scriitor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am b\u0103ut asear\u0103 enorm. D.P., din Negrile\u015fti, poet vr\u00e2ncean, tr\u0103ie\u015fte la Jari\u015ftea, unde am fost. El aduce vin \u015fi-l bem. Cite\u015fte el versuri \u015fi vorbim. Asear\u0103 \u015fi azi am vorbit enorm despre Mircea Eliade.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 traduc Pervigilium Veneris… Mul\u0163umit\u0103 lui Robert Schilling de la Strasbourg. Amabil c\u0103 mi-a trimis studiul lui foarte umanist. Formidabil de sintetic\u0103 \u015fi str\u00e2ns\u0103 latina \u2013 cras amet qui… M\u00e2ine iubi\u0163i voi ce nicic\u00e2nd nu a\u0163i iubit \/\u00a0 cei ce-a\u0163i iubit iubi\u0163i \u015fi m\u00e2ine… S\u0103 vedem c\u00e2nd oi fi gata \u015fi pe ce spa\u0163iu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Singur\u0103tatea ar fi un lux infinit \u015fi nu e, nu e spa\u0163iu. Doar timpu-i singur, spa\u0163iu de singur\u0103tate nu-i. Am deschis \u201eistoria\u201d la \u201eConsecration de l’espace\u201d. (Mul\u0163i dispera\u0163i de acum, singuratici \u00een s\u0103r\u0103cie sau viciu incipient ca \u015fi cancerul, mai ales femei \u015fi b\u0103rba\u0163i tineri, deschid la \u00eent\u00e2mplare \u201eistoria\u201d s\u0103 vad\u0103 ce li se alege.).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ieri am fumat sub 10 \u0163ig\u0103ri, obi\u015fnuit cu 2 pachete. Azi, la fel (s\u0103 vedem noaptea asta). Sunt ame\u0163it. Am pierdut totul la \u015fah, toate partidele. Nu m-am \u0163inut de cuv\u00e2nt s\u0103 merg la V.V. Nu sunt capabil s\u0103-i descriu starea sufleteasc\u0103, tensiunea. L-am l\u0103sat pe drumuri pe D.P. (nici nu aveam unde-l primi). Am b\u0103ut whisky cu Papastratos. M-am pretat la discu\u0163ii de afaceri. \u00cen afar\u0103 de aer, m\u0103 intereseaz\u0103 s\u0103 scriu.<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd am b\u0103ut o noapte vin<\/div>\n
\u015fi am m\u00e2ncat la ceap\u0103<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd m-am legat de Rozmarin<\/div>\n
\u00eembotezat \u00een ap\u0103<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd fie \u0163ig\u0103neasc\u0103 ea<\/div>\n
\u0163\u00e2\u0163easc\u0103 \u015foapta sf\u00e2r\u00e2ia<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd cheltuii 50 de lei<\/div>\n
de-i scriu \u015fi te poftesc s\u0103-i iei<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd am b\u0103ut o noapte vin<\/div>\n
\u015fi-a doua noapte iar a\u015fa<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd m-am legat de Rozmarin<\/div>\n
c\u0103 toat\u0103 noaptea numai bea<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd \u015fi azi-noapte am b\u0103ut<\/div>\n
\u015fi noaptea asta merg pe front<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd m\u0103 trezesc pe timp pierdut<\/div>\n
la Rozmarin \u015fi Dormidont<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd noi suntem locotenen\u0163i<\/div>\n
pe front \u015fi-acas\u0103 cri\u0163\u0103<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd vina e a unor decaden\u0163i<\/div>\n
\u015fi Rozmarin \u015fi Dormidont \u015fi \u015etef\u0103ni\u0163\u0103<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd m\u0103 condamn\u0103 la omor<\/div>\n
am ultima dorin\u0163\u0103-n g\u00e2t<\/div>\n
S\u0103 mor \u00een accident de avion<\/div>\n
c\u00e2nd focul nu e dobor\u00e2t<\/div>\n
\u015ei c\u00e2nd ajung nu prea departe<\/div>\n
\u00een alt\u0103 \u0163ar\u0103 m\u0103-nfior<\/div>\n
C\u0103 to\u0163i sunt condamna\u0163i la moarte<\/div>\n
\u015fi ultima dorin\u0163\u0103 le-o spun lor<\/div>\n
C\u00e2nd a\u015f mai bea pl\u0103tesc cu bani<\/div>\n
s\u0103 v\u0103 \u00eemb\u0103t s-o iau din loc<\/div>\n
S\u0103 m\u0103 l\u0103sa\u0163i \u00een pace fra\u0163i golani<\/div>\n
c\u00e2nd sar \u00een avionul luat foc<\/div>\n
7<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Se sting reflexele elogiului. Asce\u0163ii nu sunt s\u0103-i cunoa\u015ftem noi, nebunii da. Pentru conservarea sa, ascetul se autoflageleaz\u0103, instinct de conservare moral\u0103, nu a decorului, zice \u015etef\u0103ni\u0163\u0103 L. I-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 \u00eei spun\u0103 cineva c\u0103 \u00eei str\u0103lucesc ochii de egoism. Iisus Hristos a fost cel mai mare egoist, zice.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2teodat\u0103 vorbesc despre el de parc\u0103 a murit, alteori de parc\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u015fte. Se teme pentru c\u0103 \u00eei e fric\u0103, \u00eei e fric\u0103 pentru c\u0103 se teme. La ferestrele m\u0103cel\u0103riei din fa\u0163a Hotelului Nord, jum\u0103t\u0103\u0163i de porci lungi at\u00e2rn\u0103 deschise la miezul nop\u0163ii c\u0103tre trotuar. V\u0103 place, domnule? Nu poate s\u0103 vad\u0103. Are fa\u0163a aburit\u0103, \u00eenconjurat\u0103 de o coam\u0103 de p\u0103r s\u0103lb\u0103ticit precum r\u0103d\u0103cinile ie\u015fite din p\u0103m\u00e2nt.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Jum\u0103t\u0103\u0163ile de porci din dosul geamurilor ne\u00eenghe\u0163ate \u00eel oglindesc \u015fi ele, ca \u00een adev\u0103rate albii de porci. Dar d\u00e2nsul a trecut, \u015fi \u00eei fac umbr\u0103 firmele modeste de pe Calea Grivi\u0163ei. (Lucr\u00e2nd aici la o oper\u0103 de \u015ftiin\u0163\u0103, anun\u0163 c\u0103 discut o persoan\u0103 real\u0103, indescriptibil\u0103, desigur, dar cu nimic \u00een comun cu personajele lui Urmuz.)<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201eV\u0103 cer iertare\u201d, \u00eei spun b\u0103tr\u00e2nei noastre domni\u015foare. D-l L. m\u0103 aude \u015fi se gr\u0103be\u015fte s\u0103 repete: \u201e\u00cemi cer iertare\u201d. Eu nu aveam de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 cer nicio iertare, nici b\u0103tr\u00e2nei, nici domnului L. De aceea am \u015fi cerut, dar cui, b\u0103tr\u00e2nei scandalizate instinctiv, ca orice \u0163\u0103ranc\u0103, de \u201ec\u0103lug\u0103r\u201d, sau ascetului cochet, dup\u0103 propria-i judecat\u0103? A, d\u00e2nsul nu omoar\u0103, vara, nici mu\u015ftele, nici puricii, venind \u00een B. pentru a doua oar\u0103 la mine, domni\u015foara, mama \u015fi bunica noastr\u0103 a avut mari emo\u0163ii oferindu-se de nevoie s\u0103 spele o c\u0103ma\u015f\u0103 alb\u0103 at\u00e2t de murd\u0103rit\u0103 de purici.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acum e iarn\u0103 \u015fi i-a \u00eenghe\u0163at cerneala \u00een c\u0103lim\u0103ri. La 48 de ani, frigul \u00eei \u00eenghea\u0163\u0103 m\u00e2na pe vioar\u0103. E imobilizat \u015fi tot potrivnic violen\u0163ei (O s\u0103 instal\u0103m un tun pe Rochila \u015fi o s\u0103 tragem \u00een ru\u015fi. S\u0103 tragem, dar s\u0103 nu omor\u00e2m nici unul, c\u0103 nu e frumos).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A citit \u201eHristos r\u0103stignit a doua oar\u0103\u201d (\u015fi nu \u015ftii ce-i poate trece prin cap). \u0162ine \u015fi la mistre\u0163ii care-i stric\u0103 tot, \u015fi la pomi. Oamenii ca oamenii (mereu \u00eei cheam\u0103), dar p\u0103durea \u015fi cerul. P\u0103durea\u00a0 este t\u0103iat\u0103 cu drujba. T\u0103ietorii ar fi \u00een stare s\u0103 reteze \u015fi picioarele lui dumnezeu (sau Iisus). Asta \u00eel \u00eendurereaz\u0103 \u015fi-i e bine.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N-am g\u0103sit-o \u00een cas\u0103 pe b\u0103tr\u00e2na noastr\u0103 c\u00e2nd m-am \u00eentors. Aveam de g\u00e2nd s\u0103-i cer iertare \u2013 pustnicului \u00eei urasem drum bun.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 8<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Franco Lombardi… di Grigore Popa, Sibiu, 1940… \u201ee difeso contro l’acusa di irazionalismo dal momento che quello che si verifica nel pensiero di Kierkegaard e piuttosto un ampliamento della ragione… M. F\u0103rc\u0103\u015fanu… Constantin Micu… Constantin Noica…Mircea Vulc\u0103nescu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00ceng\u00e2ndurat sincer, cu p\u0103cate pe din\u0103untru, respiratorii. Nu-mi mai vine s\u0103 fiu vesel, ca ieri (c\u00e2nd m\u0103 trezisem dup\u0103 un somn lini\u015ftit). \u00cemi e necaz de confuzia \u00eentre delir \u015fi st\u0103rile spirituale inexistente, dar crezute a fi \u00een mijlocul acestor delire, din megalomanie, poate.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De ce n-oi fi scriind eu la \u201esaloane\u201d, indiferent de cizelare? Am personajele la coad\u0103. Da’ de unde? Dac\u0103 sunt incapabil de ele? Cine-oi fi din punctul de vedere al personajelor? De c\u00e2nd eram \u00een scriere.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ceasul nu e forforescent. Lini\u015fte, doar respira\u0163ii, 1,2,3. O salv\u0103, o \u0163eav\u0103. Printre friguri, luam \u00eentr-una hot\u0103r\u00e2ri, cream plec\u0103ri \u00een crea\u0163ii. \u00cen slug\u0103 str\u0103luce\u015fte st\u0103p\u00e2nul (Lambrino). P\u0103r alb p\u0103tat de nicotin\u0103, fa\u0163a ro\u015fie, vocea morm\u00e2ntal\u0103 \u2013 to\u0163i mor\u0163ii sunt genlemeni britanici, po\u0163i s\u0103-i scuipi, s\u0103-i \u00eentorci…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Violoncelul nu i-a ajuns de \u015fi-a f\u0103cut rost de la Iarosevici de o viola da gamba. Mi-a oferit Stravinski bucurii, dar beciul mi-a oferit \u015fi mai multe: v-am ascultat pe dv., pe O.M., o prim\u0103 audi\u0163ie – poate \u015fi ultima -, cu un Varese, un alt Madrigal, de pe la Ia\u015fi, ce mai… Exaltat? Asta e alt\u0103 pereche de papuci.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Violoncelistul a plecat cum pianista. N-a r\u0103mas cu D., care-\u015fi \u00eenghi\u0163ea lacrimile. Noroc cu noi, arti\u015fti mai de pe aici, nu din Cluj, nu din subsol, nu din nu \u015ftim nici noi de unde. Am b\u0103ut \u00een cinstea lui c\u00e2te un coniac mic, vorbind \u015fi de el, \u015fi de fiecare dintre noi (nu mai c\u00e2nta nici unul la violoncel), o sopran\u0103 poet\u0103, o ceramist\u0103, un geolog sculptor, un desenator, o necunoscut\u0103 \u2013 prietena geologului, \u015fi eu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 La ce i-ai pl\u00e2nge ce\u0163ii de mil\u0103, c\u00e2nd, \u00eendesindu-se, \u00ee\u015fi vars\u0103 \u015fi singur\u0103 morm\u00e2ntul din ochiul cerului? Filosoul C.N.: m\u0103 aflu \u00een alt ceas al vie\u0163ii dec\u00e2t al publicisticii. Perioad\u0103 c\u00e2nd lumea st\u0103 sobr\u0103, mai ales oamenii cu trecut. Sistemul, lucrarea vie\u0163ii. Direc\u0163ia presei din Constan\u0163a \u015fi articolul lui C.N., telegram\u0103 neexpediat\u0103, las\u0103 lucrurile s\u0103 mearg\u0103. S\u0103-l vizitez cu un g\u00e2nd creator. Stilul meu de luciditate e o opacitate. Nu v\u0103d noaptea poetului, dar o accept, \u00eemi dau seama c\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 ea nu se poate.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C.D, premiul Herder \u2013 bine faci c\u0103 m\u0103 felici\u0163i. Merit. Eu, ca s\u0103 nu se spun\u0103 c\u0103 bag m\u00e2na \u00een banii statului, \u00eel trimit \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate pe fiu-meu. N. N. fumeaz\u0103 \u00een cabinetul lui medical \u2013 trebuie s\u0103 moar\u0103 omul de ceva -, dup\u0103 Eres, \u015fi el Erezii, mi-a f\u0103cut \u015fi o radiografie la un dinte. La \u201eMoldova\u201d, cu V. V. \u015fi M.C. (ne-am \u00eemp\u0103cat, mi-a g\u0103sit \u015fi o \u201eRamayana\u201d).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Spre diminea\u0163\u0103, aflu c\u0103 sunt respin\u015fi doi candida\u0163i ai decanului D.P. Suf\u0103r \u015fi adorm. M\u0103 trezesc, \u00eei v\u0103d pe candida\u0163i (m\u0103 viziteaz\u0103 la redac\u0163ie). Sunt pl\u00e2n\u015fi. C. L., mai t\u00e2n\u0103r, are ochii topi\u0163i \u00eenc\u0103 \u00een ro\u015fe\u0163uri, C. P se uit\u0103 fix \u015fi \u00eei vine s\u0103 rag\u0103. S\u0103 vedem ce-o s\u0103 mai ias\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mai bine c\u0103 d-l C.N mi-a recomandat s\u0103-l caut cu un g\u00e2nd creator. Eu crezusem c\u0103 trei zile de cea\u0163\u0103 sunt un g\u00e2nd creator. Ieri, pe o zi a\u015fa de \u00eensorit\u0103 \u015fi de cald\u0103, pe o noapte astupat\u0103 de dou\u0103-trei stele, nici g\u00e2nd de g\u00e2nd creator, ba tacla cu prieteni de-aceea\u015fi zi (\u015fi altele de-a domnul).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 La Casa Universitarilor, nu-i consideram pe matematicieni cine \u015ftie ce, iar ei parc\u0103 \u015fi-ar fi dat seama, de aceea depuneau oarecare interes. M.B. cita cu exactitate un articol de Camil Petrescu. Academicieni declara\u0163i senili. Un ministru care v\u00e2neaz\u0103 vr\u0103jitoare. G. P., un existen\u0163ialist. Discutarea lui m-a existen\u0163ializat. Am avut impresa c\u0103 niciodat\u0103 un g\u00e2nditor viu n-a mai fost a\u015fa de la locul lui judecat \u00een elogii \u015fi contraziceri \u2013 un existen\u0163ialist de dreapta; nici dreapta, nici st\u00e2nga; ciung, dar o cruce; o cruce ciung\u0103; ortodoxist, nu mistic; sentiment duminical, auzi, \u0103sta e Ardealul…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Na\u015fterea muzicii din cer, cine a fost Haendel, crezi c\u0103 \u015ftiu? I-am spus domnului Ionescu, arhitectul de orgi, asear\u0103 (ast\u0103-sear\u0103 s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat iar) \u2013 orga p\u0103rintelui Gerstenengst a luat-o razna. 20 de partide de \u015fah cu S.T. Duduie, avem \u00een cas\u0103 un poet modernist. G.C.M. nu vrea s\u0103 semneze l\u00e2ng\u0103 O.O. – a f\u0103cut politic\u0103 reac\u0163ionar\u0103, V. B. a fost amantul Olg\u0103i Sturdza, A. A e t\u00e2mpit.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am urcat \u015fi am cobor\u00e2t prin locuri niciodat\u0103 cutreierate, prin \u00eenconjurul vremii de spaime n\u0103d\u0103jduitoare, priveam lumea \u00een ochi. C\u0103ciulile. Am trei, capul s\u0103 fie s\u0103n\u0103tos. Bun\u0103 ziua, domn’ Ion. Bun\u0103 ziua, domn’ Ilie. Ce-\u0163i pas\u0103? Ce-mi pas\u0103, stau acas’ \u015fi am de moar\u0103, ai? \u00cen ma\u015fin\u0103, am citit romanul lui V.I., altul n-avea, sau avea, avea \u015fi basc\u0103, umbla cu capul gol, ca tinerii. \u015ei am ajuns de unde plecasem de diminea\u0163\u0103. Unde m\u0103 a\u015ftepta Mama. Era foarte frumoas\u0103. I-am ar\u0103tat-o a\u015fa \u015fi sor\u0103-mii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A ap\u0103rut preoteasa de peste drum. Mi-a chemat nepotul mare, cel de zece ani, la o cununie. A zis s\u0103 merg eu. C\u0103 nu sunt cununat la pop\u0103. M\u0103 rog, aveam s\u0103-i ascundem am\u00e2ndoi asta p\u0103rintelui. Am ajuns. Mirele, pirpiriu, cu ochelari, mireasa un pic mai \u00eenalt\u0103, blond\u0103 slab\u0103, iar nuna \u00een crescendo, cu un tricou plesnitor ca \u015fi pantalonii mula\u0163i pe rotunduri prea pu\u0163in sfinte \u00een casa popii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I-am g\u0103sit pe to\u0163i \u00een \u00eenc\u0103perea din dreapta, am trecut prin coridorul \u0163\u0103r\u0103nesc \u00een cea din st\u00e2nga \u2013 altarul casnic al preotului cel b\u0103tr\u00e2n, ca un sf\u00e2nt r\u0103u de at\u00e2ta vechime \u00een bine printre oameni r\u0103i. 5-6 icoane, un Iisus aproape catolic prin perfec\u0163iunile trupe\u015fti naturale, o Maic\u0103 \u015fi alte c\u00e2teva – de ce nu le-am memorat chipurile? (c\u0103 nu era o memorie a volupt\u0103\u0163ii?) \u015ei, venind pe nea\u015fteptate nepotul, tocmai c\u00e2nd treceam \u00een \u00eenc\u0103perea cu altar, rotunda domni\u015foar\u0103 nun\u0103 a s\u0103rit c\u0103 el s\u0103 \u0163in\u0103 lum\u00e2narea, c\u0103 el este \u201em\u0103car pur\u201d, ceea ce a\u015fa s-a petrecut, cu tot fastul, \u00eentr-o slujb\u0103 antic\u0103 (ontic\u0103?), prin v\u00e2rsta mo\u015fului ce transformase c\u00e2ntecul \u00een sublim desc\u00e2ntec, chiar \u015fi pe Isaia.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M-am \u00eenchinat. \u015ei to\u0163i \u2013 doi miri, nuna str\u00e2mb\u0103cioas\u0103, copilul cu lum\u00e2narea \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103. \u201eS\u0103rut\u0103 crucea, s\u0103rut\u0103 cununa, \u015fi s\u0103rut\u0103 \u015fi m\u00e2na lui taica p\u0103rintele!\u201d. Hai, i-am s\u0103rutat-o \u015fi eu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eram s\u0103 m\u0103 purific. Nu spun c\u0103 nu. Se purificase \u015fi cerul. Evanghelia nun\u0163ii este complet evreiasc\u0103, dar mirii no\u015ftri \u015fi cerul sunt pe vremuiri mai noi.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A. E. B., trei ore, a nu fi slug\u0103 francezilor; ce g\u0103se\u015fti la noi \u00een anticariate, Belgia Orientului; nu au niciun poet mare, cultur\u0103 prin meteci, Milosz, Michaux. Voluptatea germanic\u0103, suntem nordici, ca \u015fi ei \u2013 circula\u0163ia numelui s\u0103u, \u00een lumea germanic\u0103. Rom\u00e2nii \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate, egal nimeni, \u201eprezen\u0163e\u201d.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Plata la Seghers, compromitere total\u0103 prin tip\u0103rirea la Seghers. Parisul, frumos numai pentru cine n-a v\u0103zut ora\u015fele italiene.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201eEchinoxul nebunilor\u201d revine cel mai des; un roman inedit, refuzat de Marin Preda, de\u015fi fusese tulburat; poezii respinse; Istoria poeziei. Mi-am f\u0103cut datoria. Parafraz\u00e2nd pe Cato, nu voi spune \u201eCetatea nu va avea oasele mele\u201d, ci voi spune \u201eCetatea va avea numai oasele mele\u201d.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Scrisoare lui N.C.; alia\u0163ii s\u0103i nu-s plini de putere; filia\u0163ii rom\u00e2ne\u015fti \u2013 Cantemir, Hasdeu, Eminescu \u2013 Izolare; Exilul nu e solu\u0163ie; trebuie s\u0103 suferi cu poporul t\u0103u.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu e membru de partid; nu va mai primi, p\u00e2n\u0103 la moarte, nicio func\u0163ie. Mul\u0163i amerdeuri, sordizi. F\u0103nu\u015f N., unul dintre pu\u0163inii scriitori. Cei care n-au citit scriitori rom\u00e2ni. T. Arghezi, scrisoare, interven\u0163ie la Dej. 1958 \u2013 1964, mizerie. Plenara Uniunii din 1962. Prima aprobare de ie\u015fire \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate, 1965.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Unul singur. Ion Alexandru. \u00cencredere \u00een for\u0163e creatoare interne. Rom\u00e2nii, zero \u00eentre str\u0103ini, zero \u015fi \u00eentre rom\u00e2ni. \u00cent\u00e2lnirile cu studen\u0163i nu mai sunt posibile. Gunter Grass \u015fi Wili Brandt. Azi, o \u00eent\u00e2lnire cu N.C. Locul meu era, cred, acolo. N-am fost invitat. A\u015f fi fost dezagreabil.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Viziuni, un univers, nu \u00eentoarcere la curente din ’20 \u015fi mai vechi. V\u0103 credeam un estetizant. Un estetizant din interiorul estetismului.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u c\u0103 nu m-am iubit cu Rebreanu, \u00eemi spune E. B., fost\u0103, zice ea, Alice Basarab. Dar \u00eemi iubeam so\u0163ul. Nu puteam iubi doi deodat\u0103. Eram proast\u0103. O mie de lei o s\u0103rutare \u00eemi d\u0103dea prefectul dac\u0103 m-a\u015f fi culcat cu el. Eram cea mai frumoas\u0103, o frumuse\u0163e cum nu s-a mai v\u0103zut. Camil Petrescu \u00eemi spunea, tu e\u015fti boieroaic\u0103, eu sunt copil de oameni s\u0103raci, m\u0103 uit la mobilele tale s\u0103 le descriu \u00een romane. Azi, m-a f\u0103cut la telefon semizeu. \u015ei \u00eenger. \u015ei gentil.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Monologul de \u00eenceput al lui Mure\u015fan \/ Eminescu are 200 versuri, 3000 silabe, 100 cezuri. \u201eDrumul\u201d lui Al. Philippide ar fi s\u0103 fie jucat de adolescen\u0163i de v\u00e2rsta lui c\u00e2nd a scris piesa. \u015ei \u201eSalomeea\u201d de Adrian Maniu e pervers poetic\u0103. Ah, \u201eG\u00e2ndirea\u201d… A intrat azi pictorul lor, Demian, \u015fi mi-a spus, \u201eAm venit\u201d. M\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 de ce l-am c\u0103utat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Miercurea a patra de armat\u0103, unde m\u0103 aflu concentrat, reflex de avari\u0163ie, doresc pe to\u0163i ceilal\u0163i avari, spre a verifica dac\u0103, astfel, eu mai pot avea ceva. Pe M. V. (Puiu), actor poet (cel ce nu-l iart\u0103 pe Shakespeare pentru c\u0103 ar fi deschis por\u0163i crimei), \u00eel \u00eentreb la spectacolul lui T. G., \u201eai pl\u0103tit?\u201d; despre lec\u0163iile de imposta\u0163ie, \u201ele pl\u0103te\u015fti?\u201d; un Larousse vechi, de c\u00e2teva mii de pagini, \u201eai dat tu bani pe \u0103sta?\u201d Doamnei Milena \u00eei spuneam c\u0103 sunt \u00een s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2na mea antifrancez\u0103. C. D., c\u0103 Budai-Deleanu e antiunguresc, anti\u0163ig\u0103nesc; M.P.: \u015fi antirom\u00e2nesc. Nu m-a\u015f fi pl\u0103tit.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Au dat cu nasul prin americani \u015fi nu \u00een\u0163eleg nimic. Ave\u0163i nevroz\u0103 aristocratic\u0103. N-am, m\u0103. Complexul prin\u0163ului consort. Eu am complexul originilor. \u015ei a\u0163i condus ziarul \u201e\u0162ara\u201d, unde a polemizat Dan Botta cu Blaga, \u00eenainte de a-l provoca la duel.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S-a m\u0103ritat de la 15 ani, la 16, a n\u0103scut cu forceps. Dac\u0103 ar fi stat \u00een pat, azi ar fi ministru. Iorga n-a v\u0103zut \u00een ea femeia, nu era viril, dar avea o s\u0103m\u00e2n\u0163\u0103… De nou\u0103 ori s-a culcat cu so\u0163ia lui \u015fi a f\u0103cut nou\u0103 copii. D-na Iorga i-a spus doamnei B. c\u0103 e impotent.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen spelunca Maria Magdalena, violoncelistul m\u0103 chemase la Petrushko. Cursul de metafizic\u0103, p\u00e2n\u0103 la Hegel. Izolarea, cu D. S. Popii suport\u0103 greu foamea. Tentativa de a se sp\u00e2nzura cu centura, nu din la\u015fitate, pentru a nu fi drogat \u015fi astfel s\u0103 spun\u0103. 6 luni pierdut, adus \u00een \u0163ar\u0103, condamnat, negra\u0163iat, \u00eempu\u015fcat. Avem un Socrate \u00een Bucure\u015fti. El singur \u015fi regele aveau iaht. Maimonide, javra medieval\u0103, cardinalii masoni. La ora trei noaptea, ochii i s-au bulbucat, urechile i s-au pleo\u015ftit. S\u0103 nu mai ascund numele dup\u0103 neffin\u0163a ini\u0163ialelor. Siberia, m\u0103re\u0163ia durerii. Balet pentru copiii din insula Haiti.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Se d\u0103dea drept Henri Michaux. \u00cemi plac versurile dumneavoastr\u0103. Pe malul Niprului, acoperit de lipii – c\u00e2te p\u00e2ini s-ar fi putut face cu ele pe ap\u0103, dac\u0103 nu cumva chiar ar fi plutit. Prin mla\u015ftin\u0103, spre Pia\u0163a Na\u0163iunii. Antilatinistul strive\u015fte nasul bustului. Lui Osman, adev\u0103r t\u0103t\u0103r\u0103sc, a mai avea Crimee. V\u00e2r\u00e2t \u00een sac, \u015fir\u0103 f\u0103r\u00e2mat\u0103, \u015famanism, cultul focului, islamizare. Margini de c\u0103ciuli de fier mi-au \u00eenc\u0103put c\u00e2t a putut fiecare, l\u0103s\u00e2ndu-mi impresia c\u0103 le-a\u015f avea \u00eentr-una pe cre\u015ftet, de\u015fi nu le-am avut niciodat\u0103.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Primul volum al operelor lui Eminescu, edi\u0163ia Perpessicius, este interzis. Numai dac\u0103 \u201efaci o lucrare\u201d, dac\u0103 ai \u201epermis special\u201d. Vai, \u015fi cine d\u0103 permise! \u201eMemoriale\u201d de V. P\u00e2rvan, \u201ePrecursori\u201d, de O. Goga. Cercul din Nuferi \u2013 Puiu V. cu Marina lui, Vasi P. cu o fat\u0103, regizorul Sorin S., singur, o actri\u0163\u0103, Stelic\u0103, eu \u2013 asear\u0103, \u201eZahei\u201d de Vasile Voiculescu, spiritualitate f\u0103r\u0103 obiect.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lneam cu prietenul V.V., pentru a-i povesti ce mi se \u00eent\u00e2mplase cu at\u00e2t de pu\u0163in\u0103 vreme \u00eenainte (sau \u00een urm\u0103). Comentariul la Kirkegaard, mistica iubirii, pozi\u0163ia \u0163eap\u0103n\u0103, \u00een picioare, pe frig, dorin\u0163a de m\u00e2ntuire, nu \u015fi de certitudine, exaltarea numai a spiritului, chiar \u015fi prin gesturi antispirituale \u015fi antihaitiene.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu o mai apuc pe Calea C\u0103l\u0103ra\u015filor, dar pe Delea Veche. Trei turle \u015fi un co\u015f, alte dou\u0103 pe Popa Nan, spre sud, Calist, cu \u00eenc\u0103 dou\u0103 turle. Ca\u015finul are cinci turle, patru \u00een cruce \u015fi, \u00een centrul lor, marea turl\u0103, mai aproape de cer. Dumnezeu, \u00eenainte de origini, sunet de clopot. Apusul Ci\u015fmigiului. Bach ortodox.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dac\u0103 m\u0103 cert cu V., mai trec s\u0103 te iau de la Domni\u0163a? Jucam primul \u015fah, vine Ric\u0103, sup\u0103rat pe notar c\u0103 nu-i primi actul fiind datat cu o zi mai devreme, ne-am \u00eencins la licita\u0163ie p\u00e2n\u0103 la miezul nop\u0163ii. A doua sear\u0103, Puiu i-a citit versuri d-lui Grigore P., de la Francisc d’Assisi n-am mai auzit versuri at\u00e2t de autentic cre\u015ftine. Seri cu Berdiaef, p\u0103rin\u0163ii Arsenia \u015fi Stan, p\u0103rintele filosof St\u0103niloae, Karl Barth, Kirkegaard, David, Pilat, \u015etefan cel Mare, Mihai Viteazul, adev\u0103rul tezaurului putnean, poe\u0163i de azi, epocile fiec\u0103ruia \u015fi ale tuturor. Comedia mergea \u00een gust de spaim\u0103. Patrie de v\u00e2nzare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nansi e convins\u0103 c\u0103 eu m\u0103 dezic de cineva pentru a flata pe cel cu care discut. M-a\u015f dezice de oricine, nu de teorii. Concertele brandenburgice. Clavecinul se aude ca un \u0163\u00e2n\u0163ar. Demonii lui Odobescu la Ateneu, Bu\u015fi cu trompeta lui.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D-na Aurelia D. ne-a dat din geant\u0103 ni\u015fte \u0163uic\u0103, am b\u0103ut-o l\u00e2ng\u0103 gardul bisericii. Tavi mi-a citit p\u00e2n\u0103 la trei diminea\u0163a \u00een bojdeuc\u0103 din jurnalul sc\u00e2rbei sale. Arhitectul de orgi, \u00eenainte de a cere doamnei D.\u00a0 \u201eOra 25\u201d de V. G., a rugat-o frumos s\u0103-i povesteasc\u0103 \u00een dou\u0103 cuvinte ce cuprinde, apoi nu a mai vrut-o, dar a certat-o c\u0103 cite\u015fte \u015fi se tulbur\u0103 cu astfel de lucruri. Pentru c\u0103 fumase \u00een fa\u0163a mamei sale, nu \u015fi a tat\u0103lui, i-a recomandat s\u0103 priveasc\u0103 cu ochii tat\u0103lui dumneaei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I-a\u015f m\u0103rturisi t\u0103cerii misticismul oamenilor, bucuria de a-i vedea, chiar m\u00e2nc\u00e2ndu-se. \u00cemi sting suflul cu mentalitatea zilei. Democra\u0163ire, jid\u0103nire, \u0163ig\u0103nire. Du\u015fmanii dulci \u00ee\u0163i vin cu dogme \u015fi te pun s\u0103 le respec\u0163i, s\u0103 le intri \u00een voie. Toate mamele din China, c\u0103s\u0103torite cu c\u00e2te un evreu. Rachiurile solda\u0163ilor \u015fi grada\u0163ilor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Franz Xaver Dressler, 72, improviza\u0163ie la org\u0103 pe o tem\u0103 dat\u0103 de public. Nansi cucerit\u0103 de gesturile statuii de argint viu a mo\u015fneagului risipit\u0103 prin ungherele orgii, prin \u00eencheieturile ei femeie\u015fti \u2013 mare crai. R\u0103mas pe podium, \u00eenal\u0163i imnuri, apoi cobori \u015fi iar \u00eenal\u0163i imnuri ce suie fumeg\u0103tor p\u00e2n\u0103 la locul unde odihnisei mai \u00eenainte. Dumnezeu nu este sus, nici jos, nici nic\u0103ieri, nici pretutindeni, nici apofatic, nici teandric, nici el.<\/div>\n
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Ca ieri \u00eenvie azi iubita<\/div>\n
iubitul poate e la oaste<\/div>\n
o zi spre el c\u0103l\u0103torit-a<\/div>\n
o zi \u00een pl\u00e2ns o s\u0103-l adaste<\/div>\n
\u015ei dac\u0103 nu \u00eenvie \u015fi el<\/div>\n
dintr-un morm\u00e2nt pe vreme rea<\/div>\n
\u00een zi mai de pe urm\u0103 \u015ftie-l<\/div>\n
c\u00e2nd o s\u0103 moar\u0103 iar\u0103\u015fi ea<\/div>\n
P\u0103m\u00e2nt de Margini ochii mari<\/div>\n
de-\u0163i sunt de unde s\u0103-i dezleg<\/div>\n
orbir\u0103m las\u0103-i pe t\u00e2lhari<\/div>\n
s\u0103 ia-ntunericul \u00eentreg<\/div>\n
Cu glas ce ast\u0103zi anatema-i<\/div>\n
\u015fi cu lumini de feti\u015fcan\u0103<\/div>\n
aleas\u0103 \u00eentre sfinte ce mai<\/div>\n
pluteai st\u0103p\u00e2nitoare-n gen\u0103<\/div>\n
Dar eu sunt un \u00een\u015fel\u0103tor<\/div>\n
plin de nisip \u015fi nici nisip<\/div>\n
nu spulber \u00eentru ajutor<\/div>\n
spre pl\u00e2nsul v\u0103lurit pe chip<\/div>\n
Iar ochii-n pl\u00e2ngerea de rai<\/div>\n
ascun\u015fi de-o bocitoare rar\u0103<\/div>\n
mai v\u0103d cum mi te d\u0103ruiai<\/div>\n
eu un p\u0103m\u00e2nt \u015fi tu o \u0163ar\u0103<\/div>\n
S\u0103-mi cad\u0103 ciuma \u00eenspumat\u0103<\/div>\n
din cerul d\u0103ltuit de lun\u0103<\/div>\n
pe cap \u015fi a c\u0103zut o zloat\u0103<\/div>\n
de st\u0103m acuma \u00eempreun\u0103<\/div>\n
Blestem pe cine nu blesteam\u0103<\/div>\n
\u015fi singur s\u0103 te blestemi las\u0103<\/div>\n
atunci mi s-ar topi cu vam\u0103<\/div>\n
a noastr\u0103 grabnic\u0103 mireas\u0103<\/div>\n
Cutremurat\u0103 Doamn\u0103 piere<\/div>\n
\u00een glasuri retezate iar<\/div>\n
de ale clopotului sfere<\/div>\n
cum vrea c\u0103l\u0103ul clopotar<\/div>\n
De mult nu mai avea nici bra\u0163e<\/div>\n
\u015fi nici pe tine l\u00e2ng\u0103 ele<\/div>\n
\u015fi nici pe cale s\u0103 te-nha\u0163e<\/div>\n
\u015fi s\u0103 te apere de rele<\/div>\n
Ar fi \u015fi-ai c\u00e2\u015ftiga pariul<\/div>\n
la moartea purpurii ar pl\u00e2nge<\/div>\n
pe fundul m\u0103rii tot pustiul<\/div>\n
umbrit de p\u00e2nzele de s\u00e2nge<\/div>\n
Ai pierde m-ai ruga s\u0103-ng\u00e2n<\/div>\n
c\u00e2ntecul purpurii ce scald\u0103<\/div>\n
\u00een plaiul nordic \u015fi b\u0103tr\u00e2n<\/div>\n
vaci sfinte pe o vatr\u0103 cald\u0103<\/div>\n
Iubirii tale tain\u0103 d\u0103ruit<\/div>\n
dar \u015fi asurzitor preaprost<\/div>\n
de la apus la r\u0103s\u0103rit<\/div>\n
semn r\u0103u lu\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 la rost<\/div>\n
Sub manta fluturat\u0103-n clime<\/div>\n
str\u0103vechi \u015fi mai pe-un bidiviu<\/div>\n
visam printre cantemirime<\/div>\n
la soarele cel cenu\u015fiu<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 1971\/2012<\/div>\n
TURLE\u00a0 LUNGI<\/strong><\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Intrare prea liber\u0103 \u00een cultur\u0103. Prieteneii tineri, c\u00e2nd trec pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 casele lor, s\u0103 \u015ftiu, acesta se \u00eendeletnice\u015fte cu un lucru, acesta cu altul. Dumneata, ce faci? Croitorul s\u0103 nu fac\u0103 treaba cismarului. Sunt lucruri pozitive destule. Fi\u0163i case locuibile (numai eu, nu \u015fi ceilal\u0163i, risipit, poate). Privirile filosofului erau plecate, la plecare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cent\u00e2rzierea \u00een rom\u00e2nesc, gre\u015feal\u0103, trebuie s\u0103 ne anex\u0103m alte culturi, pentru a ne \u00eentoarce la a noastr\u0103. E bine s\u0103 faci pasiuni, pentru P\u00e2rvan, chiar pentru Gib, dar \u00een orele principale? La v\u00e2rsta dumitale, eu pornisem pe o cale mai \u00eengust\u0103. Filosofia nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 toat\u0103 nimic, atunci am ales istoria filosofiei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sud zburat de v\u00e2nt, M\u0103n\u0103stirea V\u0103c\u0103re\u015fti pe colin\u0103. \u00cen dou\u0103-trei ore, aveam s\u0103 fiu, pe jos, la Sf\u00e2nta Vineri. Senza\u0163ia abatorului, bufetul Livada, \u00een duhoare, o m\u0103cel\u0103rie, traversat D\u00e2mbovi\u0163a, Bucura Dumbrav\u0103, turle lungi. 37 de lei o damigean\u0103 de 20 kg. Transform\u0103m orice ceasornic demodat \u00eentr-unul modern extraplat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Herescu N\u0103sturel. Olteni. Vulturi. Teatrul evreiesc. Olteni. M-am r\u0103t\u0103cit. Ce fericire. M\u0103 reg\u0103sesc dup\u0103 turlele lungi. Ame\u0163eal\u0103. Irealitate. Cerul. Nicu Gane. Olteni? Cine \u015ftie? Spitalul Caritas. Irealitate. Cerul. Andrei S\u0103hleanu. Primeaz\u0103 creatorul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sunte\u0163i prea lucizi. V\u0103 trebuie luciditate mic\u0103. Romantismul culturii. G\u00e2ndul asupra zilei trecute. Cine mai are M? \u015ei a murit la 47 de ani. Tipul Soljeni\u0163\u00e2n nu prea prinde. Dou\u0103 turle ro\u015fii de s\u00e2nge pe Eminescu, sub ro\u0163i ale stelelor de dinainte de a fi existat cerul, turla total\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ne toarn\u0103 lapte \u00een creier, de trei, de doi, zero-zer, radio-rad, Arad. Ce fel de rom\u00e2neasc\u0103 vorbe\u015fte l\u0103ptarul din Arad? Vorbe\u015fte ca mine. \u015ei ce zice? S\u0103 fii lini\u015ftit cu treaba aceea. Nu ui\u0163i parola, nici eu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ne-a orbit lumina furat\u0103. Fuge g\u00e2ndul fugii g\u00e2ndurilor. Opreasc\u0103-se pasul p\u0103rin\u0163ilor spre mine c\u00e2nd nu eram. Din somnul celor dint\u00e2i netrezindu-m\u0103. Tun\u0103 \u015fi copiii. Un c\u0103lug\u0103r, nu vre\u0163i p\u00e2inea asta, nu, nu v\u0103 trebuie, nu. Furtuna se \u00eenstr\u0103mo\u015fe\u015fte peste tot ce nu se n\u0103scuse.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ascult\u0103 rug\u0103ciunea mea <\/em>din p\u0103m\u00e2nt \u015fi din cer. Moartea ta e via\u0163a mea, fere\u015fte-m\u0103 dinaintea \u00eentunericului ce te acoper\u0103. De te-ai ar\u0103ta o clip\u0103, a\u015f pieri f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 fi fost, ci arat\u0103-te, s\u0103 fii numai tu, cel dintru \u00eenceput, cu furtun\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 furtun\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ce mare \u0163i-a fost fericirea de a nu avea (cunoscut sau necunoscut) un str\u0103mo\u015f. M\u0103 rog pentru fericirea ta. Dar cum s\u0103 nu te fi privit \u015fi tu \u00een fa\u0163a apei b\u0103ute apoi, \u015fi cine s\u0103 fi fost a\u015fa de ascuns \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 nu-\u0163i dea via\u0163\u0103?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Fericirea \u0163i se spulber\u0103, \u00ee\u0163i r\u0103m\u00e2ne via\u0163a. M\u0103 rog \u0163ie pentru via\u0163a ta. C\u00e2nd s-o fi stins un fulger \u00een plaiul menit \u0163ie din eternitate, un des\u0103 \u015fi \u00eenviezi, s\u0103 \u015fi mori pentru mine. Iar pentru c\u0103 eu nu sunt un alt popor (mi-o spune \u015fi r\u00e2ul acesta ce curge \u00een sine), \u015fi nici tu n-ai fost un alt popor, \u00ee\u0163i stau \u00een genunchi ating\u00e2ndu-te cu fruntea. Vremea trecut\u0103 e a ta. Vremea ajuns\u0103 e \u015fi a ta. Vremea ce nu e va fi \u015fi a mea. Ia-m\u0103 \u00een vremuri.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Originile se mi\u015fc\u0103.<\/em> Le mi\u015fc\u0103 prietenii. Le mi\u015fc\u0103 du\u015fmanii. Se mi\u015fc\u0103 \u015fi ele, astfel \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 sub acela\u015fi cer. C\u00e2nd vine furtuna ochii o fulger\u0103 \u015fi apoi se apleac\u0103 \u00een p\u0103m\u00e2nt.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Furtuna se stinge \u015fi o noapte cald\u0103 ce \u00eembl\u00e2nze\u015fte haite se aprinde. Totul e viu. Totul e mort. A mai trecut veacul. Alt\u0103 noapte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Munteverde.<\/em> Nu, n-aveam s\u0103 \u00eennebunesc. Doar zille sunt grele, nu \u015fi nevestele noastre, nu \u015fi nop\u0163ile \u00eemb\u0103iate \u00een treziri de singur\u0103tate. De-aia am plecat iar mai devreme, s\u0103-mi mai r\u0103storn capul \u0163intind \u00een inimile turlelor cu ochii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 scurg pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 pacea de igrasie a zidurilor, a\u015f sta s\u0103 pice, dac\u0103 s-ar face r\u0103zboi, ca ieri c\u0103r\u0103mizile balconului dumnealor. Norocul nostru cu armata. M-am \u00eempiedicat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 dezmeticesc. Privesc orb b\u0103tr\u00e2na poruncindu-mi.\u0162ine-m\u0103 mai b\u0103rb\u0103te\u015fte… e\u015fti \u00een floarea v\u00e2rstei … ia-mi pachetul… cu grij\u0103, e ceva fragil… sunt ou\u0103 proaspete… mi le-a dat directorul, l-am convins, i-am vorbit frumos, chiar dac\u0103 limba rom\u00e2n\u0103 este str\u0103in\u0103 pentru mine… sunt profesoar\u0103 de limbi str\u0103ine… o vorbesc bine?… singur\u0103, v\u0103duv\u0103, so\u0163ul meu a fost medic farmacist, a murit \u00een accident de avion… scriitorii sunt b\u0103rba\u0163i ultrafini… v\u0103d c\u0103 e\u015fti cult… c\u00e2nd e \u00eentuneric v\u0103d mai bine, uite u\u015fa aceea… am cataract\u0103 dubl\u0103, a\u015f putea s\u0103-mi reg\u0103sesc vederile dac\u0103 a\u015f tr\u0103i numai \u00een vitamine… Mi-am preparat ieri coaja de portocal\u0103 cu zah\u0103r. Nu \u015fti\u0163i? coaja de portocal\u0103 are mai multe vitamine dec\u00e2t \u00eens\u0103\u015fi portocala… S\u0103-mi recomande medicii? M\u0103 bazez pe intui\u0163ie. Dac\u0103 sunt alsacian\u0103, \u00eemi pot permite s\u0103 fiu mai original\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D\u0103deau n\u0103val\u0103 puhoaie \u00eenmiresmate \u00een saloane, risipindu-se printre mobilele de stejar \u00eenforit. Via\u0163a re\u00eenvia. Doamna Ratlow d\u0103dea semne de nelini\u015fte cereasc\u0103, \u00eentre so\u0163ul eroic \u015fi fratele sc\u0103p\u0103tat. Straturi de praf risipit \u00een de\u015ferturi, vechi c\u00e2npii scufundate acum \u00een azurul oazelor, zambilele roze urciorul golit \u015fi tu dintre roze nerostogolit.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bate un v\u00e2nt de alchimie, e\u015fti c\u0103lcat \u00een boturi de arme invizibile. G\u00e2nde\u015fte-te liber la cei ce-\u015fi v\u0103d de treab\u0103, fii g\u00e2nditor al g\u00e2ndurilor altora \u015fi f\u0103-i s\u0103 fie \u015fi ei ai g\u00e2ndurilor tale. Iubindu-i, \u0163ii ridici \u00eempotriv\u0103, ur\u00e2ndu-i \u015fi spun\u00e2ndu-le nimicuri, \u0163i-i c\u00e2\u015ftigi.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu presimt o alt\u0103 via\u0163\u0103, trecerea \u00een sunete lungi, precum acum 27 de ani, \u00een ziua asta. Un soare, ni\u015fte prieteni \u015fi cunoscu\u0163i. Ar duce cu el \u00een temni\u0163\u0103 cerurile \u015fi \u00een cer temni\u0163ele. \u00ce\u015fi reparase umbrela neagr\u0103 cu m\u00e2ner de bambus autohton. Misticismul patriei. Na\u0163ionalitatea \u00een art\u0103. N-am fost l\u0103sa\u0163i s\u0103-l iubim (pe Gofa?). Iubirea dumneavoastr\u0103 a fost furat\u0103. Trebuie luptat cu transilv\u0103nismul (trilingv?)<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Poetul T. G. cump\u0103r\u0103 c\u0103r\u0163i de poezie retro. Chelaru a scris sonete, m\u0103 intereseaz\u0103. Umbl\u0103 numai cu fete tinere \u2013 am intrat \u00een anul mor\u0163ii. Teoria artritei, capul s\u0103u consum\u0103 tot s\u00e2ngele, \u00eei e \u00een pericol un picior. Purtat de c\u00e2ntecul privighetorii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Un jaf metafizic.<\/em> A ac\u0163ionat asupra unei metafizici. Au jefuit, au jefuit, dar cum de ne p\u0103gubir\u0103 pe noi? N-au jefuit, a\u015fadar, pentru noi? Pentru ei, cum? Doar ei nu iubesc. <\/em>Sau iubesc \u00een ascuns (\u015fi numai altceva?) Ideea iubirii \u00een idei de iubire.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Avem s\u0103 ne iubim patria, chiar dac\u0103 ea ar uita s\u0103 ne iubeasc\u0103 \u015fi ne-ar sc\u0103pa mormintele din m\u00e2n\u0103. (Res Traiani Imperatori at Danubium Gestae:) Arogantiam Getarum regis Decebali qui Domitianum Augustum…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mai mult mort dec\u00e2t viu. Mai mult fals dec\u00e2t mort. Mai mult nimic dec\u00e2t fals. Mai aiurit dec\u00e2t nimic. \u015ei a\u015fa ajunser\u0103m pe soare. Obosi\u0163i \u015fi cu c\u0103r\u0163ile jucate. Plopii tremur\u0103 s\u0103 le creasc\u0103 frunze. Te s\u0103rut, Nansi.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Prin limpezimea bazinelor plutesc trupuri str\u0103vezii de sfin\u0163i \u2013 p\u0103m\u00e2nt, insule meteorice ale v\u0103zduhului \u2013 taina zilei ce nu mai trece, pentru c\u0103 nu a venit dar lumineaz\u0103 \u2013 de s-ar alege ruga \u2013 m\u0103 rog \u00eengerului merg\u0103tor \u00een spiral\u0103 s\u0103 adoarm\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ne cuprind vechi umbre de dincolo de aceast\u0103 via\u0163\u0103. S\u0103-l fi c\u0103utat mult \u015fi bine printre turle. Abia ar fi plecat cu un soare mai \u00eenainte, unde e umbra tablei de pe at\u00e2tea cupole. De dou\u0103 ori mai numeroase la Sf\u00e2ntul Spiridon dec\u00e2t la cepele dezr\u0103d\u0103cinate din cer de pe biserica ruseasc\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei el nici nu le-a \u00een\u0103l\u0163at pe toate. \u015ei dac\u0103 a \u00een\u0103l\u0163at, de cinci sute de ani \u00eencoace, noroc s\u0103-l g\u0103sesc pe vreunul de 50-60 de ani, \u00eemi va povesti, cu p\u0103rere de r\u0103u, c\u0103 nici nu l-a v\u0103zut m\u0103car la fa\u0163\u0103 pe acela, mare Domn, de-a iscat \u00een minte toate turlele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te ui\u0163i o dat\u0103 la ele. Te ui\u0163i \u015fi m\u00e2ine. \u00cen amurg \u015fi acum. Urci \u00eenz\u0103ri alerg\u0103toare. P\u0103trunzi sub lumina Pantocratorului \u015fi urci cu sufletul din\u0103untru. Urci \u015fi deodat\u0103 nu mai cobori. \u015ei e bine. \u00cel po\u0163i c\u0103uta pe acel ce abia \u015fi-a ispr\u0103vit treaba.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu s-a dep\u0103rtat \u00een jos, nici \u00een sus. \u00cel caut\u0103 pe cel din al c\u0103rui creier au \u0163\u00e2\u015fnit cupole. Nu l-a v\u0103zut la fa\u0163\u0103. Dar el \u0163i-a v\u0103zut cupolele? Dac\u0103 nu e mort. Parc\u0103 eu de c\u00e2nd te caut, s\u0103-\u0163i prind me\u015fte\u015fugul? Iar domnia ta \u00eemi la\u015fi vorb\u0103 \u00een scrisuri.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Astfel, \u00een timp ce clopotele b\u0103teau, de ar fi avut g\u00e2nduri, \u015fi bangurile lor s-ar fi socotit cum s\u0103 coboare pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt. Oricum, eu, ascult\u00e2ndu-l, nu m\u0103 mai sim\u0163eam urc\u00e2nd. De-a\u015f fi avut eu soarta aceea s\u0103 fiu \u00eengropat \u00eentre cupole \u015fi s\u0103 mai r\u0103m\u00e2ie o lopat\u0103 de turle \u015fi s\u0103 mi se toarne peste \u0163east\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A mai trecut un indiction. Ah, diva Filma, fata c\u0103rturar\u0103, ideea g\u00e2ndit\u0103, platfus cu miopie. Se bate cu pumnii \u00een piept \u015fi geme ca o p\u00e2ngare. Ad\u00e2ncuri amestecate, porunci nedeslu\u015fite. V\u00e2ntul m\u0103 spulber\u0103 prea jos pentru a fi \u00een auzul lui Dumnezeu. Te aduc martor\u0103. Tu creezi perdele unica.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cu M.M. Presa e dens\u0103 \u00een solicit\u0103ri. S\u0103 termin\u0103m cu toat\u0103… M.B. scrie u\u015for. Nu se pricepe el la asta… A\u015f vrea s\u0103-l v\u0103d \u00een presa str\u0103in\u0103. Noroc c\u0103 se traduc.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cu E.B. Ce-i pas\u0103 d-lui A… Covoare, fotolii… E\u015fti bun. De cine e tabloul acela…? \u015ei acela? Ce-i pas\u0103? Cafelele unde sunt? Cine sunt aceia care intr\u0103? Cine e acela rotund la fa\u0163\u0103 \u015fi cu costum negru? A fost mai \u00eenainte. Vermut… Nu vermut? Pepsi-cola? Flori. S\u0103 fi adus \u015fi noi flori, era altceva. Dar nu mai am timp. M\u0103 a\u015fteapt\u0103 cinematografia… Ce treab\u0103 au mini\u015ftrii dec\u00e2t s\u0103 ne a\u015ftepte pe noi? Fratele meu, Dan Botta…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cu C. N. Eu nu cer nimic. De treizeci de ani nu conferen\u0163iasem. Nemul\u0163umire, atunci intram \u00een trans\u0103, acum nu. A spus ceea ce preg\u0103tise, at\u00e2t. \u015ei ce rost are, altfel, o conferin\u0163\u0103? Dezam\u0103git de publicul bucure\u015ftean. Sup\u0103rat pu\u0163in pe tineri, \u00eei credea mai interesa\u0163i de un astfel de caz, Va alege provincia. Acolo crede c\u0103 va g\u0103si un mai mare interes. Tinerii Bucure\u015fti-ului sunt foarte hippiza\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Onicescu \u015fi Mihoc, primul ca un frumos resort globular de senin\u0103tate, al doilea de statur\u0103 pu\u0163in gaullist\u0103, purtau o lini\u015fte triumfal\u0103, deasupra matematicii. Nici viciile b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u0163ii. \u0102i laud pentru c\u0103 nu-i cunosc? M-am bucurat de a nu m\u0103 cunoa\u015fte nici ei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 La pia\u0163\u0103, \u015fi f\u0103r\u0103 bani. Canarului \u00eei r\u00e2d penele. Anima\u0163ia scheletului. Trandafirul \u015fi garoafa se distrug prin miresme. Nansi tr\u0103ie\u015fte \u00een locul am\u00e2ndorura. Cu luna, peste frunzi\u015furi, se n\u0103ruie mintea mea de pe urm\u0103. Boxer c\u0103zut pentru prima oar\u0103, dar ce ur\u0103\u015fte D\u00e2nsa cel mai mult, coridele \u015fi mai ales pe coridalei. Am citit, gata s\u0103-l cunosc personal pe Leonardo da Vinci.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cum intona el adeziunea la revolu\u0163ie. Din ce \u00een ce eram mai mul\u0163i ai revolu\u0163iei, \u015fi revolu\u0163ia m\u0103car de ar fi fost una de ap\u0103rare. Nava Turtucaia se tot plimba printre densitatea apei – mai mare dec\u00e2t a aerului -, a aerului mai mare dec\u00e2t a sufletului.<\/div>\n
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SALOANELE DOAMNEI RATLOW<\/strong><\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Lui Marian Popa<\/em><\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Totul e azi \u00een ordine. Domnul Albanescu vine \u015fi-mi zice, \u0163i-aduci aminte, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, ce m-am pilit de ziua Hanei? Bun\u0103 fat\u0103 \u015fi Hana. Tare iute a mai sosit \u015fi ziua asta. Of, Doamne.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te g\u00e2nde\u015fti s\u0103 nu mai dai \u00eenapoi niciun pas. Nu e r\u0103u. Probabil, domnul Albanescu \u0163i-a strecurat \u00een minte o iluzie fermecat\u0103. Ai ajuns la culmea… mi-e greu s\u0103 m\u0103 exprim… la culmea a ceea ce se cheam\u0103… vai, a\u015f fi putut ajunge \u015fi eu un savant, d\u0103-mi voie s\u0103 deschid o trist\u0103 parantez\u0103, o s\u0103 te rog s\u0103 brodezi ori, dac\u0103 nu, s\u0103 comanzi la tipar o carte de vizit\u0103 cu numele meu, o s\u0103-\u0163i atrag aten\u0163ia cum m\u0103 cheam\u0103 \u015fi sub acest nume s\u0103 apar\u0103, dac\u0103 acordul domniei tale exist\u0103, ceva \u00een genul savantului, da, uite c\u0103 da, ai ajuns la culmea mea, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Numai c\u0103 domnului Ratlow nu i-ar conveni nici at\u00e2t povestea domnului Albanescu \u00eenflorit\u0103 de visurile matale.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, nu clipi o clip\u0103, mi-a amor\u0163it groaznic piciorul drept, o mi\u015fcare a mea sau a domniei tale \u00eemi poate fi fatal\u0103, mul\u0163umesc, sunt ca \u00eenainte, prime\u015fte omagiile mele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Chiar \u0163i-a trecut, drag\u0103 prietene? Ce fericire s\u0103 nu \u0163i se fi \u00eent\u00e2mplat vreun necaz sub ochii mei. Toate cuno\u015ftin\u0163ele mele caut\u0103 cu lum\u00e2narea ocaziile s\u0103-\u015fi \u00eentind\u0103 m\u00e2na de ajutor. Eu sunt altfel.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iar eu a\u015f suferi c\u00e2nd mi-ai \u00eentinde m\u00e2na domniei tale de ajutor, pentru c\u0103 m-a\u015f afla \u00een imposibilitatea de a o s\u0103ruta, nu? Dar, ce mai \u00eencolo \u015fi \u00eencoace, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, o adev\u0103rat\u0103 speran\u0163\u0103 nemaifiind de mine, iat\u0103 ce m-a m\u00e2nat spre apartamentul domniei tale.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu g\u0103se\u015fti c\u0103 l-ar interesa \u00eenc\u0103 mai mult pe domnul Ratlow? F\u0103r\u0103 \u00eengrijorare, domnule, eu mi-am pierdut asear\u0103 obiceiul de-a fi cutioas\u0103, nu c\u0103 m\u0103 laud, nici nu b\u0103nuiesc ce te-a m\u00e2nat spre noi, a\u015f fi bucuroas\u0103, asta e, s\u0103-l a\u015ftept\u0103m mai \u00eent\u00e2i pe domnul Ratlow. S-a \u00eembr\u0103cat nepotrivit, e drept, plec\u00e2nd s\u0103-\u015fi cumpere \u0163ig\u0103ri, parc\u0103 se golise de orice g\u00e2nd. O fi \u00eent\u00e2rziind prin Ci\u015fmigiu, ascuns \u00een cea\u0163a bl\u00e2nd\u0103 ce ne-a cuprins pe to\u0163i. Acolo se discut\u0103 doar totul. C\u00e2nd s-ar pune \u00een v\u00e2nzare \u0163ig\u0103ri vii, s-ar cunoa\u015fte la timp tertipurile gestionarilor, te-ai informa \u00een lege, ai fi \u00een stare s\u0103 c\u00e2\u015ftigi o visat\u0103 dexteritate \u015fi n-ai cump\u0103ra o \u0163igar\u0103 predispus\u0103 la o moarte prematur\u0103. O, domnule, domnule, s\u0103-l a\u015ftept\u0103m pe domnul Ratlow, poate \u00eent\u00e2rzie prin Ci\u015fmigiu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Epidemiile, prea bun\u0103 doamn\u0103, nici ele nu m-ar fi m\u00e2nat \u00eenspre apartamentul domniei tale. Domnul Ratlow m-a onorat ferindu-m\u0103 c\u00e2ndva de o mare primejdie. Fi\u0163i lini\u015ftit\u0103, nu v\u0103 dezv\u0103lui nimic din ceea ce m-a m\u00e2nat. Spun numai \u00eentr-o doar\u0103 c\u00e2t este de frumoas\u0103 fapta trecut\u0103 a domnului Ratlow pe c\u00e2nd eram tineri \u00eentre tineri \u015fi nu ne durea capul niciodat\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 E mai bine a\u015fa, adic\u0103 at\u00e2t, c\u00e2t \u00een\u0163eleg bine.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mul\u0163i escroci m-au num\u0103rat \u00een mai multe locuri \u015fi, fi\u0163i atent\u0103 un pic, \u00eemi tremur\u0103 mie glasul tr\u0103d\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 \u00een vreun fel?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici nu sunt pornit\u0103 azi s\u0103 \u00eempart oamenii, oricare ar fi ei. Cinstitul domn Ratlow \u00eemi st\u0103p\u00e2ne\u015fte inima, \u015fi nu mint, cu u\u015furin\u0163\u0103, \u015fi \u00een mizerie \u015fi \u00een str\u0103lucire.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Fi\u0163i sigur\u0103, la r\u00e2ndu-mi, ocolesc ve\u015ftile \u015fi \u00een niciun caz nu m-a\u015f \u00eenvrednici s\u0103 le aduc. Chiar sun uneori la u\u015fi special pentru a nu mai veni ve\u015ftile.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Trebuie atunci s\u0103 te cutreiere \u00eensp\u0103im\u00e2ntate cutremurele valurilor de la l\u0103satul serii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mul\u0163umesc \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. C\u00e2t de frumos \u00eel a\u015ftept\u0103m pe domnul Ratlow. \u015ei, dac\u0103 m\u0103 concentrez, \u00eemi \u00eenchipuisem toate acestea. M-am mirat la \u00eenceput de curajul meu s\u0103 te \u0163in de la treburi. Ora pr\u00e2nzului a trecut \u015fi poate n-ai m\u00e2ncat…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mata ai m\u00e2ncat?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vede\u0163i, sunt de pu\u0163in\u0103 vreme abia un martor al civiliza\u0163iei, \u00een timp ce domnul Ratlow \u00eei este un erou. M\u0103 \u00eentrebar\u0103\u0163i dac\u0103 am m\u00e2ncat? Ei bine, c\u00e2nd te ascultam, mi-au venit \u00een minte medicamentele. Un parastas la care s\u0103 se consume medicamente, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Pentru mine sunt clare urmele gre\u015felilor noastre \u015fi domnul Ratlow, poate ve\u0163i avea prilejul s\u0103 observa\u0163i, \u00eemi d\u0103 dreptate, evoc\u00e2nd somptuos, cum \u00eei este obiceiul, de parc\u0103 ierburile \u00ee\u015fi datoreaz\u0103 cre\u015fterea glasului s\u0103u, vezi dmnia ta, fie precum cu pove\u015ftile ciupercilor de brad.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Parc\u0103 \u00eel aud, domnule, vorba domnului Albanescu. Prive\u015fte mata frumosul tablou ce-l \u00eenf\u0103\u0163i\u015feaz\u0103 pe domnul Ratlow. Str\u0103vezi cumva dedesubtul culorilor procurate special de pictorul lucr\u0103tor un 20? Ca un timbru nepre\u0163uit, a\u015fa l-a\u015f recomanda, \u00een\u0163elegi cui, mai degrab\u0103 femeilor, acelora care-\u0163i \u00eemp\u0103rt\u0103\u015fesc iubirea f\u0103r\u0103 g\u00e2nduri ascunse, fiecare av\u00e2ndu-\u015fi-o pe-a ei cum nu e alta, ca \u015fi cum ar fi aceea\u015fi.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ce spui domnia ta? \u00cendrept\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 \u00eenspre apartament, eu am f\u0103cut totul pentru a-l auzi verde, poate din teama cov\u00e2r\u015fitoare, \u015ftii, \u015fi p\u0103rin\u0163ii, \u015fi ai domniei tale, ne-au d\u0103ruit-o sub chipul s\u00e2ngelui. \u00cen\u0163elege\u0163i dar c\u00e2t de r\u0103u ne-ar pica o nevinovat\u0103 amnezie. S\u0103 nu mai \u0163ii minte la c\u00e2te sta\u0163ii de tramvai de aici, c\u00e2nd mergi spre Ci\u015fmigiu, e cimitirul Bellu, \u015fi la c\u00e2te sta\u0163ii, \u00een partea cealalt\u0103, e cimitirul evreiesc. Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, am m\u00e2ncat, memoria nu m\u0103 \u00een\u015feal\u0103. Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, domnul Ratlow s-ar putea s\u0103 fl\u0103m\u00e2nzeasc\u0103 \u00een timp ce noi \u00eel a\u015ftept\u0103m. \u015ei asta \u0163in minte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mata crezi c\u0103 n-o s\u0103 se supere dac\u0103 vom merge \u00eempreun\u0103, eu, \u00eencercata doamn\u0103 Ratlow, \u015fi mata, domnule, s\u0103-l \u00eent\u00e2mpin\u0103m? \u0162i-aduci aminte \u015fi aceasta?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu domnul Ratlow este cel r\u0103u. Poate nici r\u0103uvoitorii nu-s cei r\u0103i. A\u015fa cum domnia ta m\u0103 \u00eentreba\u015fi dac\u0103 am m\u00e2ncat, o s\u0103 vrea unul s\u0103 afle c\u00e2te cartu\u015fe plecar\u0103 din armele ce mi-au trecut prin m\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi mai ales \u00eencotro, c\u0103 a\u015fa sunt oamenii, chiar c\u00e2nd ocolim \u015fi d\u0103m \u00een Schitul M\u0103guranu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Numai de deznod\u0103m\u00e2nt s\u0103 nu te temi mata. M\u0103 \u015ftiu destui cucernic\u0103 \u015fi \u00een putere. Domnul Ratlow n-o s\u0103 se supere c\u0103 \u00eel \u00eent\u00e2mpin\u0103m \u00eempreun\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 s\u0103 fie jos, pe la biserica de deasupra Ci\u015fmigiului. Cer\u015fetori, domni \u015fi doamne, opri\u0163i \u00een loc. M\u0103 tem s\u0103 nu mai fi fost cineva, cineva umbl\u00e2nd, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ei, \u015fi mata, ai venit intimidat dinainte, se vede. Ridic\u0103 perdeaua, col\u0163ul din dreapta jos al perdelei, \u015fi uit\u0103-te peste linia de tramvai, c\u0103ci, imediat ce vom cobor\u00ee, vom traversa, vezi ce se cheam\u0103 c\u0103 avem cale liber\u0103? Eu tot aveam de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 ies, c\u00e2nd ai intrat mata. Un pic mai \u00eenainte, cu g\u00e2ndurile cople\u015fite de imaginea domnului Ratlow, am ridicat \u015fi eu col\u0163ul perdelei \u015fi te-oi fi z\u0103rit pe mata f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 te recunosc. Atunci c\u00e2nd ai sunat, m\u0103 mir c\u0103 nu intr\u0103 pe u\u015f\u0103 domnul Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, v\u0103d c\u0103 avem cale liber\u0103, dar, \u00ee\u0163i repet, se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 s\u0103 fie jos, cam de pe la biseric\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Hm, se cheam\u0103 c\u0103 ai venit \u00eentr-o vizit\u0103 de a\u015fteptare, domnule, prea ezi\u0163i s\u0103 mergi s\u0103-l \u00eent\u00e2mpin\u0103m \u00eempreun\u0103, cum am spus, eu, \u00eentristata doamn\u0103 Ratlow, \u015fi mata, pe domnul Ratlow. Se f\u0103cuse timpul s\u0103 se arate. Nu se mai g\u0103sesc \u0163ig\u0103ri, \u00een\u0163eleg, dar domnul Ratlow trebuie s\u0103 se g\u0103seasc\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00censeamn\u0103 s\u0103-l c\u0103ut\u0103m p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103 \u015fi \u00een saloanele domniei tale, oric\u00e2t lumea vorbe\u015fte c\u0103 apartamentul acesta este ultima dintre vestitele \u00eenc\u0103peri pe unde au r\u0103sunat pa\u015fii \u2013 recunoa\u015fte, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, c\u0103 nu numai pa\u015fii \u2013 at\u00e2tora. A\u015f fi avut c\u00e2ndva motive s\u0103 \u00eencerc gesturi disperate, prin ele s\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i amintesc o anumit\u0103 \u00eentrevedere, bl\u00e2nd\u0103, aproape erotic\u0103, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, tocmai sosisem dintr-un sat de pe malul Oltului.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A, mata e\u015fti convins c\u0103 eu nu-mi aduc aminte de…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vai, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, dar eu nu \u0163i-am amintit, eu am a\u015fteptat ani de zile, domnia ta spuneai adineauri c\u0103 totul e \u00een ordine \u015fi o s\u0103 mai a\u015ftept \u015fi de acum \u00eencolo.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnul Ratlow are vreun amestec?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnia ta.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mata?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici eu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sigur, se \u015ftie , doamna Ratlow n-are niciun amestec. Ar fi bine pur \u015fi simplu, de aceea, s\u0103 m\u0103 conduci la domnul Ratlow. Domnul Albanescu ar face-o, s\u0103 te vedem \u015fi pe mata.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Uite ce e, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, am reu\u015fit s\u0103 scap de toate. Nu chiar de toate, dac\u0103 chibzuiesc. M-ar interesa s\u0103 aflu cum ai proceda domnia ta.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 F\u0103r\u0103 domnul Ratlow \u00eemi vine greu s\u0103-mi urmez \u015firul \u00eenchipuirilor, al \u00eenchipuirilor pentru c\u0103, las\u0103-m\u0103 s\u0103 cred, nu suntem deloc \u00eentr-o situa\u0163ie asem\u0103n\u0103toare. De-\u0163i trebuie\u015fte un salon de-al meu, \u00eel ai dragul meu prieten, \u00een condi\u0163iile ce \u0163i le va \u00eenf\u0103\u0163i\u015fa elocvent domnul Ratlow, deci \u015fi dumneata, dac\u0103 nu cumva singur dumneata, ai nevoie s\u0103-l afli pe acest domn, nu uita, domnul Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tocmai \u00eencepusem s\u0103 re\u00eenviu un trecut fericit pentru mine, plin de str\u0103lucire pentru domnia ta. \u00cemi pare cum c\u0103 oarecine a r\u0103pit salonul de pe vremuri, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mi l-am r\u0103pit de una singur\u0103, domnule…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A\u015fa, ce e cu domnul Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Poate nu l-ai mai recunoa\u015fte, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, numai \u00een saloanele domniei tale \u0163i-ai rec\u0103p\u0103ta splendoarea \u00een\u0103l\u0163imilor de unde \u00ee\u0163i \u00eeng\u0103dui s\u0103-\u0163i arunci ochii. Domnul Albanescu mi-a povestit o scen\u0103 mai veche dec\u00e2t \u00eent\u00e2lnirea mea nesperat\u0103 \u00eentr-unul din saloanele…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vorbe\u015fti de saloanele doamnei Ratlow, \u015ftii c\u0103 nu erau deschise numai \u00een Bucure\u015fti? Nu… \u00cen Bucure\u015fti aproape c\u0103 nici nu existau saloanele doamnei Ratlow. Dac\u0103 n-ar fi apartamentul acesta, cred c\u0103 ast\u0103zi nici n-ai fi vizitat-o. Vei \u015fti \u00eentr-un t\u00e2rziu \u015fi rostul vizitei de-acum. Numai s\u0103 d\u0103m de domnul Ratlow \u015fi asta f\u0103r\u0103 a ne \u00eentoarce \u00eentr-una \u00een trecut.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Port cu mine, la loc sigur, o fotografie, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei mata… C\u00e2t s\u0103 fi trecut de c\u00e2nd, deschiz\u00e2nd fereastra cu o m\u00e2n\u0103, \u00een cealalt\u0103 \u0163ineam \u015fi eu o fotografie, poate tocmai aceea ce o por\u0163i \u00een p\u0103strare? Mi-a c\u0103zut \u00een strad\u0103, de parc\u0103 voia s\u0103 se aplece. Tot domnul Ratlow ar avea ochi \u015fi pentru fotografia aceea. Parc\u0103 a dorit s\u0103 se aplece, \u015fi tramvaiele goneau, la \u00eenceput pe dedesubt… Mata, de acum \u00eenainte, o s\u0103 tot vii pe aici, ca singurul, vorbesc de fotografie, singurul str\u0103in dorit de domnul Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei de toat\u0103 lumea, prin gra\u0163ia spuselor domniei tale.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cencet, \u00eencet, ai s\u0103 negi, presimt, c\u0103 ai purtat-o la dumneata, ca \u015fi cum fotografia aceea te pa\u015fte, re\u0163ii mata expresia?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O reg\u0103sesc \u00een tentativele mele savante, c\u00e2t despre fotografie, o s\u0103 cer domnului Ratlow libertatea de a \u00eenzestra cu ea pe oarecine.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Oricine ar trebui s\u0103 tresalte la o asemenea zestre.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnul Ratlow, nu \u015fti\u0163i, se g\u00e2nde\u015fte la o persoan\u0103 cu o identitate foarte precis\u0103?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu-l vei \u00eenzestra pe domnul Ratlow cu fotografia, ca domnia sa, la r\u00e2ndu-i, s\u0103 \u00eenzestreze pe altcineva. Socotesc s\u0103 fi \u00eemplinit totul cum vei fi g\u0103sind de cuviin\u0163\u0103, vezi \u015fi mata ce suflete izbitoare sufer\u0103 din te miri ce.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mai e un lucru, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Domnia ta vei avea t\u0103rie spornic\u0103, a\u015fa spuneau saloanele. Tem\u00e2ndu-te de via\u0163\u0103 pentru c\u0103 era frumoas\u0103, elegan\u0163a g\u00e2nditoare, \u00ee\u0163i aduci aminte, croise p\u00e2n\u0103 la periferii un drum de tr\u0103suri ce s\u0103 fie, \u00een eternitate, reprodus fotografic din avioane, st\u0103t\u0103toare pe cocoa\u015fele machetelor-cosmoc\u0103mile.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te mai ui\u0163i mata dac\u0103 avem ceea ce se cheam\u0103 cale liber\u0103?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu \u015ftiu ce s\u0103 zic, numai domnia ta s\u0103 vrei ai putea spune cum e. De-ar fi \u015fi alt\u0103 ie\u015fire n-ar strica \u015fi, pe urm\u0103, dumnezeu cu noi, \u00eencotro am nimeri. Biserica este \u00eenc\u0103 deschis\u0103 \u015fi nu vremuie\u015fte ca atunci c\u00e2nd casele zac goale \u015fi ora\u015ful plin.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2te m\u00e2rli\u0163e o fi prins domnul Ratlov p\u00e2n\u0103 acu\u015fi?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, nu pleca domnia lui s\u0103 te lase \u015fi s\u0103 pescuiasc\u0103. Apele-s \u00een seama tinerilor, zice-se. O fi pl\u0103cerea unei m\u0103rturisiri la mijloc, dorul \u00eent\u00e2rzierilor ce v-au \u00eenc\u0103rcat zilele de celebritate.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mie?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2nd domniei tale, c\u00e2nd domnului Ratlow. Cum dragomanul, str\u0103bunul Ratlowilor, din partea domniei tale, dup\u0103 pomenire, a disp\u0103rut \u00een umbra unei femei, \u00eendr\u0103znesc s\u0103 cred, secolele adev\u0103rate te r\u0103spl\u0103tir\u0103 cu alte daruri.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103racul dragoman, mata s\u0103 fii \u00eendeajuns de cavaler, cam c\u00e2t pretinde domnul Albanescu s\u0103 fie b\u0103rbatul un filosof, apoi mi-ai ajuta s\u0103-l r\u0103zbun. Domnului Ratlow at\u00e2t i-ar fi. Iat\u0103 cele dou\u0103sprezece limbi vorbite de b\u0103tr\u00e2n. Le vezi aici legate \u00een piele de c\u0103mil\u0103. O parte s\u0103l\u0103\u015fluiesc la Stambul. Altele s-au risipit. Dar mata vei c\u0103uta lucruri str\u0103ine de vremuri \u015fi, odat\u0103, cine \u015ftie…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Petrecerile dumitale \u00een Italia, doamn\u0103 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Care Italie?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen compania unor italieni…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dar la Paris, martor\u0103 mi-e ducesa de la Roche, tot frumoas\u0103, de\u015fteapt\u0103 \u015fi cuminte…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ducesa?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu, hodoroaga n-are inim\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ce-ar zice domnul Ratlow s\u0103 v\u0103 asculte?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnia lui e plecat, ai primit, de bun\u0103 seam\u0103, \u00een\u015ftiin\u0163area \u00een\u0103l\u0163\u0103rii domnului…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sigur c\u0103 da. Ci n\u0103d\u0103jduiesc o tain\u0103 \u015fi mai \u015fi. Ori te pilisei de ziua Hanei? Sau numai a\u015fa s\u0103\u00a0\u00a0 m\u0103 treze\u015fti pe mine din ale mele? Crede-m\u0103, \u00een seara aceea eu m\u0103 aflam la Paris.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De ce nu te-a\u015f crede, acum poate c\u0103 te afli \u00een Bucure\u015fti. Toate saloanele domniei tale prosper\u0103. Iar pe domnul Ratlow m\u0103 mir de ce-l ascul\u0163i \u00een umbra r\u0103scump\u0103ratelor plec\u0103ri. M\u0103 pomenesc sur\u00e2z\u00e2nd cum numai domnia lui domniei tale i-ar sur\u00e2de.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 nu te piard\u0103 vedeniile astfel re\u00eenviate. S\u0103 nu se fi stricat vremea, cum ai v\u0103zut ridic\u00e2nd col\u0163ul perdelei, din dreapta jos, \u0163i-a\u015f ar\u0103ta, la lumin\u0103 mai mult\u0103, tabloul din fa\u0163\u0103 cum numai domnul Ratlow sur\u00e2de, \u015fi nu mie. Posomor\u00e2tul de el…<\/div>\n
Bucure\u015fti, 22 noiembrie 1970<\/em><\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu mai scrie ceea ce vorbe\u015fti cu glas tare, trag cu urechea to\u0163i barbugiii…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnule, domnule Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Auzii… Nimeni nu mai \u015ftie cine este adev\u0103ratul domn Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cens\u0103\u015fi doamna Ratlow mi-a \u00eencredin\u0163at deun\u0103zi un secret, domnul Ratlow \u00eel cunoa\u015fte…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vrei s\u0103 spui, are nevoie s\u0103-l cunoasc\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ei nu, domnului Ratlow i-l pot divulga pe ner\u0103suflate, e doar secretul mor\u0163ii domnului Ratlow, n-am spus c\u0103 domnul Ratlow a murit, nici c\u0103 e internat pe Vitan.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Scriai acolo, ca pe marmor\u0103 de T\u00e2rgu-Jiu, dac\u0103 m\u0103 pot exprima, icoana credincioas\u0103 a desp\u0103r\u0163irii dumitale de doamna mea Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Da, de doamna domnului Ratlow. Nu v\u0103 evoca\u0163i, rogu-v\u0103, o alt\u0103 doamn\u0103 Ratlow, falnic\u0103 \u015fi pururi c\u0103l\u0103toare prin pie\u0163ele din centru, cu piciorul st\u00e2ng str\u00e2ns \u00een ciorap, varicele…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Chiar aceea nu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici indianca…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici fata…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici coapta…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici corcitura…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Niciodat\u0103 doamna Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ba doamna Ratloww.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Care doamn\u0103 Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O doamn\u0103 Ratlow, domnule, mi se pare, Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dac\u0103 a\u015fa dore\u015fte domnul Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei sunau \u00eentr-adev\u0103r, \u00een momentele desp\u0103r\u0163irii, \u015fi ceasuri \u015fi telefoane \u015fi sirene \u015fi clopote?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00ce\u0163i \u00eenchipui, dac\u0103 s-a auzit p\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi din modesta mea scriere. \u201eVocea doamnei Ratlow se auzea ca dintr-un morm\u00e2nt al turor sunetelor\u201d.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Din vina \u00eentunecimii rev\u0103rsate \u00een saloanele noastre, doamna Ratlow se retr\u0103sese \u00een apartamentul din strada C. Se anun\u0163a o noapte amenin\u0163\u0103toare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De nu s-ar fi \u00eentunecat \u015fi acum, ce-a\u015f mai scrie povestea \u00een versiunea dumitale, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Las\u0103, c\u00e2nd vom preschimba lespezile saloanelor eu \u015fi doamna Ratlow o s\u0103 ne \u0163inem pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 dumneata \u015fi atunci vei s\u0103pa \u00een marmor\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O s\u0103 ne \u0163inem pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 mata, domnule, cum ai spus?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Albanescu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vai, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, a\u0163i ie\u015fit, totu\u015fi, \u00een \u00eent\u00e2mpinarea domnului Ratlow. Mi se p\u0103ruse c\u0103 domnul Ratlow peregrineaz\u0103 pustiu printre tei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eu am ar\u0103tat spre dumneata, \u015fi domnul Ratlow s-a gr\u0103bit, cum \u00eei este obiceiul. Mata, \u00een ziua aceea, c\u00e2nd se str\u00e2nseser\u0103 \u00een apartament aproape to\u0163i vizitatorii saloanelor noastre.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamna mea, la auzirea numai de domnul Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe \u00eentuneric, nici nu i-am z\u0103rit fa\u0163a. Mata chiar n-ai trimis vorb\u0103 c\u0103 nu po\u0163i veni fiind re\u0163inut de chestiuni dintre cele mai importante?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 pilisem, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Umblam pe trotuarul de peste drum din fa\u0163a apartamentului. Un noroc dublu l-a adus pe domnul Ratlow. Domnule Ratlow, mi te-ai \u00eenf\u0103\u0163i\u015fat ca un tablou al dragomanului. Se petrecea uituc pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 biseric\u0103 marele grup s\u0103rb\u0103torind pe cineva la 20 de ani.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamna mea, te-ai tulburat a\u015fadar zadarnic la zgomotul auzit numai de tine, la c\u00e2nt\u0103rile de la la la lurala la f\u00e2\u015ff\u00e2\u015ff\u00e2\u015f, la muzicile degeaba pl\u0103nuite \u00een seara aceea \u00een toate saloanele noastre deodat\u0103. Te-a \u00eengrijorat ame\u0163eala mea, la \u00eentoarcere, parc\u0103 te v\u0103d c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u0163i tot spuneam cum \u00eemi joac\u0103 \u00een fa\u0163a ochilor m\u00e2rli\u0163e \u015fi melci asemeni porcilor, da, da, cu ni\u015fte r\u00e2turi ca ale porcilor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pachetul sub\u0163ire din m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0163i l-a suflat v\u00e2ntul, domnule Ratlow, \u015fi eu am s\u0103rit ca ars s\u0103 \u0163i-l ridic, dar a trecut tramvaiul peste el, ca o umbr\u0103 de avion, apoi eu m-am recomandat Albanescu, doamna Ratlow nu m\u0103 z\u0103rise \u00eenc\u0103, \u0163i-am auzit glasul verde cum \u00eei povesteai totul sus.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mata \u0163i-ai \u00eenchipuit atunci c\u0103 saloanele noastre s-au \u00eenchis \u015fi nu mai avem loc s\u0103 ne odihnim \u00eentr-un apartament plin de at\u00e2ta lume.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 At\u00e2ta c\u0103 a\u015f fi dorit din toat\u0103 fiin\u0163a s\u0103 atrag politicos aten\u0163ia domniei tale c\u0103, \u00een astfel de situa\u0163ii, po\u0163i visa o boal\u0103, dar o po\u0163i \u015fi lua, prin contagiune.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dac\u0103 a\u015f fi \u00een\u0163eles, f\u0103ceam totul s\u0103 te primim, de bun\u0103 seam\u0103 dup\u0103 \u00eentoarcerea domnului Ratlow. \u0162i-am fi mul\u0163umit pentru amabilitate.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u0103 doar nu veneam de la r\u0103zboi s\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2rzii cine \u015ftie ce.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acum totul e \u00een ordine. E\u015fti binevenit oric\u00e2nd \u00een saloanele noastre. Domnul Albanescu, a, mata, se \u00eengrije\u015fte din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd de \u00eendrumarea oaspe\u0163ilor. Hm, pe vremuri, domnilor, m-a\u015f fi vrut mereu \u00eentr-o bacovian\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103pere de marmor\u0103, despuiat\u0103 de orice lux, iar acum, c\u0103 totul e \u00een ordine, am ie\u015fit s\u0103-l \u00eent\u00e2mpin pe cel la 20 de ani, spunea\u0163i?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 V\u00e2rsta aceasta \u015fi-o serba o fat\u0103, doamn\u0103. Domnul Ratlow o fi \u015ftiind mai multe. Eu m\u0103 pilisem, \u0163i-aduci aminte, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ei, nu, nu s\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2mpin pe cineva am ie\u015fit din saloane. Nici pentru c\u0103 domnul Ratlow m\u0103 iube\u015fte. Visase \u015fi el c\u00e2rciumi cu \u00eent\u00e2lniri \u0163ig\u0103ne\u015fti n\u0103du\u015fite \u00een noaptea c\u00e2nd Iohana \u00eemplinea 20 de ani. \u015ei eu ce visasem?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Lumea o vorbe\u015fte de z\u00e2n\u0103 bun\u0103 pe domnia ta, ca pe o mil\u0103 a s\u0103racilor, s\u0103 nu se supere domnul Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Lumea n-o \u015ftie pe adev\u0103rata doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Nimic nu \u015ftie pe \u00eendelete.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici vorb\u0103, donule Ratlow, dumneata ai tr\u0103it numai din filosofie, \u00eendr\u0103znesc s-o \u00eentrerup pe doamna Ratlov dintr-un decent cavalerism, n\u0103d\u0103jduiesc decent. Doamna Ratlow a cobor\u00e2t \u00eentr-o sear\u0103 printre teii din Ci\u015fmigiu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Las\u0103, las\u0103 mata seara aceea \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103toare. \u00centr-o sear\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A\u015fa am spus \u015fi eu, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, ai auzit \u015fi dumneata, Domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Fie, \u00een seara aceea am vrut s\u0103 ridic perdeaua, col\u0163ul din dreapta jos. Ca \u00eentr-o poveste, m\u0103 trezise ceasul dintr-o lung\u0103 visare, \u015fi nu l-am mai apucat sun\u00e2nd. A sunat telefonul. Domnule Albanescu, am impresia, pentru prima oar\u0103 mi-ai spus c\u0103 mata e\u015fti. T\u0103cusei \u015fi dup\u0103 \u0163iuitul unei sirene a salv\u0103rii, a b\u0103tut de dou\u0103zeci de ori clopotul bisericii de la intrarea \u00een Ci\u015fmigiu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamna mea, \u0163i-e palid glasul \u00een \u00eentuneric, nu cumva e\u015fti palid\u0103 toat\u0103. Domnule Albanescu, dumneata cum o auzi?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 simt ca \u00een seara aceea c\u00e2nd r\u0103m\u0103sesem f\u0103r\u0103 nimeni pe lume. S\u0103 fi durat asta… Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, am cerut eu domniei tale patru lei \u00eemprumut? Oricum, se f\u0103cuse t\u00e2rziu, domnule Ratlow, dumneata nu mai veneai ca \u00eenainte. Eu am \u00eenceput s\u0103 vorbesc cu voce tare, ca acum, f\u0103r\u0103 cuvintele noastre de toate zilele, doar nu aveam cui s\u0103-i spun ceva de la obraz, \u015fi de mine uitasem, ce mai, dou\u0103zeci de ani.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mata \u00een seara aceea erai m\u00e2nat de g\u00e2ndul r\u0103spl\u0103tirii unei fapte trecute. O fi fost \u00eemprumutul cu patru lei, \u015fi domnul Ratlow \u00eent\u00e2rzia, ce-i dreptul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Numai \u00eentr-unul din saloanele domniilor voastre, doamn\u0103 \u015fi domnule, domnule \u015fi doamn\u0103 Ratlow o s\u0103 reg\u0103sesc odat\u0103 ceea ce m\u0103 m\u00e2nase \u00een seara aceea.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bunul sf\u00e2r\u015fit al serii, aici, printre tei, mie nu-mi era departe, \u00ee\u0163i povesteam eu, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Domnului Albanescu n-are cine s\u0103-i confirme, dac\u0103 petrecerea salonelor \u00ee\u015fi croie\u015fte iar\u0103\u015fi un vad p\u00e2n\u0103 la periferii. Ne vom \u00eembujora de m\u0103gulirea recunoa\u015fterii, spunea dumnealui, a recunoa\u015fterii… a recunoa\u015fterii faptelor trecute.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De, domnilor, de ce ar pl\u00e2nge vreunul dintre voi visul meu de pe vremuri?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vorbea\u0163i a\u015fa, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, cucernic\u0103 \u015fi \u00een putere, asemeni maicii domnului, \u00eenc\u00e2t domnul Ratlow te iube\u015fte cu toat\u0103 dreptatea, iar eu m\u0103 \u015fi \u00eenchin. V\u0103 a\u015fteapt\u0103 saloanele pretutindeni \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftiind smirna p\u0103m\u00e2ntului, floarea depozitelor \u015fi cur\u00e2nda sear\u0103 ce poate nu s-a dus atunci…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnule Albanescu, mata l-ai cunoscut pe cel\u0103lalt Albanescu, marele salonard?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vai, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, chiar domnia ta ai numele \u00eemprumutat de la vechiul, al patrulea dragoman al \u0163\u0103rii. Domnul Ratlow l-a \u00eemprumutat de la dumneata. Iar eu, pentru a nu-l \u00eemprumuta, la r\u00e2ndu-mi, am \u00eencuviin\u0163at fericit s\u0103-mi spune\u0163i domniile voastre precum mi-a\u0163i zis. Teii domnului Ratlow v-ar putea da \u015ftire \u015fi-n altfel. Domnia ta te preumblai printre ei c\u00e2nd dumnealui s-a aplecat s\u0103 m\u0103 recunoasc\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am fi convorbit atunci…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cum?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S-ar cuveni s\u0103 stea \u015fi dragomanul cu noi.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 treac\u0103 oarecine \u015fi printre aceste ascunse \u015firuri de tei scutura\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2rzie.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pl\u0103cut se aude tramvaiul, domnule Albanescu. Te-am \u0163inut din lucru.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 V\u0103 m\u0103rturisesc, \u00eentr-adev\u0103r, zgomotul tramvaiului m\u0103 dispune \u015fi pe mine la fapte nobile.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eu nici nu-l aud \u00eentotdeauna, domnilor. Acum, c\u0103 ne-am recunoscut, vorbim mai tare, \u015fi tot o s\u0103 pl\u0103nuim, precum v-a\u0163i dorit, primirea domnului Albanescu \u00een saloanele noastre. Ar fi p\u0103cat s\u0103 nu se petreac\u0103 totul \u00een Bucure\u015fti, dar o s\u0103 ne ascult\u0103m unii pe al\u0163ii, domnilor. Voi unde spune\u0163i? Asupra datei nu va fi greu s\u0103 convenim, dar unde?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen Bucure\u015fti… Ne leag\u0103 seara aceea, oric\u00e2t, doamn\u0103 \u015fi domnule Ratlow, eu provin dintr-un trunchi nici m\u0103car nobil, ci precum al teilor. \u00cen rumenul sud \u2013 \u015fi floarea teilor c\u00e2nva \u00eemi va \u00eent\u0103ri spusele \u2013 s\u0103l\u0103\u015fluiesc sub carele grele de giuvaerurile Stambulului ne\u00eenc\u0103pu\u0163ii ochitori de zei, minto\u015fii f\u0103r\u0103 margini. \u00cen partea cealalt\u0103 saloanele gem de stirpe odat\u0103 mai veche ca alt\u0103 ciob\u0103nime dinspre trec\u0103tori. Iar pe t\u0103iatul crucii, la capetele s\u0103biei de la r\u0103s\u0103rit \u015fi de la apus, o \u015fleaht\u0103 de d\u0103n\u0163uitori tot s-o \u00eenv\u00e2lv\u0103ta. Afl\u0103toare \u00een mijloc de r\u0103stignire, topitele convoaie din jurul doamnei Ratlow ne-or da pace. \u015ei, astfel, locul e mai simplu de ales. De intri \u00eentr-o m\u0103n\u0103stire, n-ai intrat \u00een toate?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnule Albanescu, toate astea le-am auzit de la \u00eenceput, c\u00e2nt te-am deslu\u015fit vag, dup\u0103 voce, fiindc\u0103 vorbeai tare \u00eentr-o situa\u0163ie c\u00e2nd oricine s-ar l\u0103sa furat de t\u0103cere. Doamnei Ratlow nu i-a venit s\u0103 cread\u0103 prima oar\u0103, r\u0103t\u0103cit\u0103 la doi pa\u015fi de mine. I-am ar\u0103tat prin semne c\u0103 nu mai e t\u0103cere \u015fi m\u0103 mir de ce \u00eent\u00e2i \u0163i-am zis Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00e2ndul dumitale… doamn\u0103 Ratlow, domnia ta se gr\u0103be\u015fte?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vorbe\u015fte mata acolo tot ce voiai s\u0103 vorbe\u015fti cu g\u00e2ndul la g\u00e2ndul domnului Ratlow. Eu te voi urm\u0103ri \u00eentr-o sfin\u0163it\u0103 manier\u0103, fii \u00eencredin\u0163at, chiar dac\u0103 m\u0103 dep\u0103rtez atras\u0103 de preumblarea printre teii domnului Ratlow, s\u0103racul, geaba naltele saloane dac\u0103 el…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00e2ndul dumitale, domnule Ratlow… iart\u0103-m\u0103, doamna Ratlow, nu \u015ftii, se simte bine? Se clatin\u0103 \u00eenconjur\u00e2ndu-ne de-aproape cu grandoarea privirilor plutitoare. Ei, s\u0103 nu uit, \u015fi g\u00e2ndul dumitale \u015ftia una \u2013 printre tei, la ceasul vostru, singuratic doar Albanescu v\u0103 putea ie\u015fi \u00eenainte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu \u015ftiu eu ce \u015ftie g\u00e2ndul meu, domnule, dar pe dumneata eu, \u00een persoan\u0103, te credeam la saloane.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Care saloane?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, cele vecine loca\u015furilor m\u0103n\u0103stire\u015fti din preajma lacurilor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ori saloanele cu vedere spre arenele Bucure\u015ftiului?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Zic acelea sezoniere, unde p\u0103lesc mimozele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Zi de marile saloane cu aripa oprit\u0103 deasupra centrului \u015fi a noastr\u0103, acum, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dumneata po\u0163i fi un escroc \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103-\u0163i plac\u0103 s\u0103 fii luat drept domnul Albanescu. Pe el \u00eel \u015ftie o lume, ce te-ai socotit? Vestea saloanelor Ratlow n-are a face cu b\u0103ierile Orientului, precum un pui de iepure n\u0103scut dintr-o iepuroaic\u0103 de argint viu, pe o culme a primirilor. \u00ce\u0163i spun c\u0103 nici domnul Albanescu nu \u015ftia c\u0103 dumnealui \u00eensu\u015fi se \u00eengrije\u015fte de \u00eendrumarea oaspe\u0163ilor. Doar doamna Ratlow, st\u0103p\u00e2na dup\u0103 obicei. \u015ei eu \u015ftiam asta, dar nu \u00eel cuno\u015fteam prea bine pe domnul Albanescu, \u00eenc\u00e2t n-am spus c\u0103 nu po\u0163i fi dumneata c\u00e2nd \u0163i-am auzit vocea bl\u00e2nd ceremonioas\u0103. Ce s\u0103 mai fi fost cu domnul Albanescu? El chitise minunat petrecerea unuia dintre saloane de-l pref\u0103cuse \u00eentr-un leit \u00eentreg \u0162arigrad. Dumneata, domnul Albanescu? Numai doamna Ratlow, ei, doamn\u0103 Ratlow… Dumneata \u00een persoan\u0103… Cum se ajunge atunci la salonul de aici, printr-o intrare nou\u0103, prec\u00e2t se zvone\u015fte. Ei, taci? De bun\u0103 seam\u0103 doamna Ratlow o \u015ftie. Doamnei mele Ratlow nu-i scap\u0103 nimic din ce e monumental, chiar c\u00e2nd convorbim de portalurile noi ale saloanelor mirositoare a tei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103, domnule Ratlow, c\u0103 m-ai auzit vorbind cu glas tare, s\u0103p\u00e2nd \u00een umbr\u0103, marmor\u0103 adus\u0103 din cariere tomitane, asta pot s\u0103 \u0163i-o spun. Dar numai doamnei Ratlow \u00eemi e \u00eeng\u0103duit s\u0103-i \u00eencredin\u0163ez totul. M\u0103 \u00eentrerupsesem singur din lucru, c\u00e2nd m-ai luat \u00een seam\u0103 dumneata. Eu tocmai m\u0103 aplecam \u00een semn de cuviin\u0163\u0103 a tuturor \u00eent\u00e2mpin\u0103rilor mele \u015fi a\u015fteptam s\u0103… \u00ce\u0163i mai pot spune ceva… Acest Ci\u015fmigiu este \u00eenc\u0103 o oper\u0103 a domnului Albanescu, ai auzit despre el. Dac\u0103 am avut m\u00e2n\u0103 liber\u0103, iat\u0103 secretul doamnei Ratlow. O, domnule Ratlow, mul\u0163i dintre cei ce obi\u015fnuiesc s\u0103 trag\u0103 cu urechea pe sub ferestrele pierdute \u00een arhitecturi ame\u0163itoare au ascultat glasul doamnei Ratlow \u00eembiindu-te s\u0103 te ui\u0163i dac\u0103 exist\u0103 ceea ce se cheam\u0103 cale liber\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N-am trecut prin toate, domnule Albanescu, dar calea aceea poate c\u0103 i-o datorez doamnei Ratlow ca pe o dedica\u0163ie dintr-o campanie victorioas\u0103, din cea mai victorioas\u0103 campanie, domnule Albanescu, domnule Ratlow, doamn\u0103 Ratlow \u015fi voi, a\u015ftepta\u0163i-m\u0103 numai o clip\u0103, voi, \u0103 \u0103 \u0103\u015ftia de la intr\u0103rile saloanelor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Intr\u0103rile sunt nepetrecute, ca \u00een seara aceea, domnule Ratlow. Tramvaiele \u00ee\u015fi vor reg\u0103si \u00een cur\u00e2nd liniile, dac\u0103 dup\u0103 ele \u00ee\u0163i \u00eendrep\u0163i auzul,<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe doamna Ratlow ai mai v\u0103zut-o…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am z\u0103rit-o odat\u0103 pe domnia sa \u015fi pe dumneata, \u00een cu totul alt\u0103 parte…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 P\u0103cat, pe ea a d\u0103ruit-o soarta cu secretele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Numai domnia sa \u015ftie dac\u0103 asta e.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Un str\u0103in ar crede-o amnezic\u0103. Nu m\u0103 mai recunoa\u015fte nici pe mine. Cu at\u00e2t cu mai neputin\u0163\u0103 pe dumneata. Aveai s\u0103-i dest\u0103inui dichisul noilor intr\u0103ri, domnule. Ea uit\u0103 de o t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103, de o b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103, de i-a murit cineva, de a murit ea \u00eens\u0103\u015fi. S\u0103 nu te miri c\u00e2nd o s\u0103-i par\u0103 c\u0103 dumneata, domnule Albanescu, ai fi domul Ratlow, c\u0103 dumneata, domnule Ratlow, ai fi domnul Albanescu. Cum suntem \u00eentr-o \u00eent\u00e2rziere aproape des\u0103v\u00e2r\u015fit\u0103, eu unul m-a\u015f apleca \u00een fa\u0163a por\u0163ilor pres\u0103rate cu tei scutura\u0163i \u015fi a\u015f proteja obosit trecerea doamnei Ratlow. Dar \u00een bun\u0103tatea ei s\u0103ritoare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei nu uita, domnule Ratlow, nici deslu\u015firile ce am a i le da…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen glasul dumitale, tare, am ascultat \u015fi glasul meu, domnule Albanescu… doamna Ratlow nu prea a ascultat pe nimeni, \u00een seara aceea, desigur. S-a r\u0103sucit pe c\u0103lc\u00e2ie \u015fi g\u00e2ndurile ei sunt g\u00e2ndurile noastre.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doar por\u0163ile saloanelor de acum, domnule Ratlow, i se cuvin singur domniei sale \u015fi, c\u00e2t\u0103 vreme nu-i limpezii calea, m-a\u015f tulbura s\u0103 o \u015ftiu p\u0103truns\u0103 \u00een saloanele de aici. Ne-ar fi, altcum, s\u0103 \u00eendemn\u0103m binevoitori ai t\u00e2rgurilor, precupe\u0163e s\u0103 \u00eenainteze pe unde le vom ar\u0103ta \u015fi s\u0103-i \u00eentind\u0103 la picioare doamnei Ratlow ultimele scumpeturi \u015fi flori de tei din sudul filosofilor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu sunt gata saloanele de aici, nu sunt ale doamnei Ratlow, domnule Albanescu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 La ce te g\u00e2nde\u015fti, domnule Ratlow? Cu mult\u0103 credin\u0163\u0103 a\u015f putea spune c\u0103 saloanele doamnei Ratlow sunt Ratlow \u00eens\u0103\u015fi, nu numai saloanele de aici, saloanele din tot Bucure\u015ftiul \u015fi nu numai din tot Bucure\u015ftiul. E \u00eens\u0103 o durere, g\u00e2nde\u015fte-te \u015fi la asta. Mai g\u00e2nde\u015fte-te c\u0103 doamnei Ratlow i-ar fi fost dat s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103 pe lume \u00een saloanele domniei sale totdeauna, \u015fi \u00een seara aceea, desigur, aici, ca un copil.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Niciun copil, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 To\u0163i copiii, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei e o durere, domnule Albanescu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Numai doamnei Ratlow \u015fi numai aici \u015fi numai acum puteam s\u0103 i-o \u00eemp\u0103rt\u0103\u015fesc. \u015ei nu e pierdut timpul, domnule Ratlow. Va trebui s\u0103 t\u0103iem teii. C\u00e2nd dumneata \u015fi doamna Ratlow a\u0163i str\u0103b\u0103tut \u00eencoace, tocmai \u015ftersesem scrisul de pe marmor\u0103. O marmor\u0103 mai bun\u0103 nu a fost s\u0103pat\u0103, \u00een\u0163elege\u0163i, aveam g\u00e2ndul s-o scriu a doua oar\u0103, apoi s\u0103 tai teii, apoi s\u0103 v\u0103 a\u015ftept, s\u0103 v\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2mpin, \u00een familie, domnule Ratlow. Desigur, \u00een seara aceea, \u00een fapt \u00eentunecos, doamna \u015fi domnul Ratlow nu ar fi trecut spre terenuri de tenis.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bine, domnule Albanescu, s\u0103 t\u0103iem teii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Numai doamna Ratlow s\u0103 nu se \u00eengrijoreze de partea cealalt\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A teilor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A teilor, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Minunat prevestitoare mai sunt glasurileoaspe\u0163ilor din saloanele noastre, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eu m-am bucurat cel mai cel mai v\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u0103 urci, aici, pe teras\u0103, doamna mea Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te a\u015fteptam, urcam treptele a\u015ftept\u00e2ndu-te, doar n-ai uitat obiceiul meu la toate balurile saloanelor noastre.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cel \u015ftiu, spre fericirea lor, \u015fi oaspe\u0163ii, a\u015ftept\u00e2ndu-te jos, la r\u00e2ndu-le, p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd o s\u0103 li se par\u0103 c\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2rzii \u015fi muzica, f\u0103r\u0103 tine, a r\u0103mas p\u0103r\u0103sit\u0103. O sear\u0103 ca niciodat\u0103, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Valuri de saloane, pe vremuri \u015fi cur\u00e2nd, nu r\u0103pir\u0103 str\u0103lucirea acestuia, \u00eenc\u00e2t ne vedem ca \u00eent\u00e2ia oar\u0103, frumoas\u0103 doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am avut o rug\u0103minte la domnul Albanescu, domnule Ratlow. S\u0103 ia \u00een grij\u0103, la prim\u0103var\u0103, s\u0103direa unui tei, la fereastr\u0103, colo, ce zici?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, c\u00e2ndva \u00eemi petreceam vremea t\u0103ind p\u0103durile de tei. Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, des\u0103v\u00e2r\u015fit \u0163i-e g\u00e2ndul. Fapta mea trecut\u0103 \u00een loc de pedeaps\u0103 \u00eemi va aduce alinare. O s\u0103 m\u0103 reped din ce \u00een ce mai rar \u00een alte saloane, bucuros de a contempla re\u00eenvierea tagmei teilor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 L-ai cunoscut pe domnul Albanescu, domnule Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cine nu-l cunoa\u015fte? Una dintre poreclitele, princiarele invitate, la primirea \u00eend\u0103tinat\u0103 a domnului Albanescu, \u00een seara aceasta, aici, \u00een salon, i-a jucat o tragedie \u00eentreag\u0103. Se pretindea chiar o doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Ai cunoscut-o?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Prietenele mele \u00eemi repro\u015feaz\u0103 asemenea tragedii, mai ales \u00een lungul serilor din saloanele s\u0103r\u0103cite. De-aia am avut rug\u0103mintea s\u0103dirii unui tei, sub fereastr\u0103, colo, la prim\u0103var\u0103. Invitatele se vor interesa de starea s\u0103n\u0103t\u0103\u0163ii teiului, nu-i a\u015fa, domnule Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De bun\u0103 seam\u0103, \u015fi va fi asemeni st\u0103rii s\u0103n\u0103t\u0103\u0163ii saloanelor noastre.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dar s\u0103 vedem acum, domnule Ratlow, onorurile-s \u00eemplinite?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, eu te-am urmat din onoare \u015fi din dragoste.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dar ceilal\u0163i?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ui\u0163i, to\u0163i a\u015fteapt\u0103 un semn al doamnei Ratlow spre a se potoli deodat\u0103 pio\u015fi, acoperind cu m\u00e2necile cre\u015ftete de femei, ca atunci c\u00e2nd candelabrele se cutremur\u0103 \u00een sunetul corului. Ce le vei spune \u00een seara asta tuturor?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2nd mi se vor ar\u0103ta \u00een marea sal\u0103 to\u0163i ca unul, o s\u0103 chibzuiesc un cuv\u00e2nt precum o c\u00e2ntare. \u00cenainte de a urca, i-am dat de \u00een\u0163eles fiec\u0103ruia ceea ce voi cuv\u00e2nta. \u00cen seara asta n-au venit at\u00e2t la saloane, c\u00e2t la doamna Ratlow. Luminatul nostru prieten, luminat de Sf\u00e2ntul Constantin, cred c\u0103 domnul Albanescu el \u00eensu\u015fi, a jucat o comedie ciudat\u0103 pretinz\u00e2nd c\u0103 dumnealui nu mai este de saloane. Po\u0163i, domnule Ratlow, s\u0103 \u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u015fti \u00eentr-o singur\u0103 sear\u0103? \u00centr-o sear\u0103 oferit\u0103 de muncile oaspe\u0163ilor, dar f\u0103r\u0103 urm\u0103 de chinuri, \u00eentr-un s\u0103rut al tuturor uit\u0103rilor?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am o rug\u0103minte, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Mul\u0163i \u00ee\u015fi serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani, \u00een celelalte saloane.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, s\u0103 se numeasc\u0103 a\u015fa terasa asta, unde iubindu-ne pe noi ne iubim \u015fi departele nostru, dup\u0103 vorba, dup\u0103 vorba cui, domnule Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mi-aduci aminte, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, de vremea c\u00e2nd copil\u0103reai \u00een saloanele dragomanului. Uit\u0103-te cum \u00een jocul prim\u0103v\u0103ratic al sf\u00e2ntului Gheorghe tulburai min\u0163ile vorb\u0103re\u0163e \u015fi \u00eencruntatele spr\u00e2ncene \u0163i se ploconeau la picioare. Memoriile celui uitat de dumneata ar fi ars \u00een uleiuri de pe \u00eencinsele linii ale tramvaielor. \u00cen seara aceasta, venit de departe, \u00ee\u015fi petrece g\u00e2ndurile \u00een marea sal\u0103 \u2013 domnul Albanescu o s\u0103 adevereasc\u0103 tot – chiar botez\u00e2ndu-l maestru al \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015f\u0103rii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Spovedaniile altora, domnule Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei ale noastre, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am v\u0103zut fercirea celor din saloanele noastre. Sunt ferici\u0163i fiindc\u0103 nu le a\u0163inem calea. Poate ne ador\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 un g\u00e2nd la puritatea neamului nostru.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, de afar\u0103 se aud uneori blesteme surde, un nebun arunc\u0103 \u00een fa\u0163a viitorilor no\u015ftri oaspe\u0163i \u00eentruchipate suspine, \u201e\u00ees rele rudele\u201d, zice, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A\u015fa \u015fi domnul Albanescu \u00eempodobe\u015fte nenorocirile, ascult\u0103 p\u0103s\u0103rile intrate pe ferestrele saloanelor ca \u015fi cum cineva le-a \u00eempu\u015fcat din ochi. \u015ei deci, domnule Ratlow, rafinamentul nostru nu se mai caut\u0103?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Se caut\u0103 atunci \u015fi mai ad\u00e2nc saloanele doamnei Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dumneata pentru ce le-ai c\u0103utat?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am c\u0103utat-o pe doamna Ratlow. E drept, ai \u00eencercat s\u0103 \u00eenal\u0163i frumuse\u0163ea saloanelor p\u00e2n\u0103 la frumuse\u0163ea dumitale. Domnul Albanescu, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-l cunosc, m-a \u00eendrumat ca pe un oaspete al dumitale, nu al saloanelor. \u015ei iat\u0103-te aici \u015fi acum, \u00een seara aceasta, singur\u0103 \u00een \u00eenchipuirea saloanelor, pe o teras\u0103 cl\u0103dit\u0103 din \u00eentreg aurul dezgropat al p\u0103m\u00e2nturilor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnule Ratlow, a\u015fa a vrut norocul vremurilor. \u00cen tinere\u0163ea dragomanului te-a\u015f fi c\u0103utat eu pe dumneata, rug\u00e2ndu-te, cum am avut \u015fi la domnul Albanescu o rug\u0103minte, s\u0103 iei \u00een grij\u0103 s\u0103direa unui tei la fereastr\u0103, colo.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ce veac \u015fi \u0103la, doamn\u0103 Ratlow… Nu v\u0103 fr\u00e2nge\u0163i m\u00e2inile, aclama\u0163iile din marea sal\u0103 vi se cuvin. \u00cenc\u0103 de pe atunci ruina sem\u0103nat\u0103 peste saloane le putea \u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2ni. Dar, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 st\u0103 \u00een v\u00e2rful timpului, iar dumneata, de pe terasa unui nou salon, vei d\u0103rui celor din marea sal\u0103 sur\u00e2sul logodnelor, ei \u00eel vor p\u0103stra \u015fi \u00een celelalte saloane, unde mul\u0163i \u00ee\u015fi serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Da, domnule Ratlow, de aceea \u00eencepe s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eendurereze mania mea. \u015ei domnul Albanescu n-a uitat s\u0103-i atrag\u0103 aten\u0163ia pictorului lucr\u0103tor, de unde s\u0103-\u015fi \u00eenchipuie c\u0103 tocmai \u00een seara aceasta o s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eendurereze \u00eemplinirea \u00eentru totul a pl\u0103nuirii saloanelor mele? Perdeaua, perdeaua, domnule Ratlow, ne desparte de marea sal\u0103. Ai \u00eenchis u\u015fa, dup\u0103 ce, urm\u00e2ndu-m\u0103, urcasei treptele p\u00e2n\u0103 aici pe teras\u0103. Petrec\u0103re\u0163ii se uit\u0103, \u00eentre dou\u0103 iubiri din seara aceasta, se uit\u0103 zadarnic, rar cine are \u015ftire de teras\u0103, iar \u0103la s-o fi \u015fi pilit. Col\u0163ul perdelei trebuie ridicat, \u00eenainte de a-mi face reapari\u0163ia, domnule Ratlow. \u00cen marea sal\u0103 a noilor saloane, lumea s-o fi schimbat de-a lungul serii, s-o fi \u00eentors acas\u0103, cine \u015ftie… La urma urmei, va fi aceasta seara noastr\u0103, domnule Ratlow. Trebuie ridicat col\u0163ul perdelei \u00eens\u0103, poate lumea toat\u0103 mai a\u015fteapt\u0103, m\u0103car l\u0103comia \u015fi tot s\u0103-i fi \u0163intuit \u00een saloane pe oaspe\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei bucuria, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te g\u00e2nde\u015fti la vienezi?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu numai la ei, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2t despre domnul Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnul Albanescu, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, ar fi \u00een stare s\u0103 taie teii to\u0163i, \u015fi teiul s\u0103dit sub fereastra dumitale s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 singurul…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ca s\u0103 vezi puterea saloanelor mele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 P\u0103cat, spuneai, \u00een seara aceasta de perdea.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 P\u0103catul meu, domnule Ratlow, de aceea \u015fi suf\u0103r.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tot e bine, suferin\u0163a doamnei Ratlow r\u0103m\u00e2ne ascuns\u0103 lumii din saloanele ei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dac\u0103 n-ar fi perdeaua, n-ar mai fi nici durerea din seara aceasta, domnule Ratlow. Nu m-am g\u00e2ndit \u015fi domnul Albanescu a \u00eemplinit tot ce i se spusese. Dumnmeata, de aici, de l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine, nu-mi po\u0163i sim\u0163i dep\u0103rtata suferin\u0163\u0103, poate fiindc\u0103 m\u0103 iube\u015fti c\u00e2t pentru o logodn\u0103, poate pentru c\u0103 nu \u00ee\u0163i vine la \u00eendem\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 ridici col\u0163ul perdelei…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vai, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, dar, \u00eenc\u0103 din seara aceasta, se poate \u00eencepe lucrul la un nou salon. Oaspe\u0163ii vor s\u0103ri \u00een sus, ca \u015fi cum nu ar mai fi aici, ori \u015fi aici \u015fi acolo, iar \u00eenaltul podium, terasa i-ar orbi de presim\u0163irea fericit\u0103 a sur\u00e2sului doamnei Ratlow chiar de la intrare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2nd, urm\u00e2ndu-m\u0103, ai urcat treptele p\u00e2n\u0103 aici pe teras\u0103, oaspe\u0163ii acestei seri sosiser\u0103 dup\u0103 cuviin\u0163\u0103, oare \u0163i s-au \u00eenf\u0103\u0163i\u015fat \u00een aleas\u0103 mul\u0163ime? Femeile \u00ee\u015fi r\u0103suciser\u0103 funii din rochii spre sp\u00e2nzurarea elitelor? Domnii \u015fi doamnele frigeau sticla cupelor cu \u00eendr\u0103gostite buze, domnule Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 m\u0103 fi trimis la dumneata sus, pe trepte, darul vie\u0163ii mele, doamn\u0103 Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Afl\u00e2ndu-te b\u0103rbat cumsecade, o cuvenit\u0103 vorb\u0103 pentru dumneata…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, doamna mea Ratlow, o s\u0103 ridic perdeaua, col\u0163ul din dreapta jos, s\u0103-\u0163i recomand lumea de dedesubt, din marea sal\u0103, oricine ar fi sosit p\u00e2n\u0103 acum, oricine s-o gr\u0103bi c\u0103tre un alt salon, oricine. \u00ce\u015fi vor ridica ochii \u015fi le vei cuv\u00e2nta.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 sf\u0103tuie\u015fti? S\u0103 le spun doar at\u00e2t, \u201ePentru voi\u201d, ce zici?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pentru oricine, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 tem, domnule Ratlow, s\u0103 nu fie scris pe cealalt\u0103 parte a perdelei, ca \u00een marmor\u0103, aceste cuvinte. Nu mai \u015ftiu dac\u0103 domnului Albanescu i se spuse \u015fi asta. Destul s-a r\u0103sp\u00e2ndit prin saloane zvonul mesajelor intime ale copilelor c\u0103tre mine, dorin\u0163a \u015fi visul, domnule Ratlow, c\u0103 erau mirese. Eram mireas\u0103, domnule Ratlow, dar perdeaua, perdeaua, domnule Ratlow, ridic\u0103 perdeaua, col\u0163ul din dreapta jos. Odat\u0103 mi-a ars un salon. I-a pus foc o nebun\u0103 cu basma \u00eens\u00e2ngerat\u0103, o copil\u0103 din astea. Col\u0163ul din dreapta jos. Se vede cumva domnul Albanescu?<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201eDomnule Ratlow, damna Ratlow are onoarea s\u0103…\u201d<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnule Albanescu, mata…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, sunt gata, ajunsesem la ultimul dintre cei ce au trecut p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 prin saloanele domniei tale. Sunt gata, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te-ai trecut \u015fi pe mata?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamn\u0103 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei pe mine?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnia ta…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mai bine nu. Mata nu vrei s\u0103 d\u0103m o fug\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la saloanele mele unde se serbeaz\u0103 20 de ani?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen aceast\u0103 sear\u0103, doamn\u0103 Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 ierte domnia ta, \u015fi de ce s\u0103 fugim?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pentru mine, domnule Albanescu. Mata fugi pentru doamna Ratlow, nu e demn?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cel mai demn, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. N-am fugit niciodat\u0103 prin Bucure\u015fti. Sau nu mai \u015ftiu de sunt \u00een Bucure\u015fti saloanele acelea?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vom trece prin c\u00e2t mai multe, seara aceasta e lung\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Toat\u0103 cinstea, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sigur, sigur, doamna Ratlow are onoarea s\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tat\u0103l meu, domnul Albanescu, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, c\u00e2nd avea dou\u0103zeci de ani, \u015fi doamna Ratlow, mama domniei tale…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen salonul unde se \u00eent\u00e2lnir\u0103 prima oar\u0103, domnule Albanescu, se cunoa\u015fte, e\u015fti un minunat \u00eendrum\u0103tor al oaspe\u0163ilor, la toate ceasurile \u015fi pe orice treapt\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 mergem acolo, doamn\u0103 Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 ne g\u00e2ndim \u00eent\u00e2i la priveli\u015ftea din seara aceea, domnule Albanescu. Mata s\u0103 nu ui\u0163i una. At\u00e2\u0163ia jucau \u00een\u0103untru \u00een tactul muzicilor str\u0103vechi, iar afar\u0103 la ferestre tot at\u00e2\u0163ia priveau la fel de ferici\u0163i. Noi unde ne-am duce? Vreau s\u0103 fugim \u00eempreun\u0103 tocmai pentru a nu ne mai putea desp\u0103r\u0163i, domnule Albanescu, acolo unde ne vom hot\u0103r\u00ee s\u0103 ajungem.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Oriunde, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Oriunde, domnule Albanescu, \u015fi domnul Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acesta poate fi \u015fi numele meu, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnul Ratlow a trecut prin saloanele mele, a\u015fa e.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Un lucru, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, \u00een obi\u015fnuita domniei tale rug\u0103ciune, seara aceasta, s-a strecurat \u015fi g\u00e2ndul plec\u0103rii \u00eempreun\u0103?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S-a strecurat plecarea, domnule Albanescu. Adev\u0103rat, am suit pe terasa noului salon, pentru a m\u0103 ruga. Acolo, rug\u0103ciunea mea, dar n-o mai \u0163in minte, vezi, plecasem, o perdea \u00eemi acoperea vederea spre marea sal\u0103, unde mata \u00eendrumai oaspe\u0163ii… Dac\u0103 n-am fugit atunci, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 am a\u015fteptat s\u0103 fugim \u00eempreun\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Poate domnia ta \u00eel a\u015fteapt\u0103 pe domnul Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Era pe acolo, parc\u0103, un bun domn Ratlow. \u015ei parc\u0103 nu se \u00eencumeta, f\u0103r\u0103 domnul Albanescu, s\u0103 fug\u0103 \u00eempreun\u0103 cu mine la saloanele unde se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani. Vinovat\u0103 aceast\u0103 sear\u0103, domnule Albanescu, sus pe teras\u0103, cu perdeaua dinainte eu cred c\u0103 fugisem.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Un \u00een\u0163eles anume al sentimentelor domniei tale, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, l-am prins \u00een clipele mele singuratice din aceast\u0103 sear\u0103. Poate atunci domnia ta jucai pe teras\u0103 o carte dumnezeiasc\u0103, dup\u0103 ce suferisei \u015fi uitasei s\u0103 fugi. Eu nu am de jucat nimic, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Fiind \u00eempreun\u00ee, \u00eempreun\u0103 s\u0103 d\u0103m o fug\u0103, spui domnia ta, p\u00e2n\u0103 la saloanele unde se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani. Tocmai a\u015fa lumea o s\u0103 afle c\u0103 doamna Ratlow n-a fugit \u00eempreun\u0103 cu nimeni, niciodat\u0103, iar dac\u0103 a fost fugit\u0103 a fost singur\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Lumea ca lumea, spune-i c\u0103 e nebun\u0103 \u015fi n-ai f\u0103cut nimic, prime\u015fte-o \u00een saloane \u015fi,\u00a0 s\u0103 te \u0163ii… \u015ei mata ai fugit de lume venind la saloanele mele \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 unde te \u00eendeletnice\u015fti cu \u00eendrumarea oaspe\u0163ilor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iar domnia ta, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, nu poate fugi de saloane. Sunt ani \u015fi este \u015fi aceast\u0103 sear\u0103, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Fericirea domniei tale…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mata ui\u0163i ce ne leag\u0103, domnule Albanescu. R\u0103u te mai pilisei, domnule, \u015fi nu \u015ftiu c\u00e2nd ai de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 te treze\u015fti de-a binelea.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vai, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, mi-e drag s\u0103 suf\u0103r \u015fi eu, at\u00e2ta tot. S\u0103 iau suferin\u0163a de la domnia ta, precum a\u015f lua o r\u0103ceal\u0103. Nu vreau s\u0103 fug din saloanele domniei tale, din salonul cel nou, chiar de-mi va fi dat s\u0103 ajung tot \u00een saloanele doamnei Ratlow, unde se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani. Nu vreau s\u0103 fug \u00een seara asta. Domnia ta \u00eeng\u0103duie tuturor ceea ce \u00ee\u015fi \u00eeng\u0103duie sie\u015fi. Eu nu sunt asemeni celorlal\u0163i? Domnul Ratlow nici nu m-a recunoascut. Pot fi luat drept fratele dumnealui, ori chiar drept dumnealui \u00eensu\u015fi. Prea mi-ar fi bine al\u0103turi de domnia ta. Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, n-am cum s\u0103 te urmez, nici de vei urca \u00een aceast\u0103 clip\u0103 treptele p\u00e2n\u0103 pe noua teras\u0103. \u015ei, nu uita, domniei tale \u00eei place s\u0103 urmeze, nu s\u0103 fie urmat\u0103. Sor\u0163ii saloanelor \u00ee\u0163i croiesc \u00eenst\u0103p\u00e2nitori calea de urmat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eenfrun\u0163i mata alt\u0103dat\u0103, aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 este a mea \u015fi a domnului Ratlow. \u015etii asta, altfel m-ai \u00eendruma ca pe un oaspete oarecare, nu m-ai l\u0103sa \u00een voie, s\u0103 fug ori s\u0103-mi d\u0103r\u00e2m saloanele, ori s\u0103 te r\u0103pesc pe mata c\u00e2nd alt\u0103 cale nu s-ar g\u0103si.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Numai seara aceasta, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, numai \u00een Bucure\u015ftiul saloanelor domniei tale, numai aici mi-am \u00eencercat norocul. Min\u0163ile \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103toare de la dragoman p\u00e2n\u0103 la noi s-au ad\u0103postit \u015fi \u00een alt\u0103 \u0163east\u0103 dec\u00e2t a doamnelor \u015fi domnilor. Nu-i judec fiindc\u0103 \u00een seara asta nu judec nimic. Dar tot pe aici se ad\u0103postiser\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M-au privit \u00een ochi, domnule Albanescu, mul\u0163i cavaleri \u015fi \u00een\u0163elep\u0163i sfio\u015fi precum bujorii. I-oi fi urmat, dup\u0103 \u015ftiin\u0163a mata. Se retr\u0103geau cu fa\u0163a mereu spre mine \u015fi dinainte \u00eemi lic\u0103rea perdeaua b\u0103rb\u0103te\u015ftilor priviri. Le-oi fi sem\u0103nat \u00een alt\u0103 sear\u0103. S\u0103-\u0163i fie fric\u0103 s\u0103 prive\u015fti o doamn\u0103. S\u0103 te \u00eengrije\u015fti \u00eentr-at\u00e2t de saloane \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 nu ui\u0163i niciodat\u0103 perdeaua de la teras\u0103, mai zic \u015fi eu fidelitate. Vorba unei \u0163ig\u0103nci de la aripa veche a saloanelor, o \u0163ii mult \u015fi st\u0103 \u0163eap\u0103n\u0103, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ea nu era \u00een g\u00e2nd cu perdeaua, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ea era \u00een g\u00e2nd cu domnul Ratlow \u015fi cu domnul Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei cu doamna Ratlow \u015fi cu saloanele… Oricum, \u00een seara aceasta a lipsit, dac\u0103 \u00eemi aduc bine aminte, doamn\u0103 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Scotocind prin saloane, vei g\u0103si-o, prin saloanele unde se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 La saloanele domniei tale, eu \u00eendrum oaspe\u0163ii, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. A spus-o \u015fi domnul Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 L-am auzit \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103, m\u0103 privea, de ca \u015fi cum el m\u0103 urmase pe mine, domnule Albanescu, \u015fi poate \u015fi pe mata.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 T\u0103cut \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 domul Ratlow… \u00cemp\u00e2nzise cu privirile dumnealui toat\u0103 lumea din saloane, iar pe benchetuitorii din salonul cel nou \u00eei asemuia unor tei scutura\u0163i, tocmai de t\u0103cut ce era.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tot a\u015fa, odat\u0103 a plecat s\u0103-\u015fi cumpere \u0163ig\u0103ri, parc\u0103-l v\u0103d, Se \u00eenserase, ca acum.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acum e t\u00e2rziu, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mata ui\u0163i c\u00e2nd a plecat domnul Ratlow s\u0103 cumpere \u0163ig\u0103ri?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnia ta ai preten\u0163ia unei \u0163ineri de minte f\u0103r\u0103 egal.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eu am saloanele, unul ca mata umbl\u0103 cu preten\u0163iile.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnul Ratlow a cump\u0103rat \u0163ig\u0103ri tari precum o carne vie, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, \u015fi nu le-a cump\u0103rat, le-a primit. Picaser\u0103 din ciudatul dumnealui costum de parc\u0103 ar fi \u00eenviat, iar un domn i le-a str\u00e2ns de pe jos \u015fi i (le-)a \u00eentins, \u0163ig\u0103ri ca toate \u0163ig\u0103rile.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2nd se va sf\u00e2r\u015fi aceast\u0103 sear\u0103, domnule Albanescu, o s\u0103 te \u00eentristezi, \u015fi cei de dou\u0103zeci de ani nu vor avea ochi pentru nici unul dintre noi.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Au fost pofti\u0163i \u00een salonul cel nou \u015fi, foarte cur\u00e2nd, \u00een toiul acestei seri, o s\u0103 v\u0103 mul\u0163umeasc\u0103 pentru onoarea de a-i fi \u00eent\u00e2mpinat, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. Domnia ta ui\u0163i ceea ce \u00eens\u0103\u0163i ai pus la cale seri \u00eenainte…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei o s\u0103 vin\u0103 \u015fi domnul Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 doar e a domniei tale \u015fi a domnului Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cenconjura\u0163i de mata, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei de perechi tinere din saloanele asiate…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei de ceilal\u0163i mo\u015ftenitori ai dragomanului, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 To\u0163i vor fi \u015fi venit, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, dar au s\u0103-\u015fi vorbeasc\u0103 unii altora, despre domnia ta \u015fi despre tot ce o s\u0103 li se \u00eent\u00e2mple. Sunt ferici\u0163i. Acum, dac\u0103 vei ridica perdeaua, col\u0163ul perdelei, o s\u0103-i z\u0103re\u015fti \u00een\u0103untru c\u00e2t sunt de ferici\u0163i. Domnia ta vei fi la fel de fericit\u0103 dup\u0103 ce vei ridica perdeaua.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ridic-o mata.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pentru fericirea domnie tale, doamn\u0103 Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei a domnului Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De bun\u0103 seam\u0103, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, o clip\u0103 numai, iar mi-a amor\u0163it piciorul drept, s-a l\u0103sat frigul. N-ar fi mai potrivit s\u0103 p\u0103trundem \u00een saloanele domniei tale \u015fi s\u0103 ne pierdem printre perechile de dou\u0103zeci de ani?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Se c\u00e2nt\u0103 mult, se joac\u0103 \u015fi mai mult acolo, domnule Albanescu, \u015fi eu \u00eemi doresc s\u0103 nu se scuture nicic\u00e2nd floarea saloanelor \u015fi de aceea trebuie s\u0103 nu am niciun amestec. S\u0103 nu cumva s\u0103 fie de ales \u00eentre saloanele doamnei Ratlow \u015fi doamna Ratlow. M-a\u015f sufoca, domnule Albanescu. \u00cen mata m\u0103 \u00eencred pentru saloanele mele, \u00een domnul Ratlow s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eencred pentru mine, domnule Albanescu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Seara aceasta, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, une\u015fte saloanele \u015fi lumea lor. Singur\u0103 domnia ta se mai r\u0103suce\u015fte pe c\u0103lc\u00e2ie \u00een g\u00e2nd cu un alt salon al doamnei Ratlow dintr-o sear\u0103 ce \u00eenc\u0103 n-a sosit odat\u0103 cu aceasta.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015etii, mata, unduitoarele reveren\u0163e de atunci?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 le a\u015fteapt\u0103. Domnia ta g\u00e2nde\u015fti p\u00e2n\u0103 la cap\u0103t totul, apoi ui\u0163i dinadins. Domnul Ratlow te iube\u015fte de bun\u0103 seam\u0103, te iube\u015fte mai ales la \u00eencercarea celor dou\u0103zeci de ani, \u00een jocul ochilor fulgera\u0163i de artificii. Atunci se va apleca precum un filosof deasupra unei ape amintindu-v\u0103 \u015fi de aceast\u0103 sear\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Da, domnule Albanescu, \u015fi mie \u00eemi aminte\u015fte aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 de domnul Ratlow. El n-a serbat-o pe doamna Ratlow, mama mea. C\u00e2nd o s\u0103-l v\u0103d acum, o s\u0103-l privesc \u00een ochi cu o duio\u015fie r\u0103zbun\u0103toare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnul Ratlow o s\u0103 urce, o s\u0103 v\u0103 aminteasc\u0103 aceast\u0103 sear\u0103. Nu s-a sf\u00e2r\u015fit. E timp de toate, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N-am spus c\u0103 n-o s\u0103-l iert. Mata o \u015ftii din saloanele mele. Pe vremea c\u00e2nd ne \u00eembr\u0103c\u0103m \u00een dragomani suntem \u00een stare chiar numai s\u0103 iert\u0103m, te iert eu, m\u0103 ier\u0163i \u015fi tu, nici a\u015fa, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, oric\u00e2t s-ar c\u00e2nta de mult \u00een saloane \u015fi c\u00e2t n-ar conteni jocul domnului Ratlow, \u00een salonul cel nou se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani, asta se iart\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N-am spus c\u0103 nu, domnule Albanescu. Asta \u015fi atunci o s\u0103 se ierte. Prive\u015fte Bucure\u015ftiul iertat \u00eenc\u0103 \u015fi \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103. Fugi la saloanele din insule \u015fi \u00eendrum\u0103 \u00eentr-una oaspe\u0163i, \u00eent\u00e2mpin\u0103-l pe domnul Ratlow, iart-o pe doamna Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 m\u0103 ierte domnia ta pe mine, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De, domnule Albanescu, p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een seara aceasta s\u0103racii s\u0103 nu fi fost mai ferici\u0163i, mai ales acei ce-\u015fi serbeaz\u0103 aici la noi dou\u0103zeci de ani. Cu luxul saloanelor doamnei Ratlow sunt ziduri mai \u00eenalte. C\u00e2nd fuma odat\u0103 dragomanul \u015fi i se terminaser\u0103 \u0163ig\u0103rile, i-a alunecat o lacrim\u0103, domnule Albanescu, de a \u00eenceput \u015fi \u00een Bucure\u015fti lumea s\u0103-\u015fi scuture m\u00e2inile \u015fi s\u0103 jeleasc\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103 se team\u0103 c\u0103 \u00eentr-o bun\u0103 zi se va stinge soarle de pe cer.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nicio grij\u0103, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, oricine trecea prin Bucure\u015fti, s\u0103 fi fost c\u00e2t de gr\u0103bit, pentru lupte cu du\u015fmani de moarte, pentru t\u00e2rg, pentru doctori sau pentru \u0163ig\u0103ri, tot \u00ee\u015fi iubeau departele v\u0103z\u00e2nd nestins mereu soarele \u00een saloanele doamnei Ratlow. \u015ei mul\u0163i c\u0103lcau a\u015fa pe r\u0103d\u0103cinile \u00eenmuguritelor vii de la marginile Bucure\u015ftiului s\u0103 dezgroape o nou\u0103 temelie a saloanelor de p\u00e2n\u0103 la aceast\u0103 sear\u0103. O, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, domnul Albanescu, tat\u0103l meu, i-a ar\u0103tat doamnei Ratlow, mama domniei tale, o fa\u0163\u0103 sur\u00e2z\u0103toare, \u015fi cum nu s-ar fi \u00een\u0103l\u0163at, \u00eentre privirile lor, saloanele de pe vremuri?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 \u00eendrumi oaspe\u0163ii de acolo, domnule Albanescu. Iar noi… Ce se aude cu domnul Ratlow, domnule Albanescu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Saloanele \u00eel cheam\u0103 pentru domnia ta, doamn\u0103 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iar mata?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sunt ultimul, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, s\u0103 m\u0103 ierte domnia ta. \u00cen aceast\u0103 sear\u0103, \u00een noul salon se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani. Dup\u0103 ce voi \u00eendruma oaspe\u0163ii \u015fi \u00een noul salon de atunci, salonul din g\u00e2ndul domniei tale, doamn\u0103 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mata po\u0163i fi ultimul, salonul acela \u00eens\u0103 o s\u0103-\u0163i mai aduc\u0103 aminte de r\u0103d\u0103cina \u00eenmuguritelor vii de la marginile Bucure\u015ftiului, at\u00e2t de aproape va fi de primul dintre saloanele doamnei Ratlow \u015fi at\u00e2t de departe de ultimul ce se va zidi, zidi \u015fi c\u00e2nd teii domnului Ratlow o s\u0103 ierneze pe veci.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu mi-e de mine, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, mi-e tot de saloane.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cencepi \u015fi mata ca domnul Albanescu, b\u0103use…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, (dar) e drept s\u0103 bei p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een b\u0103taia sacrificiilor acelor fluvii…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 B\u0103use \u015fi parc\u0103 uite-l \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 de-al saloanelor. Pentru Bizan\u0163, ori contra Bizan\u0163ului, dac\u0103 b\u0103use, b\u0103use, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei cet\u0103\u0163ile curgeau, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, \u00een albia l\u0103\u0163it\u0103 cu s\u0103la\u015furile lucr\u0103torilor la cariere umbra saloanelor \u00eenmugurea viile.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bine de salonul cel nou, unde se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bine de saloanele doamnei Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Douzeci de ani…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De mii…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De mii de mii…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De mii…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De mii…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De mii, doamn\u0103 Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen aceast\u0103 sear\u0103, domnule Albanescu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 P\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103, daomn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cemi spunea \u015fi domnul Albanescu de domnul Ratlow, cam trage cu urechea \u015fi nu se prea \u00eendur\u0103 niciodat\u0103 de lini\u015fte, aceea de pretutindenea, mata s\u0103 fii at\u00e2ta de cavaler s\u0103 iei \u00een grij\u0103 acum s\u0103 sune \u015fi ceasurile \u015fi clopotele \u015fi sirena salv\u0103rii \u015fi telefoanele, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A\u015fa, domnule Ratlow, sunau toate \u015fi dumneata intri \u00een lini\u015fte \u00eentr-un t\u00e2rziu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamn\u0103 Ratlow, domnul Albanescu mi-e martor, nu-\u0163i p\u0103r\u0103sesc nici saloanele, necum pe dumneata, pentru fapte ur\u00e2te. M\u0103 aflam \u00een Ci\u015fmigiu, s\u0103 nu te superi, pl\u0103nuind studiul universului, privirile mele fiind \u00eendreptate de acolo c\u0103tre \u00eenaltul cerului. \u015etiam c\u0103 \u00een salonul cel nou se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani, dar, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, nu-mi ie\u015fea din minte, anevoioasa mea g\u00e2ndire se \u00eenseninase \u00eentr-o \u00eent\u00e2rziere, era \u00eens\u0103\u015fi \u00eent\u00e2rzierea mea \u015fi, cum \u00ee\u0163i spun, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, m\u0103 tot g\u00e2ndeam cum am fugit noi \u00eempreun\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cemi spunea \u015fi domnul Albanescu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnul Albanescu m-a \u00een\u0163eles.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 L-am \u00een\u0163eles \u015fi eu, domnule Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M-am tulburat a\u015fa de tare, m\u0103 tulburasem cum s-ar tulbura ghe\u0163urile nordului c\u00e2nd saloane de-ale doamnei Ratlow s-ar zgudui de dansuri \u00een\u0103untrul lor, eram tulbure ca \u015fi cum, \u00eentr-o ap\u0103, s-ar fi scufundat peste mine un fum, tulburat am fost doamn\u0103 Ratlow, \u00eenc\u00e2t ochii mei pironi\u0163i dincolo de tot ce se vedea te-au z\u0103rit.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ei, domnule Ratlow, \u015fi acum a noastr\u0103-i aceast\u0103 sear\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Era \u015fi atunci, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cei spuneam \u015fi domnului Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Apoi o bl\u00e2nd\u0103 cea\u0163\u0103 aplecat\u0103 peste Bucuresti p\u00e2n\u0103 peste saloanele cele mai \u00eendep\u0103rtate ale doamnei Ratlow se \u00eendesea aici, ba aici, precum trunchiuri de tei s\u0103-i tai cu o suflare cald\u0103. Ni-e martor domnul Albanescu, doamn\u0103 Ratlow. \u00cen salonul cel nou se serbeaz\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de ani, i-am spus, nu pot s\u0103 lipsesc, iar dumneata ai de \u00eendrumat oaspe\u0163ii, trebuie s\u0103 te gr\u0103be\u015fti, ia-o spre saloane \u015fi voi fi \u015fi eu acolo, \u00eempreun\u0103 cu doamna Ratlow. M-am \u00eenfiorat \u00een urm\u0103 precum atunci c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u015fi serba dou\u0103zeci de ani doamna Ratlow, mama doamnei mele Ratlow. Domnul Albanescu plecase, nu mai aveam cum s\u0103 ne \u00eenduio\u015f\u0103m la g\u00e2ndul doamnei noastre Ratlow, a\u015fa c\u0103 am pornit-o singur c\u0103tre doamna mea Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen lini\u015fte, \u00eentr-un t\u00e2rziu, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu zici, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, c\u0103 am r\u0103t\u0103cit calea? Umblam rug\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 la Dumnezeu s\u0103 o fereasc\u0103 pe doamna mea Ratlow de amnezie. Am b\u0103tut pe la saloane, am intrat, o s\u0103-\u0163i povestesc eu, umblam, o pornisem c\u0103tre doamna mea Ratlow, m\u0103 a\u015fteptase, m\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2mpinase.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Doamna mea Ratlow cred c\u0103 am luat-o \u015fi la fug\u0103 prin Bucure\u015fti. Fugeam \u00eempreun\u0103, doamna mea Ratlow, nu eram fugit singur. Nop\u0163ile noastre cu lun\u0103, doamna mea Ratlow, ne r\u0103zbunam vremea c\u00e2nd saloanele doamnei Ratlow, ce s\u0103-\u0163i mai spun acum, \u0163i-aduci aminte. \u015ei de unde lini\u015fte?Parc\u0103 aveam pe mine hainele dragomanului. \u015ei eram fericit, o pornisem c\u0103tre doamna mea Ratlow. Jucam pe loc din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd de fericire. \u00cemi lic\u0103reau dinaintea ochilor visele doamnei mele Ratlow. Vedeam prin ea ca prin perdeaua teilor t\u0103ia\u0163i cu o suflare cald\u0103. Pe neg\u00e2ndite trecusem prin multe, aveam s\u0103-\u0163i povestesc odat\u0103, doamna mea Ratlow, poate chiar \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 a noastr\u0103, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei cum st\u0103team g\u00e2nditor \u00een Ci\u015fmigiu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Hop \u015fi eu, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mai devreme cu mult… O p\u0103r\u0103sisem pe doamna Ratlow \u00eenaintea pr\u00e2nzului nostru…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mi-a istorisit b\u0103tr\u00e2nul…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Care b\u0103tr\u00e2n?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu b\u0103tr\u00e2nul, \u201eb\u0103tr\u00e2nul\u201d.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sper din toat\u0103 inima s\u0103 nu fi poreclit pe nimeni \u201eb\u0103tr\u00e2nul\u201d \u00een saloanele doamnei Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu, domnule Ratlow, tot \u00een Ci\u015fmigiu \u015fi eu, dar nu g\u00e2nditor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei el?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 B\u0103tr\u00e2nul?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Niciun b\u0103tr\u00e2n, domnule, domnul Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Domnul Albanescu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ei, b\u0103tr\u00e2nul…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A, b\u0103tr\u00e2nul…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dar nu aici, nu \u00een seara aceasta, \u00een lini\u015ftea de acum, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iar \u00eencepi?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nimic…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Aha, tat\u0103l meu… Domnul Albanescu… \u015etii, domnule Ratlow, am visat o femeie…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu \u00een saloane, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N-am visat-o eu, domnule Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cum, domnule?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mi s-a urcat s\u00e2ngele la cap, e voie?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu e…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici a\u015fa, mai \u00eencet? I-am zis \u201e\u0163i s-a jig\u0103r\u00e2t haina\u201d… Eu eram gol, domnule Ratlow…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen vis, domnule Albanescu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu, domnule Ratlow, z\u0103u c\u0103 \u00een Ci\u015fmigiu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Azi?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cred \u015fi eu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dar Ci\u015fmigiul a fost singur.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eu am fost singur, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei eu, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Da, dar dumneata st\u0103teai g\u00e2nditor. Te-am \u00eentrebat la ce te g\u00e2nde\u015fti. T\u0103cere. \u015ei venea tr\u0103sura-n goan\u0103, un boier cu-a lui cocoan\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te-aud saloanele, domnule Albanescu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ui\u0163i, domnule Ratlow? Boieroaica \u0163i-a pl\u0103cut, la boier i-ai dat un \u015fut.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu domnule Ratlow. \u00cen tramvai era c\u0103ldur\u0103, eu f\u0103ceam spume la gur\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A\u015fa c\u0103 erai gol, domnule Albanescu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cemplinisem dou\u0103zeci de ani, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ast\u0103sear\u0103 te s\u0103rb\u0103tore\u015fti \u00een salonul cel nou al doamnei Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei uit\u0103-te ce gust…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ce costum, da…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I l-am cerut f\u0103r\u0103 mil\u0103, c\u00e2nd m\u0103 ruga, a\u015fa \u00eembr\u0103cat cum era, pe mine gol pu\u015fc\u0103, tot pe mine, s\u0103-l prezint acolo unde merg eu. L-am anun\u0163at c\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eensor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00ce\u0163i venea socru?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Asta, pe prim\u0103var\u0103, domnule Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De-ai ajuns de proverb.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cine nu se mai \u00eensoar\u0103 pleac\u0103 cu trenul la \u0163ar\u0103. Nici nu mai \u015ftiu, domnule Ratlow, dac\u0103 eu sau scandalagiul acela de drumul mare, \u00eembr\u0103catul…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen fotografia din momentele de atunci te vezi \u00eentr-un pantalon obi\u015fnuit \u015fi \u00eentr-o c\u0103ma\u015f\u0103 obi\u015fnuit\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dar m\u0103 socoteam gol numai pentru a-l face de ru\u015fine pe, cum i-ai zis, el s\u0103 se dezbrace \u015fi s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2ie ca dracul. L-am luat cu frumosul… D\u0103-mi voie, am jucat o pies\u0103, ast\u0103 sear\u0103, de ziua noastr\u0103, \u00een saloane sper din toat\u0103 inima, cum ai spus \u015fi dumneata de b\u0103tr\u00e2n, eu chiar n\u0103d\u0103jduiesc o alt\u0103 pies\u0103. Numai pentru dumneata, domnule Ratlow, s\u0103 vezi cu cine puteai avea de a face, \u00een timp ce st\u0103teai g\u00e2nditor \u00een Ci\u015fmigiu. Nu e grozav\u0103 piesa. P\u00e2n\u0103 aici b\u0103tr\u00e2nul \u0163i-a prescurtat prologul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Care b\u0103tr\u00e2n?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Joci teatru?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Deloc. Piesa era a \u0103luia.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu haina?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei haina. I-am retezat-o \u015fi cu piesa, n-ai ce aplauda. Ac\u0163iunea se petrece pe c\u0103ldur\u0103. C\u00e2nd vorbesc cu a,a, luminos, atunci vorbesc pentru mine, c\u00e2nd o iau cu \u00e2, \u00e2, vorbesc pentru scandalagiu. A, a (tango) \u00eemprumut\u0103-mi hainele, \u00e2, \u00e2, s\u0103 le por\u0163i… a,a, nu, pentru nunt\u0103, eu s\u0103 nu m\u0103 \u00eensor \u015fi eu? \u00e2, \u00e2, cu hainele mele? a, a, \u00een hainele tale, cu domni\u015foara, o \u015ftii, domnule Ratlow… Blonda. Nu. Ba blonda. Ba nu. \u00c2, \u00e2, dac\u0103 era blonda \u00ee\u0163i d\u0103deam cu \u00eemprumut hainele. A, a, astea? Te duci cu ele s\u0103 te ajungi… \u00c2,\u00e2, e treaba mea. A, a, haina ta. \u00c2, \u00e2, ce bine \u00eemi pare, o s\u0103 \u00eenchiriezi un costum. A,a, pe vremea asta? A\u015fa-\u0163i trebuie, bine-\u0163i pare, chilo\u0163i murdari, noduri la br\u0103cinare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 At\u00e2tea expresii, domnule Albanescu, \u015fi pentru ce? \u201eNu cumva te \u00eensori nelegitim?\u201d<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Exact, exact a\u015fa mi-a spus, domnule Ratlow. \u015eti\u0163i, piesa nu e de moravuri, nu se cheam\u0103 \u201eun om se-mbrac\u0103 \u2013 se dezbrac\u0103\u201d. L-am \u00eentrebat \u00een rol, \u015ftii ceva?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u0103 te \u00eensori?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O iubesc prea mult.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe blond\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dezbrac\u0103-te, \u00eendr\u0103zne\u015fte…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00censoar\u0103-te.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00ce\u0163i prezint… Femiele au \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce \u00eenghe\u0163at\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O dezbrac\u0103 \u015fi-o m\u0103n\u00e2nc\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Un grup vesel se adun\u0103 s\u0103 asculte cucul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei transpir\u0103, uf, chiar e cald, cucu, cucu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A, a, \u00e2, \u00e2, perechile…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te-ai \u00eensurat?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Perechile cump\u0103r\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Haine, haine vechi… sunt \u00eembr\u0103cat \u015fi merg la nunta lor oficial\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Fiecare se g\u00e2nde\u015fte la sine…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cu pl\u0103cere.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei zice: acum unii se dezbrac\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dac\u0103 sunt \u00eembr\u0103ca\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pentru cine prezint eu aici…?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pleac\u0103 la \u0163ar\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N-am cale liber\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ia-\u0163i nevasta.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici haine nu mai obi\u015fnuiesc.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ale \u00eemp\u0103ratului.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Parc\u0103 tu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei \u00eencercai s\u0103-mi ceri hainele…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vai, pune-le la temelia bisericii de la intrarea \u00een Ci\u015fmigiu, \u00eenvrednice\u015fte-te de asta \u015fi o s\u0103 \u0163i se duc\u0103 numele \u00een pove\u015ftile de acum trei sute de ani.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Trei sute de lei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Trei sute de m\u00e2neci.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De ce s\u0103 fac eu ce nu e\u015fti tu \u00een stare s\u0103 faci?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Eu sunt dezbr\u0103cat. Am fost \u00een stare. C\u0103ma\u015fa de pe mine a r\u0103mas cum r\u0103m\u00e2ne soarele pe cer.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Da, da, dar vrei costumul meu s\u0103-\u0163i petice\u015fti pantalonii…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu vreau nimic.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu te mai \u00eensori?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 reped la \u0163ar\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dac\u0103 ai cale liber\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cine nu se mai \u00eensoar\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pleac\u0103 cu trenul la gar\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cembr\u0103cat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dezbr\u0103cat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Drep\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Culcat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Plecat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00censurat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cemprim\u0103v\u0103rat.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei dac\u0103-\u0163i spun c\u0103 de-aia trebuie s\u0103 te dezbraci?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am cale liber\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei cum st\u0103team g\u00e2nditor \u00een Ci\u015fmigiu, domnule Albanescu…<\/div>\n
1 decembrie 1970<\/em><\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Un \u015fuier de tren, domnule Ratlow. Lumina serii pe sf\u00e2r\u015fite… M\u0103 ascul\u0163i? \u015ei am ajuns la locul unde alt\u0103dat\u0103 se pilota… N-am fost atent, pl\u0103tesc. S-au dus mai to\u0163i. Cu vitez\u0103 mare. Nu s-a mai \u00eencetinit. Pilotarea s-a terminat pe vecie, \u00eenc\u0103 de data trecut\u0103. Ni\u015fte r\u0103ni pe din\u0103untru, domnule Ratlow. Vorbeam \u00een dodii. La ce te tot g\u00e2nde\u015fti domnule Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M-am obi\u015fnuit s\u0103 cred c\u0103 nu g\u00e2ndesc, domnule Albanescu. Pentru c\u0103 nu simt, nu vreau s\u0103 simt. Nu vreau s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc, nu tr\u0103iesc, n-am f\u0103cut nimic. Mi-a fost lene, a\u015fa m-am n\u0103scut, a\u015fa meritam, aveam nevoie de pedeaps\u0103. Hot\u0103r\u00e2rea nu poate fi niciodat\u0103 a mea, a nim\u0103nui, nu e timp. Tr\u0103ie\u015fti pentru c\u0103 \u015ftii c\u0103 nu tr\u0103ie\u015fti. Nu sunt de capul meu pentru c\u0103 a ap\u0103rut via\u0163a pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt. Nu am vrut eu, n-aveam nevoie, nu m\u0103 rezolv\u0103, sunt \u00een\u0103untrul ei. \u00cemi place s\u0103 suf\u0103r pentru c\u0103 n-am suferin\u0163\u0103, n-o caut, nici n-o iubesc, pentru c\u0103 nu sunt om, mi-e team\u0103 s\u0103 fiu, a\u015fa am \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at, n-aveam de unde altfel. Altfel este aproape imposibil. Umpl\u00e2ndu-se de spa\u0163ii, lumea demonstreaz\u0103 golul pentru c\u0103 timpul nu lucreaz\u0103, n-are ce, nu g\u0103se\u015fte, nu cere, n-are de la cine, nu se uit\u0103. Al\u0163ii au pentru c\u0103 li s-a dat, a fost, s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat, nu se mai \u00eent\u00e2mplase. Era ordine pentru c\u0103 nu se poruncise, nu se sim\u0163ea nevoia, era devreme. Nu se d\u0103r\u00e2ma nimic pentru c\u0103 nu se zidise nimic. Prisosea pentru c\u0103 era neprevedere, nu existase vreun \u00eenceput. N-avea fa\u0163\u0103 pentru c\u0103 ar fi provoca legea, s-ar fi compromis c\u0103 s-a pus de-a curmezi\u015ful sie\u015fi. Se acoperise cu ceea ce nu putea fi, se dezvelise de ceea ce putea fi. Se lep\u0103dase, nu se cuprindea, s-ar fi strangulat. Se dez\u00eenv\u00e2rtea pentru c\u0103 se \u00eenv\u00e2rtise. S-a opus, s\u0103getare mereu ocupat\u0103 s\u0103 s\u0103geteze. Marginile \u015fi sp\u0103rturile se \u00eenfr\u0103\u0163iser\u0103 pentru c\u0103 nici unele nici altele nu aveau c\u0103p\u0103t\u00e2i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Drept, domnule. Plin\u0103tatea drept\u0103\u0163ii… Drept, at\u00e2t. Doamn\u0103, domnia ta… Mata… O s\u0103 soseasc\u0103 domnul. Cre\u015fte. \u00cel las\u0103 to\u0163i \u00een pace. Cad. Cad to\u0163i, doamn\u0103, vai, c\u00e2t\u0103 fericire, demn\u0103 de domnia ta. Cum \u00ee\u0163i \u00eenchipui c\u0103 o s\u0103 \u00eendr\u0103zneasc\u0103 s\u0103 vin\u0103 acum… El nu, dar Soljeni\u0163\u00e2n da? \u0102sta e alt general…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am a\u015fteptat ce am a\u015fteptat, drag\u0103 domnule… uite c\u0103 mi-e amintirea \u00eenl\u0103crimat\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Neamul domniei tale s\u0103 suspine, de unde p\u00e2n\u0103 unde, doamn\u0103?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A\u015fa, \u015fi eu, domnule…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O, \u015fi domnul Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Aici e.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iubire, doamn\u0103 Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici vorb\u0103, domnule.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Da, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, \u015fi-l a\u015fteptai \u00een aceast\u0103 sear\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 seam\u0103n. Saloanele de bun\u0103 seam\u0103 l\u0103crimau \u00een amurg.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De bun\u0103 seam\u0103, domnule?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Da, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, da’ \u015fi dac\u0103-ar fi fost s\u0103 se revolte cei de dou\u0103zeci de ani \u00een mijlocul s\u0103rb\u0103torilor?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cum de-abia au \u00eenceput. Ne a\u015fteapt\u0103 printre ei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tocmai.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Au obiceiul s\u0103 sparg\u0103, ei \u015fi? Dac\u0103 dragomanul \u00eenfigea \u00een nop\u0163ile de iarn\u0103 c\u00e2te o sabie \u00een ghea\u0163a Dun\u0103rii s\u0103-i trimitem s\u0103 le smulg\u0103 acum \u015fi s\u0103 se bat\u0103 cu ele, domnule?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu dragomanul, doamn\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Atunci domnul Albanescu?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tat\u0103l meu, doamn\u0103 Ratlow, \u00eempreun\u0103 cu mama domniei tale, a\u015f \u00eendr\u0103zni s\u0103-i comand pictorului \u0163in\u00e2ndu-se de m\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een mers pe deasupra undelor de la izvorul Dun\u0103rii p\u00e2n\u0103 la v\u0103rsare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei domnul Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bine spui domnia ta, doamn\u0103 Ratlow… \u015ei domnul Ratlow? Vrei s\u0103 spui chiar a\u015fa… \u015fi domnul Ratlow?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mi-a d\u0103ruit odat\u0103 un salon. Era tot al meu, dar \u00eel uitasem.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei neuitat e domnul Ratlow. Prin darul s\u0103u, doamn\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu erai acolo \u015fi mata?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nici \u00een seara asta n-am lipsit, doamn\u0103 Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vezi, \u00eens\u0103, domnul Ratlow nu s-a \u00eentors. \u015ei n-are rost s\u0103 pornim iar\u0103\u015fi \u00eempreun\u0103 s\u0103-l \u00eent\u00e2mpin\u0103m, domnule Albanescu.<\/div>\n
REDUNDAN\u0162\u0102 AVATARIC\u0102<\/strong><\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Elisabetei<\/em><\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0A doua m\u00e2n\u0103 neagr\u0103. Carisma satanic\u0103. \u015eeicari\u015fti. Nu se iubesc unii cu al\u0163ii. Corpuri g\u0103site \u00een orez\u0103rii. Tubi. Crazy. \u015etampilime. Spelled out in full. In personam. Pensan Deiseen. Purificare pup\u0103toare de tr\u0103dare url\u0103toare. Chiar lin\u015fat\u0103 ordinara dracului. P\u0103m\u00e2ntul va r\u0103suna de lemnul co\u015fciugului t\u0103u. Zv\u00e2rcolacul. Transformarea de sens. P\u0103rintele cuceritor x. Firul de m\u0103tase. Zombi\u0163i, v\u0103 rog. Abisul. Bastarzi convulsivi. \u00cen zorii zilei de duminic\u0103. Pl\u0103titur\u0103. R\u0103ne\u015fti aproape de moarte. \u00cempu\u015fc\u0103-te. Mai bine pleca\u0163i la pescuit. Teroare, \u015fi Pu\u015fi nu mai sun\u0103. Fric\u0103 de ce va urma. Surda pe morm\u00e2nt. Gubernare. \u00cen fa\u0163a unui pod rupt. Alchimie invers\u0103. Rostros de mujer. Drosofila. Plictiseal\u0103 etic\u0103. Poluare psihologic\u0103. Dac\u0103-i d\u0103m \u00een cap lui \u0103sta. \u201ePe culoarele infinite ale regretului meditativ suprem, s\u0103 decizi cu aplomb uciderea semenilor.\u201d<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Voin\u0163\u0103 gongoric\u0103. Alarma bolnavilor. Cump\u0103rarea la specul\u0103 a societ\u0103\u0163ii. Ajugem s\u0103 ne omor\u00e2m pe str\u0103zi pentru ni\u015fte incon\u015ftien\u0163i. Teatru de lupt\u0103. \u015eomoiog. Blegalitate. \u00cen mod elementar.\u00a0 Nu puser\u0103m noi piesele, ele ne c\u0103p\u0103cesc de te zbughesc. Nu eram la mare, te chemam la indieni, nu veneai, venea Pasi. Nu-\u0163i d\u0103 dezlegare la pe\u015fte. E\u015fti fugit de la circ. Lupta r\u0103ului cu el \u00eensu\u015fi. N-am \u00een\u0163eles unde era Franco. Intraductibilitate. Reputa\u0163ie Chivas. Cheie ramayanic\u0103. \u0162i-au c\u0103zut \u0163iglele, \u00eenghi\u0163i termometre. E\u015fti pe opiu. Noi nu exist\u0103m. De domeniul nop\u0163ii min\u0163ii. Gura plin\u0103 de a\u015fchii. \u00cen gerun\u0163i. Cern\u0103uca, seli\u0163a, suli\u0163a. Iar lipe\u015fti afi\u015fe.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu te mai speria, \u00ee\u015fi consum\u0103 teroarea \u00eentre ei. Singur\u0103 \u015fans\u0103, autodenun\u0163ul. La v\u00e2nat \u015fi \u00eencasat. Au disp\u0103rut comicii. Scena are un scop. Prazul \u015fi fasolea. Afar\u0103 plou\u0103. Dispai. Mi-am adus aminte c\u0103 am 69 de ani. Marea \u00een crim\u0103 la circ. Dac\u0103 nu lu\u0103m m\u0103suri, \u00een viitor ne vor conduce intelectualii. Amprente pe arme. Concentra\u0163ionare alb-negre pe retin\u0103. Memorie tir. Nervozitatea sarcinii. Pitagoricienii m\u0103 pedepsesc. Teroarea terorismului. Viterbo. Ca la Ia\u015fi. Michel Telo: Ai se te eu pego.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ne cert\u0103m cu apropia\u0163ii, cu cei din familie, cu prietenii, cu necunoscu\u0163ii. Prin anemia ochilor, cercurile negre c\u0103l\u0103resc fiin\u0163a caren\u0163ei de fier. \u00cen c\u00e2nep\u0103 cu voi. Inamicul \u015fi-a ferit o\u015ftile de insola\u0163ie. When the line is crossed going west, the date is advanced one day; when crossed going east, the day becomes a day earlier. Cei care \u00eenchid \u015fi cei \u00eenchi\u015fi. Spovedi\u0163i-v\u0103 voi la c\u0103lug\u0103ri, \u015fi nu mai ajunge\u0163i s\u0103 v\u0103 \u00eemp\u0103rt\u0103\u015fi\u0163i. Ca pe vasul olarului le vei zdrobi neamurile. M\u0103rimu-te cu m\u0103rimuri, fericimu-te cu fericimuri, purt\u0103torule de chinuri.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Incendiu r\u0103sculativ \u00een Muntele Frun\u0163ii. Vorbe pe din dos. Sonetele catehismului printre personaje domestice. Versete satanice copiate din manualul revolu\u0163ionarului. V\u0103 las\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 moa\u015f\u0103. Scufundi\u015f. Les comparisons. Veste trist\u0103, e un mare actor, nu ce spune, ci cum spune. Divina Relay. Ray. Mercur intr\u0103 \u00een Fecioar\u0103. Caietul de vedenii. Miros de citrice. Comportament ondulatoriu. Voalul fecioriei. Empatie infra. Pe c\u00e2nd scriam la Ratlow.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Erai la saloane, redundan\u0163\u0103 avataric\u0103, mic\u015funeaua din urm\u0103. Ia avans de-o \u015ftafet\u0103, dou\u0103, apare, piere, alt\u0103 culoare. A\u015f prinde-o, m-ar aprinde, Rusoaica de-o cite\u015fte Nana, doamna Ratlow. Mai greu pentru o femeie. Da, da’ e shakti. Alkyon-pesc\u0103ru\u015f-goeland. Golf \u00eenapoi peste hohot. Deodat\u0103 n-ai mai sim\u0163it marea. M-ai \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at s\u0103 \u00eenot. \u00ce\u0163i imitam caligrafia. Erai dom’ \u015fef. Dinainte, dou\u0103 blonde gemene, le-ai ajuns, una c\u0103runt\u0103, mama. Vii aicea la mini \u015fi toate rom\u00e2ne\u015ftile. Limb\u0103 veche, \u00eentortocheat\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dumnezeul nostru a fost un Dumnezeu al r\u0103zboaielor \u015fi numai o\u015ftile ne-au m\u00e2ntuit capul (Co\u015fbuc, 1889). \u00cenceputul din Eclipsa. Totul va fi pe \u00eentuneric (sora Lucia). A\u015fa cum exist\u0103 un teatru de poezie (G. C\u0103linescu). Lucram la Turner (Sorin S.). Cruce \u00een loc de cas\u0103, bordel, punctum. Cruciada copiilor abia acum se preg\u0103te\u0219te (Nichita St\u0103nescu).\u00a0 Facem teatru de poezie (Pu\u015fi).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Daca as fi spus <\/a>“pacatos”, l-as fi alintat…\u00a0 Multe vorbe ti se vor aminti (Otherwords). “<\/a>Natasa mulge vacuta. in lac se vede invers.” (Panacea).\u00a0 Ce este sub un milion nu exista (Death 45). Gavarit .. Maskvaaaaa … (Paraipan). Domnilor.. ne vedem in Vest. (Comunistul).\u00a0 Pichetarea poate fi buna daca se face in liniste. (VaIII).<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Noaptea ne apuc\u0103 pe to\u0163i disperarea aceea ce m\u00e2ntuie, dup\u0103 credin\u0163a fiec\u0103ruia dintre noi. Nenorocirea este c\u0103 nici ruina \u015fi nici ie\u015firea din impas nu se mai ispr\u0103vesc. Ne socotim ferici\u0163i c\u0103 m\u0103car (noi) rezist\u0103m f\u0103r\u0103 voie la lovituri foarte puternice, cum ar fi suma viselor.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 B\u0103tr\u00e2nul dresor de c\u00e2ini muri dup\u0103 ce-\u015fi cump\u0103r\u0103 lapte. La dou\u0103 zile, \u00eemi apare \u00eenaintea ochilor, lu\u00e2nd cotul: dricul gol, \u00een cea\u0163\u0103. Dac\u0103 ajung \u00een rai, vreau s\u0103 privesc \u00een eternitate dricul gol.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Unde te duci, domnule? Acas\u0103, pe Orzari. Muncim p\u00e2n\u0103 pleznim \u015fi n-am ce m\u00e2nca, vezi c\u0103 sunt b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103. Hienele nu se satur\u0103 cu bund\u0103rele de porc.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 R\u00e2sete, transpira\u0163ii. Ascensoare, grohoti\u015f. Sonetul de Shakespeare nu mai are timp s\u0103 fie lung c\u00e2t \u0162iganiada de Budai. Petronia a pl\u00e2ns \u00een ora\u015ful s\u0103sesc.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Omoar\u0103-mi-l, c\u0103 p\u0103\u0163esc r\u0103u. Liber \u00een Dumnezeu. Ierni f\u0103r\u0103 foc. Ceai cu u\u015fa deschis\u0103. Niciun fir de praf pe munte. Somn la opt pa\u015fi de culcu\u015ful ursului. Baia \u00een ap\u0103 cu floare de f\u00e2n. Capre stricate de lupi. Porumbeii de \u015fes.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ai 82. Haine de culoare deschis\u0103. Servitoarea ce \u0163i-e a\u015fa de t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103. C\u0103 n-ai tr\u0103it pe dedesubtul p\u0103m\u00e2ntului.Te-ai \u00eent\u00e2lni cu Achim, cu to\u0163i Achim Makarovici, de care persoana domniei tale s-a lovit \u00een mas\u0103. O fi ajuns pustnicul \u015etef\u0103ni\u0163\u0103 \u00een munte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 pl\u00e2ng lejer de Petronia. \u00ce\u015fi admir\u0103 incon\u015ftient\u0103 halatul. Dorm ur\u015fii, jum\u0103tate m\u00e2nca\u0163i. Pustnicul iar nu \u015fi-a aprins lumina. \u00cel voi ademeni \u00eend\u0103r\u0103t, s\u0103 i se fac\u0103 mil\u0103 Petroniei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ce se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 aici? Nimic, sunt treburi personale. Unde v\u0103 trezi\u0163i? \u00centre zidurile cet\u0103\u0163ii petroniene. Vino acas\u0103. Pe cine am de hr\u0103nit, cui am onoarea s\u0103-i g\u0103sesc ajutoare? Atunci nu veni. Copila\u015ful fiicei mele are orele lui de somn \u015fi toate celelalte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Petronia, fii cu grij\u0103, ap\u0103r\u0103-te \u015fi vino c\u00e2t po\u0163i de repede. Voi fi lipsit de onoare dac\u0103 ies din cas\u0103 \u015fi vin eu la tine, \u00een loc s\u0103 m\u0103 duc unde sunt a\u015fteptat. Uite, plou\u0103, doamn\u0103. E \u015fi cea\u0163\u0103, e \u015fi ora\u015f. N-ai ie\u015fit niciodat\u0103 pe o vreme ca asta. V\u00e2ntul sufl\u0103 ca peste lum\u00e2n\u0103ri.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Binaua \u00eenvinov\u0103\u0163e\u015fte nu poporul, ci pe pustnicul de-l socote\u015fte s\u0103lbatic \u015fi ne\u00eensurat. Pe smintit \u00eel ru\u015fineaz\u0103. Pe biata Petronia o pl\u00e2nge neagr\u0103. A m\u00e2ncat o coaj\u0103 muiat\u0103 \u00een cafea neagr\u0103. A r\u00e2c\u00e2it \u00een c\u0103rbuni, a pus de m\u00e2ncare, spun\u00e2nd, ce trebuia s\u0103 plece?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sun\u00e2nd ca \u00eentr-un teatru din acela\u015fi downtown care n-are teatru. Nici surzii nu sunt scuti\u0163i de ordine vorbite, \u00een lumea complet\u0103, din care a pribegit pustnicul \u015etefan. Ci \u00eensu\u015fi adus cu for\u0163a prin om\u0103t, de sus, de pe platou, \u00een casa fostului morar, v\u0103z\u00e2nd-o, dup\u0103 treizeci de ani, so\u0163ia morarului i-a ap\u0103rut ca prima oar\u0103. A intrat \u00een panic\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Provizia lui de mere s\u0103lbatice emana din \u00eentuneric mireasma pur\u0103 ce-\u0163i provoac\u0103 pofta. Te st\u0103p\u00e2ne\u015fti, \u00eens\u0103, ca spre a cer\u015fi mil\u0103 de la unul de care \u0163i-e mil\u0103, chiar fericindu-l a tr\u0103i aproape de cer, acolo \u00een munte, sub luna gata s\u0103 se pr\u0103v\u0103leasc\u0103. L-au distrus, de Anul Nou, chem\u00e2ndu-l jos s\u0103 danseze dansul pustnicului, de-a pornit-o pe urme vechi \u00eenc\u0103lzite de sobe, mai-mai s\u0103 ajung\u0103 un fel de biet artist, predicator spontan, mereu \u00eengrijorat de casa lui nep\u0103zit\u0103. \u00cei furaser\u0103 puie\u0163ii, puteau s\u0103-i batjocoreasc\u0103 \u015fi merele s\u0103lbatice.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 La ce i-o mai fi iubind at\u00e2ta. Treba lui, eu nu sunt vinovat. Caut\u0103 ceva prin provinciile \u0163\u0103rii. Statornicia rom\u00e2nului. S-o fi mi\u015fc\u00e2nd doar. O s\u0103 v\u0103d ce-o s\u0103 ias\u0103. \u00cei stabilesc o \u00eent\u00e2lnire, apoi alta, \u015fi o s-o iau o dat\u0103 \u015fi pe Petronia.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dac\u0103 \u00een visele ur\u00e2te, asupra c\u0103rora nici biciul, nici puritatea n-au putere, asemeni tinerilor dormind cu semnele uniformelor pe ei \u015fi gem\u00e2nd tri\u015fti \u00een somn dup\u0103 dorin\u0163ele esen\u0163iale, el ar fi lansat chem\u0103ri de neauzit, confundabile cu fenomenele sau, dup\u0103 expresia unui fost croitor ajuns om \u00een\u0163elept, cu crimele naturii, bl\u00e2ndele crime ale naturii, atunci am spune, \u00eencredin\u0163a\u0163i de adev\u0103r, c\u0103 nu mergea nimeni de bun\u0103-voie, de pl\u0103cere, din interes, din curiozitate, pentru a cunoa\u015fte, spre a privi noaptea stelele deasupra st\u00e2nilor, s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 dup\u0103 mor\u0163ii od\u0103ilor, \u015fi c\u0103 toat\u0103 lumea isp\u0103\u015fea doar, prin v\u00e2rfurile ei, \u00eens\u0103\u015fi \u00eeng\u00e2mfarea de a fi recunoscut efectele binef\u0103c\u0103toare, adic\u0103 normale, a tot ce se poate face \u015fi \u00eent\u00e2mpla, chiar al viselor ur\u00e2te.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00e2nde\u015fti \u00een vis, visezi g\u00e2ndirea. Nu dai seam\u0103, la trezire. Vei da \u00een alt vis. Existen\u0163a visului nu se c\u00e2\u015ftig\u0103, visul \u00ee\u015fi g\u00e2nde\u015fte existen\u0163a, basme, Petronia. Te \u00eentristezi g\u00e2ndind \u00een vis domnule, poate cu dureri. Te afli cu doamna mat \u00een mijlocul unei mul\u0163imi de bal. Ai vrea s\u0103 intri printre \u015firurile dansatorilor. Doamna, \u00eens\u0103, a fost invitat\u0103 de un personaj, uite-i, dansul nu se mai termin\u0103, \u00eei pierzi, tragic, nu-i a\u015fa? G\u00e2nde\u015fte mai bine \u015fi viseaz\u0103 mai serios. C\u00e2nd nu \u015ftii ce ai visat, crezi c\u0103 ai g\u00e2ndit \u00een vis. \u015ei \u00ee\u0163i cunosc g\u00e2ndirea, pe atunci m-ai iubit \u00een compensa\u0163ie.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Fiin\u0163a noastr\u0103 cea urm\u0103rit\u0103 e g\u00e2ndirea visurilor. Nem\u0103rginitul g\u00e2nd, \u00eens\u0103, se va fi afl\u00e2nd \u00een visele fiin\u0163elor ce nu se mai urm\u0103resc \u00een vecii vecilor. Ori s\u0103 trim, ori s\u0103 nu mai murim niciodat\u0103, Petronia.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cencerc s\u0103 pun ordine \u00een ce a fost \u00eenainte. Ce-o fi fost? I-am spus s\u0103 ne \u00eembor\u0103\u015fc\u0103im. El \u00ee\u015fi c\u0103uta sufragii \u015fi sufragete. La un gest frumos, de nevoie, l-am l\u0103udat anun\u0163\u00e2ndu-l c\u0103 mul\u0163i vor locui \u00een morm\u00e2ntul s\u0103u \u015fi c\u0103 ar fi bine s\u0103 \u00eencerce de a avea inima tot at\u00e2t c\u00e2t e mizeria noastr\u0103. Dup\u0103 muzici ale ideii, am povestit povestea lui ispitit de idee cu pieptul gol, desf\u0103cut s\u0103-l vad\u0103 gloan\u0163ele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Asta a fost imediat \u00eenainte. Mai \u00eenainte privisem la televizor crucea cavoului familiei De Gaulle \u015fi cobor\u00e2rea \u00een p\u0103m\u00e2nt a generalului, frate cu fiica lui, la s\u00e2nul \u00eenchin\u0103ciunii-p\u0103m\u00e2ntul. P\u00e2n\u0103 dup\u0103 partidele de \u015fah pierdute, ezitasem s\u0103 plec \u00eentr-o c\u0103l\u0103torie, apoi am c\u0103l\u0103torit, \u00eentorc\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 la vreo or\u0103, cl\u0103tin\u0103tor, de-am deschis la \u00eenhumare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pl\u0103p\u00e2ndei \u00eenchipuiri \u015fi visului din noaptea trecut\u0103 s\u0103 le pl\u00e2ngem de mil\u0103. S\u0103-le. Am cobor\u00e2t ni\u015fte trepte, printre lume. Mama s-a desprins de l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine \u015fi s-a \u00eendreptat spre un prieten al meu, risipit prin mul\u0163ime, \u00eeng\u00e2ndurat \u015fi cam suferind. Aproape erotic, \u00eenc\u00e2t mi se f\u0103cuse ru\u015fine, s\u0103 fi strigat disperat\u0103, \u201eAndrei, de ce ai f\u0103cut asta\u201d, sau, \u201eAndrei, de ce ai plecat\u201d. Dup\u0103 cum a ascultat-o el, mi-am dat seama c\u0103 nu era ce m\u0103 g\u00e2ndisem eu c\u0103 ar fi. Nu era nimic. Nici nu \u015ftiu, nu-mi amintesc cum era \u015fi nici n-am putere s\u0103-mi imaginez. Dac\u0103 mi-a\u015f cunoa\u015fte visul, c\u00e2ndva nu mi-ar mai r\u0103m\u00e2ne nimic necunoscut. Dar uite-te \u015fi tu…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 R. era \u00eentr-o ma\u015fin\u0103 condus\u0103 de un str\u0103in. Tanti I era \u00eentr-o cas\u0103 veche, cu sor\u0103-sa Lenu\u0163a \u015fi frate-su Nicolae, mor\u0163i. A vrut s\u0103 ias\u0103 c\u00e2nd a auzit oblonul de la fereastr\u0103. Ni\u015fte copii au dat cu pietre, \u00eei amenin\u0163\u0103. Afar\u0103 nu mai d\u0103duse bruma. Pietrele n-au atins-o. N-am niciun dumnezeu, nici \u00een somn nu-mi mai aduc aminte cum era dumnezeul meu, s\u0103 dea \u015fi el cu pietre, chiar de nu m-ar atinge, cum a\u015f vrea, c\u0103 ele-s ve\u015ftile.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Aprindeam \u00een voie focul. Fierbeau oalele \u015fi la o sc\u00e2nteie. M\u0103 gr\u0103besc p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een centrul ora\u015fului, de cur\u00e2nd a ajuns \u015fi centrul lumii. S-ar putea s\u0103-\u0163i dau un telefon ultraimportant. Situa\u0163ia real\u0103 o s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 un vis ur\u00e2t. Ce soare, ca o istorie \u00een capul unui om bolnav, cu pere\u0163i plini de icoane, c\u0103r\u0163i \u00eenc\u0103rcate de biserici, \u00eendeob\u015fte iubit, cu oarecare comp\u0103timire a extazului lumesc. Doamne fere\u015fte s\u0103-mi convin\u0103 cum se petrec aceste zile lungi \u015fi suferinde.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vitraliu al \u00eense\u015fi persoanei, sub ve\u015fti \u015fi distrac\u0163ii, \u00een r\u0103celi necunoscute, pe r\u00e2nduri de a\u015ftri, la dureri lunatice, peste clipe trecute, f\u0103r\u0103 recuno\u015ftin\u0163\u0103 c\u00e2t de c\u00e2t, dus de vreme, le\u015finat de apatie, cu doliu \u00een creier, r\u0103gu\u015finde de-at\u00e2ta tutun fo\u015fnitor, pac, pac, \u00eeng\u00e2n\u00e2nd un concert de lacrimi colec\u0163ionate \u00een amintirea ochilor ustura\u0163i, preumbl\u00e2ndu-\u015fi umbra cocost\u00e2rcilor peste mo\u015fioara de iasc\u0103 lipit\u0103 cu \u015famot\u0103 rea conduc\u0103toare de electricitate, \u00een mirosul cel mai igrasios \u015fi panicat holeric, ori numai gastric.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Din v\u00e2rful turnului sub\u0163ire \u015fi \u00eenalt priveai \u00een jos ca printr-un ochean. Din ce \u00een ce, interiorul i se l\u0103rgea. A\u015ftept\u00e2ndu-l pe taic\u0103-meu, mi-am dat seama c\u0103 nu era el cel mai mare acolo, nici pre\u0163ul turnului nu-l d\u0103dea el. Se d\u0103dea \u00een capel\u0103, peste un timp, un concert de org\u0103. Lumea se adunase, pl\u0103tise, \u015fi acum \u00ee\u015fi f\u0103cea loc pe ni\u015fte schele, pe oriunde, pasionat\u0103, printre capelani de o autoritate implacabil\u0103, absen\u0163i la culme, indiferen\u0163i la mine, de deasupra, aproape sigur c\u0103 n-o s\u0103 pot asista la ceremonie, dup\u0103 ce \u00eemi fusese ur\u00e2t, dup\u0103 ce mai c\u0103 \u00een\u0103l\u0163asem rug\u0103ciuni s\u0103-mi vin\u0103 tat\u0103l, s\u0103 vin\u0103 cine o veni, numai s\u0103 nu se mai vad\u0103 a\u015fa de goal\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103perea lung\u0103 a turnului, osul neros al turnului, f\u0103r\u0103 m\u0103duv\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00centr-un t\u00e2rziu, a ap\u0103rut \u015fi tat\u0103l meu. Nu mai eram deasupra turnului, iar el nici nu dorea de concert, nici de templul ivit\u00a0 \u00eentr-o doar\u0103, cu tot ce-i trebuia c\u00e2t s\u0103 nu-i lipseasc\u0103 nimic. Am regretat, dar p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103 am \u00eenceput s\u0103 visez la altceva.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 La societatea celor care au terminat engleza, m-am ales cu o antologie scris\u0103 de societari. Am ie\u015fit \u015fi am str\u0103b\u0103tut c\u00e2teva str\u0103zi c\u0103tre gar\u0103, dep\u0103\u015find \u015fi un mili\u0163ian. \u00cenainte de a ajunge, printre casele r\u0103rite, mi-au ap\u0103rut dou\u0103 vagi cuno\u015ftin\u0163e, mam\u0103 \u015fi fiic\u0103. Tr\u0103geau dup\u0103 ele \u015fi o capr\u0103. \u00cen apropiere, un pom nu prea \u00eenalt, \u00eenc\u0103rcat cu frunz\u0103 \u015fi mere. Fata \u015fi-a f\u0103cut rost de un sc\u0103unel, s\u0103 urce s\u0103 descuie pomul. A z\u0103ng\u0103nit un lan\u0163, o cheie. Pe c\u00e2nd se ostenea s\u0103 descuie, am observat c\u0103 multe mere erau pe jum\u0103tate t\u0103iate. A rupt unul \u015fi mi l-a dat.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103 nu-\u0163i fie fric\u0103. Sunt \u015fi eu om. Eu iubesc oamenii. Tu e\u015fti salariat\u0103 \u015fi eu nu sunt. Am liceul.\u00a0 Dar m\u0103 fac bine. Mi-a dat m\u0103r. M\u0103n\u00e2nc \u015fi m\u0103 pun pe picioare \u015fi s\u0103 iau \u015fi eu salar, s\u0103 m\u0103 m\u00e2ndresc \u015fi eu cu mine, s\u0103 fiu femeie adev\u0103rat\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0103-\u0163i iei medicamentele \u00een fiecare zi. \u015ei eu le iau, s\u0103 m\u0103 fac bine. S\u0103 m\u0103 fac\u0103 doctorul bine. A\u015fa mi-a zis. Dac\u0103 te-ai a\u015fezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine, e\u015fti prietena mea, eu nu fac r\u0103u.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am un b\u0103iat. \u00cel cheam\u0103 Pop Tiberiu. E la Casa Copilului, la Alba Iulia. B\u0103iatul meu \u0163ine la mine, m\u0103 iube\u015fte. E orfan de tat\u0103, dar are mam\u0103. Mama e mam\u0103. Mama iube\u015fte mai mult copilul. O s\u0103 m\u0103 fac bine \u015fi o s\u0103-l cresc eu. Am 26 de ani. O s\u0103-l iau de la stat. Am un b\u0103iat bun, m\u0103 iube\u015fte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u00e2nd o s\u0103 ai copil, s\u0103 nu-l ba\u0163i niciodat\u0103. Eu de la 11 ani sunt bolnav\u0103 de epilepsie. Am spart un ceas de perete \u015fi m-au b\u0103tut p\u00e2n\u0103 m-au \u00eemboln\u0103vit. S\u0103 nu-l ba\u0163i. S\u0103 fii bun\u0103. S\u0103 n-ajungi ca mine.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am un frate. Fratele meu mi-a spus c\u0103 cine nu munce\u015fte nu m\u0103n\u00e2nc\u0103. Dac\u0103 freatele meu a \u00eendr\u0103znit s\u0103-mi spun\u0103 a\u015fa. N-am mai m\u00e2ncat. O s\u0103 m\u0103 fac bine, o s\u0103 muncesc, s\u0103 dau statului ceva. Fratele nu te iube\u015fte. Mai mult te iubesc str\u0103inii dec\u00e2t fra\u0163ii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sor\u0103-mea mi-a spus c\u0103 am venit \u00een Bucure\u015fti s\u0103 m\u0103 plimb. Dar eu fac un tratament. Vreau s\u0103 m\u0103 fac bine. Ea umbl\u0103 \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate, \u00ee\u015fi aduce medicamente. Mie nu-mi d\u0103. \u015etie multe limbi. A fost \u00een Ungaria, \u00een Yugoslavia, a fost \u00een Cehoslovacia, \u00een Bulgaria. \u00ce\u015fi cump\u0103r\u0103 medicamente bune \u015fi mie nu-mi d\u0103. Suntem oameni to\u0163i. Dac\u0103 se uit\u0103 \u00een oglind\u0103 vede aceea\u015fi fa\u0163\u0103. Avem aceea\u015fi figur\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cineva mi-a dat m\u0103r. E\u015fti bun\u0103 c\u0103 te-ai a\u015fezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine. E\u015fti prietena mea. P\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103, a\u015fa a fost, cum am spus. E\u015fti bun\u0103. Te m\u00e2ng\u00e2i. Nu-\u0163i fac niciun r\u0103u. S\u0103 fii cuminte. \u015ei eu sunt cuminte. Dac\u0103 te ui\u0163i \u00een oglind\u0103…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sunt \u015fi eu t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103, nu numai tu e\u015fti t\u00e2n\u0103r. Mi-a dat m\u0103r, da, mi-a dat m\u0103r. M\u0103n\u00e2nc m\u0103r. Da, m\u0103n\u00e2nc m\u0103r \u015fi m\u0103 fac s\u0103n\u0103toas\u0103. Am f\u0103cut greva foamei \u015fi acum mi-a dat m\u0103r Sunt \u015fi eu om, ca \u015fi tine. N-am bot, am gur\u0103, ca \u015fi tine am. Nu m\u0103 bate.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu \u015ftii ce \u0163i se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103, ast\u0103zi sunt nefericit\u0103, m\u00e2ine o s\u0103 fiu fericit\u0103, tr\u0103iesc cu speran\u0163a, suntem egali, dac\u0103 te ui\u0163i \u00een ogling\u0103 vezi c\u0103 avem aceea\u015fi fa\u0163\u0103. Suntem egali, m\u00e2nc\u0103m aceea\u015fi m\u00e2ncare. S\u0103 nu m\u0103 ba\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cen spital d\u0103deau de p\u0103m\u00e2nt cu mine. Am f\u0103cut greva foamei \u015fi mi-au dat drumul, s\u0103 nu m\u0103 mai bat\u0103. Mi-a dat m\u0103r. Sunt cuminte. Doctorul a zis s\u0103 fiu cuminte, \u015fi m\u0103 fac bine, m\u0103 face bine. Iau \u00een fiecare zi medicamentele, sunt cuminte.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 E\u015fti t\u00e2n\u0103r. C\u00e2\u0163i ani ai? 16? E\u015fti mare. Eu am un copil de opt ani. \u00cel cheam\u0103 Pop Tiberiu. E\u015fti mare. Nu pot fi mama ta. Nu po\u0163i fi fiul meu. E\u015fti t\u00e2n\u0103r. \u015ei eu sunt t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103. Nu r\u00e2zi de mine, a\u015fa e.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te-ai a\u015fezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine, fato, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 nu \u0163i-e sil\u0103 de mine. Ai mil\u0103 \u00een tine. Simt mila \u00een tine. Suntem egali. \u015ei eu sunt om. Dac\u0103 te ui\u0163i \u00een oglind\u0103 vezi aceea\u015fi fa\u0163\u0103. Suntem prietene. E\u015fti prietena mea. Sunt prietena ta. Ea e prieten\u0103 cu mine. E bine s\u0103 ai prieteni. Ca s\u0103 nu fie du\u015fmani.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 E\u015fti bun\u0103. Eu simt omul, ca un c\u00e2ine. C\u00e2inii simt oamenii dup\u0103 miros. \u015ei eu simt oamenii ca un c\u00e2ine.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sunt bun\u0103. Nu te ating nici cu un deget.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00centorc\u00e2nd fa\u0163a de la polidemonism, \u0163ara f\u0103c\u00e2ndu-\u015fi-o anadamanez\u0103, nu r\u0103m\u00e2nea acela\u015fi? Mi-am pierdut, de tr\u0103znet, b\u0103tr\u00e2nul. De atunci m-a p\u0103r\u0103sit g\u00e2ndul spre st\u0103p\u00e2nul tr\u0103znetului, doar sufletul i s-a abandonat. Vin pe r\u00e2nd muzici din mor\u0163i generale, podoabele \u015fi elefan\u0163ii, penele de p\u0103s\u0103ri, atla\u015fii timbrului preclasic. T\u00e2rziu au loc nebunii sub cupolele celeste, ape m\u00e2loase, friguri, spaime coloniale. Ce mult se vor schimba ace\u015fti copii r\u0103sf\u0103\u0163a\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Actul se \u00eencheiase. Otiosus. Sose\u015fte. Cine? Guillaume de Poitiers. Nu mai era niciun act \u00een vigoare. Zilele sunt f\u0103r\u0103 crime, p\u00e2n\u0103 vin crimele \u015fi nu mai sunt zilele. F\u0103r\u0103 acte ne sunt dramele. Oamenii mei, adic\u0103 voi, sunt f\u0103r\u0103 destin de la mine. S\u0103ri\u0163i printre spectatori \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftiindu-v\u0103 adresele ca gloan\u0163ele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nume esoterice, tramvaie, pe jos. Devin director pentru a-mi spune mie \u00eensumi, s\u0103 tr\u0103i\u0163i. Dumnezeu din cer \u015fi mor\u0163ii din p\u0103m\u00e2nt comunic\u0103 prin in\u015fi dintre ace\u015ftia. Se plimb\u0103 cu bunicele, ele se ascund dup\u0103 inscrip\u0163iile direc\u0163iunii. Artistele din corp se dezbrac\u0103. Un mandarin, o Spanie, \u00eenc\u0103 una. \u00cen stomacul \u00eendurerat, ca pe o scen\u0103 unde \u00ee\u015fi fac meseria tragedienii, se petrece o poveste plin\u0103 de m\u0103re\u0163ie. Ie\u015find prin pere\u0163i, arti\u015ftii se \u00eenal\u0163\u0103 \u00een ochii milostivi ai consumatorilor. Prietenul nostru, de-o pild\u0103, pleac\u0103 definitiv \u00een Germania. S\u0103 bem ap\u0103. Dintre bolnavi, nu bea nimeni? Ah, ce rece e…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O fire nu \u0163i-e de ajuns, din Indii p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een cer \u015fi \u00eenapoi, la muntele f\u0103r\u0103 c\u0103lug\u0103ri. Sus e tat\u0103l. La ce folose\u015fti rug\u0103ciuni monografice \u00een fierbere nedezgropat\u0103? Noi te mai invit\u0103m o dat\u0103 la oper\u0103, la \u015fapte f\u0103r\u0103 un sfert, Don Quijote, Don Juan. Am ie\u015fit de la concert \u015fi am ajuns \u00een fine la oper\u0103 \u015fi nu mai era\u0163i, nu mai era nimeni, nici portarul, nici luminile aprinse \u015fi am traversat pia\u0163a cu pelerina aplecat\u0103 spre p\u0103m\u00e2nt, domnule. \u015ei c\u00e2nd am b\u0103ut coniac, b\u0103utorii, aveam to\u0163i s\u0103-\u0163i spunem ceva, ca din grija maicii b\u0103tr\u00e2ne.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cat\u0103 s\u0103 nu te mai sperii de pantomima din Asia, 1961. Nu vei face o crim\u0103. Nu e\u015fti urm\u0103rit. Ocup\u0103-te cu lucruri pure, oric\u00e2t \u0163i s-ar p\u0103rea c\u0103 te degradeaz\u0103. Fere\u015fte-te de monstruozit\u0103\u0163i, ab\u0163ine-te de la ultimatum. Caut\u0103 continuitate, leag\u0103. Azi, \u00een loc s\u0103 g\u00e2nde\u015fti trebuie s\u0103 vezi, \u00een loc s\u0103 afli trebuie s\u0103 sus\u0163ii, \u00een loc s\u0103 \u0163ii cu ceva trebuie s\u0103 te \u0163ii. Securitate municipal\u0103. Ne viziteaz\u0103 Eliade \u00een vis. A plouat la Oedip. Bufni\u0163e l\u0103untrice.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 De ce faci literatur\u0103 spiritualist\u0103? Unde e lega\u0163ia sovietic\u0103? Cel mai dureros este a te fi n\u0103scut \u00een Europa de acum. Spune-mi \u00een nem\u0163e\u015fte cum e. E grozav, ai citit? Nu eu, domnul de colo, m\u0103run\u0163elul cu ochii fix \u00een ziar. S-a suflat via\u0163\u0103 \u00eentr-un manechin. Ne\u015ftiind de ce tr\u0103ie\u015fte. Trei indieni pe cap. Ciread\u0103. Sc\u0103ld\u0103toare. Filantropie din vremurile astea. \u00cemi dau seama, dau seam\u0103. La fel de pr\u0103p\u0103di\u0163i, dar ce pomp\u0103. Etnos, etos.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Caracter caracteristic, at\u00e2t de plictisitor. Se retr\u0103geau cei 28 de oficiali de pe scen\u0103. Violonista, cu o fran\u0163uzoaic\u0103. Aranjasei ca versul \u201eat\u00e2t de alb\u0103 pas\u0103re c\u0103 nu m-a mai umbrit\u201d s\u0103 fie tip\u0103rit singur \u00eentr-o edi\u0163ie. Vin \u015fi indienii \u015fi \u00eentreab\u0103 unde-s so\u0163ia mea \u015fi fetele rom\u00e2nce. Oameni ca mine, v\u0103 spun eu, sunt necesari \u00eentotdeauna. Vin pe lume cu o socoteal\u0103, sfin\u0163i sau dricari, \u00ee\u0163i arat\u0103 cu exactitate strada c\u0103utat\u0103. E drept c\u0103 dac\u0103 e necesar\u0103 venirea pe lume a celor ca mine, eu nu mai sunt necesar. Mul\u0163i sunt mai t\u00e2mpi\u0163i dec\u00e2t victimele lor t\u00e2mpite.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Canarii \u00ee\u015fi fac din colivii m\u0103\u015fti pentru carnaval. Fum, arunc\u0103tur\u0103, str\u0103zi \u015fi v\u0103zduh impracticabile, masculine cu plural de neutru. Edi\u0163ia circul\u0103, cer\u015fetoarea se apleac\u0103, banii merg \u00een c\u00e2rje. Carnavalul se \u0163ine ca \u015fi cum s-ar \u0163ine de cuv\u00e2nt. Se \u0163ine \u00een\u0103untru. La o singur\u0103 fereastr\u0103 e lumin\u0103, la etaj. N-am intrat niciodat\u0103. Invita\u0163ia trebuie s\u0103 fie la mine, de vreme ce nu mi-am schimbat hainele. Cunosc din auzite cel pu\u0163in dou\u0103 intr\u0103ri. \u00cen \u00eentuneric e greu. Cui s\u0103-i spun c\u0103 am venit? M\u0103car invita\u0163ia dac\u0103 a\u015f g\u0103si-o, a\u015f \u00eenf\u0103\u015fura cu ea o piatr\u0103 \u015fi a\u015f arunca-o \u00een geam. Sau arunc piatra singur\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00cemi scutur to\u0163i purecii \u015fi \u00eentinde-o de unde am venit. Din loc \u00een loc, licuricii se mi\u015fc\u0103 de jur-\u00eemprejur \u00een cercuri concentrice. Fluierele ordinii sun\u0103 reflexul orei de cur\u0103\u0163enie. Din pasajul Victoria spre Arhitectur\u0103, pe u\u015fa consigna\u0163iei scrie \u00eenchis, miezul nop\u0163ii \u015fi jumate, o \u00eencerc, aici o v\u0103d, nu ca la carnaval. S-a deschis. \u00cen orice moment poate s\u0103 vin\u0103 cineva. Risc s\u0103 se spun\u0103 c\u0103 am \u00eencercat s\u0103 sparg consigna\u0163ia. Fac un pas, doi, podeaua se casc\u0103, m-am d\u0103r\u00e2mat \u00een beci. Mai dau de cine, nu \u015ftiu. Gura podelei se \u00eenchide. Plecasem la carnaval.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Le-am dat pr\u0103jiturile celorlalte bolnave din salon, s\u0103-le m\u0103n\u00e2nce ele, c\u0103 ea nu putea, e suflet c\u0103l\u0103tor. \u00cen prourul lui Sf\u00e2ntul Gheorghe, puneam salc\u0103 la poart\u0103, nu fag. P\u00e2ndarul ne-a prins cu oile \u00een gr\u00e2ne. Eu eram mic\u0103. Le-a luat la b\u0103taie pe fete. Ce le-a b\u0103tut. Dup’aia ele s-au pus pe jucat. B\u0103tute. \u015ei mai \u015fi strigau dup\u0103 p\u00e2ndar. Fire-ai alim\u0103nit\u0103, te-am luat de la \u0163igani pe-un ciur de f\u0103in\u0103. Nu mai d\u0103deai dumneata ciurul de f\u0103in\u0103 pe mine.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe 19 martie 1970, \u00een fa\u0163a pensiunii \u00een renovare, cum convenisem cu dou\u0103 luni \u00een urm\u0103, pe 19 ianuarie, l-am a\u015fteptat \u015fi l-am \u00eent\u00e2lnit pe Constantin Noica. Am b\u0103tut c\u00e2teva str\u0103zi, repede. \u00cei era frig. Am programat o nou\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lmire, \u00een cer, nu pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt, la acela\u015fi termen. Ce-ai f\u0103cut, fiule? Pleac\u0103 \u00een lume. Nu? Pleac\u0103 \u00een cultur\u0103. Da? \u00cei spun lui Grigore Popa, d-l Noica este un om extraordinare. \u015ei d-str\u0103 sunte\u0163i un om extraordinar. Dar d-l Noica mi-a dat un pumn. Nu-mi da\u0163i \u015fi d-str\u0103 unul?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iubita mea R., alias mamy, Nansi, Bec Mov, Buric Mov, Corcotopari\u0163a, \u00eencovoiat\u0103 \u00een fa\u0163a acvariului, d\u0103dea s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103, murea scalarul (ori carasul cu v\u0103l?) Costache, dup\u0103 \u015fapte ani de via\u0163\u0103. N-a murit. Mul\u0163umiri zeului pe\u015ftilor. Amintirile lui Mircea Eliade, ap\u0103rute la Madrid. Gone with the wind. A\u015f vrea s\u0103 fiu o canalie.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Faima lui Pistol a f\u0103cut-o Glon\u0163. Pistol e cumsecade. Glon\u0163 \u015fi-a \u00eennegrit \u00een pumni tat\u0103l \u015fi cumna\u0163ii, precum \u015fi pe cel pl\u0103tit cu cinci kile de \u0163uic\u0103 pentru a-i da cu sticla \u00een cap. Pistol e povestitor de c\u0103prioare. A crescut \u015fase iezi. Ur\u0103\u015fte lupii, n-a v\u0103zut nici unul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 At\u00e2rn\u0103-\u0163i, drag\u0103, haina-n cui, haide, tigoare. Ce ai cu haina mea, tovar\u0103\u015fe? \u0162i-e cald, nu-\u0163i dai seama? De unde \u015ftii cu ce persoane m\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lnesc, \u00een ce loc? Te rog s\u0103 m\u0103 prezin\u0163i \u015fi pe mine unde mergi. \u00cen halul \u0103sta? Prefer s\u0103 nu-mi mai scot eu haina. Vezi? Florile danseaz\u0103 putorile. \u00cemprumut\u0103-mi hainele, pentru nunt\u0103. M\u0103 \u00eensor \u015fi eu. Cu hainele mele. \u00cen hainele tale, cu domni\u015foara Viorica Nec\u015fulescu-Zarz\u0103r. Dezbrac\u0103-te acum. \u00censoar\u0103-te, dac\u0103 po\u0163i. Sunt dezbr\u0103cat. S\u0103-\u0163i iei liber.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am tr\u0103it \u00een propria mea literatur\u0103 spiritualist\u0103, redus la nefiin\u0163a literaturilor de mai nainte. Nu e lini\u015fte deloc \u00een Vrancea. L\u0103sat \u00een pace a suferi. \u00cen locul poeziei s-a a\u015fezat un secol. Dispari\u0163ia poeziei m\u0103re\u015fte credin\u0163a \u00een Dumnezeu. Poetul viu e ra\u0163iunea t\u00e2rziului. Primind un bilet dus-\u00eentors Bucure\u015fti-Boston, p\u0103rintele St\u0103niloae n-a avut timp s\u0103 mearg\u0103. Filosoful Noica a \u00eentrerupt o conversa\u0163ie foarte folositoare pentru mine c\u00e2nd o ma\u015fin\u0103 a Centrului i-a stat, nesperat, la dispozi\u0163ie, dar de ce aproape a fugit, de ce a fost s\u0103-\u015fi fractureze un picior, c\u00e2teva coaste \u015fi o m\u00e2n\u0103 la fr\u00e2narea troleibuzului?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Subiect pasionant pentru mine a fost convalescen\u0163a. Aveam concep\u0163ie convalescent\u0103. Nu confund arta cu durerea. Nu \u015fi da. \u015etim noi. Broasc\u0103 \u00een ap\u0103 fiart\u0103. Nu-l cunosc pe Lucian Blaga. C\u0103-l cuno\u015fti, c\u0103 nu? Domnule, nu e voie. De Zalmoxis, Rostirea. Am de jurat pe mai multe dec\u00e2t ar fi permis. Remy de Gourmont, lepros, scriind cu m\u0103nu\u015fi. Am necazuri, nea Brunea. Necazuri are \u015fi lemnul. Saltimbancul are pr\u0103pastia \u015fi moartea \u00een el, nu merge pe s\u00e2rma de telegraf ca r\u00e2ndunica.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mecanicul \u015fi cei trei \u015foferi, dup\u0103 ce \u015fi-au dus comandantul cu IMS-ul, au hot\u0103r\u00e2t s\u0103 treac\u0103 pe la ei pe acas\u0103, cam din sut\u0103 \u00een sut\u0103 de kilometri. S-au \u00eemb\u0103tat pe la casa fiec\u0103ruia, \u00eenc\u00e2t, ajung\u00e2nd la conducere, mecanicul vedea drumul c\u00e2t b\u0103\u0163ul de chibrit \u015fi, \u00een fine, au intrat ei \u00eentr-un pod, unul dintre \u015foferi rup\u00e2ndu-\u015fi maxilarul de jos, drept care, \u00een fa\u0163a batalionului, privindu-l colonelul \u00eentr-o doar\u0103 a crezut c\u0103 s-a str\u00e2mbat la el, dumnezeii m\u0103-tii, flea\u015fc o palm\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 L-am speriat cu Papini. I-a dat dou\u0103 palme. Mai \u00eencet, c\u0103 \u0163i se desface opera\u0163ia. Biciclistul beat s-a apucat s\u0103 arunce cu pietre dup\u0103 autobuz, pentru care l-a luat mili\u0163ianul \u015fi a intrat doi ani la pu\u015fc\u0103rie. Trei cu dou\u0103 sute de scandaluri la activ. \u00centuneric. I-a dat tat\u0103lui s\u0103u o uluc\u0103, s-o \u0163in\u0103 \u00een sus, pentru a-l recunoa\u015fte \u015fi a nu-l lovi. S\u0103-i l\u0103s\u0103m, c\u0103 am dat \u015fi eu. Lemn scurt, cu\u0163it cu m\u00e2ner rotund. Patruzeci de lovituri \u00een spinare.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Groap\u0103 umplut\u0103 cu nimic. Dezgroparea gropii. L-am privegheat. Eu fac aici literatur\u0103. Cel care-mi b\u0103tuse la u\u015fa b\u0103ii publice este operat, \u00ee\u015fi duce copilul la opera\u0163ie. Ochiul st\u00e2ng nu i se \u00eenhide, gura \u00eei este str\u00e2mbat\u0103 \u00een jos spre st\u00e2nga. Are obsesia c\u0103 e tras pe sfoar\u0103. Soacra, c\u0103 ar fi chior. E fiul fratelui bunicei mele dup\u0103 mam\u0103, v\u0103duva bunicului mort \u00eentr-o miercuri seara, la \u00eenceputul lui iulie. Am \u00eentrerupt \u00eensemnarea vie\u0163ii mele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Feti\u0163ele \u015fi b\u0103ie\u0163ii se dizolvaser\u0103 \u00een hal\u0103. O persoan\u0103 bulevardier\u0103 \u00eentreba multe lucruri, f\u0103r\u0103 scorpiceli, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 liftuie lifte. Cu cine vorbe\u015fti, pe cine tragi de limb\u0103? Vrei s\u0103 ai un co\u015fmar numit Radu? Roag\u0103 pe mama dumneatale s\u0103 \u00eengrijeasc\u0103 pisicile, s\u0103 aib\u0103 grij\u0103 de ce facultate s\u0103 \u00eenve\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe strada Cotrocenilor, femeia \u00eentre dou\u0103 v\u00e2rste, urmat\u0103 de cineva \u00een uniform\u0103, se oprise \u00een fa\u0163a unei por\u0163i. Cu pu\u0163ini metri \u00eenainte de a o ajunge, parc\u0103 amintindu-\u015fi ceva urgent, a f\u0103cut st\u00e2nga-mprejur \u015fi a pornit-o \u00eend\u0103r\u0103t cu iu\u0163eal\u0103. Mergea acum \u00een urma b\u0103rbatului. Avea soarele \u00een spate. Se vedea mai limpede c\u0103 era mai degrab\u0103 \u00een v\u00e2rst\u0103 dec\u00e2t t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103. Ba, pentru c\u0103 \u015fi gr\u0103su\u0163\u0103, tot se coco\u015fa, d\u00e2rd\u00e2ind nervos din p\u0103r\u0163ile spatelui, cam independente. Putea fi b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103 bine. De mirare cum se \u0163inea pe picioare. \u00cembr\u0103cat\u0103 pe neg\u00e2ndite \u00een negru, murise.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 T\u00e2n\u0103rul cu beret\u0103 pe cap, f\u0103r\u0103 veston, se ferea de orice \u00eent\u00e2lnire cu uniformele superioare. Femeia nu-l speriase cu a\u015fa ceva. Nu-l speriase de fel. Nici n-o v\u0103zuse. \u00cei venise s\u0103 se \u00eentoarc\u0103 pentru c\u0103 \u00eei era tot una, necunosc\u00e2nd ora\u015ful. \u00ce\u015fi scoase bereta. Fa\u0163a \u00eei era de copil. Copil, nu adolescent, nici majur. Ba nici copil. Atunci ce mai r\u0103m\u0103sese din el? De unde plecase, la urma urmei? Cine s\u0103 plece?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Vor fi acas\u0103 cei foarte b\u0103tr\u00e2ni. Unul are o prieten\u0103 \u00een Cotroceni, dar a uitat-o spre binele tuturora. Altul nu-i chiar a\u015fa b\u0103tr\u00e2n, dar are foarte mult\u0103 minte. Ceilal\u0163i se deosebesc prin particularit\u0103\u0163i singularizate \u00een lungul vie\u0163ii fiec\u0103ruia. Primul atr\u0103gea mul\u0163ime de pretutindeni plin\u0103 de sine ca de alte alea. Cel de-al doilea le lipea tuturor pe frunte o marc\u0103 po\u015ftal\u0103. Dup\u0103 ce-i v\u00e2ra, ca un gropar, \u00een cutii de tip special, o luai pe drum la deal, la vale. Te str\u00e2nsesei \u00een adunare, mai demult, apoi te-ai retras l\u00e2ng\u0103 lista goal\u0103. Dup\u0103 ce \u015fi ultimul timbru fusese lipit de al doilea b\u0103tr\u00e2n, iar te puteai retrage unde se nimerea, \u015fi nimereai \u00een acela\u015fi loc.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 NB a p\u0103truns \u015fi, \u0163eap\u0103n de netrebnic, 10 000 de lei \u2013 c\u0103 d\u0103 telefon (dup\u0103 3). VV \u2013 pe la el pentru licita\u0163ie. R: a dat telefon. \u015eL din V (N). ST c\u0103 vine pe la mine. Eu \u2013 la licita\u0163ie. M\u0103 a\u015fteapt\u0103 ni\u015fte vinova\u0163i. Sunt vinovat eu. Mai veniser\u0103 \u015fi IG \u015fi GT. Nu sunt vinovat. Ascetul cu munte are bani s\u0103 vin\u0103 \u00een Bucure\u015fti. IG o fi nebun? Verbiajul. Vorbe\u015fte minunat pentru cine caut\u0103 obiecte. C\u00e2ine foarte r\u0103u, dou\u0103 vulpi sf\u00e2\u015fiate, una chiar m\u00e2ncat\u0103. Fura lucern\u0103, copiii: ia-l Leu, \u015fi tot ei s-au apucat s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 v\u0103z\u00e2nd cum c\u00e2inele t\u0103v\u0103le\u015fte pe ho\u0163. La copii nu sare. Cei vii sunt asasinii celor mor\u0163i, Sciascia. E\u015fti chior, mai chioar\u0103 e\u015fti tu \u015fi m\u0103-ta, c\u0103 te ui\u0163i \u00een cruce. Dup\u0103 ce-\u015fi pleznise soacra: s\u0103 \u015ftie c\u0103 aici se afl\u0103 un b\u0103rbat. Copilul: Dumnezeu’ m\u0103-sii, nu vede c\u0103 aici suntem doi b\u0103rba\u0163i.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 P\u0103l\u0103ria nemai\u00eenc\u0103p\u00e2ndu-i capul fusese a\u015fezat\u0103 pe un col\u0163 al tronului. C\u00e2nd s\u0103-l \u00eencarce \u00een c\u0103ru\u0163a \u00eempodobit\u0103 cu crengi de stejar, unul dintre b\u0103rba\u0163i i-a luat p\u0103l\u0103ria. Apoi, la indignarea altuia, a pus-o la loc. P\u0103l\u0103ria era la capul b\u0103tr\u00e2nului c\u00e2nd citea popa. Nu \u015ftiu dac\u0103 cea dinainte. La cobor\u00e2rea \u00een groap\u0103, cu a groparului, se f\u0103cuser\u0103, acolo, pe dunga tronului, dou\u0103 p\u0103l\u0103rii. C\u00e2nd s-au sl\u0103bit funiile, o singur\u0103 p\u0103l\u0103rie se scufunda totu\u015fi, cu un bor ie\u015fit de sub capac.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 C\u0103ma\u015fa lui proasp\u0103t sp\u0103lat\u0103 mirosea puternic a s\u0103pun stricat, scrobeal\u0103 degradat\u0103 \u015fi chiar ap\u0103 s\u0103lcie. C\u00e2nd a cobor\u00e2t, \u015fi c\u00e2t de \u00eencet, ajutat de mult\u0103 lume, am v\u0103zut c\u0103 mergea greu \u00een baston, aplecat de spate, sprijinit de o femeie. \u00cei lipsea \u00eens\u0103 p\u0103l\u0103ria. Profilul s\u0103u aducea cu al domnului A, mort m\u00e2ine o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103, \u00een v\u00e2rst\u0103 de 75 de ani, fost notar, printre altele. Nu l-am v\u0103zut niciodat\u0103 cu p\u0103l\u0103rie. Prin fiul s\u0103u \u00eemi dau seama de obiceiul relativ al neamului A de a nu purta p\u0103l\u0103rie. \u015ei uite c\u0103 nu po\u0163i s\u0103 intri \u00een groap\u0103, ca \u00eentr-o \u015fedin\u0163\u0103, cu capul gol.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Alalt\u0103ieri m\u0103 f\u0103ceam vinovat fa\u0163\u0103 de cei ce se f\u0103cuser\u0103 vinova\u0163i fa\u0163\u0103 de mine. N-aveau dec\u00e2t s\u0103 m\u0103 judece. S-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat, ce s\u0103-i faci. \u015ei nu se \u00eent\u00e2mplase nimic. E\u015fti vinovat dac\u0103 stai cu m\u00e2inile \u00een s\u00e2n. \u015ei mai ales dac\u0103 \u0163i-ai \u015fi scuipat \u00een s\u00e2n. Victim\u0103 politic\u0103, la fel \u015fi muntele. Un mort ori un om plecat \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate (sau chiar pe un munte autohton) pot da de lucru foarte mult celor interesa\u0163i. Ace\u015ftia din urm\u0103 sunt nep\u0103trun\u015fi, cu toate c\u0103 singure glasurile lor vor s\u0103 le fac\u0103 auzite, \u015fi nu numai auzite. Alalt\u0103ieri, ca \u015fi poim\u00e2ine, \u015fi ast\u0103zi, indiferent de nenorocirile ce ne pasc, \u015fi-l pasc \u015fi pe el, omul cu p\u0103l\u0103rie se aplecase s\u0103 bea ap\u0103 tocmai c\u00e2nd a trecut autobuzul pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 \u0163\u00e2\u015fnitoarea din fa\u0163a prim\u0103riei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Haide\u0163i s\u0103 sus\u0163inem c\u0103 este spion. Cum adic\u0103, spion ca pictorul Tomaziu? Lu\u0163i seama mai bine. Pe c\u00e2nd eram copil, dracul ne speria oricine am fi fost sorti\u0163i s\u0103 devenim. Acum ne sperie spionul, oricine am fi devenit. Imens egal \u00eentre v\u0103zut \u015fi nev\u0103zut. Am uitat s\u0103 v\u0103d statuia. N-o mai fi acolo. Firma de ceasornice, ori\u00a0 de statui ale lui Kog\u0103lniceanu, cu K, s\u0103 fi fost compus\u0103 \u00een alt\u0103 limb\u0103? Pe c\u00e2nd voiam s\u0103 ajung ghid intern, numele Maimarolu \u00eemi pl\u0103cea a\u015fa cum \u00eemi place azi numele de Tomaziu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Am urcat la Agricultori, am cobor\u00e2t la Italian\u0103. Autobuzele astea noi, cele mai noi de la noi, sunt importate de unde nici nu mai scrie, ca pe cele dinainte (Merkavim, sau a\u015fa ceva). \u00cen dreapta taxatoarei \u015fi deasupra capului ei st\u0103 scris ferm \u201evom opri\u201d. Cum scrisul de acolo n-are niciun amestec cu traseul, \u00ee\u0163i pare c\u0103 totul va fi oprit la o dat\u0103 bine precizat\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 L\u00e2ng\u0103 tumb\u0103raie, cei doi m\u0103tur\u0103tori luau \u00een gur\u0103 politic\u0103 interna\u0163ional\u0103. Ca adev\u0103ra\u0163i membri ai Partidului Comunist Japonez, comentau vorbele de raport ale lui Kenji Miyamoto. Ce zici, auzi c\u0103 transformarea sistemului reprezentativ \u00eentr-un sistem mai perfec\u0163ionat constituie ideea fundamental\u0103 a socialismului \u015ftiin\u0163ific. Se poate, dar tu ce zici c\u0103 exist\u0103 tendin\u0163a de a considera subordonarea fa\u0163\u0103 de un anumit partid ca interna\u0163ionalism proletar, e? Las\u0103 astea, mai bine, ce zici, bate echipa noastr\u0103 m\u00e2ine? M\u0103tur\u0103torii de fund nu sunt \u00een form\u0103, ce zici? Zic s\u0103 termin\u0103m cu str\u0103zile astea \u015fi pe urm\u0103, c\u00e2nd o s\u0103 bem ceva… La\u00a0 \u201epai\u015fpe craci\u201d, drag\u0103 tovar\u0103\u015fe. \u00ceh\u00ee, s\u0103-\u0163i povestesc cum eram plimbat \u00eentr-un c\u0103rucior, c\u00e2nd eram mic. \u015ei cine era gunoier, c\u0103 te \u015ftiu orfan din na\u015ftere…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dragii de ei, aveam s\u0103-i \u00eent\u00e2lnesc \u00een c\u00e2rciuma noastr\u0103, a tuturor oamenilor foarte serio\u015fi, care, numai fiindc\u0103 nu li se recunoa\u015fte seriozitatea recurg la a fi neserio\u015fi pe timpul c\u00e2t \u00ee\u015fi beau spirtul,c\u00e2t nu li se recunoa\u015fte iubirea, din moment ce mai primesc \u015fi chelf\u0103neal\u0103 de la so\u0163ii, de la rude \u015fi chiar de la scumpii lor copii. O \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntare de tat\u0103 cost\u0103 3000 de lei. Amenda primit\u0103 de cel ce s-a pi\u015fat \u00een restaurantul g\u0103rii (a mai \u015fi spus-o, m\u0103 pi\u015f pe zvastic\u0103, adic\u0103 pe ce desena el din urin\u0103) se ridic\u0103 la suma de 3000 de lei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ai liber\u0103 trecere constitu\u0163ional\u0103. Beat pe un toruar, spui tot ce ai pe suflet. N-ai \u00een buzunar nicio legitima\u0163ie. A doua zi intri \u00een restaurant. Fata \u015fefului \u015fefilor s-a ad\u0103postit la o mas\u0103. Masa vecin\u0103 e liber\u0103. Te a\u015fezi \u015fi \u00eencepi s\u0103 fii sigur, dac\u0103 vrei, te vei \u00eensura cu ea. Dar mai mult nu vrei, dec\u00e2t vrei. \u015ei de ce nu vrei? Nu deocamdat\u0103. M\u00e2ine, dac\u0103 nu s-o am\u00e2na, \u00een adunare. A ie\u015fit scandal p\u00e2n\u0103 sus c\u0103 la noi beau to\u0163i. B\u0103utori de strad\u0103.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Migran\u0163i de azi, subterane fixe, Blaga b\u0103nuitul, poporul \u00een fapt de ziu\u0103, lepra lui Remy. Coco\u015ful dinspre biseric\u0103 asociaz\u0103 \u015fi el balul cu sf\u00e2r\u015fitul lumii. A\u015f fi pus doi parlamentari s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103. \u00cen realitate, g\u00e2ndurile \u00eemi au cur\u0103\u0163enia dintr-un spital de ochi. F\u0103r\u0103 a lua \u00een seam\u0103 cuv\u00e2ntul Direc\u0163iune scris \u00een josul a tot felul de interdic\u0163ii caligrafiate pe t\u0103bli\u0163e de o \u00eengrijire nemiloas\u0103. S-o fi strecurat m\u00e2na mai t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103 a asistentelor, cer\u00e2nd s\u0103 se deschid\u0103 bine ochii c\u00e2nd se umbl\u0103 prin clinic\u0103. Surdo-mutei oarbe: curvo. Milogule, te-am scos la lumin\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 La ce s\u0103 ie\u015fi la poart\u0103 s\u0103 conduci solda\u0163i? Ce s\u0103 cau\u0163i, fie c\u0103 ai de a\u015fteptat, \u00een gar\u0103? Fere\u015fte-te de boli lume\u015fti. N-am cunoscut filosofii. M\u00e2ine m\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lnesc cu d-l C. Noica. Ce-i voi spune? Nici filosofii nu m\u0103 cunosc. Dar teologii? Ce \u015ftiu eu? Ce \u015ftiu ei? Trebuia s\u0103 fiu mai atent \u015fi s\u0103 r\u0103spund invita\u0163iei d-lui D. St\u0103niloae. Mi s-a f\u0103cut dor de o nou\u0103 scrisoare de la d-l Mircea Eliade. Cum s-o provoc? Legat la ochi, doctorul \u00eemi spune, Ei, ce facem azi? Dezleag\u0103-m\u0103, s\u0103 v\u0103d cu cine stau de vorb\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M-am trezit \u00een bra\u0163e cu un Eminescu \u015fi un Shakespeare. Mi-a venit \u00een minte \u015fi Rabelais. Nu cumva oi fi Rabelais. N-am fost niciodat\u0103 \u00een Fran\u0163a. Nu m-am amestecat cu nimic sublim. Poate c\u00e2ndva. Prin amintire, nenorocirile \u00eemi vor fi previzibile. Nu sunt nenorocit.\u00a0 Ce-a\u015f fi de nu mi-ar fi \u00eentins m\u00e2na filosoful? \u201eCunoa\u015fterea concep\u0163iilor gre\u015fite spre a fi dep\u0103\u015fite creator\u201d – \u015fi dau to\u0163i din m\u00e2ini, s\u0103 aib\u0103 Gulian la ce se uita aprobativ. S-a terminat emisiunea.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Iar eu am fost la filosof acas\u0103. \u00cen balcon, la etajul unu, v\u0103z\u00e2nd un copil, m-am uitat p\u00e2n\u0103 ce \u015fi-a pus capul pe balustrad\u0103, g\u00e2nditor, ca \u00een urm\u0103 s\u0103 vin\u0103 \u015fi sor\u0103-sa. Uitasem, \u015fedea la etajul 3. M\u0103 a\u015ftepta. A\u015fa a fost conven\u0163ia, a spus. \u00cei scrisesem, V\u0103 voi vizita joi 30 iulie, ora 18, cum s-a \u015fi \u00eent\u00e2mplat. P\u0103rea obosit. Nu era. Era filosoful. Ce repede a trecut o or\u0103 \u015fi jum\u0103tate. Am venit dup\u0103 porunci. Nimic. Discu\u0163ie despre Rostire, despre cartea mea Eres, a citit-o.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pentru d\u00e2nsul, eu exist, mi-a spus-o. Apreciaz\u0103 cinstea delirului din cartea mea, care nu e carte, fiindc\u0103 e a unui autor care nu e autor… C\u00e2nd \u00eentregul este nigmatic, detaliul nu trebuie s\u0103 mai fie enigmatic. Nu mi-a prins cheia. Foi cu capete t\u0103iate, care strig\u0103 Cap! Cap! S\u0103 creez \u00een \u00eentuneric, cititorul s\u0103 fie \u00een lumin\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103 cread\u0103 \u00een \u00eentuneric, s\u0103 creez \u00een condi\u0163ia mea p\u0103r\u0103sind-o pentru a intra \u00een condi\u0163ia cititorului \u015fi acesta s\u0103 \u00een\u0163eleag\u0103 condi\u0163ia mea.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 E prerostire, nu rostire, e fire nu fiin\u0163\u0103, e \u00een sine, nu e \u00een \u015fi pentru sine, n-a trecut de la \u00een sine la pentru sine \u015fi, \u00eentorc\u00e2ndu-se la sine, s\u0103 fie \u015fi pentru sine. Nu am spus s\u0103 fie lumin\u0103 \u015fi lumin\u0103 se f\u0103cu. Am \u015fanse mai \u00eencolo, \u00eenfund\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 \u015fi mai mult \u00een delir \u015fi r\u0103t\u0103cire \u015fi haos. G\u00e2ndul din spatele g\u00e2ndului, ca la Gabriel Marcel, \u00een jurnal.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cultur\u0103. M\u0103 hr\u0103nesc. E ca fumatul. Deci, pentru dumneata, cultura e un aliment, nu un medicament, cum este pentru critic. El se vindec\u0103 prin cultur\u0103. Mi-e team\u0103 s\u0103 nu p\u0103\u0163esc iar ca atunci c\u00e2nd am refuzat propunerea b\u0103tr\u00e2nului profesor de matematic\u0103 din or\u0103\u015fel ca eu s\u0103 \u00eenfiin\u0163ez cercul de matematic\u0103. Atunci ai jignit un archaeu. Acum te temi s\u0103 nu mai jigne\u015fti niciun arheu \u015fi-i \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fezi\u00a0 pe to\u0163i, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 te opre\u015fti, poate, astfel, la nici unul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Deci eu nu \u015ftiu ce am \u015fi ce-mi trebuie de f\u0103cut. S-ar spune c\u0103 m\u0103 \u00een\u0163eleg cu oamenii: ca atunci c\u00e2nd scobe\u015fti \u00een nisipul din r\u00e2u \u015fi apa se n\u0103puste\u015fte bucuroas\u0103 \u00een golul creat desfiin\u0163\u00e2ndu-l spre bucuria celui de sus, a celui ce-a scobit \u00een joac\u0103. Trebuie s\u0103 curg. Bun. \u00cen afara mea, oamenii curg de bun\u0103 credin\u0163\u0103 \u00een golul scobit \u00een locul meu. \u00cen\u0103untru? Acolo tot curgere? C\u00e2t\u0103 curgere, doamne fere\u015fte. Ah, este calea mea, uitasem. \u015ei eu r\u0103m\u0103sesm la cealalt\u0103 cale, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eentreprind nimic \u015fi, acum aflu, f\u0103r\u0103 chiar s\u0103-mi fie cu putin\u0163\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015ei cum s\u0103 curg\u0103 un gol scobit sub presiunea apei ce se \u00eenghesuie? Nu mai este golul gol de-acum. Se n\u0103ruie, \u015fi fa\u0163a r\u00e2ului e lini\u015ftit\u0103. Acolo spulberat, i-a fost curegere pieirea? \u015ei cum ar curge tocmai din momentul c\u00e2nd a fost oprit din ceruri? Poate s\u0103 nu fiu astfel. La urma urmei, nu m\u0103 intereseaz\u0103 cum sunt. Prea mult, nici polimerii, ADN supra sau subspiralat nu m\u0103 interseaz\u0103. Sunt \u015fi \u00een alc\u0103tuirea mea, de ce mi-ar alc\u0103tui g\u00e2ndirea?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00e2ndirea mea r\u00e2sul de pe lume. Sim\u0163irea mea nu face nici pasul ce o desparte de pl\u00e2ns. P\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi tat\u0103l meu, dar mai ales el, dac\u0103 stau s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc, \u00eemi d\u0103 sfatul s\u0103-mi g\u0103sesc caden\u0163a spiritual\u0103. Pentru asta trebuie s\u0103-mi bag nevasta \u00een serviciu! Interesul oamenilor pentru tine + cine s\u0103 te apere de ei, de ce? Mai bine interesul t\u0103u pentru ce? A, caietele mele viseaz\u0103 la caietele lui Eminescu. \u00cencep s\u0103 m\u0103 dep\u0103\u015fesc. De-a\u015f afla ce vreau prin ce nu vreau. Nu vreau nimic \u2013 \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 vreau ceea ce nu vreau?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Da, a spus filosoful, pentru mine se potrive\u015fte, altfel spus: non multa, sed multum. Facem planul scrierii unui trai al orelor. I l-am m\u0103rturisit \u015fi R. De ce? Chiar, de ce? Solu\u0163ia ceasului de\u015ftept\u0103tor, noaptea, care s\u0103 m\u0103 trezeasc\u0103 din or\u0103 \u00een or\u0103 n-a mers. Nu vom cump\u0103ra ceas, a\u015fa cum n-am cump\u0103rat canapea. Eram chit. \u00censeamn\u0103 c\u0103 opera ei e via\u0163a noastr\u0103, a mea ar fi observa\u0163ia de sine orar\u0103. Am f\u0103cut un asemenea plan tocmai eu, care nu am afirmat m\u0103car o dat\u0103 \u00een via\u0163a mea: m\u0103 simt bine.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ceasul socrului meu nu merge. S\u0103 m\u0103 trezeasc\u0103 cineva, s\u0103 angajez 7-8 oameni, paznicul de la securit. Cum eu a\u015f avea drept obiect persoana mea, sau un fragment al ei, R crede c\u0103 asta e de domeniul \u015ftiin\u0163ei, s\u0103 propun la academie. A\u015f p\u0103\u0163i ca m\u0103garul turcului. M\u0103 sf\u0103tuie\u015fte s\u0103 fiu \u015fmecher, s\u0103 inventez orele. Vai, dup\u0103 ore, ar urma m\u0103suri mai mici, starea liric\u0103 se m\u0103soar\u0103 \u00een frac\u0163iuni de secund\u0103. O or\u0103 mi-ar putea cere ani pentru a o \u00eensemna reflexiv, argumentat. La 05, s\u0103 sune din or\u0103 \u00een or\u0103. \u00centreb un doctor. Dar s\u0103 fiu \u015fi eu de fa\u0163\u0103. Acum e 23.34. A fost ora 24, radio.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 U Thant. De pe podea, furnicile urc\u0103, \u00een somn, pe t\u00e2mpl\u0103. Siria nu accept\u0103 planul Rogers. Migrena. Grom\u00e2ko-Schell-Moscova. Perechea str\u0103in\u0103 din ma\u015fin\u0103 c\u0103uta strada Sm\u00e2rdan, pentru ADAS. Am transmis un buletin de \u015ftiri. Percu\u0163ie. Omor un purice adus de solda\u0163i. Gustul purecelui, amestecat cu al s\u0103punului. M\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc s\u0103 pironesc \u015fi cea\u015fca, a\u015fa cum f\u0103cusem cu fluturele cornos. Dar el a zburat. Cea\u015fca o s\u0103 asculte c\u00e2ntece boeme pe limb\u0103 din Fran\u0163a din momentul c\u00e2nd voi \u00eenchide aparatul de radio.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 P\u00e2n\u0103 la ora 8, aveam ce m\u0103rturisi. \u00cen nucleele mi\u015fc\u0103toare ale orelor, mi-a\u015f fi adus aminte Patria, mintea patriei. Hector lui Glaucos: Vai, \u015fi credeam c\u0103 e\u015fti cel mai cuminte b\u0103rbat de prin \u0163ara \/ Rodnic\u0103 unde domne\u015fti (Homer). \u00cen mijlocul unei ore, a\u015ftept alt\u0103 or\u0103. Era ora nou\u0103 \u2013 dar aproape imediat dup\u0103 aceea c\u00e2nd am privit ceasul am constatat c\u0103 era zece (Scott Fitzgerald). \u00cemi dau drumul v\u00e2rtos, scormonind ce e cu ora. E fumul fumat, ceva \u00een pl\u0103m\u00e2ni. Corectura cronicii la DD Ro\u015fca, ba carnavalul \u00een ochii lui Goethe, Dante \u00een fran\u0163uze\u015fte 350 lei. Orele n-au via\u0163a noastr\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Unde e ceasul? A stat la 4 \u015fi ceva. S-a f\u0103cut ziu\u0103 \u015fi am deschis aparatul. Nicio or\u0103. O emisiune la care am colaborat. Am cl\u0103tinat ceasul, arat\u0103 de fric\u0103 o or\u0103. Nici jetul Her\u0103str\u0103ului nu \u0163\u00e2\u015fne\u015fte ca la Geneva. Noapte, nemurire incognito, din plictis. Supunerea ei perfid\u0103 aduce \u00eensorirea pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt. Clipa meteoric\u0103 a trezirii din frica dureroas\u0103 de lumin\u0103. Aprinz. Valdemone, 9, Ragaglia. Directorul casei de cultur\u0103 a propus s\u0103 fie mutat\u0103 gropa. Cele mai frumose propozi\u0163ii sunt cu a vrea, ba cu a presupune.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Stau \u00een mijlocul unui teren c\u0103ruia nu-i recunosc existen\u0163a. La plecarea din Bucure\u015fti spre Sinaia, am citit 8-10 propozi\u0163ii kantiene. Ce voi citi\u00a0 m\u00e2ine, la \u00eentoarcere? Voi chiar scrie o fraz\u0103 \u2013 mijloc de transport spre un s\u00e2n al naturii afectat treburilor lumii, s\u00e2n ce s-ar bucura eventual \u015fi de canalizare – , c\u00e2t s\u0103 am motive, odat\u0103 cu Bachelard \u015fi Nicasius, s\u0103 umblu dup\u0103 sisteme filosofice \u00een particulele elementare. Nimicul din cuv\u00e2nt. \u015ei dup\u0103 ce nu mai scriu fraza \u00eemi dau seama de fericirea ce mi-a procurat-o. Cum a\u015f ur\u00ee rase stilistice, \u00een fomulele fiziologismului lor, sau mijloace de transport. Legile canaliz\u0103rii m-au preocupat de-a lungul timpurilor. Altfel, de ce a\u015f fi amestecat aici Sicilia?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Te a\u015fezi. Pe nepus\u0103 mas\u0103, apare fraza. Nebunul vorbe\u015fte moldovene\u015fte, europeanul zice popa prinde pe\u015fte, unul \u00eentru altul. Limbi scoase pe sub nasuri c\u00e2rne. Lupi alerg\u00e2nd dup\u0103 calul de 30.000 lei. Ramolena. Fetele \u00ee\u015fi pun chipiul c\u0103pitanului. Ia vezi c\u0103 faci vreo istorie. Une petite histoire, Auri\u0163o. Eros noctis. Mi-a ghicit gol afar\u0103 din cas\u0103. Am dat-o cu eresul, pu\u015fc\u0103rie?<\/div>\n
s\u0103 n-avem niciun g\u00e2nd cuceritor o domni\u015fori<\/div>\n
se dau de ceasul mor\u0163ii patru ninse fe\u0163e<\/div>\n
ale p\u0103m\u00e2ntului \u00eenghi\u0163itor de s\u0103bii<\/div>\n
poruncile t\u0103iat-au limbile poruncitorilor<\/div>\n
o domni\u015fori cu g\u00e2nd cuceritor la floare neiubit\u0103<\/div>\n
1970<\/em><\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00e2ndurile sale de om trecut prin Dumnezeu se adunau pentru a se risipi drept omagiu luminii sp\u00e2nzurate de v\u00e2nt \u00een taini\u0163a Bucure\u015ftilor. Ap\u0103re\u0163i odat\u0103 cu eternitatea, spusese R., care nu am\u00e2na niciodat\u0103 nimic. Tu nu mai termini istoria prestidigitatorului. Pe 30 martie, \u00een salonul spaniol al restaurantului Athenee Palace, ai s\u0103rb\u0103torit, \u00eempreun\u0103 cu o adunare \u00een \u00eentregime evreiasc\u0103, pe Jean From Com\u0103nescu. Beligan \u015fi Barbu \u015fi-au trimis scuzele.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cine iube\u015fte prin ur\u0103 neamul s\u0103u numai s\u0103 iubeasc\u0103 \u015fi Dumnezeu \u00eel va \u00eendrept\u0103\u0163i, cine nu iube\u015fte iubindu-\u015fi v\u0103traiul cer\u015fit de la str\u0103ini \u015fi at\u00e2t cr\u0103par-ar, crpar-a\u015f. Trebuie s\u0103 vii de la centru pentru a fi primit bine \u015fi noi nu \u015ftim de unde venim. Istoria jele\u015fte, poezia \u00ee\u015fi vars\u0103 s\u00e2ngele, filosofia \u00ee\u015fi sf\u0103tuie\u015fte filosofii cum s\u0103-\u015fi vindece reumatismele c\u0103p\u0103tate \u00eentre ziduri. Nu avem fapta, ne credem a fi o fapt\u0103. Vorbele curg \u00een dorul r\u0103zboiului curg\u0103tor. C\u00e2nd eram \u00een stare de r\u0103zboi, \u015foferii nu voiau s\u0103 respecte ordinul de a \u00eenc\u0103rca peste 3 tone de muni\u0163ii pentru Bucure\u015fti, pentru c\u0103 se f\u0103cea un ghe\u0163u\u015f prin p\u0103durea \u00eenghe\u0163at\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dumnezeu este cel ce uit\u0103 r\u0103ul. Tu nu \u0163ii minte r\u0103ul, \u00ee\u0163i amintesc preo\u0163ii. N-am venit pentru cei drep\u0163i, ci pentru cei p\u0103c\u0103to\u015fi, iar tu alergi spre p\u0103cat de team\u0103 c\u0103 nu a venit Iisus \u015fi pentru tine, c\u0103 nu \u0163i-a piront p\u0103catele pe cruce. Ai p\u0103c\u0103tuit cu mirosul, cu pip\u0103itul, cu vreo aprindere. Pentru m\u00e2ntuire am v\u0103zut lumina. \u00cen \u00eentunericul Ca\u015finului, legat \u015fi dezlegat pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt ca \u015fi \u00een cer, g\u00e2ndul urca p\u00e2n\u0103 printre z\u0103pezile prim\u0103verii de afar\u0103, din 5 martie.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S-a \u00eentors tovar\u0103\u015fu’ Anca? So\u0163ia \u00eei r\u0103spunsese afirmativ. Trecui la telefon la vorbitor. Dac\u0103 am v\u0103zut Calendarul Credin\u0163a, nu, am scris un articol, \u00een leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu acest articol, nou\u0103 ne-a pl\u0103cut, pozitiv sau negativ, pozitiv, noi suntem cu pozitivul, al\u0163ii cu negativul. Cum s\u0103 ne vedem s\u0103 facem o discu\u0163ie, s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lnesc cu el la ora 18 la Turist. Am trecut pe la prietenul V (b\u0103rba\u0163ii sunt h\u0103itui\u0163i, la 27 de ani sunt aproape b\u0103tr\u00e2n), m-a oprit la pr\u00e2nz \u015fi la \u015fah anume mult dup\u0103 ora \u00eent\u00e2lnirii, s\u0103 se asigure c\u0103 nu m\u0103 duc de fric\u0103. La polul nord sau, parc\u0103, \u00een c\u0103l\u0103toriile nordice, mor cei care beau alcool s\u0103 se \u00eenc\u0103lzeasc\u0103, cred ei, dar arterele li se umfl\u0103 \u015fi apoi \u00eei omoar\u0103 frigul \u2013 V o s\u0103 scrie pe undeva lucrul acesta.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Asear\u0103 am cam \u00eencurcat borcanele, \u00eemi spune la telefonul redac\u0163iei. \u00cei r\u0103spund, \u00eencurcat, c\u0103 nu era propriu locul \u00eent\u00e2lnirii, prefer unul oficial. De ce, domnule, c\u0103 e \u00een interesul dumitale. O s\u0103 m\u0103 cunoa\u015fte\u0163i \u015fi o s\u0103 vede\u0163i c\u0103 nu am uzul barurilor. Atunci c\u00e2nd s\u0103 ne vedem \u015fi s\u0103 discut\u0103m ni\u015fte probleme? Acum tocmai scriu un articol. Luni? Luni nu am treburi urgent. E un respiro? Da, un respiro. O s\u0103 v\u0103 caut eu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A\u015f fi scris un act al Doamnei Ratlow, pe-o replic\u0103 de genul: Da\u0163i-mi un refugiu for\u0163at. Tare a mai \u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2nit \u015fi frumoas\u0103-i. Actul purta sufletul privitorilor destul de aproape de un ocean nenavigat. Doamna Ratlow ar vorbi cu peisajul, ca \u015fi cum acesta ar fi o blan\u0103 de vulpe argintie. Doamna Ratlow ar fi, subit, o refugiat\u0103 basarabeanc\u0103, str\u0103lucitoare alt\u0103dat\u0103 prin balurile Kievului sau Moscovei. Cea mai frumoas\u0103 parte ar fi fost monologul Zambilei.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu te g\u00e2nde\u015fti cum te cheam\u0103. Confunzi binele cu gloria de a fi \u00eeng\u0103duit de privirea g\u0103urilor din zidurile medievale de ap\u0103rare. Ne alegem sfin\u0163ii dintre mor\u0163i, nu \u015ftim cum ar\u0103tau, ca pentru a nu \u015fti pe cine lichid\u0103m. Cu libertatea se aranjeaz\u0103, zice Jean. Imbecillus \u00eenseamn\u0103 slab, neputincios. Exact nimeni. D-l Cantacuzino, de 71 de ani, \u00eei spune lui Petre care erau secretarele lui Iorga, din 1920 p\u00e2n\u0103 la sf\u00e2r\u015fit. Doamna cu pricina fusese func\u0163ionar\u0103 la pre\u015fedin\u0163ia Consiliului de Mini\u015ftri, trebuie s\u0103 aib\u0103 75 de ani, iar d\u00e2nsul n-o cunoa\u015fte pe numele ei cel nou.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Spunemi tu, spune-mi spu… A nu \u00eengropa pe dos cu c\u0103lc\u00e2iul boabele de fasole \u00een brazd\u0103. L-ai desenat pe organist, dar te pl\u00e2ngi de fotografia orgii. M\u00e2inile \u00eemi tremur\u0103 de-o ner\u0103bdare perchezi\u0163ionat\u0103. Mi-a mai \u015fi prevestit o evreic\u0103 ast\u0103zi c\u0103 voi ajunge mucenic. Sunt \u00een retragere, nu \u00een atragere. Iubind cu gramaticile deschise, apel\u00e2ndu-ne m\u0103gulitor pentru interesele statului \u015fi ale poporului. \u015ei pe tine te voi jale. Am fost \u00een comisia de reabilitare a poetului Ion Prale. Catedra de bizantinologie s-a aranjat la o conferin\u0163\u0103 de pres\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Cu \u0163ara n-ai voie s\u0103 faci sadism. Valoarea omului este mai mare dec\u00e2t a crea\u0163iei sale. Micu\u0163ul Iulian \u00eel b\u00e2rfea pe \u0162oan\u0163\u0103, b\u0103ga be\u0163ivii \u00een p\u0103m\u00e2nt, arunca pe unul peste cas\u0103, altuia \u00eei d\u0103dea cu ma\u015fina \u00een cap, iar dac\u0103 altul tot se mai calma s\u0103 dea \u00een el, el, care are un partid, care nu pleac\u0103 nic\u0103ieri f\u0103r\u0103 mili\u0163ie \u2013 vrea s\u0103 ajung\u0103 mili\u0163ian \u015fi nu mecanic auto ca taic\u0103-s\u0103u, pentru simplul motiv c\u0103 el este \u00eensu\u015fi tat\u0103l s\u0103u (c\u00e2nd avea 4 ani, s-a certat cu maic\u0103-sa \u015fi a b\u0103tut-o, la rug\u0103mintea acesteia; vine tat\u0103l, dai tu \u00een nevast\u0103-mea, m\u0103? Asta e nevast\u0103-ta?).<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dumnezeu\u00a0 numai s\u0103 se lase fotografiat nu are timp. Arta crepusculului? Cu un ochi nu vede dec\u00e2t lumin\u0103. Iovciulescu i-a gre\u015fit opera\u0163ia. Olteanu \u00eel trimite la Viena. Acum tr\u0103ie\u015fte numai ce se stinge. Dac\u0103 a\u015f \u015fti c\u0103 se afl\u0103 undeva, c\u00e2t de departe, a\u015f face orice s\u0103 ajung p\u00e2n\u0103 acolo, s\u0103-l mai v\u0103d o dat\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103 vorbesc cu el. Dar cine \u015ftie ce are mama s\u0103-i spun\u0103. Pentru cine ar juca P\u00e2rvan Laus Daedali?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Invitat\u0103 s\u0103 ia parte la adunarea general\u0103 \u00een care se comenta noua lege privind p\u0103m\u00e2nturile, \u00eentorc\u00e2ndu-se acas\u0103, mama afl\u0103 c\u0103, \u00eentre timp, i-au fost t\u0103ia\u0163i prunii din gr\u0103din\u0103. Uite-o cum mai pl\u00e2nge, bine c\u0103 lacrimile sunt de post \u015fi nu se spurc\u0103 acum \u00een P\u0103resimi. Oficialit\u0103\u0163ile sus\u0163in c\u0103 trei pruni (trunchiurile au fost \u00eengropate de f\u0103ptuitori). Mama demonstreaz\u0103 c\u0103 au fost 24 de pruni, \u00een mai multe feluri, cu martori sau \u00eentreb\u00e2nd de ce au trebuit patru care pentru a-i transporta \u015fi de ce nu i-au l\u0103sat prunii \u2013 legea pedepse\u015fte t\u0103ierea pomilor fructiferi \u2013 dintre ace\u015ftia, cei mai mul\u0163i pu\u015fi cu doi-trei ani \u00een urm\u0103, iar cei 24 de pruni t\u0103ia\u0163i parc\u0103 erau osta\u015fi pe c\u00e2mpul de lupt\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dac\u0103 a\u015f fi eu haita \u015fi a\u015f sf\u00e2\u015fia fe\u0163ele Bucure\u015ftiului \u00eemprim\u0103v\u0103rate sub strea\u015fina soarelui, a\u015f vrea s\u0103 mai fiu \u015fi unul dintre h\u0103itui\u0163i venind dintr-o iarn\u0103 r\u0103zboinic\u0103. S\u0103-nchin armele la fe\u0163ele dumneavoastr\u0103. Eu cre\u015ftin n-am omor\u00e2t. \u015ei vom c\u00e2nta pe o pung\u0103 cu bani. La poalele codrului e-un sultan. Mi s-a ar\u0103tat Socrate. \u00cencepe ziua ap\u0103r\u0103rii.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pe \u00eentinderea Cur\u0163ii Vechi spre miaz\u0103zi iar se d\u0103r\u00e2ma la cobor\u00e2rea amurgului. Parc\u0103 zidul coboar\u0103 din palma crucii, nu c\u0103 o poart\u0103. Bat venele tactul. Frumoas\u0103 turl\u0103 deasupra ta, Pann. Acoperi\u015furile lunec\u0103 din ce \u00een ce spre sf\u00e2r\u015fitul ora\u015fului. Sunt c\u00e2mpuri neprih\u0103nit de \u00eentinse unde nici aripi de flutur nu se poticnesc ci abia semin\u0163ele de se \u00eengroap\u0103. Cioc\u0103nitoarea bate \u00eentr-un copac nev\u0103zut. S\u0103 fie dumnezeul rudelor sale. Cel de acela\u015fi neam cu p\u0103rin\u0163ii mei. Ci c\u00e2ntecu p\u0103s\u0103rilor s\u0103 ne fi transformat \u00een lunci. Ochi deschis mai n\u0103praznic dec\u00e2t un balaur v\u0103rs\u0103tor de foc.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0103 tem de \u00eenv\u0103\u0163\u0103tur\u0103 ca \u015fi de instincte, de cultur\u0103 ca \u015fi de noutate, de rom\u00e2nesc ca \u015fi de nerom\u00e2nesc. M\u0103 tem de miciun\u0103, nu \u015fi de mincino\u015fi. Sunt lene\u015f pentru c\u0103 mi-e team\u0103 s\u0103 fiu rob. M\u0103 tem s\u0103 nu m\u0103 \u00eenfurii, mi-e team\u0103 s\u0103 nu se team\u0103 cineva de mine. Ce-mi doresc, cu team\u0103 desigur, este o priveli\u015fte, mereu aceea\u015fi pe c\u00e2t de necunoscut\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 E, c\u00e2nd s-a pr\u0103bu\u015fit, \u00eentr-o noapte, eram to\u0163i str\u00e2n\u015fi \u00een curtea aceea mare. De unde v\u0103 nimerea\u0163i a\u015fa deodat\u0103 to\u0163i, \u00een fapt de noapte, s\u0103 ie\u015fi\u0163i voi din case pe vremea aceea, sau venea\u0163i de pe front? Ce se \u00eent\u00e2mp\u0103, trupul morarului se zv\u00e2rcolea acolo, sub gard, iar departe se auzea moara lui, iar noi aveam treab\u0103 la moar\u0103. \u015ei a\u0163i plecat la moar\u0103 ca la r\u0103scoal\u0103.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Acum de ce nu v\u0103 r\u0103scula\u0163i? Pentru c\u0103 nu prea v\u0103 mai duce\u0163i nici la moar\u0103? E, \u015fi aprinde\u0163i repede lumina s\u0103 vedem cine l-a omor\u00e2t pe morar c\u0103 nu mai umbl\u0103 moara. Auzi-o. Murise morarul cel vrednic pentru c\u0103 nu mai avea ce m\u0103cina, \u015fi noi am \u00eent\u00e2rziat, chiar cu m\u00e2inile goale. Care goale, nu gemeau tr\u0103i\u015ftile de p\u00e2ini aduse de-a gata din alte p\u0103r\u0163i, sau erau bolovani?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 E, \u015fi am murit \u015fi noi, dar mai r\u0103u ne pare de el c\u0103 a murit atunci. Care b\u0103tr\u00e2ni, unde b\u0103tr\u00e2ni, eu spun s\u0103 mergem s\u0103-l \u00eengrop\u0103m pe morar acum. \u00cen timpul mor\u0163ii sale au venit al\u0163i trei. \u00cei vom \u00eengropa \u00eempreun\u0103 tot acum. \u015ei moara se va auzi tot acum.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S-au dus caprele, \u015fi Ictor, \u015fi \u0162a \u015fi iac\u0103t\u0103 am r\u0103mas noi. Ne \u00eenchipuim c\u0103 am \u00eengropat r\u00e2ndurile de ho\u0163i \u00eembog\u0103\u0163i\u0163i din jaful sfintelor od\u0103jdii. \u015ei ne-a venit a\u015fa s\u0103-l astup\u0103m \u015fi pe morarul venetic, s\u0103-i punem capac de ierburi p\u00e2n\u0103 se face de-al nostru \u015fi se face de lemn tot asemeni piciorului s\u0103u st\u00e2ngul.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O s\u0103 a\u015ftepte s\u0103 horc\u0103i, s\u0103 m\u0103 perpelesc, s\u0103 scuip c\u0103tre cineva pe care ei nu l-au v\u0103zut \u015fi n-au auzit de el, dar se dau \u00een l\u0103turi s\u0103 nu cumva s\u0103 fie vreunul dintre ei. Dac\u0103 le-ar trece prin g\u00e2nd s\u0103 m\u0103 care \u00een moar\u0103… M\u0103 vor p\u0103zi un timp, apoi paznicul pus de ei o s\u0103 adoarm\u0103 \u015fi o s\u0103 se viseze el morar. Atunci s-a terminat cu mine. Dar voi fi departe. C\u00e2t o s\u0103 pot de departe.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Socote\u015fte c\u0103 nu am pe nimeni, doar acest picior de lemn, dac\u0103 \u00eel mai am \u015fi pe acesta. C\u0103 nu am unde m\u0103 \u00eentoarce. \u015ei c\u0103 nu \u015ftiu ce boal\u0103 m\u0103 doboar\u0103 din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd, ca acum. Eu \u015ftiu tot, v\u0103d, aud, simt, \u00eemi fac planuri \u2013 ce-i drept, \u00eenc\u0103 nu o iau din loc s\u0103 le \u00eendeplinesc, ci, cu o nemaipomenit\u0103 chibzuin\u0163\u0103, potrivesc s\u0103 fie totul perfect \u2013 \u00een timp ce, deasupra mea m\u0103 iscodesc fr\u00e2ng\u00e2ndu-\u015fi m\u00e2inile \u015fi schimonosindu-\u015fi fe\u0163ele b\u0103rba\u0163ii, femeile, ba chiar copiii, parc\u0103 ar fi toat\u0103 f\u0103ina \u015fi tot m\u0103laiul m\u0103cinate de mine.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 E limpede, oamenii ace\u015ftia nu meritau s\u0103 m\u0103 apuc eu de mor\u0103rit, s\u0103-mi p\u0103r\u0103sesc vechea ocupa\u0163ie. Mi-a prins cureaua piciorul. Nu mi l-au t\u0103iat apoi oamenii? C\u0103 \u0103ia nu erau doctori, aveau m\u0103\u015fti, asemeni sudorilor sau solda\u0163ilor. M-au am\u0103git cu t\u0103cerea lor a\u015fa cum \u015fi eu \u00eei am\u0103gesc acum cu t\u0103cerea mea, \u00eens\u0103 eu a\u015f vrea s\u0103 vorbesc \u2013 s\u0103 fi vrut \u015fi ei. \u015ei ce le-a\u015f spune?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ia asculta\u0163i aici, dup\u0103 cum vede\u0163i… uita\u0163i-v\u0103 bine… eu… eu… nu sunt… nu mai sunt morar… n-am fost niciodat\u0103 \u015fi nici nu vreau s\u0103 mai fiu… vede\u0163i \u015fi voi… piciorul nu mi l-a prins cureaua… m-am \u00een\u0163epat \u00eentr-un cui ruginit, ro\u015fu ca focul… de ce r\u00e2de\u0163i, doar nu sunte\u0163i doctori… \u015fi ei dau din gur\u0103, \u00eens\u0103 parc\u0103 s-ar teme de mine a\u015fa cum m\u0103 aflu, lat, poate printre b\u0103l\u0103rii \u015fi cioburi de geamuri aruncate la gunoaie… b\u0103tr\u00e2ni, capre, picioare de lemn, altceva nu \u015ftiu b\u0103ie\u0163ii, salvatorii din vremea nou\u0103… v\u0103d c\u0103 de morar nu li se rupe inima, dar moara…<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ei uit\u0103 c\u0103 veneau s\u0103 se \u00eenc\u0103lzeasc\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103 se \u00een\u0163eleag\u0103 \u00een \u015foapt\u0103 aproape c\u00e2nd urletul motorului era mai puternic? Erau destui str\u00e2n\u015fi c\u00e2nd unuia i-a apucat piciorul cureaua. Desigur, cureaua morii mele era \u00een stare s\u0103 f\u0103r\u00e2me picioarele tuturor drume\u0163ilor pe o raz\u0103 de 100 de kilometri. Sau chiar dou\u0103 sute, s\u0103 ajung\u0103 dincolo de Sibiu.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dar eu am t\u0103iat-o \u00een acel moment, cu g\u00e2ndul s\u0103 nu se sf\u0103r\u00e2me nici fluierele b\u0103iatului de o\u0163elul ro\u0163ii unse, cea mai mare roat\u0103 din c\u00e2te s-au pomenit \u00een comun\u0103, chiar dup\u0103 ce au n\u0103p\u0103dit tractoarele peste cote\u0163e \u015fi f\u00e2ne\u0163e. \u015ei moara s-a oprit. Danful de motorin\u0103 ars\u0103 s-a \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftiat peste s\u00e2ngele curs pe cuie ruginite, peste limbile caprelor care meheiau afar\u0103.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Toate aceste personaje vin de undeva de foarte aproape de mine, \u00eenc\u00e2t mi-e imposibil s\u0103 spun un cuv\u00e2nt contra lor, de\u015fi sunt peste poate. M\u0103 dau mai \u00eencolo, dup\u0103 ce m-am l\u0103sat atras de ispita \u00een care m-au chemat, \u015fi ele vin, se \u00eenghesuie dup\u0103 mine, \u00een groap\u0103.<\/div>\n
1971<\/em><\/div>\n
George Anca<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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